i had to turn my back to him to shield the matches from the general stir in the air , looked at the wall corner , brick into brick , thought maybe if i spun around , maybe if i jabbed the cigarette at his eye i could squirm outi even thought he might shoot me still , but maybe thats the thing , let him shoot me and hell have to run off , i should just grab at him so i get shot in the leg , then hed have to run off .