warring emotion flickered across her face like an old-time movie reel : happy confidence in the allure of renting used shoes and heaving a weighted ball down a slick pathway at a bunch of skinny pins , exhilaration at being in charge of the festivities , and deep downsurfacing in the dilation of her pupils and the slight quivering of her lipfear that shed screwed up , that people would laugh , that shed been a fool .