a torrent of sound exploded through my mind : violets screams , the whoops and taunts and encouragements of the men watching , the disgusting mans own words her eyes had been fixated on james , and she was screaming at him so desperately , choking on her sobs as they fell from her , begging him to help her , to help me the boy who had helped carry me had killed the disgusting man on top of violet , but the others had run away .