Thursday, June 29, 2006


Well, it's a brand new day...or evening, right now. :o)
Meant to post some pix of Hunter, but can't get the cd to work, and Chance is off with the camera. :oP
Well, it seems to have been a long week. Am working my way through feelings of being antsy, and anxious, and full of energy, but exhausted at the same time. :o|
I was beginning to go stir crazy in the hospital after Hunter was born, I didn't get dischraged until Tuesday afternoon...I could actually compare it to jail. I was stuck on the ward, in one room, with a curtain for privacy, having a strict three meals served to me, and nurses to tell me when to do different things. Not to mention loved ones only visiting for 30 minutes at a time...ugh. I was very happy to come home.
I have to say being at home has been a bit tougher than I had hoped it was going to be. Am trying really hard not to notice that the effort level isn't what I expected, basically because I know I can expect too much sometimes.
Chance is out with D tonight, they decided to go camping with Chance's friend. I was invited of course, but just wasn't feeling secure enough to go.
It's been a busy week...Sunday Hunter was born, monday was in the hospital, Tuesday was released, Wednesday was shopping at Salvation Army for their 1.49 day and my midwife appointment, today was the pediatrician's appointment to do a check up on Hunter.
When I had Hunter, he managed to get stuck during the delivery, and in the proccess I had a swarm of ppl out of no-where's telling me how to deliver. It was really an emergency situation that wasn't explained fully (so I could understand) until I seen Kalia on Wednesday. In any event, because they were pushing and pulling so hard ( I had two ppl pushing on my tummy to turn him that way, and two reaching inside to turn him) his shoulder was "damaged" during the delivery. He wasn't moving it the first day, but has since shown terrific improvement. He's now bending, flexing and lifting it. All a relief because other wise he would've needed a nerve transplant. :oP
Anyhow, It's been a busy week...and I'm looking forewward to a busy weekend cause Pokie and Steven are comin for a visit, along with Gramma already being here, it'll be a full house. :o)
I'm curious to see what it's gonna be like when everything goes back to normal.
Darius loves can tell he's kind of trying to adjust, but there's a lot of other factors in there that don't really have anything to do with Hunter. I'm happy with his behaviour though, he's definately a doting big brother. He already enjoys snuggling, holding, touching, holding hands, and singing to Hunter.
I'm saddened that he's had to mature so quickly.
Such is life I suppose.
In any's feeding time again...I need to scoot. Just thought I'd update everyone, and gain some semblance of normalcy.

Sunday, June 25, 2006

Early Labour Apprehension

Well, it's sunday and the main portion of my busy weekend is over and done far.
Darius had a birthday party yesterday, and I really enjoyed it. :o)
Da had lots of fun after he ate and got some energy into him.
Taysha's parents loved the gift that I made.
Stupid bank. After having to struggle with them for the deposited money, and with the purchase of the Jeep, that meant that I couldn't buy Taysha a gift. So, instead I just made her a bunch of costumes. I spent, literally, all of Friday making them. I really enjoyed it though cause it's a lot easier to make pretty girly things than it is to make boy things... :oD
We had fun at the party, I was pleased that there were only 3 other kids there, and they were all from pre-school. :o)

Am up unusually early this mornin, awoke to needing to pee (boy this seems familiar) and when I went discovered that I've lost my mucuos plug. Y'all can look that one up. In any event, it's a sign of early labour. Oh boy. Now, I'm all antsy...and am itching to wake someone up because I wanna be busy...yet another sign of early labour.
I'm kinda hopin it's not cause I haven't done my belly cast yet...LOL
Now, the Doula said that I do need to address any fears that I may, here goes.

I'm absolutely terrified that I'll loose the hold on the control I have on how things will progress. I don't want to end up in a delivery room all drugged up, and not holding my baby for 30-45 minutes after it's born.

I'm scared that it'll hurt...a lot. *g* I don't remember how much I hurt with D.

I'm afraid that I won't know what to do.

All in all, that's a small amount of the apprehension that's got me up early this mornin, itching for conversation. *sighs*

I'm happy to report though that Gramma was planning on coming out, along with Steven and Candice. yay! My favorite people. After the failure of a baby shower that I had, I am happy to know that the people who do matter most to me are going to be here for me and the new baby.

Anyhow...I guess I should scoot, find something to do that's gonna occupy my hands and not suck up my energy. I need a focal point.

Thursday, June 22, 2006

Darius' Graduation

I'm very happy with today's outsome... :o)
I got good pictures of all of his classmates :oD
It was truly too cute to watch them all at the front of the class, singing us songs. I thankfully was able to restrain myself :o) And every mother there seemed to see fit to tell me how big I am. One more week...*sigh*
We made cards for each of the kids, and Darius handed them out to each one, which was really sweet to watch. Each child truly seemed to appreciate it, and were proud to show their parents what Darius made them.
Unfortunaely I didn't have the opportunity to make a fantastic snack like I normally do, but that's alright...I guess I can slip up this once. :oD
We're supposed to go thrift shopping this afternoon with mum...yay.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006


Did I mention D got invited to a birthday party this weekend?
Am debating on whether or not I should make some pretty dresses or not. I enjoy making clothes for gifts, but am wondering if it's appropriate for a school-mate. Mebbe I can do both, make a couple of pretty dresses, and then buy a cute toy.

