i already felt dirty again , most especially where i had scrubbed , was keenly aware of the accumulation of layers of old perspiration all over me , covered my face and breathed out long into the hands cupped , plugging my mouth , felt some breath get out over my cheeks , some up the curves of my nose , some warming my palm , moistening it , being sucked back in a moment , breathed right back out , again , new spots escaping , the same spot shuttled back and forth .