and where she had felt grateful to michael the night before , when he gave her that staggering kiss good night that had completely erased the lingering bitterness of adrian 's mouth on hers-well , okay , and she also felt some other things in addition to grateful , things like careful and fearful and lustful-yeah , there 'd been a lotta lustful in there , definitely-and doubtful and hopeful and lustful , and needful and forgetful and lustful-had she mentioned lustful ? -and ... and ... and ... where was she ?