but up until that point , marty pauses , as he often does , not for effect or even to collect his thoughts , but rather through some kind of internal anti-rhythm , a tic that has him look at the dry erase board over on one wall , festooned with everyones names , up until that point , though , there was a bunch of speculation about - is the church involved , how heavily is our government involved , uh , are there other countries involved .