she rears up and i see viola grab the reins , surprised , holding on for dear life- and then i see the mayor is walking forward and forward and forward- his eyes on the men he 's attacking- coming past me- and i do n't even think- i leap from the ground to stop him- and he turns and sends his noise straight at me- the world goes all bright , terribly , painfully bright , like every-one can see how much you hurt , everyone watching and laughing and nowhere to hide and yer nothing yer nothing yer nothing all bound up tight like a bullet right thru you , telling you everything that 's wrong with you , everything you ever done bad in yer life , telling you yer worthless , yer dirt , yer nothing , yer life ai n't got no point nor reason nor purpose and you should just tear down the walls of yerself , ripping apart who you are and either die or give it up as a gift , as a gift to the one who can save you , as a gift to the man who can control you , who can take it all away , who can make everything fine fine fine- but not even noise can stop a body when it 's moving .