he toppled into luther 's shoulder , and luther reached for him and got his gun instead and smoke kept shooting , and luther raised an arm across his face , as if it could stop the bullets , and he fi red jessie 's .45 and felt the gun jumping in his hand and saw all the dead and blackened and blue from today and heard his own voice yelling , `` no please no please , '' and pictured a bullet hitting each of his eyes and then he heard a scream -- high-pitched and shocked -- and he stopped firing and lowered his arm from his face .