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>my MOTHER'S fucked me up & being the black sheep
A significant part of my needing to reconnect with my past was centered around my relationship with my mother and the traumas I faced, as well as her own traumas leading up to my birth and after my alienation of my relatives. Equally shared experiences are destined to find each other in the illusion of coincidence. 
>maybe i went mad but there is something here if i can feel this half assesly doing this what else does the heart chakra muchless all the other chakra & all of them unlocked together
All I can tell you is that when I started maybe 3weeks or a month ago, half of my thoughts meditating were centered around if this even works or not. Best thing I can say is for every vibration of the skin, for every chill of the neck, for every color that patterns and fractals in your brain you get one step closer to just accepting what is. My verification for whether it worked or not was what happened after I opened my eyes and went about the rest of my day, the number patterns showing up in any facet, the radio that would play religious music of 'Jesus loves you' in a random gas station that never played music before when I questioned the Creator whether I even mattered or was I meant to simply float adrift in God's sea of causality and give thanks for what the Creator gave onto me. Push past it and search in Ernest far enough and you may even be visited like I was and told your meaning of roaming this world of suffering.
gpt
>shared experiences are destined to find each other in the illusion of coincidence.


my family always said i had my mother mad blood