joe was reminded , not for the first time , that for such a violent business , it was filled with a surprising number of regular guys-men who loved their wives , who took their children on saturday-afternoon outings , men who worked on their automobiles and told jokes at the neighborhood lunch counter and worried what their mothers thought of them and went to church to ask god 's forgiveness for all the terrible things they had to render unto caesar in order to put food on the table .