this whole experience had shown her a side of life she had never known existed.for all of its victims , sedative withdrawal had not just been a horrendous illness.it had also robbed them of their dignity and their identity.it was not only the loss of ones ability to think and function , it was also the loss of that which had made them who they were.carol did not fully understand the void she felt.it was her spirit , or perhaps her soul that felt empty.the spark that had made her who she was was missing.she continued each day to be carol from memory only .