not in the way that it perhaps happens for other people : i hadnt just been dumped by my boyfriend ; i hadnt suddenly lost my job ; indeed , viewed purely superficially , from the outside , i am sure that i would have appeared to most people , not entirely unlike so many of the other young , successful , independent-minded , beautiful , business women who donned their armani and donna karan suits each morning and disappeared into one of the many buildings that make up the financial metropolis of wall street .