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This way of being in a relationship is something you have learned. It is a kind of push and pull, where you pull back hoping the person will reel you in, reassuring you of their feelings. Others have touched upon how this is hurtful so I won't reiterate that. But if you look at this instance, you felt a bit rejected perhaps and shut down, hoping he would reassure you he wants you there. Did it work though? Did it make you feel better? Did it get you what you need? Otherwise, does it usually gives you the result you hope for? My guess is probably not.

You say it is only recently it has happened. Do you feel like your needs are not being met? Do you suddenly feel insecure? What has changed?

Whatever it is, don't shut down hoping that he will notice and give you the exact thing you want. It won't happen and it will (has) only hurt the both of you. 

For example, in this situation, you said you didn't have to come if he didn't want you to. He told you he did, but that it is up to you. My guess is that you felt like he didn't care all that much if you were there or not? Your bf sounds pretty laid-back and probably only meant to tell you not to fret and to do whatever made you happier. However, people read situations differently. But you can make sure of what the other person meant and get what you need by talking about it.

You need to talk to him. Even though you don't feel like it, try to find the words to express where you are at. Use "I" sentences that are not accusatory. Push past that resistance you have at naming what you are going through. I know people say it a lot, but therapy could help. It could be something as short term as learning communication/affirmation strategies (CBT) or something longer term, like figuring out why you do this.

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