i dont mean like im suicidal or anything or even all that depressed , i just mean , he again frantically scrubs at his forehead , scrambling still to verbalize the precise sentiment , its likethe whole time you walk around thinking youre a pretty intelligent person whos got the world by the balls , but recentlymaybe ive had this revelation that theres actually nothing in this life i do particularly well , theres nothing that sets me apart from anyone else .