even when she feared that she would never be able to acclimate to that lifeand that fear grew with each year that passed , with each year that she stormed around pangaea , leading an army of elite super-soldiers , killing and capturing , and carrying the flag of the red anarchy , giving talks at schools to little girls and boys about how dons soldiers were the best in the world , how they would keep them safe , telling older girls and boys about why the armed forces was right for everyone , in some way , how they can use everyone , even the meek , the quiet , the shy , the scaredshe still remembered the log cabin , and she wanted it .