Showing posts with label cardiologist Wednesday. Show all posts
Showing posts with label cardiologist Wednesday. Show all posts

Saturday, May 18, 2019

2 Lead Pacemakers, Lumbar back is pain & problems are from 1 to the other, horrid Weather coming & does the "tiring issues" of life ever give a break?

Here is my "gripe(s)" for the week! Heck the MONTH, YEAR....Morning TOO EARLY!!! My two fur babies think it's time for me to get up and bake or do something while they go back to bed!!! GGGRRR!!! As much as I love them sometimes I want to kick their butts! I am just so totally upset... I finally went to get the Orthopedic Surgeon for the CT results on my lower back. 

Well, as I figured as always NEVER have I had one test (CT or MRI) come back & say how bad something really is... it's not until I spend sometimes YEARS griping & bitching, and then they finally do surgery, and YES it's all MUCH worse than any of their scans!!!! IT has happened to me on my neck, my knees, my shoulders, my hips and back lumbar spine now.... (I look up what the CT Scan says and ALL OF MY SYMPTOMS ARE RELATED TO EXACTLY WHAT HE FOUND ON THE CT SCAN, EVEN THOUGH MY DOCTOR ACTED AS IF THEY WERE NO BIG DEAL!)

 I am so sick of paying out good money, then having to travel on the other side of Dallas almost to get to the doctor, and then it's like "no big deal"... Well I have the report, and THERE are thing wrong!!!! It's much worse than the one 4 years ago.. Now I am not saying he needs to jump in and do surgery BUT at least acknowledge there are issues and they could be causing the severity of pain I am in, then my left hand at the base of my knuckles on the top side from the middle finger down to my thumb all of a sudden has swollen up huge, is red and appears to almost have "fever" in it... and hurts so much I could barely stand to drive with it or even use it for anything... and I've never had problems with my left hand always my right one and not this bad... so on top of that, I had him look at the right shoulder that HE did a "total reverse replacement" on about 7 years ago... and it's been so bad with pain, and being weak and stiff ever since my last neck surgery in 2017..

 I am not sure what he did when he was doing that neck surgery, but I know it was a mess in there, but they must have positioned that shoulder in some way that really messed it up... when I showed him (as he could not even sit still long enough for me to talk to him) then he looks at my strange and says "this shoulder would I believe need to be replaced" it's "bone on bone" for some reason... so why don't he just say he screwed it up.... that would mean a MAJOR SURGERY... that would take 4 hours or more to totally replace that entire shoulder and then I may not have good use from it, or still have pain and stiffness, and it be more weak than it is now.... PLUS my ankles were so swollen after spending over an hour driving to Dallas yesterday, and then by the time I got home, I had to get on the sofa, and get them up... well, I think it's due to whatever is going on with my "heart function" being worse... I need that "special pacemaker" that has 2 leads to two different places in my heart, but I had been in the middle of this lower back mess when I found out about the heart thing, so I wanted to find out what the hell was going on with the back before going to get another doctor and facing a pacemaker, that started out as just a tiny pacemaker to help up my heart rate, to my cardiologist did that echocardiogram before the pacemaker was put in. Come to find out my heart function is worse than it has been ever...

It had not changed at all since actually that 1st heart attack back when I was 40... even though I had another one at 50, that one was mild enough, it's didn't cause anymore "damage" to the heart muscle... well now I had not had an echo done for 2 years and for some reason now the function in one chamber has gone down, SO had I NOT been the one to "kind of push" for the pacemaker at first for the heart rate being so low, we may have not found out about this heart function thing, until I had some type of problem.. I apologize everyone I hate to always seem to be "griping" every time I even try to post..... and I don't mean it that way, it just seems that I cannot get a break, if it's not one thing it's the we have very severe thunderstorms coming all weekend, even possibly through next week.... and the weather has been so nuts, we are "eat up" with all kinds of ants, bugs, the rain has driven them up on the house, all of a sudden I am fighting them in the house, and I keep my house spotless, so there is nothing they are after it's just the crazy weather.... 

I am exhausted and seem to just have it piling on more and more, the lawn cannot get mowed all the way, because the weather acts up or I have to do something else before I can finish mowing....I again am just so sick and tired, of being sick and tired and of having one problem after the other... I did call and schedule the appt with the heart specialist about the pacemaker with 2 leads - I see him next week, and at least he is closer, just about 15 miles away instead of half way to OK... by the time you drive to see anyone in Dallas the way things are now... here is info on different types of pacemakers.. and this company also makes my pain pump

I KNOW IT SEEMS all I do is fuss, gripe and whine about everything... I would just like to have a bit of peace of mind and everything else for a few months, heck I would settle for days!!!