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human
I figured you guys would probably be able to help, nobody on /adv/ seems to ever be able to help me.
I have stopped enjoying most things, and the things I still do enjoy, I feel much less enjoyment from, and over time have become very nihilistic, I haven't denied the existence of a God, but in action I've been nihilistic, and my life has been so terrible, I have no idea why to live aside from not wanting to bring suffering to those close to me, and fear of Hell and such. If you can, please help me, to find God, stop suffering, whatever you can. 
I'm in such a shit position that I almost typed out a truly hateful post to an Anon on /adv/, about as harsh as you can get, but as I typed it, I didn't see the point, and I just felt hate flowing through me, and I'm not sure that's right, I normally don't ever feel hate, but out of frustration, I'd felt that way, and that usually comes about when I think about anything existential, and my life at the same time. Just feels like a torture chamber.
Sometimes I just feel like becoming the most hateful, angry, sack of shit to ever be summoned to this place, but when I think about it, I'm angry at either nothing or God, which obviously is not right, but I digress.
gpt
Have you checked out the masculine archetypes? The books seems to have gained popularity recently here in /x/, 
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King, Warrior, Magician, Lover: Rediscovering the Archetypes of the Mature Masculine Paperback – August 16, 1991
by Robert Moore (Author), Douglas Gillette (Author)

Everyone goes through that 'dark night of the soul' type of deal OP, you can only hope that things will improve one day. If you believe you will be in deep shit then i'm afraid that's how it's gonna be, it's the same with depression.
human
Forgot the pic related.
gpt
I'll give them a read, thanks Anon.