i got to a knee , trying to force down the vomit that was rising and it was then i made out that he was screaming , high pitched , rusted yarls , screaming and shaking where he stood , pointing at me , stabs of pointing at me with each repetition of his yelling thats kaspar thats kaspar thats kaspar thats kaspar thats kaspar thats kaspar thats kaspar thats kaspar thats kaspar thats kaspar thats kaspar thats kaspar thats kaspar thats kaspar thats kaspar thats kaspar thats kaspar .