the kid took some time considering that , and teddy could feel the previous two years of his life-losing dolores , honing in on laeddis , finding out about this place , stumbling across george noyce and his stories of drug and lobotomy experiments , making contact with senator hurly , waiting for the right moment to cross the harbor like they 'd waited to cross the english channel to normandy-all of it hanging in the balance of this kid 's pause .