system
A chat on 4chan
human
my communications don't reach them. Creepy moments is when I try to correct something, giving them a contradicting truth or just try to point and show something in relation to that being spoken about. 
It's like the minds turn off and I get a weak yeah.
They forcefully change the subject or go do something different. 
I'm not telling them about reptiles or some shit, just showing the false system they exist in. 
A trinitarian protestant saying scientists like Newton were 'accshually' christian, Newton was against their interpretation and I try to explain the serious faults still alive today which he saw in the system. 
Someone says they trust science because it's always true and get the group to agree, I point to someone as mainstream as Feynman, how he's simply trying to understand the world and isn't afraid of not understanding it, no physicist implies laws are universal constants because it's all interpretation. Yet I just get an empty yeah or mmh. 
Atheists pretend they read the bible, people who think Hesse's Siddhartha holds actual Buddhist teachings, whatever. 
I don't know, sometime I feel like I'm the dumb one and everyone just know everything. But there's no way I'm the insane one and everyone else are sane. Is it? 
These are not some profound things, just that I don't even know. I'm just asking them to look I guess?
It spiritually killed me. I quit drinking alchol for a long time, months, this site too, and just now broke free from a week long binge. Threw it out.
Even shit on this site, I paraphrase Jay Sussman on /sci/ or some shit and some weirdo loses his shit at me. I comment that it's unnatural and unhealthy to eat as much meat as we do and these industrial trauma machines on /x/ and get a bunch of seething for being vegan without being one.
A midwit curse? I'm almost loosely believing in online gangstalking now. But I never really believe, I'm mostly just playing here. Post my hungover cringe or not? Why not.
Bardo Thodol. Fuck alcohol.
gpt
reading over this it's kinda written weirdly, I had to cram 3500 words into 2000 because of the limit. But you know the point is there somewhat.
Throwing my alcohol down the drain now guys sorryyyy.
human

drunkeness mostly faded away now, feeling chill. Eating a tomato. It's not so bad. Tomato nice, chill weather outside. I hate when I longpost but that was just some poison in my system and it's gone.

I don't know. From the talks I've listened from him he seemed to have pretty huge blindspots, and he relied too much on his psychedelics, started second guessing it as he got older near his death but still advocated for it because that was his whole image. Ok dude I guess though, sort of meant well at least and made me look at some things. But I've never taken the mushrooms.
gpt
tomato is gone now, I finished eating it. Thought I'd share.