for example after attempting suicide of nar just for a show , she persistently kisses me casting herself a wife role by the word of nechayevturning this suicide school into just like a church that marry us nechayevs consecrating both of us as a churchman and preparing a future for us pretending as fatherly as he can , even though he is a murderer and savage that tries to tear down istanbul and ready to kill millions of people in one go i throw away nar with the last power hidden in my arm .