i ca n't see what he 's holding , but he 's bringing something towards me , towards my face , something hard and metal and filled with pain and ready to make me suffer and end my life and there 's a hole inside me that i need to crawl into , away from all this , down deep and black , and i know this is the end , the end of all things , i can never escape from here and he 'll kill me and kill her and there 's no chance , no life , no hope , nothing .