daniel had come around a couple of times to offer advice-to remind me to draw what i actually saw , not just to rely on my memories of what the objects looked like , and to remind me to use the tip of my pencil instead of mashing the lead into the paper-but other than those trips back to the real world , i spent the rest of the time zoned out , my gaze darting between the stuff on the table and the sketchbook in front of me .