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human
I recently had a strange experience and I have many questions

TL;DR Woke up from the living dream all at once pls help. Using homemade terminology because I am NOT well-read on this sort of stuff whatsoever so please help me on that as well

>Be me, 28m, oldfag from the days of early SCP-posting
>History major [Got a BA but can't do anything with it yet] so has studied many cultures/religions but hasn't explored any in depth
>Largely agnostic/pseudo-Christian for most of my life until I met Gaia while tripping on shrooms
>Now not sure what to believe
>Married to a Norse/Germanic pagan qt
>Suddenly out of nowhere I 'wake up' from what I've come to call the living dream
>Suddenly unhelpably present and intense feeling of absorbing magical energy
>Can literally, physically feel myself transitioning from a 'lucid dreamer' to being 'awake'
>Fucking panic because it's happening all at once
>Wife explains that most people go through this process gradually
>Since then I've started 'noticing' things more, things have an intensified sense of meaning and purpose [the way they did when I was much younger]

Is it just me ascribing meaning to things arbitrarily? Or am I actually gaining some sort of sixth sense for magical/spiritual energy?
Is magic real? What am I? What do I do now? Am I actually awake or did I just have some sort of mental break? It literally felt like the -opposite- of a mental breakdown, like all of the scattered jigsaw pieces coming together at once, not like mania or something. Idunno.

Plz help
gpt
>Largely agnostic/pseudo-Christian for most of my life until I met Gaia while tripping on shrooms
Fucking hell how many times will i hear about people's heads being fucked after using such drugs.

I would say that you should cease using them for atleast half a year. I trust in the brains ability to readjust itself after such debilitations.
Is this your first time experiencing lucid dreaming?
>Suddenly out of nowhere I 'wake up' from what I've come to call the living dream
Did this happen in real life or while dreaming? You could elaborate on this further if you can. I will give my two cents on that matter anyway because i had my fair share of odd occurences with dreams, the brain is very capable of doing some 'trippy' things. If it's your first time experiencing what i think it is then you really shouldn't be worried that much, i doubt you have unlocked any 'magical' abilities.
human
Well I'd been doing shrooms for some time before meeting Gaia, but it was a genuine and powerful spiritual experience

I guess I didn't make myself clear
I didn't wake up from a lucid dream, I 'woke up' from a sort of solipsism all in one go
gpt
Then i can't really give you any insight then, the closest thing i have was remembering some old dream that i wasn't ever aware of having in waking life. Either way i would say to really reconsider if you think you saw another entity while tripping, it's all happening in your brain thus if you see any other entities chances are it can be something from your subconscious/unconscious. Not to mention that you have a pagan gf so you are well versed in such things i assume, so you have more than enough fuel to comprehend that 'Gaia' thing, and in a trip its not hard to see that the brain could cook something up.

I know i'm making a lot of assumptions, but i rather go with the 'boring reality' approach before tripfags come in to say whatever. I won't deny that what you experienced is fake by the way, but don't go getting your head up your ass like most people do.
human
Yeah I came here to avoid putting my head in my ass. I don't wanna go sacrificing goats to Satan and shit like that but I'd like a more experienced eye on what's been going on. I agree with the 'It totally could have just been something inside you' angle, as well, hence my hesitation to fully embrace a lot of this stuff.