i could sit here and tell you it will all be better but that would be a lie , i could tell you exactly what you are and what you going through but that would be an even bigger lie.the truth is mr cairo , i have just scratched the surface of what we are , and the reality is we are monsters , but we are not only monsters we are also human , and one thing about human beings mr cairo is our tenacity to never give up.i know what you are going through is pain staking and excruciating , trust me ive been there , but it is up to you mr cairo , to give in and embrace what you have become and push your abilities as far as they can go , not only for yourself but for science !