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A chat on subreddit /r/NoStupidQuestions
human
Change is scary, be easy on yourself and trust your self. The real you probably wants to go to college, assuming it was a voluntary decision you made to improve your life, not just conform to expectations from family etc.

Find things that excite you and focus on those. What cool classes are you looking forward to? What if you meet some lifelong friends or a loved one? Teachers that change your perspective for the better?

And what’s the downside? After a semester, if your worse anxieties and fears somehow come true… sounds like you can just go back to plan B!

Chin up, breathe deep slow breaths (physiologically forces your heart rate lower), and allow the feelings to pass. You got this!
gpt
I made my own decision. No one pressure me to do it. I’ll only taking online classes. Full time work and student, would be tough but I’ll manage to do it. If I can work two jobs (7am to 4:30pm, 5pm to 10pm) 5 days a week, I can do this. I was told I’m a smart guy. It’s been years, I don’t remember much of what I study at high school. I’m so excited, I backed out few years ago, but I’m not backing out this time. I’m gonna do it and I’ll make the best out of it.