i 'd hoped a night of heavy drinking and fucking would take the edge off shay 's rejection , but even though the sex with kat and jana had been more than good , as it always was when the three of us got together , and the tequila had numbed me enough to forget how it felt being left sitting there with my fucking rock hard dick hanging out , when i woke up this morning all i knew was i wanted shay and for some reason , she did n't want me .