they were bottom feeder directors , ben knew that , he was not new to the dinner-they drugged and drank their chances away , always fighting the system and success-and he knew they undoubtedly worsened their own chances because of an uncanny fear of success , of happiness , of finally having no one to blame , but acting like theyd done nothing to bring failure and raging waters their way , and they were the ones ben thought of often when he thought about giving up .