i look at him and decide to really try i dont want to hurt my mouth to hone in and focus , so i decide to start with the basics , i shut my eyes and try to think of nothing , then remember i need to ask about a store to find sasha her favorite foods , then i wonder if levi has a washing machine i can use or if i will have to learn to hand wash my new clothes , my eyebrow creases as my eyes are closed and he laughs thats not what a blank mind looks like at all .