there had been one brief moment when he had seen lizzie that he had faltered ; had longed to reach out to her but that feeling had passed , washed away on a wave of yearning as he was enveloped once more by the sweet smell of flowers and although he could still feel that tiny flicker of remorse buried within him it was now quickly being smothered as the rush of energy flowed through him , washing away all the fear , the hurt , the guilt , that had been eating away at him for years .