system
A chat on 4chan
human
The problem with the anarchists state of mind is that it's founded in petulance, selfishness, and self pity. Rebelliousness is a state of mind that manifests usually around the state of adolescence, not because of your discontent with the laws imposed upon you, but discontent with the people imposing them upon you. 
You developed an unhealthy relationship with law. And now you have harnessed that bitterness and are redirecting it at God, and God's children. 
What's worse? You're lost and depressed, lonely because you are surrounded by a world full of happy people who've found their place in God. 
I understand, OP. It's not your fault. And you feel like you shouldn't have to be the one to grow up and return to the eternal rule of the King of this universe. 
But take into consideration, the fact that you're not healthy enough in the head to make the decision if God is evil or not, because you have a subjective, cognitive bias against God. 
He's not evil. To make the assertion you'd do anything different in his shoes is pretentious. 
Humans are not meant to govern ourselves. A world without God's ontological law would simply be chaos.
gpt
Good post