system
A chat on 4chan
human
>Grow a spine faggot. No matter what, at least you should at least die trying than give up and lay there pathetically.
-ive lost a child
-ive been shot
-lost my job
-anxiety from 4 deployments 04-09
You know nothing fagg0t. Either give me a spread that tells me shit will get better-or not.
gpt
I think you are understanding concept of 'Source' wrongly. If you look at subatomic physics, everything is energy, but does this mean everything will be same always? No; even if the most basic form is the same, at higher levels everything is different and always changing. 'God' or source isn't alone or even sentient in this case. 

Just food for though for you. Make your own vision about this topic. Even if its chaotic, reality isn't that hard to accept.

Then it goes double for you. While i am sorry for your loss, it doesn't mean you should succumb to depression. If you suicide next life will be even more problematic than what you have. If you don't try and suicide, then how many spreads one may do, you will just suffer. We both don't know about each others life but probably seen enough lives gets destroyed to know fake sympathy doesn't work.