and the mayor 's just staring at me , staring into my noise , and words form in my brain , please do n't hurt her said in my voice and his voice all twisted together , pressing down on the things i think , the things i know and it 's different from the noise slap , this voice pokes around where i do n't want him , trying to open locked doors and turn over stones and shine lights where they should n't never be shone and all the while saying please do n't hurt her and i can feel myself starting to want to tell ( ocean ) , starting to want to unlock those doors ( the ocean ) , starting to want to do just exactly what he says , cuz he 's right , he 's right about everything and who am i to resist- `` she do n't know nothing , '' i say , my voice wobbly , almost gasping .