in the dream , she looks at me , her eyes fill with tears until there are so many that they spill over to flow down her cheeks , and for a long time , i hold her gaze , and she holds mine , and then , almost as though she hears something or someone outside , she looks back out the window , and the scene seems to reset itself , except i am still standing there , unnerved and shaken to a point so deep , i never knew it was there .