i think of when he shielded me from levi last night when we first awkwardly met and how protective he was , i grow frustrated as i strive to decipher my own emotions towards him , as beautiful and dark and fierce as he is , i still manage to be drawn to others to levi , not in the same way , but there is something similar about the connection , he excites me and makes me laugh , he pulls me out of my own emotions and thoughts and makes me enjoy the little things more , i find him attractive as well , but not in the intense , drowning way i find ephraim attractive .