i gasp from the coolness of it and jerk away from his hands but he keeps pressing it gently into the lump on my forehead and onto the wounds on my face and chin , his body so close i can smell it , the cleanliness of it , the woody odour of his soap , the breath from his nose brushing over my cheek , his fingers touching my cuts almost tenderly , dressing the swelling round my eyes , the splits on my lip , and i can feel the bandages get to work almost instantly , feel the swelling going right down , the painkillers flooding into my system , and i think for a second how good the bandages are in haven , how much like her bandages , and the relief comes so quick , so unexpected that my throat clenches and i have to swallow it away .