i got myself smiling , genuinely felt in a good mood , went into a franchise restaurant , got a table , ordered an appetizer , a meal , some coffee , a glass of wine , even apologizing to the waitress for my appearance , telling her id had an awful time of it all day , to which she smiled , said i didnt look so bad and i had to stop myself from responding to her because i would have flirted and shed not said it to flirt .