she felt that maybe if she made a better choice to be somebody like her siblings and like her parents pushed her towards , she would not be in the predicament she is in now , a thirty-odd year old woman , single , childless , and having been arrested and convicted of aggravated assault with a deadly weapon , now being taken to the mexican border under order of deportation because of some mix-up in paperwork she does not understand and despite her pleas that she is a citizen , her lack of proper identification resulted in the border patrol being forced to carry out their order .