i lift my chin from my lap staring at preacher-man as he moves his arms and fingers then ponder how the entire clan acquired the disease since im not a physician and dont plan to become one actually i dont plan to become nothing but a farmer as i softly giggle then wonder if theres cure being developed with the newer medical research but beck told me that plans to be a doctor for that very reason as i jiggle my numb butthole on the overstuffed velveteen padded bench .