as i sat there in the home of a man i did n't know , who 'd given me a place to stay without a second thought , after the tortuous encounter with a man who i also did not know , but seemed to only desire for me the worst waking moments that could be imagined i felt , in that very moment , like those crew members sharing a quiet , pleasant , satisfying moment or their pilot remembering how his wife , thousands of miles away , was the only home he 'd truly ever known .