so whenever someone had asked her how things were , and whenever she had lied to them and said that she was fine , that cameron was fine , that yes , they were happy- whenever she had said these things and heard her voice uttering these words , words that were not her own , she had felt ever more detached from her own identity ; ever more powerless to change her situation ; ever more duty-bound to render those words true : for whatever else she was , she was no liar .