running thru my noise and i remember how she cried out when she was hit and then the silence that followed and the few words i 've been able to get from her since but still barely nothing compared with how she used to be and if she wants to eat then i 'm damned if i 'm not gon na feed her and this annoying little pigpiss needs to get it for me cuz i am the circle and the circle is me- `` i 'll get it for you , '' he says- and he 's looking at me- and he ai n't blinking- and i can feel something twisting , some winding curling invisible cord in the air- and it 's twixt my noise and his noise- and there 's a little buzz- `` i 'll go get it right now , '' he says , not blinking .