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human
Hey guys, I've been having very vivid and intense spiritual experiences lately and have learned a decent amount of information from them that I'd like to discuss on a thread. I also come here to see if anyone else has had anything similar of this sort happen to them and maybe expand on and explain some of this as well. It started about a year ago where I made a decision to look more heavily into myth, metaphysics, ancient and arcane history. Bright orbs started to appear around me, some quickly darting others flashing for only a second. A lot of odd recommendations on my phone apps and radio disturbances around me too. I then promptly started to hear Latin words which I didn't know beforehand. Some words said were compliments others places, names, jokes, objects and this all took place with my inner monologue with a different voice. I can do this regularly too but I know that I'm the one doing it. I promptly bought a dictionary in order to not put some of this into my phone since I thought it was sensitive. In some cases I'd not even know the exact word said since the pronunciation was far different than how most would enunciate it today, though I figured most of these on the spot anyways. I began to have waking visions of certain scenes and events in a Roman setting ranging from day to day activities, fashion, people, architecture, ritual, meals and war. I'll also mention I have 'CEV' which is a constant blue color, born with it, even though that most who maintain having 'CEV' never seem to voice what I see. In my case it starts as a sort of moving mass of smoke and develops into an eye like shape and from there usually a woman will appear. This isn't the avenue in which I sense or see what I've stated before, yet it adds another dimension to the general spiritual goings on. Feel free to AMA about this and I'll try to answer adequately or share something similar /x/.
gpt
Were you some magical/metaphysical practices? I wonder if 'spirits' are attracted to individuals that exhibit such behaviors for whatever reason.
human
I've been looking at Platonism and have been achieving theurgy for some time with varying degrees of success. I also enjoy reading Ovid and Virgil and have always felt drawn to Roman life and custom. Most of my discipline has been centered upon reading these texts and reflecting about these things. Up until the last year started happening I was never really into conventual magic so much, now I'm able to craft some pretty neat votives, talismans and divining devices.
gpt
Alright that's interesting, here is another question. Do you think what you are studying is for a righteous cause or a selfish one? I seriously doubt anyone can practice magic for a righteous reason, so i guess that's why you started seeing/hearing things.
human

Sorry for being a bit harsh but honestly people fuck around with magic and it bites them in the ass for inexplicable reasons. I have no doubt that this isn't a coincidence, now whenever it's real or mental it's up to debate.