but the thought just jogged through his mind like a sea horse in a turbulent surf , no , his emotion was more like a load of laundry going around which he was anxious to put in the dryer , but he was forced to wait : if hoang-ha and tien had been at a picnic where emotional disturbance was like disturbance by yellow jackets , then anxiety as a side effect of the medication they took felt like a tractor on a hay ride on itchy hay .