i mean , consider what the man did-he kidnapped you , seduced you after you saved his life , took your virginity , then when you told him you loved him , he gave you a cavalier , flippant answer and sent you home to face the fbi and the world media on your own , of all the heartless , rude- '' `` please do n't go into all that , '' julie said with a half-laugh as she held up her hand , `` or i 'll get angry all over again and forget how 'objective ' i am .