i had never seen him cry like he was crying then , as he said my name , as he tried to elicit some response from me , but as i just sat , still as the dead , eyes as blank as hers , as he felt in my heart every part of me falling away , every piece of the person i had been before that momentthat ultimate , horrific momentdissolve , and when time had passed , and they tried to take her from my arms , he got his response .