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human
went to bed at 10:30 PM. i was stupid enough to use my phone in bed and i did not fall asleep until around 12:00 AM. this is completely my fault due to lack of willpower.
woke up an hour ago and laid in bed trying to go to sleep until i couldn't take my emotions anymore and started hyperventilating

failed WBTB again. another night down the drain. i've wasted night after night trying to dream and i've failed again and again
i don't even feel any emotions right now. i just feel this unending sense of dread screaming at me to kill myself since i've wasted my life since i'm 26 fucking years old and still trying to do shit like lucid dream or AP. at my age i should just give it up

i set my alarm for 7 AM for work but I am likely going to oversleep because of the sheer lack of sleep
gpt
Look at the bright side, Im enjoying your endless story arc. When you finally do it It will be an exciting climax
human
it's extremely frustrating lol
if you want to know how pathetic i am
i've known about almost EVERYTHING in this thread from WBTB methods, what WILD is supposed to be like

all of this shit i've known about since i was 12. i'm 26 and i can't lucid dream. my dream journal stats are dogshit pathetic
i'm unable to even sleep on my back properly. at 26 i'm an ancient old fuck trying to catch up to young men

i'm the biggest loser that lurks this thread
gpt
Dont worry anon, we're all in this thread to escape this world. also
>26 
keked
human
just have to try harder. obviously i'm not gonna get anywhere if i waste an hour on my phone. i don't adhere to my sleep schedule well enough.
sometimes i'm too tired to write in my dream journal as well and i should stop trying to sleep on my back because it hasn't worked for the literal last 10 years of my life i tried to do it
i'm doing a shit job at it and complaining that i'm not getting results when i'm failing miserably at my attempts

>>26
>keked
most 4chan users are under the age of 24. if i'm spending a lot of time here comparing myself to the average, most will have already succeeded by my age so comparatively it is old and i don't get those years back.
this world is on a time limit, i guess that's why i want to escape it. all other things being equal, being 30 in this world is objectively worse than being 20, and falling behind is a permanent scar that never heals in this world