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It's 3:57 AM where I am. Before I went to be last night, a few hours ago, I asked once more in my spiritual confusion for a sign from 'whatever is good and true' for spiritual guidance as I had been doing each night before. That night I had a dream, I think there were other parts but I don't recollect it. Anyway, it repeated a few times. A massive fragmented skeleton, kept collapsing forward from the air inside a giant empty stadium, with the phrase repeating over and over again along the lines sod 'Saturn being the kings killer' or something like this, and the visual repeated a few times. I am unsure if I was an observer or the skeleton, but the visual gave me great chills, like a feeling of great infinite doom. I think the last image I saw before I woke up was a skeleton falling toward me. I am unsure what to make of this, several months ago I did a great sin to spite Christianity and part of me feels like this is a warning. For a project I was working on earlier that evening, I recited myself reading the cannibal hymn' from ancient Egypt', I am unsure if this is related however as it was in English and it was for scholarly, non occult purposes. Also I am unsure if this has to do with the fact I drank a can of pineapple juice, two bananas, and five oranges before going to bed. Either way the dream scared the hell out of me and I woke up and lay in bed for several minutes in great fear. Anyway I might reconvert to Christianity out of fear but I kind of dont want to since I am a homosexual. There was also a mention in the dream I may be recollecting this wrong but someone mentioned the movement of planets could influence homosexuality so IDK what that means though I believe I knew the person was wrong in the dream.
gpt
Whats ironic is that lately on my own I have been trying to distance myself from sin in fact a few days ago I resolved that much ill could be avoided by people denouncing sexual desire altogether as a affliction by demons. All I want at this point was romance but I dont even know if God will allow that especially after all I have done to spite him. What is strange also is I keep seeing the number 33 everywhere on the clock it first started after I watched a video about Freemasons on bitchute but I tried to resist the number and it went away. Than months later it came back. What I fear is through my personal great blasphemous mental sin I somehow on my own initiated myself into freemasonry.

My stomach hurts very much from the inside like its burning from the citrus juices and I have to use the bathroom... so Im starting to think maybe this isnt divine intervention and is simply the byproduct of and eating habits