i fight , and dig deeper , i 'm almost to the finish line now , and i wo n't be stopped , it 's just up in sight , that magic tape will be mine , and i will finally achieve another goal , that few thought could be done , welcome to the darkest part of my mind , and soul , be set for a bumpy ride , it 's gon na be a long few days april 22 , 2012 where do the hours go , where do the days fly , you wake up one morning , and it 's been 10 years , another morning , youre driving , and a third , you can legally drink , what did you do in those short years , that seemed to pass , in the overnight hours , could you say that if it all ended tomorrow , you would be perfectly fine , knowing that you did n't do , everything you wanted to , knowing that you turned into , something that youre not proud of , that the demon that is harbored in your heart , is controlling you , when you wake up tomorrow , can you re-take your heart , and turn yourself into something , that is worthwhile , take the road , and become the person , that you were always meant to be , i ca n't help , but ask , wake up tomorrow , be the person , be the best , do n't fear , and be afraid , because the unknown , that youre scared of , could turn into your home , april 23 , 2012 the road is a rough ride , that asks for your heart and soul , every time you walk onto the asphalt , when you leave , there 's a part of you left behind , that does n't seem to want to leave , you live so much of your life , on the road , that you forget what a home , your home looks like , but it 's okay because the road is your home , or your own personal hell , either way you ca n't seem to decide , it 's something that you 've asked yourself , what got you into this in the first place , what got you into doing this , leaving so much of yourself behind , can you continue to do that , until there 's nothing left of you to give , until there 's nothing left for you to be , and you become nothing more than a shell , of the human being you once were , letting the life you chose , define you , rather than defining it , this life will chew you up , and spit you out , and when it 's all said and done , this life , will leave you on the side of the road you call home , looking like nothing more , then a sorry pile , of road kill april 24 , 2012 blank paper , calling my name , and wishing to be written , and tamed , my brain screams no , but my hands write , and write , until they bleed , it 's almost as if , my brain shuts down , and my heart takes over , but when i come to , there 's something in front of me , written , and it 's lovely , almost melodic , but it 's then i have realized , that this piece , that i so desperately wanted to write , will become my last piece , for the blood that was on my hand , came from my wrist , as my brain shut down , my need to be remembered took over , and wrote a final note , telling the world how i loved them , and hoped that they would remember me now , april 25 , 2012 elaborate is the world we live in , elaborate is the entire fabric we make up , the world as it exist not as it once did , but as something far more complicated now , the people , and the things in it , are far more complicated , the world we live in , in 2012 , is a far cry from that of the early settlers , of the cavemen , but does anyone else see the change , for the people , at least at this time the changes are for the better , for earth however , these changes keep sucking the life out of her , does this mean we 're on a fast track , to a doomsday countdown , that so many have predicted or are we just going to end up killing ourselves , with overuse , and problems that we continue to create , the world is more elaborate now , there 's no denying that , and it 's man 's fault , but when you look at it , because of that built deliverance , man has become far more stupid , than in any age before .