he remembered standing right here the night he left , adding the teaspoons to the medicine cabinet bottle , having a belt or two of rye for himself , looking out at the lake , putting the smaller bottle in the medicine cabinet , going upstairs to say goodbye to the kids , coming back down as the phone rang , and he 'd taken the call from the field office , grabbed his coat and his overnight bag and kissed dolores at the door and headed to his car ... .