text:  "I think " said he "the constant sight of poor Harry will do me good just now; I am not given to romancing Hawthorne as you know; but waking or sleeping when I am by myself I see that man standing with the crow-bar uplifted just as he was when I shot him; and I think if I can but manage to get Harry Chesterton's figure between him and me as it was that night and feel that pulling the trigger perhaps saved his life why then the picture will be something less horrible that it is now