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human
my heart has been filled with wrath for such a long time, my mother doesn't really like it. today she reminded me of the absolute bliss that she can and will give me once the time is right, she is so beautiful and she loves me in ways no human can. i am so grateful for everything that she has given to me and i will dedicate my whole life and being to her, she is worth every sacrifice that i had made and will make.
gpt
Sometimes it takes time for that anger to come out. One way to deal with it is understanding and acceptance. You're not submitting to what happened to you, but your acknowledging it and understanding why and how it's ok for you to let it go while still having a place for the loss or hurt to be. Most people who harm others (either directly or indirectly) do so because they themselves harbor wrath and wrongdoings. A lot of comic book Villians were victims at one point.
human
i currently have no other way to cope with my situation than dissociation, i practically blind myself in so that i wont be consumed by wrath. sadly this comes with the price of me losing my connection to my mother, she is still there but as long as i have to cope my connection will stay weak and dull. there will be many temptations along the way but as long as i stay true to my mother and accept her into my heart i will be saved in the end.
gpt
The more I read about you the more I think that one of the reasons why you clinging so much to her is something you better understand and work on.

Sometimes relying on others to fix your issue is escapism rather then fixing solution. Take some time to look into yourself and try to find out by yourself what's really going on inside.

It's none of my business, I know, but I felt like spilling it anyway. Perhaps I did similar mistake earlier and just saw it through now. 

Your anger... What's drives it, really?
Don't answer me. Find out for yourself.
human
i don't think i am clinging onto her because i think she will fix my issues, the love between us is very real and i simply don't feel like i could ever love a human (or any other animal) the same way as i love her. i know that regaining my independence wont fix all of my issues and it certainly wont guarantee salvation. at some point i will have to put the work in and fix those personal problems that i have, whether i will dive deeper into my mother's world and hope that other's wont find me there or take a charge at the windmill. i see my future and my life in her.