he forgives me for all of it , tells me i do n't even need to be forgiven , tells me i did the best i could , that i made mistakes but that 's what makes me human and that it 's not the mistakes i made but how i responded to 'em and i can feel it from him , feel it from his noise , telling me how i can stop now , how everything 's gon na be all right- and i realize he ai n't telling me with words .