panic took a choke hold on his throat as he turned and lunged toward the rear of the car oh sweet jesus he didnt want to die he was too young and he hadnt really begun to live so he couldnt die now oh please not now not now but the film student was there , half in , half out of a crouch and he slammed against her , knocking her over , and they both went down , sandy landing on top as they hit the floor .