she says again but this time in a way that asks me to look at her and i do and she stops angharrad at the edge of the square and she 's looking at me , looking right into my eyes- and i read her- and i know exactly what she 's thinking- and my noise and my heart and my head fill up fit to burst , fill up like i 'm gon na explode- cuz she 's saying- she 's saying with her eyes and her face and her whole self- `` i know , '' i say back to her , my voice husky .