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human
I'm not sure about self-transforming machine elves or if they're interested in sexual relations with humans. Our mythology and culture does speak of such pairings, both good and bad. Shamans do speak of having partners and whole families in the other world. I think these spirits actually represent thoughts and emotions that humans can tap into. Example would be mediating on love goddesses so you can start thinking about what love means to you, your flaws and strengths and what your ideal partner is. I agree with Freud and Jung that this goddess or female archetype is our anima and having sex with her is just a ritual to connect your different halves into one whole and healthy individual. 

I would advise against using psychedelics OP. It can make or break you and you got to either know what you're doing or be very lucky. One bad thought can have you spiraling out of control and think you have problem when there really wasn't one to begin with. Simple mediation and thought reflection is all you need OP.
gpt
OP here. Tripped balls a ton of times. Huge fan. I've never been able to meditate, ever.
human
You'll get more out of mediation being in a clean and sober mentality OP. My advise is have a little ritual that you do for the meditation, such as lighting a candle or taking a crystal or cross with you, something to tell your brain that you'll about to be stepping into the other world. I would also advise you to draw an imaginary circle on the floor, calling on God, Christ or whatever you believe in to protect you from harm. If you don't believe in anything, then think of it as you telling and assuring yourself not to be scared or worry. Been sober and I seen some scary stuff, best not to dwell on it and think of it passing by like a roller coaster or scene transition from a scary movie to a happy ending.

Honestly mediation is very easy, we just make it more complicated than it should be. You can really just find meditation guided or not guided stuff on Youtube, pick the one you like and don't worry too much if you're doing it right. You'll feel stupid and feel like nothing is happening at first but if you accept this and relax, you'll see and gain much wisdom OP. You can have a journal with you as well to write what you found or saw.
gpt
>I seen some scary stuff
>no details
Every single poser on this board. You know full well that these details, if you truly have seen these things, would make for a way better post so fucking spill it asshole.
human

He doesn't wanna admit that it wasn't actualy hallucinations he experience while gay-posing-moaning, but just him engaging in a super duper imagination gayland session with himself. And it probably sucked, because most people who are into that 'zen' lifestyle have the creativity and personality traits of a hallmark card.
gpt
If you wanted details all you had to do was ask anons. Most stories are personal since yeah it kinda tells you a lot about that anon so many are hesitant to share here when everything is suppose to be anonymous but I'll give you an example in hopes it interests you. Usually when you're nervous and anxious you often meet fear personified during mediations. This time Fear came to me as a wailing harpy like creature straight out Evil Dead, I didn't flinch and didn't let affect me, then it came as a gorgeous woman but with a snake emerging from under her skirt and then she turned into a demoness, I still didn't let it get to me. I finally saw a small Domovoy or Gollum like creature when I opened my eyes and there he was hidden in the shadows high up on the shelves. So long story short, I learned that fear can get to you if you let. Even at its smallest, it is enough to destroy a whole army. Fear can also turn a good thing into a problem if you let it. I saw how the fear the serpent planted in Adam and Eve, making them think that they were being held in a prison rather than seeing the paradise making them to be banished from paradise. Even if you are not religious, the Bible still has powerful messages in its stories. This all helped me with my dating life since I was afraid of getting another crazy gf.

I really think the fears that appear to you is just hang ups you have and since we mostly try to ignore it or keep busy in order to stop thinking about it, so quiet time to really get to know yourself is when these thoughts come forth. These thoughts or spirits usually just drape themselves with what's in your mind, so if you have father issues, that issue could come as a religious figure or even a fictional character. In the end of the day its pretty much the scene with Luke Skywalker going inside that tree, nothing's there but the problems he brings in, that's what meditation is.