i read a short untitled poem aloud to explore the rhythm of his verse , his direct , protean voice flowing through mine : you are always with me when i lie in bed in the dark when i walk a crowded street when i watch the night sky when i shit when i laugh when i possess them , as you possess me you are omnipotent , but you are n't my god you raised me but did not make me you are gas but not the fire i am deeper i am incalculable i am the two other notebooks contained short stories , brainstorms , and the fragmented thoughts of someone aspiring to write .