i wanted to stop , to let him know id even just sit and wait , but his focus wasnt so intent that id been forgottenit seemed just the opposite , he took me by the wrist and we walked up the carpeted steps , turned down a corridor , the light seeping out from under a door , seeming fresh , somehow , it looked like a light just suddenly turned up , had a blinking quality to it , not yet sure it would have to stay , thinking maybe it could go black again , sleep .