josh freeman was dealing with his own dilemma.at the age of forty-five , he was still basically a ditch digger.it wasnt that his new irrigation business was not doing well ; it was just that digging in the dirt was his least favorite job.josh had been in the dirt in some form or fashion all his life , and the substance was now his biggest nemesis.he quietly wished he had never tried to dive into self-employment , and now felt stuck in the proverbial mud .