but it 's too much , the pain takes my legs from me and i topple back in the mud and i just lay there pulled tight from it all and struggling to breathe and my mind goes all woozy and hot and in my noise i 'm running and i 'm running and i 'm running towards nothing and i 'm hot all over and i 'm sweating and i 'm running in my noise and i can hear ben from behind the trees and i 'm running towards him and he 's singing the song , he 's singing the song from my bedtimes , the song that 's for boys and not men but when i hear it my heart stretches and it 's early one morning just as the sun was rising .