Happy National Aboriginal Day

Busy Morning.
Phew...glad it's over and done with.
So, this morning, mom went to work (on a stat holiday) and I had a midwife appointment. Along with the money from our land sale being deposited yesterday, we had a bit of trouble trying to withdraw anything from them, and after making a few phone calls this morning have come to the understanding that there will be a hold on it ofr 4 more days until the cheque clears. blah on that.
Fortunately I talked my way into having them releasing some money so we could pay for the Jeep (holy was Chance ever grumpy when he heard the news of the hold to begin with cause it was originally all of it) and insurance. Thankfully, Chance is definately in a better mood. His patience level just isn't that high these days.
We also got a bunch of extra stuff with the Jeep, for future repairs and upgrades and such. And now the list of minor adjustments begin. :o) I made Chance promise that even though he bought a vehicle b4 the baby got here, that he's not to make any modifications on it untli after the baby is born. I refuse to schedual myself and Darius around his social life, cause it'll be friends that'll be doing modifications with him.
It runs nice, it feels strange to be in a vehicle that I know has 4x4 capabilities, but still be relatively low in. It's a touch on the bouncy side, but that's cause it's not brand new like the Expedition was.
So, in any event, after we finally got the insurance stuff signed for, we had to dash to my midwife's appointment, of which I was a half hour late for. Thankfully she rushed me through without too much hassel.

Busy morning...phew.

The Jeep needs a good wash-down cause it's dusty, and the inside could use a good wash down as well, cause it's pretty dusty inside as well.

Today is National Aboriginal Day...and there are celebrations downtown at the Friendship Center and here at Sensisysten. Hopefully D will go down for his nap without much hummin and fussing so we can catch some of the yummy food and good entertainment.'m so hungry.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Rain Rain

Well Well...Tuesday already. :oP
Today was supposed to be a "Water Day" at pre-school for D, but the teachers cancelled it because it's not warm enough this morning. :o( I was looking forward to getting some good water play pictures of he and his classmates. Too bad.
So, with the new week I now need to begin taking my "homeopathics" to help my body prepare for labour and delivery. 4 pills, once a day, without food or drink for 15 minutes before and after I take them. Interesting. At least they don't leave a bad taste in the mouth.
We had some great spring storms roll through yesterday.
After D's nap, we drove dad to work, then went to the park for a picnic with some Subway. D played for about 45 minutes before it kinda started sprinkling, and I decided it was time to go. We went to go to the library, but they were, like, 3:30 on a Monday, what up with dat? Anyhow, we went and ordered Chance a pizze cause that's what he requested for dinner, and while we were waiting for it, it started to pour.
Darius and his wonderful innocence...I looked at him in the rear-view and asked him if he was ready to run, and he had a grin from ear to ear! So, we ran inside, and by the time we got there (not long cause we were parked right in front of the door) he was giggling madly, and had a hard time stopping. Then he did it again when we dropped off th epizza for Chance. And by the itme we got to mom's office to pick her up, the one little storm we started in, collided with a bigger storm from the west...and caused a hail storm. I couldn't hear a thing while I was driving, and it was crazy cause I know I seen some lightning strikes which must've knocked out a section of power cause one of the lights on the hwy were out. Stupid 4-way-stop crap. People are so dumb when you get them into masses. So, I'm obeying the 4-way rule, and some dumb ass on a motor cycle almost gets himself run over by me. Scare the be-jiminy's outta me.
So, we finally get to moms office4, and Darius once again has the grin on his face, and as we prepare to run to the door, he just hops out and doesn't even bother to wait for my umbrella. Hehehe...I went inside and he grabbed a drink from mom, and then it was a race back to the car, dodging all the puddles...and of course, all three of us got soaked, cause my umbrella was so dinky it barely kept the big drips off of me, and the ones it caugh dropped on me anyways.
We decided to go out for dinner, but once we got to the Hwy, we couldn't decide which way to go cause both ways were back up...the bridge apparently wasn't draining properly and had standing water on it, and the lights on the way to Westbank still hadn't become, we just decided to take the long way to Westbank.
We went for Chinese, which was kinda nice...and during the entire meal Darius wouldn't stop talking about "Elsie" his babysitter (he'd seen her earlier when I dorpped off the pizza). So we stopped and picked her up, and had her watch D for about and hor and a half.
We're impatiently waiting for our money transfer to take place...which should be happening today. Lalala...just a matter of patience.

