i even thought i should do a little game of pretending id just remembered about my phone , give it to himbut then this would seem crazy , hed think it was a trick or that id already used the phoneor even just knowing that id been thinking about it , that i thought about the phone in terms of escape , this would put thoughts in his head and the next place we went or right in this booth the handclap of that little gun of his would burn through me .