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After thirteen years I finished learning to read the whole Koran and went to look for work at the large missionary compound nearby . I did not know why , and though I had never felt much burden of guilt , I was feeling a great sense of peace and relief from the burden of my sins . After we had attended this church for 4-5 months , I went to a service by myself because my husband was out of town . My 3-year-old niece went straight for the little white chocolate macadamia-nut cookie that came with her grilled ham and cheese on sourdough . We shouted " No peace or negotiations with the enemy " , " Our blood and our souls we sacrifice to Arafat " , " Our blood and our souls we sacrifice to Palestine " , " Death to the Zionists " etc .... Later on we moved back to Bethlehem and my father enrolled us in an Anglican-Lutheran school as they had a better English course , my brother , sister and myself where the only Muslims in the school , and being half Americans teachers would beat us and students would laugh at us , when the Bible class started I would leave the class and remained outside waiting , one day I walked in the Bible class and the class ' bully ' stood up to fight , he shouted " we do n't want this half American and Muslim to be here " , I refused to get out and the Lady who was teaching the class asked me to sit down , since then I changed the schools policy and for the first time the school allowed a Muslim to study the Bible , and for the next three years I studied it despite all the mocking . Edgewood was chosen , sponsors said , because its size makes it possible to offer a voucher to any child in the district . My parents worried a lot about me as I got thrown in prison by the Israeli Army , my mother went to the American Council in Jerusalem to try to get me out , she was so stressed her hair started to fall , in jail I learned more about the art of terrorism and when I got out I was more fanatic than before . In the morning , before I started work , I went to the office of my supervisor to tell her what had happened .