i return eyeballs to the steering wheel then double check all three rear-view windows snapping my neck muscles left backing out the gravel then do a three-point turn pathing down a bumpy gray pavement towards the highway then turn right as i travel at 20 mph in silence for.1 seconds then 2 seconds then 10 seconds then 15 minutes as i pull into the driveway of the warfield manor parking in my usual spot on the other side of the six-garage doors leaving the car idol then i eye burn cinta holding both my fury and disappointment .