Saturday, June 17, 2006

Labor Thoughts

The weekend is here.
Mom and Kim will be going to Jean and Ernie's 60th wedding anniversary party. Wonder why we weren't invited...hmm. *shrugs*
We went out early this morning to go and look at a Jepp Cherokee that Chance wanted to see, and along the way I told him he'd better be buying me breakfast cause his child is hungry. He stared at me with a bewildered look and said I fed Darius oatmeal before we left...
I told him he has two children now, and he needs to remember that. *g*
We had our appointment with Kate (our Doula) yesterday, and it was very informative, along with our last midwife appointment (Kalia, on Wed.). Both women settled me a little more, and helped bring the picture of a natural childbirth to reality. Always nice. :o)
Was kinda funny...when we had our babysitter in (two weeks ago), and I picked Chance up from playin pool with the guys, one of his guy friends asked me how I was having the baby (induction, c-section, so on) and I replied "as naturally as possible". He gave me a funny look and said, like a home birth, or water birth? LOL
It's funny what kind of perceptions people have of delivering a baby.
When I corrected him and said, "No, I just don't plan on having any medications" he kind of just shrugged me off. Hollywood really distorts the natural order of things.
I'm tired...I need a nap.

Thursday, June 15, 2006


Fuck off people.

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

Daily Mail

Ah yes, back to the daily grind!
I missed the air conditioning, let me tell you!

Things are going back to we didn't miss anything.

Friday, June 09, 2006

Site Down

On with my day I suppose...

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

Happy Birthday Chance

Well today was a productive where we hardly had a minute.
My oh my...Chance turns 26 today.


So...we shall see ho wit goes.

Monday, June 05, 2006

Mondays Schmundays

Still have that overwhelming feeling of lonliness.

Saturday, June 03, 2006


I can't help but feel a touch discouraged after a day like today.
On the one hand, I'm very proud that my son is so well behaved, and well mannered, and polite. But for the love of God, why does he need to be so impressionable?!
Today was his friend Ty's birthday party, out in Peachland. I took D out yesterday to go shopping for the gift, and he had a fair amount of fun with it. :o) We picked out a nice big goodie bag for him, and D got a couple of treats for himself.
I slept in this morning, which was nice...and woke up to D telling me what time it was, and that it was Ty's birthday party today. So, I got up, and made a quick birthday card to go with our gift, and then got myself ready. D was so very excited. I can't tell if it was because he was going to a party in general, or if it was because he was going to see Ty (Ty was removed from his pre-school class just after D's birthday because he was too big...or whatever).
We got there, and I was mildly surprised to find that Ty's mom is a single parent. (I guess it kind of showed) There ended up being at least a dozen kids at the party, and only her to guide them all (besides Chance and I). That in itself would have seemed overhwleming to me. The poor woman was run ragged trying to keep up with all of the children's requests and keep and eye on them to keep them out of trouble.
All in all the party was a disappointment, because Darius seemed to be the only child there capable of using his manners and speaking politely without being asked to. (Let's not even go near the issue of the mother serving all kinds of candy and sweets before the kids got started on anything.) That includes the birthday boy, Ty, who incidentally pushed Darius off of the playground set up when they all went for a quick jaunt to the school across the street to play. Chance commented that I was being a little mean when I corrected a much older boy for using the word "cheap" when describing something he didn't agree with right in front of Darius.
I can understand wanting to invite all of your child's friends, but there is a limit when you're inviting people, you really need to stick with the same age...either older, or younger. It's just not functional to mix both age groups.
In any event, we stayed until they served cake (which only took 2 hours) and then we left. Upon arriving at home, I tossed the cake in the fridge and put D's prizes away. (He got a water gun, and some bubbles) I then put him to bed, because he was tired from a day of play with other kids.
My wonderful little angel decided to pee in his new water gun, and then spray it all over the wall above (and on) his bed.
Today is just too much...I think I need a nap to recharge my "positive" battery cause I sure do feel discouraged...not only that some people don't have the ability to give their children the proper attention that they need, but also that my child is so impressionable I just don't want to let him out of the house anymore...
I'm gonna go lay down.

Thursday, June 01, 2006

Thursday Hump

Well, the week is almost over...good thing too cause I don't believe it would benefit this household if much more could happen. Of course, bad things never stick to regular business times, now do they? :o)
Our toilet has officially stopped working, which means (unfortunately) that we're out running all over town looking for a bathroom when we need one.
Chance didn't go to work this morning cause he was up all night fighting with the silly toilet, and mom went in late cause she was busy trying to call someone to come and fix it.
Unfortunately, no one can come until tommorow. Oh well, guess we'll be doin it campin style until then. :oP
Am getting ready to clean the house a bit...vacuum, load up the dishwasher, gotta clean out moms car too as there is a piece of crushed PB&J sandwhich in the backseat from yesterday.
Poor everyone, they's all stressed out. I'm oblivious though, mainly because I choose to be that way...I'm not taking ownership of any of the stress. Funny how I can do that now, but when I really needed to in the past I just couldn't do it.
Am kinda hungry, but am in no mood to go cook something up yet. I gotta go get milk and Peanut butter...and there was something else, but now I can't member what it was.
I really need to write things down more often.