it read , 'for natasha with luv ' , not love , 'l ' , 'o ' , 'v ' , 'e ' , you know , '' she spelled it out `` but 'l ' , 'u ' , 'v ' , the way teenagers text each other , '' she looked over at me , her guilt imploring me to understand why she had n't checked the damn thing herself before handing it over to thirteen-year-old natasha .