the loud music captures my eardrums as swift movement entertains my eyeballs and my mind drifts toward the tv screen as wolf replays the scratchy video of baycliff/tiger twirling me/chick around in circles as we chop , dice , slice , kick , and kill to stay alive at last nights death competition as i neck snap my skull to the rattling van doors , closing my eyelashes and sigh then breathe , deeply .