but the clearing has much to answer for , the sky says , and his noise shows us a picture of the one who ran at us with a blade , the one with the band on his arm , the one that todd knew- and there 's feeling behind it , communicated directly as feeling , outside of language , feelings of terrible sadness , not for us , not for the interruption to the peace talks , but for the one who attacked us , sadness coming now with images of the spackle genocide , images of 1017 surviving it and finding the rest of the spackle , feelings of how damaged he is , how damaged we made him- `` i 'm not excusing that , '' i interrupt , `` but that was n't us . ''