text:  What is my apostasy? That I have not followed the frenzy and ingratitude of the hour; that while the most awful event in the history of human change has been transacting before us I have not shut my ears and eyes to its moral; that I have not followed the throng into the valley and there joined the fabricators of the new idolatry the priesthood of the golden calf of revolution and shared the polluted feast and the intoxicated dance; while the thunders of divine vengeance were rolling on the hill above