i stuff my dripping useless unhappy sad emotions into my moon crater-holed heart , eye burning the grass as i stumble left foot , right foot , and left foot then park beside six feet and two-inched with blonde cropped hair , pale skin , and baby blue-eyed busy wolf as six feet and four-inched , blonde , tanned , baby blue-eyed bossy mccamy updates in his slo mo baritone trombone into my overcrowded mind .