instead i had a dream of jericha trapped in a box that was slowly going to crush her , like that trash compacter in star wars , and i was on the outside and there were all these buttons and switches , but everything i touched just made the machine go faster , and jericha was screaming , and i worked faster and faster but everything was in a different language and i was expected to learn to read it before jericha got crushed and i woke up so frustrated at myself that the entire rest of the day i felt like a failure .