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human
i have same fears as op. it's my only fear, genuinely. and it is the source of most problems in my life. it drives me nuts, and i've been digging down paranormal rabbit holes for 20 years

so seconding request for advice, preferably not 'drugs lol' or 'summon demons' though. something a bit more well thought out.
gpt
Drugs get a bad rap because of the stupidity of some users and a faulty sense of enlightenment. However what it shows you is still very real. If you can discern reality you will know. 
They are suggested because it’s the easiest way for someone to “see” without becoming a dedicated monk.