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human
>>hello, same anon as before, and do you have any idea how I can use magic again? something I have to read or practice Mr. Wizard?
You can try any of the practices or read any of the books I've already listed in this thread.
Alternatively, you can try to recreate the conditions that caused your success in the first place. Do you recall what those were?

>what is the difference between high magic/general magic?.... (Probably a dumb question, I apologize)
No it's not a dumb question at all. It's somewhat difficult to explain and the lines are often somewhat fuzzy.
Generally, black magic is either dominated by earthly (materialistic) forces (think hypnosis, tulpamancy, nlp, etc), involves submission of your soul instead of exaltation, and/or making deals willing/aware or otherwise with demons and counter-initiatory forces.
In hermetic terms, black magic involves the Lunar or Feminine principle taking dominance over the Solar or Masculine principle. 
Powers that are your own are generally the result of high magic, powers that are granted are usually the results of lower or black magic. There are of course exceptions to this.
Hope that all makes sense.
gpt
How or where could someone (me) get started into magic - who is at the very most beginner level? What would you recommend?
human
>last time I did it I showed it to my mother,
So to be clear, did she or she not see you performing it?
There is the possibility that your suffering is rooted from a false memory.

>How do you remove personal mental blockages and general anxiety as in 'i dont fit' and a general nervous and kind of submissive attitude/fear of opinion of others. Constant feeling that im not being 'myself'/cant feel free.
You don't need to fit. Modern society is completely subverted and evil, if you are outside of it that is usually a good thing as long as you are moral (no killing, raping, stealing, malicious manipulating, etc).
As far as conquering yourself, I would recommend an upheaval. Climb a mountain, learn to freedive, jump out of a plane, that type of thing. You sometimes need to put yourself in real or perceived danger and stress in order to overcome your own stagnation. 
Above all, have confidence in yourself. Believe that you can succeed. Obviously don't let this grow to the level of sinful pride or vainglory, but don't shit on yourself. You gain nothing by saying 'I can't do this'. Try. If you fail, try again until you succeed. Doubt will kill you.
>Also, do you believe in past lifes?
Sort of. Not in the way it is usually spoken of, where you die and then suddenly pop into a newborn child.

>>How do I train my eyes to see souls and spirits?
Other than the meditations I already mentioned, start keeping a dream journal and do visualization practices. When you have dream and reality blend together as you exit the dream world, that's a good sign.
Generally, such powers come naturally with spiritual progress.

>>How or where could someone (me) get started into magic - who is at the very most beginner level? What would you recommend?

I'm at the text limit, I'll answer in another post.
gpt
she saw me, because I remember I called her all excited showing her what I could do, and I showed her, and after that, I completely forgot how to do it, maybe it was my mistake, , but I remember that I could do certain nonsensical things when I was very young.but as I was very young I am not sure
human
But if you ask her I mean, does SHE claim to recall it?
gpt
I would have to ask her, I never talked to her about this, and I really don't know how to ask her to take me seriously. when I see her, I will try to ask her or my grandmother.