i parked at his hotel and went with him up to his room , just to make sure he was okand of course because my historians curiosity was now whetted to the full it felt like it could be a big story , a new angle to the history of the nazi occupationhe sobered up just a little after an hour or too , and then he told me that he had worked for the nazis to sin against the nation and against god and that he feared death greatly i suddenly realise that i am holding my breath .