article: Britain's Got Talent judge Amanda Holden may look like the epitome of good health today, but the 44-year-old has revealed that she has fought through dark times to get here. In a new interview Holden has admitted that her traumatic childbirth experiences left her needing therapy, but have also inspired her to live life to the full. In her cover interview for the June issue ofGood Housekeeping, the mother-of-two talks about how it was therapy that saved her after she lost one child and nearly died after having another. Scroll down for video . Amanda Holden, 44, stuns on her cover shoot for the June 2015 issue of Good Housekeeping . Holden, who married record producer Chris Hughes in 2008, has two daughters, nine-year-old Alexa and three-year-old Hollie. Although the actress now has a beautiful family, her pregnancies have been complicated, with one even ending in tragedy as Amanda suffered a devastating miscarriage in 2011, giving birth to a stillborn baby, Theo, at seven months. And with the birth of now three-year-old Hollie, the television star encountered serious medical complications and nearly died in the process, losing a dangerous amount of blood. Following this near-death experience, Holden was diagnosed with post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) and the Britain's Got Talent judge initially struggled to cope with the trauma, turning to therapy to help. The blonde talks about her traumatic childbirth experiences as well as maintaining her youthful appearance . In the interview, Holden says: 'My therapist told me I had no more tools or coping mechanism left. She was very good at giving me sentences to say to myself to make me stop panicking about my own mortality. 'I think you have none of these worries unless you’ve got children. If it had just been me and Chris and I’d died, it would have been awful for him but nowhere near as bad as a child losing their mother. She adds: 'It makes you suddenly think, I have to live. I’ve got to live, but I’ve got to try and live a good, happy life for me too and I think that’s why I faced up to the fact that I needed to speak to somebody. It was a really good thing. I’m probably too open but I have no secrets.' The radiant TV star also ruled out the possibility of trying for another child, but has found peace with it. Holden says: 'I’m not allowed. I would be dead the next time. And I think Chris would say you can have them but you’re not having them with me. 'I’ve got the two I’m supposed to have. I just had to complete my family to feel like I could be me.' The presenter (pictured right) is best known as a judge of ITV's show Britain's Got Talent, with (l-r) Alesha Dixon, 36, David Walliams, 43, and Simon Cowell, 55 . The stunning blonde always looks stylish for the shows in an array of on-trend outfits . Through traumatic times, Holden admits that her husband, Chris Hughes, has been a constant source of reassurance. She gushes: 'The minute I met him, my life changed so much for the better. He has a great perspective on life. 'He makes me stop, he’s given me my children and literally stood by my death bed and I really fancy him…' Although they have a happy marriage, Holden admits that nothing is perfect. She adds: 'How I feel about Chris still feels new. We try to do date night but it fails dismally. We’re doing everything that you could possibly do wrong in a marriage!' 'We’re ignoring date nights and watching box sets but it’s working! We feel stronger and it just feels new. Chris is very funny, and in the face of adversity he’s so bad and verging on politically incorrect!' In the interview, the 44-year-old has admitted to getting collagen treatments to maintain her glowing appearance . Amanda Holden's sister, Deborah is currently caught in the chaos of the Nepal earthquake . The TV presenter is currently consumed putting on a brave face, as recently news hit that sister Deborah Holden, is caught in the chaos of the Mount Everest avalanche disaster, which has so far killed 18 people. A couple of days ago, Amanda made a desperate plea to have her sister brought home, as she is among the 70,000 survivors attempting to reach Kathmandu to fly home. The full interview appears in the June issue of Good Housekeeping, on sale 1 May. Also available in digital edition on Apple Newsstand. For further exclusive content, please go to goodhousekeeping.co.uk . Holden will be on the cover of Good Housekeeping for the June 2015 issue .
highlights: Britain's Got Talent presenter Amanda Holden is a mother of two daughters .
  The 44-year-old has revealed heartache of giving birth to stillborn in 2011 .
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