rachel thought then of the hug that she had been waiting to receive when her train pulled into st. davids station just an hour or two earlier , the one that she would now never receive , and of the twinkling delight in her father 's eyes that summer all those years before when she cuddled him on the sofa in the bright morning sun that poured through the window , strong hands squeezing her narrow shoulders , asking him to explain how the olympics worked , and her eyes filled with tears .