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A chat on 4chan
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>feel like all that wonder and energy was drained out of my life. I'm basically asexual, have no real desire fore a relationship, and have no real passions. I'm incapable of feeling love.
Pretty much this. 
I'm a 22 year old NEET. I still feel like I have my soul but I just see how soulless and corrupted everything in this world is, even leaving the house feels draining because I just see a gray, sprawling landscape covered in ads and asphalt. Ten year ago, the world was the same but I was still optimistic and had goals and was excited for the future. Now I dread each passing day. 
I never really watched pornography, I'm 100% asexual but I became a hardcore atheist around that time and was for most of my teens, I also got really addicted to social media and started spending too much time inside, so maybe those things contributed.
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