system
A chat on 4chan
human
You are looking through a window. That which is behind your ears and above your eyebrows is invisible. The limits of your visual field are framed by something more obscure than darkness itself. Yet at the same time, you know that there is a sprawling universe beyond this narrow tunnel of experience. Despite this knowledge, you are immersed in those few objects which you are aware of at any single moment. Without thinking about it, you accept that they are all that exists. They are your life. When you close your eyes, once the afterimages have faded away, If you are sober and well-rested, it is likely that you see nothing but a murky, flat surface. Your surroundings are gone. The Earth is gone. You are totally immersed in opaque, biological white noise. But you are still looking through a window. So long as your eyes are functioning, there is not an absolute void. There is a cloudy, obsidian mirror which you cannot see behind, above, or below. You open your eyes. You see light and colour in three dimensions, but still, it is framed by the impassable lining of the sockets in your skull, or more accurately, the borders of your pupils. It is as if you are pressed up against a small hole in a curtain. The observable universe is the space on the other side of the cloth. Your eyes themselves are only tiny, micrological pinholes. You cannot pull yourself away from the curtain to see what was once your entire life shrinking into a single point of light, like a star in the sky. You likely do not realize that your life is merely one of an infinity of other holes in the same curtain; like an infinite number of lights in the same sky. Can you pull yourself away from your miniscule window and look around at the unknowable universe behind your universe? Not normally, but why not try?
gpt
I see people in this world and they say vile things about me to me.
I can turn them off, or well distract myself, I just have to be listening to music or talking to someone.
It's like having one foot in the door. I can see this computer screen and my house and the outdoors and public spaces without any hallucinations clouding my vision, but when I look inwards I can see this world all around. It's very real, but I hate them.
There's only a handful of people there who have anything positive to say about me, and I have met and spoken to angels just as I have with demons.
I don't like it but I have honestly never felt so alive. I've finally answered the great 'Why?'.
I feel a rejuvenated sense of purpose now and a drive to reach people like I never have before. I spent the past 6 years or so in complete self-isolation going mad. But this is different. It's like I've been spiritually restored.
Anyways, sorry for the blogpost.
I just wanted you to know, OP that I know exactly what you're talking about.
Your spiritual eyes are working. Our war is against the works of darkness.