now , it was not a question of trust but survival instincts ; while she could be just going out to bowl on a regular basis or a similar activity , my teacher most likely was going after something related to supernatural forces ( and the probability of that only increased when i considered the constrained timeframe she had , having a day job and spending time with me most of her nights ) and if that was the case , were my presence discovered i would not only expect but hope shed attack me .