selah regretted how harsh she had been with him , thomas im sorry , since mom died i have a hole you know and i realize i miss some female conversations , my friends are all guys , i live with guys , when mia asked me if i wanted to go thomas hadnt thought about selah and her moms relationship suddenly it made a lot of sense for her to want to be with them , sorry sel , sometimes i dont think you knowi just miss you and when you agreed to go with them , i felt betrayedlike i didnt matter anymore .