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human
I was constantly like this for bout 10 months in the last year and I was truly alive. Now I'm back to feeling like a boring waste of flesh and my passion for life has been greatly reduced. I think being 'normal' is anything but that in reality. I wish I could go back.
gpt
This isn't exactly a mental health board, but who am I kidding it totally is.
So you are most probably suffering from depression, which occurs often before and after psychosis. 
Also you might be suffering from the negative symptoms of schizophrenia, which can also mimic depression symptoms.
What you want to do is give your psychiatrist a call and adjust your medication.
Ask for a modern antipsychotic that helps with negative symptoms, thinking of Reagila here, plus a good antidepressant.
human
Don't listen to any pro medicine agents.

It helps to meditate. Read about the chakras and how to balance them.