i yell again and i reach him and his noise opens even farther and wraps around me like a blanket and i 'm grabbing him to me , grabbing him to me like i 'll never let him go and he calls out in pain but his other arm is grabbing me back , it 's grabbing me back , it 's grabbing me back- `` i thought you were dead , '' he 's saying , his breath on my neck .