in her noise- `` it 's okay , girl , '' i lie- cuz here they are- gunfire erupts everywhere , like a flock of birds taking off- arrows zing thru the air- the spackle fire their sticks- and before i can even have a thought , a soldier in front of me staggers back with a weird fizzing sound- grasping at his throat- which ai n't there no more- and i ca n't take my eyes off him as he stumbles to his knees- and there 's blood just everywhere , all over him , real blood , his blood , so much i can smell the iron tang of it- and he 's looking up at me- catching my eyes and holding 'em- and his noise- my god his noise- and i 'm suddenly in it , inside what he 's thinking , and there 's pictures of his family , pictures of his wife and his baby son and he 's trying to hold onto 'em but his noise is breaking into bits and his fear is pouring thru like a bright red light and he 's reaching for his wife , he 's reaching for his little bitty son- and then a spackle arrow hits him in the ribcage- and his noise stops- and i 'm jerked back onto the battlefield- back into hell- keep it together , todd !