she was standing in front of the mirror motionless , be in a state of shock , during long seconds what she was feeling like these would be minutes , then put so much foundation like a plaster-work , to her wrinkles , in panic , with trembling buy the tiredness and by being at the imminent of snapping , and when it came into her head that laurence maybe didnt even want to meet her at all anymore , her tears washed her make-up down .