take care , '' carol concluded.she hung up the phone and stared at the mess on her desk.on her best day , this would have been a lot to handle.today , she could not organize a single thought.carol decided to do what everyone else did at newberg mental health.she sorted through papers and moved files from one place to another until it was time to go home.no one came in to see if she was alive or dead.she was grateful for their apathy.she was not yet able to explain her situation to herself , much less to anyone else.carol watched the building clear from her office window.when she was sure she could stagger out to her car unnoticed , she turned off the light and went home .