manchee shouts and off he goes , jumping off the trail , no matter how loud i yell after him , and off i have to go , too , across the ( i look round to make sure i 'm alone ) goddam fields cuz cillian 'll have a fit if manchee falls down some goddam snake hole and of course it 'll be my own goddam fault even tho i never wanted the goddam dog in the goddam first place .