so jac hoped that if he fumbled around vaguely in the opening minutes , beaton might let it slip but thered been several anxious , scrambling moments before he finally did , beaton eyeing him as if he was some sort of alien bug as jac explained about the differing accounts between the prison guards and durrant giving haveling pause for thought , and , in turn , haveling asking jac to maintain secrecy until hed decided which account had the most validity .