there was just too much negativity wrapped up in the situation to consider staying : a drunken , blacked out marriage that was neglected for two whole years ; a girlfriend waitress who maybe was n't a girlfriend but she sure seemed to think she was ; an angry younger brother who may or may not blame me or mack for his failed wedding plans ; and the fact that i 'd poured my heart out to this stranger and shared pieces of me that i 'd been trying to lose for over ten years .