i looked at the shins of my pants and the tops of my shoes , found they had new wets of vomit on them , tried to get my chin in toward my chest enough to see if id made a mess all down myself , tried to see was the officer dirtied , but my eyes just up down up down up down started looking at the carpet , looking at the carpet , looking at the carpet , at the change when there was a light fixture and when there wasnt .