he is n't the same todd whose thoughts spilled out all over the place in a big , colourful mess , the one who could n't tell a lie if his life depended on it , who did n't tell a lie when his life did depend on it , the todd that saved my life more than once , in more than one way , that todd who i could hear every uncomfortable thought of , who i could count on , who i knew- who i- `` i ai n't changed , '' he says .