he asked , no contempt , or even remorse in his voice , i was repulsed , even i knew he was lying , i was disappointed in myself , it was here i stopped thinking , of this man as me , she started crying , i 've caught you twice , you did n't even realize it , i did n't want to believe it , but you did it , and i 'm tired of pretending that we 're fine , i 'm done she screamed , and stormed off , he sat back down , no attempt to chase her , no attempt to try , and continued eating , i froze , and time shot forward , a glance at the clock told me it was now 12:30 , and he was gone , i went rolling through the house , i found him in the bedroom , in the arms of a new woman , i saw the look in his eyes , no love , just lust , they did what they set out to do , and she left , he poured himself a shot , and picked up her picture , from the bedside table , he downed the glass , and pours himself another , without thinking , i turn to look at the calendar , it read january 12th , time froze again , and when i opened my eyes the calendar now read , march 16th , i noticed the man , passed out on the bed , and a collection of bottles on his table , all emptied , he stirs and wakes , he stumbles to the closet , and puts on a suit , in his drunken stupor , he leaves , i follow him to the door , but before i can go further , i found a note on the table , gone to her funeral , i hope you can make it , i know you blame yourself , but she would have wanted you there .