text:  I felt like Wilfred of Ivanhoe when he resolved to leave his home for ever; and if there had been any crusade going on in 1838 and an Isaac of York willing to furnish me with horse and harness I should have been very glad to try my chance against the Saracens and prove myself a true Red Cross knight; for even at that time I felt assured that against any body but my father I could hold up my head like a man; or on any subject but my stupidity--(which I was willing to concede as it came guaranteed under the hand and seal of the master of a college)--I could have maintained my ground with the courage of a Front-de-Boeuf