while i am adept of the philosophy of always aiming for a higher level than the one you usually can achieve and forcing yourself to become the worker to perform it properly rather than dumbing down the product so you can manufacture it with the means you have at the moment , i simply can not release the story i actually want to finish because it is a good concept that deserves a better execution than i can provide now : if i let it out as it is , id be better off just releasing it as an outline and letting other people fill the blanks or write it for/along with me .