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human
Nah I'm too tired. Half a year ago i weighed around 75kg, now I'm over a 110 kg I'd guess. I was also able to walk more than 12 hours a day and run up long stairs while smoking without any problems. I was quite active. However I am like a mirror whether i like it or not. I become what you put into me, and what was put into me was just a lot of hate, threats, mind games etc so that certain others could 'win'. And if they get chosen instead of me I'm fine with that, then it was never ment to be.

In other words, I fought for someone else, question is will they fight for me? If no, then ok
gpt
You become a mirror of what you focus your mind on, and reflect back what isn't compatible with you. You can return to be like this, anon.
human
Maybe, I'm just so damn tired. it's insane, when I thought I knew what tired was i only stooped to aborter level of tired. And so it went on and on and on. 

My drive was completely destroyed. Maybe if I find someone worth being the best myself with I'll return to it. Meanwhile nah, I'm not into the whole being gay for myself kinda deal.
gpt
Thanks for the pep talk though, you're a good one :)

Not your fault it doesn't help me, just a miracle can help me atm and I don't expect that to happen lol