text:  Despair suggested that self-destruction itself might seem venial even before God when rushed upon as the only alternative to perjury--to prostitution; for such her romantic purity taught her to consider submission to the embrace of any living man except her heart's own--her affianced--"her beautiful!"--her lost! Such were the feelings under whose influence our humble heroine pursued her mountain journey of a few miles to the place of meeting with her parents; and it was probably beneath the roof of the lone cottage in the cloud that under the same morbid mood of mind she penned a letter to Mr Fitzarthur which was afterwards discovered dated at top "My Wedding Day " containing a passionate appeal on behalf of her father for a bond of legal indemnification to be executed before night as a present which she had set her heart on giving her father as a bridal one _that very day_