i squeezed my closed eyes shut a little harder , as though snapping the lens of a camera down to take a picture , and sure enough , when i opened my eyes , their faces were cemented in my memory , as if i truly needed them to be ; i recognized all of them by face , and the one i knew by name , the one who was jamess best friend , the one whom even violet had known , was not that drunk and was not high at all like the rest of them .