`` to have ye with me again-to talk wi ' you-to know i can say anything , not guard my words or hide my thoughts-god , sassenach , '' he said , `` the lord knows i am lust-crazed as a lad , and i canna keep my hands from you-or anything else- '' he added , wryly , `` but i would count that all well lost , had i no more than the pleasure of havin ' ye by me , and to tell ye all my heart . ''