at a pentecostal tent meeting later that evening , she declared that her decision to wear white had n't been hers at all ; it had been jesus christ 's , to whose teachings she would now be wed. loretta took the stage at the tent in fiddlers cove field that night and she spoke of her descent into the world of vice , of the demons alcohol and heroin and marijuana that had led her there , of wanton fornication that led to prostitution that led to more heroin and nights of such sinful debauchery she knew jesus had blocked them from her memory in order to keep her from taking her own life .