as i held her in my arms that last night , i tried to imagine what life would be like without her , for at last there had come to me the realization that i loved herloved my little barbarian ; and as i finally tore myself away and went to my own hut to snatch a few hours sleep before we set off upon our long journey on the morrow , i consoled myself with the thought that time would heal the wound and that back in my native land i should find a mate who would be all and more to me than little ajor could ever bea woman of my own race and my own culture .