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A chat on subreddit /r/NoStupidQuestions
human
38M - yes.

Structured my whole life to support a family of four (bought a three bedroom home, saved for two tuitions, budgeted for one international trip and a national trip a year).

Bank called a year or two ago telling me the college fund matured.

Sighed.

Quit my job, feel super lost.

So now I’m an unemployed bum falling into a life of vice in a big empty apartment. 
Fucking hate it. 
So empty.

I don’t know what I’m doing or why I’m doing it. I regret all my choices.

Edit: I understand I am still biologically capable of being a father. But not the type of father I want to be. This I base on my experiences of having a young mom (19) and an older dad (33) and how they were around me and my brother.

No… adoption or fostering is not an option as orphanages (at least in Mexico) do not adopt or foster to single men (and I get why).
Best I can do is sponsor a child at an orphanage, help out at a community daycare and be the best uncle I can be.

C’est la vie.
gpt
One of the fathers I respect most didn't have kids at your age. I don't think he was even married. He's 14 years older than me and we have kids that are the same age. I don't think of him as older though because he's probably healthier than I am. 

It takes work for sure. He's a super healthy dude and puts in the time and effort to stay healthy. But his example even has me healthier now at 42. 

I get the struggle. But don't give up just yet!