very unfashionable , of course , this cherry-ripe , strength-through-joy complexion , and i had even stopped using lipstick and nail polish , but to me it had been like sloughing off a borrowed skin and getting back into my own , and i was childishly happy and pleased with myself whenever i looked in the mirror ( that 's another thing-i 'll never say `` looking-glass '' again ; i just do n't have to any more ) and found myself not wanting to paint a different face over my own .