`` we could spend the rest of the day here enjoying ourselves ... . '' and then he was dipping his head to hers , and his mouth was hovering over hannah 's , and she was thinking , oh , god , no , please , no , not this , not here , not now , not with adrian , and he suddenly seemed so big and so powerful and so menacing and so terrible and so everything she had hoped to never come up against in her life , and when had her life stopped being so normal and secure and uneventful and become such a freak show , and where , oh , where was michael , and- and then there was a soft , cheery chirp that sounded like a bird on a wire , and adrian was pulling away with an exasperated sound , and hannah was breathing again .