another long pull of the sawteeth across the pink folds of his brain , and teddy had to bite down against a scream and he heard rachel 's screams in there too with the fire and he saw her looking into his eyes and felt her breath on his lips and felt her face in his hands as his thumbs caressed her temples and that fucking saw went back and forth through his head don'ttakethosefuckingpills and he slapped his palm up to his mouth and felt the pills fly back in there and he chased them with water and swallowed , felt them slide down his esophagus and he gulped from the glass until it was empty .