# 2 been so long since i last sat , listened to myself , thought of melooked at me , wrote about it but today , i sat , sat , and satlistened to me , thought of me , looked at me , and now , ill write about it im tired of this : -the fake smile , the hidden tear , the hypocritical laughter , the cold hug tonight , im letting go the fake smileim ready for afrown that hidden tear ; finally , ill shed itand not feel ashamed about it i dont have to laughto hell with hypocrisy and no , no more hugs , no holding hands , no more kissesno more of anything i admit that tonight , itll be hard to fall asleep coz im still scared-scared that ill have you next to me in my dreams so ill have to sitsit all night longwith this frown on my pretty face ; tears begging to be shed , letting the laughter die , and hugging myselfas i hug goodbye to my yesterday , and await for a better tomorrow 'i dont screw my protges . '