only , now that he had her lips under his and her body wrapped tightly against him , despite all those years of wanting , regardless of the few kisses and caresses they 'd already shared while playing girlfriend and boyfriend this past week , it was a goddamned revelation how good she smelled , how soft her lips were , how sweet her curves felt ... and how much he wanted to be able to give in to the need to drag her against him like this whenever he wanted .