-aesthesia , firm place to stand table of contents chapter one monsters , shackles , and pancakes chapter two airborne anti-psychotics chapter three adolescent rascality chapter four infinite whiteness chapter five sweet dreams , angela dawson chapter six butterflies and cockroaches chapter seven jealous little hamster chapter eight wardrobe malfunction chapter nine burning chapter ten lava chapter eleven jaloux petit hamster , reprise chapter twelve shrinking affection chapter thirteen surprise , darling chapter fourteen in honor of angela dawson chapter fifteen quake chapter sixteen in honor of edward stein chapter seventeen effective chapter eighteen sand castles chapter nineteen the bond chapter twenty lily of the valley chapter twenty-one the lost generation chapter one monsters , shackles , and pancakes i awoke suddenly to a loud screeching directly in my right ear .