but then he looked up at me and he smiled , a big wide smile , and i smiled back and i ran down to see him and i wanted to hug him and even kiss him but his mum and tessa were right there and i knew josh would never let me live it down if i did anything , so instead i shyly took cupcakes lead rope from him , but he didnt let go , and the two of us walked cupcake up to the shed together .