she thought of her mom ; her faceless father who only existed on theresas story ; she thought of the moment theresa told her the story about tatiana , how she escaped black kingdom and married the prince of white kingdom and gave birth to victorias father ; she also thought of the day she became a wirth ; she thought of thayer and his house which pretended to live in a private location inside the forest , looking so safe and anonymous , the smothered house which no longer felt anonymous or safe ; she thought of the place which felt as if staying there was like staying in a torturing jail place ; she thought of how the place she was in now no longer felt like a place of learning but a place wherein shell be buried dead ; victoria went back on her fathers thought again , of how it would feel to stay and live with him as she grows older ; she thought of how sad it was when she never had any chance to live with him ; she thought of having him in her memory would be a symbol of being strong ; she thought of how her father died in the arms of black wirths ; she thought of living , of fighting for her family , of protecting everyone she loves .