he 'd want me safe , first of everything- todd would want a world that was safe for me- he would , i know he would- even if he was n't in it- but he 's still down there in the middle of the battle- still down there alone with the fire coming at him- and the fact i ca n't get out of my head , peace or not , is what i also know to be true- true but not right- true but so dangerous- which is that if they kill him- if they hurt him- then there wo n't be enough weapons on this ship for all the spackle who 'll have to pay .