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human
I am a paramedic. Last week, we got a call for abdominal pain. Me and my partner show up, and there's a neighbor who says 'her water broke'. Turns out, she's having a baby. 
My partner is an EMT, so I tell him everything we need from the ambulance and I go with the neighbor to the apartment, up three flights of stairs and at the end of the hallway. 
She's in the back room, come in and take a left. She's sitting on the bed, covered only by the blanket and her partner is comforting her and holding her hand. The thing about being a paramedic is, as soon as you show up the emergency is over. You're supposed to fix everything. I stay as calm as I can but I can't imagine I did a good job portraying it. Anyways, I take a look under the covers to see how far along she is, and there's some little toes starting to stick out. She's giving birth now, on this bed. No way we can be-line it to the hospital. 
I start telling her to push, but really I don't know what to do. There's a lot to remember from the booms, and sometimes you just breeze through them. I do remember that births were pretty straight forward. So I'm telling her to push, and more of this little baby is coming into the world. Ny heart sank when I saw the baby was breached, and a very very unhealthy blue. It wasn't getting oxygen. Maybe not the best thing to do, but I started to pull the baby lightly out, or I tried anyways. I don't think it did anything. I also tried to open the vagina more, maybe some air would go inside and the baby could breath. Fuck if I know. At some point my partner shows up, and he knew exactly what the baby needed as soon as she came out, an oxygen mask. Our smallest size was still far to bog to be effective. 
The baby is born, and I'm holding her in my hands and I show the parents. She can't be more then 10 inches tall. She looks like raw chicken that's been on the freezer, but more blue and purple.
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The neighbor grabs us a blanket to swaddle the baby in and we boogie out of there. We fly down the three flights of stairs, and somehow end up lost in the basement. Luckily the neighbor came to see us off. I'm doing tiny chest compressions, trying to help her little heart push the oxygenated blood around. It wasn't doing much, but fuck me I'm not going to hold a dying baby and do nothing. The mask want working, and I could have tried to go for an intubation, but the smallest size would have absolutely destroyed her entire throat.
It took us 7 minutes to get to the hospital. We radioed ahead to get a pediatric trauma team ready in the ER, and the moment we burst through the doors of the room, everyone looked at the baby. It went silent. I was still doing the chest compressions and the doctor slowly nodded his head no. It was to late. Baby was still alive on my arms, I was still holding a mask and doing my little two fingers chest compressions. And everyone looked at me and shook their head no. They wouldn't even work on her, or try. She was to blue. No oxygen. 
I put her down and left. A nurse said something to me, I didn't hear it. Broke down in the EMT room as I did my report. I love this job, but that was by far the worst call I've ever had. I was the only person that held her in her whole life. 

I'm sorry I couldn't save you. I'm sorry you lived your life in so much pain. I'll do my best to make sure that doesn't happen again. I'm sorry.
human
thank you for being there and im sorry you suffered so much pain

warmth in a moment is enough so thank you