i remembered it , even after all the nights of her crying or screaming or both , when we were attacked at home in luna moors , and the lord of war was eviscerating everything in his path , and when we were hiding , waiting for the moment he found us and killed us or worse , she stood up , hands in the air , and began to limp towards him , and john , fighting her influence over his mind , was trying to scream out to her , trying to get to her , but she let the lord of war take her away , back to tyre , who had never stopped tearing the world apart to find her , to find his fallen woman .