text:  There they ran and leaped and shouted all feeling and enjoyment without an atom of the leaden care of life to press upon the light elastic soul; and there stood I young enough to be a playmate brother separated from them and their hearts' joyousness by the deep broad line which once traversed may never be recovered ground to the earth by suffering trial and disappointment; darkness and discouragement without; misery and self-upbraiding robbing me of peace within