chapter sixteen there are only three things that would force my body into doing any type of physical activity : ( 1 ) if i were doing it for charity , ( 2 ) if i was trying to prove myself to someone , or - and this was the reason that had my feet pounding onto the moldy pavements of new york city at 6am - ( 3 ) if i was trying to avoid something that is fogging up each functioning brain cell within my mind and i 'm trying to get away from it .