it wasnt just us and our children there anymore , though ; when our second family was alive , we envisioned them there with us , and now that they were gone , i pictured john , elijah , and whomever they loved there with us , and alice pictured lara there , but the base dream was still alive and well , growing and throbbing inside our bodies like an extra , infallible organ that pumped our blood faster and made our minds and hearts thrive .