for carver , he had been working hard on the skyscraper project for weeks on end now without a break ; an evening off and a few drinks would provide a pleasant interlude , even if his curiosity about the detention camps was not satisfied , and , although he hardly dared admit it to himself at the time , when he had looked into the tearful eyes of the korean man standing in front of him , he had been aware of some of those peculiar emotions stirring within him again .