and holds her there- and holds her there- he looks up to the mirror where he knows we 're watching- he smiles at us- and still holds her there- the water churns with the limited thrashing she can do- i am the circle and the circle is me , i think , closing my eyes- `` open them , todd , '' the mayor says- i do- and still mr. hammar holds her there- the thrashing gets worse- so hard the binds on her wrists start to bleed- `` jesus , '' davy says , under his breath- `` he 's gon na kill her , '' i say , voice still low- it 's only a vid- it 's only a vid- ( except it ain't- ) ( feeling nothing- ) ( cuz i 'm dead- ) ( i 'm dead- ) the mayor leans past me and presses a button on the wall .