the sky shows me comfort in his voice , as do all of the land around us , until i find i am swimming in a river of voices reaching out and touching mine to soothe it and calm it , and i have never felt so much a part of the land , i have never felt so at home , so comforted , so at one with the single joined voice of the land- and i blink as i realize that this only happens when i feel so much pain i forget myself .