`` Wait till you 've tried it yourself , '' he added in a low voice , as he pulled up the grass by the handful . `` I 'd take it manfully , and be respected if I could n't be loved , '' said Amy , with the decision of one who knew nothing about it . Now , Laurie flattered himself that he had borne it remarkably well , making no moan , asking no sympathy , and taking his trouble away to live it down alone . Amy 's lecture put the matter in a new light , and for the first time it did look weak and selfish to lose heart at the first failure , and shut himself up in moody indifference . He felt as if suddenly shaken out of a pensive dream and found it impossible to go to sleep again . Presently he sat up and asked slowly , `` Do you think Jo would despise me as you do ? '' `` Yes , if she saw you now . She hates lazy people . Why do n't you do something splendid , and make her love you ? '' `` I did my best , but it was no use . '' `` Graduating well , you mean ? That was no more than you ought to have done , for your grandfather 's sake . It would have been shameful to fail after spending so much time and money , when everyone knew that you could do well . '' `` I did fail , say what you will , for Jo would n't love me , '' began Laurie , leaning his head on his hand in a despondent attitude . `` No , you did n't , and you 'll say so in the end , for it did you good , and proved that you could do something if you tried . If you 'd only set about another task of some sort , you 'd soon be your hearty , happy self again , and forget your trouble . '' `` That 's impossible . '' `` Try it and see . You need n't shrug your shoulders , and think , ` Much she knows about such things ' . I do n't pretend to be wise , but I am observing , and I see a great deal more than you 'd imagine .
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