i 'm just wondering if it were possible that you did know that gladia was regularly engaging in sex with jander , that you knew that you would never be accepted as her lover as long as that was so , that you wanted her , so much that you would stop at nothing to eliminate jander , that , in short , you were so jealous that you - `` and at that moment , gremionis - as though some tightly coiled spring , held back with difficulty for some minutes , had suddenly twitched loose - hurled himself at baley with a loud and incoherent cry .