Friday, June 14, 2013

Things really seemed to be on an upswing for a minute, didn't they? The down is no fun and I don't feel like writing about it at all. In the old days, when I wasn't in the mood to post, I'd make a list--let's do that now, shall we?

Today is a furlough day, so I have loaded up on errands again. What I've done so far (and it's just after noon as I write): What has gone wrong:

All of this leads to a lot of "poor me" thinking and feeling really rejected and misunderstood. That's funny, right? I feel terribly, terribly misunderstood. By my bosses who don't respect me, by my mother who wants me to be a different person, by that stupid dude who couldn't get on board.

Objectively, I know it's not true. At work, I have people who are so kind and grateful when I give them my time and input. I have friends who agree to go see "Anything Goes" with me--and they don't even know what it is! I have a cat who...loves (?) me--well, I have a cat who I take good care of, which brings some satisfaction. I also have friends who are as shocked as I am about the dude, my mother, and the work nonsense.

I'm also really loving my new bike--it's so much fun to ride. I'm taking a 3-session photography class next week to refresh my skills. I'm still enjoying knitting. I have a job offer on the table and I'm pretty sure I'll be activating it.

Things aren't terrible and I'm sure I'll feel better soon, but I sure haven't been very happy this week. Is it ok if I spend the rest of this beautiful day at home watching Game of Thrones?

Grateful for: friends and perspective.
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