whatever was going on around me faded away , and all i could hear was the sound of my heartso frantic , so alivehammering inside of my ears , echoing through every corridor of my skull , reminding me that i had survived , for now , but they had killed him if they had started from the other end of the line , it would have been janna , adam , and me , and he would have survived , and i knew how he would have cried ; i had heard it .