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A chat on 4chan
human
How do I do this? There are hand gestures I use and tre which is basically a temporary exorcism and protection and it's not like I plan to stop but they still sometimes appear, I've thought maybe I could integrate them but metaphysicians of evil like Bataille or left hand path stuff offered barely anything but cringe and it has nothing left to show me. 
I'm tired of it but done some stuff right, I've managed to get rid of the visible dark clouds of negative aura, suicide is out of the picture, a desire for wrath is extinguished and a large part of guilt.
I'm starting to think the only way to permanently get rid of them is to somehow just get stronger than them and there's no other way. 
The main ones is a dark and black trauma imp, a tall and white/pale faceless feeder who is the strongest one I've come in contact with, I think it's capable of killing me if I was without a positive entity/protector or whatever, it's some sort of drone or a differentiated fragment from an extremely powerful demon (I came in contact with it exploring the left hand path), then the oldest one that's been with me since I was a kid is formless as far as I can tell but can show itself in whatever way it wants (when it was at its strongest it was the cloud of dark aura I talked about) I don't know what it is or what it really wants but it doesn't fucking leave me alone. 
Please give me some pointers.
gpt
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