i 'll never understand why , but do we ever , either way , she picked me , and life was great , if only for a while , she had no way of knowing , it 's something that i tell myself , if i did n't , then i would go insane , which may be the best alternative , then again , maybe not , and in reality i 'm going crazy , just thinking about it makes my head spin , let me sit down here , it 's crazy , talking to myself like this , but this too , is something that i continue to do a lot more lately , but it 's not like anyone can hear me , except for myself , and the other half of me that i 'm sure is starting to develop , what 's new ?