text: " "Well " said I "John I think you do right; but I can tell you this that the same sort of _tableau_ is very often before my eyes; and the horror that I feel is what I did then--seeing Chesterton's brains knocked out as I thought and struggling in vain to get near him; sooner than feel that again in reality--the thought of it is bad enough--I'd shoot that villain ten times running if I only had the chance