Our Global Hotplate….

The temperature is predicted to reach 100 degrees today and its only June28th.  For East TN this is a very hot forecast. These temperatures always cause people to use twice as much electricity to keep cool than a typical day in the low nineties. i am burdened with the planet heating up and people going about their daily lives as if there is no connection at all to the way we live and the Earths atmosphere heating up. Instead there are people running around to every store to buy everything they can to keep cool or what they think they need to keep cool. Using more gas and cranking up the A/C to fullblast and buying more and more throw away products. They are too hot so they dont cook. they will just sit in the drive through lane for twenty minutes to order fake food to take home to the family. Every step of this behavior only creates more pollution which further compromises our air quality.  I do not justify the behavior of people smoking and making the rest of the nonsmoking world tolerate their pollutive smoke; but its really no worse than the nonsmokers trudging their SUV’s everywhere rather than staying put. How can we get people to see that we need a wakeup call? A major power outage would really get the attention of the drone ants out there who keep going without consideration of the rest of the world around them. The National Weather Center stated that we are expected to see temperatures rise to 108 by Saturday! I am sad to consider that my efforts are not even putting a dent in the state of our planet.  I am at least consoled a bit by the efforts made within my family to keep the A/C off so far this year.  We have a big house and it would costs hundreds every month to keep it moderately cool through the use of central air.I want to create an event to get peoples attention. I want to see how far this will reach. the Mayans , the Hopis and the Khogi Indians all predict that we will face “game over” this December if we do not change our ways this very minute. We all need to stop stop stop the madness of consumerism and convenience and sucking the life out of this massive amazing planet we call home(for now)  We can leave differences in religion , faith and politics aside and all stand in unity together across this whole globe to say that a serious change needs to take place regarding all the natural disasters and the connection they have to our environmental issues and the horrendous pollution we are creating for nothing noble at all. I want to try to convince 1 billion people to shut down all their power for 24 straight hours. Turn off the main breakers in the house. The cell phones all go off for 24 hours. No peeking. Nothing plugged in your house should have power. Do not drive anywhere. pitch a tent if you have to. Do not buy anything or use anything electrical for 24 hours straight. Many will find alot of negative reasons as to why this is not a good idea or why it WONT work. I dont care to hear about it. We all WONT work if this emergency situation isnt tended to immediately. Many people will not even consider this challenge because they are too faithful to live through their ego to consider such an inconvenience. If we do not power down now then you can be sure its only a matter of time before the grid goes down due to system overload. I have been dreaming of this. For many many years. Many others have been dreaming of this same thing. its now really about convincing others moreso than it is about gathering all the dreamers together for one great common cause.  You do not necessarily read the papers anymore or watch too much mainstream news broadcasts. You have been frustrated for years over all the severe LACK of real information in the news.  You have grown apathetic to the common community projects because something inside you feels something so much bigger than you calling for attention. You may not be able to explain why you feel called to this challenge but you know within your very being that you are destined for this. You know who you are. You feel an imminent urgency of epic proportions on the horizon of our time here on Earth. You do not understand but you know this is a real feeling inside of you. Why are you here? Why are any of us here? to Watch tv every night and eat food prepared by machines then sold to us? Are we here to just simply exist day in and day out until we are old and then die? For such a grand place as this planet is, what a total waste of magic. Every day we do not quest to find out our reason for being humans here on this planet right now is another day wasted. Why would the Earth keep spinning for prime time tv? Why would it keep spinning for McDonald’s dollar menu? Or for the Lady Vols? The Superbowl? Mtv music awards? Christmas? is that why we are here? To collect as many christmases as we can? If this question strikes you brighter than it has before than i urge you to unclutter your life and remove all the distraction you can and consider why you are here? If you can find peace in the idea that you are not here to live the banal lives we have found ourselves in most of the day then what can it hurt you to take on this challenge? Consider that all the crap we put in our everyday is whats making this planet unable to sustain life.  The water is undrinkable without intervention and treatment. The earth wont grow food unless you clean up your lawn. MOst people wouldnt dare consider even growing their own food. They were raised on grocery stores and they bore children and raised them on grocery stores and restaurants.  Noone is expecting you to shut down your whole life. Its one day. 24hours of bicycles, and walking and hiking and resting and reading and praying and laughing and sharing and stopping all the noise vibrating throughout our houses this very minute. 90percent of the animals that onced lived on this planet are now extinct. Shame on you and shame on me. What if something wiped out 90percent of the human beings right now? That would get your attention. We are at the tipping off mark. Change has to begin now. That doesnt mean hold weekly rallies where people DRIVE cars and trucks and buses and airplanes to meet and discuss our global environmental crisis. It means do not stop even on your bike at any store to buy anything that requires throwing away TRASH . If you shut down it means you avoid all companies who have their power on. NO fans or heaters. No cooking with anything other than natural fire  . NO computers, laptops, cellphones, mp3 players can actually hold power for longer than 24hours so it wouldnt hurt to listen to tunes in desperation. I believe we can find 1 billion people who see we are in a state of emergency. I would hope to have at the eleventh hour a global rally where we all stand in unison wherever we are and to be mindful of the power of one. of unity. If you are one who prays then you pray . if you or agnostic or atheist then you sit in agreement with your fellow man , beast and living thing.  This is not going to be something to print millions of tshirts for. I hope not for this cause to go global only for people to spend more time sitting on their rumps over the internet or tweeting more. Technology has NOT made our lives easier. its created havoc on our ecosystem and only seperated people from the truth in connecting with one another. Why give our whole lives to corporations yet suffer to find one 24hour period to give back to our mother earth?  without the nourishment of this planet then we are no more. NOw is the time to stop the clock. Before our time runs out. We are all dying anyhow , so why not spend some quality time trying to keep the clock going for others before the clock stops on its own?

Dearest Cath……



reaching higher…

The ancient Mayans believed as the native Americans today still believe  that life and the path we find ourselves on is all about remembering.  They believe that all the truth and Knowledge of the universe and of all our yesterdays and tomorrows is  within us.   etched in our DNA.  They believe that all we need to know …we already know if only we would peel back the layers we have wrapped ourselves in , we would find the truth, the tools, the ultimate in who we really are and who we are meant to be.  Why do we try to so hard to forget when our very essence holds all this truth?  Truth is not relative to the seeker. Your truth may allow you to see that all plants and trees of this world are actually black, yet from the beginning of time the general truth is that all plants and trees are green. Is there only one truth? Perhaps if we all find our truth we can find how it blends perfectly with everyone else’s truth once they find and live it?  In my search for remembering the ultimate truth of my existence, my path, i am forced to remember where it all started for me. Where this path of mine began. Where i came from.  The memories do not come in chronological order for me.  LIke flashbacks  swift and random they inundate me whenever they choose. Or am i the one choosing these moments of remembering?

Terry(short for Tyrone) was in the living room.  I was hiding behind the couch.  i can still hear my sister Keller screaming.  The pounding of my heart nearly drowned her out as i could hear it beating loud from my ears, my chest, my skin.  Terry was laughing and before i ran behind the couch i saw the look of pleasure on his face. Even at age 7 i knew to question what is wrong with someone who would find pleasure in such morbidly grotesque behavior. I do not remember where my brother Mitchell was.  I knew i was NOT dreaming and this was really happening. I knew Terry was a monster but i wasn’t old enough yet to think ten steps ahead of the game in order to guess what might happen next.  That came later.  My mind was racing yet it seemed i could not form one complete thought.  This was my first memory of experiencing panic.  Mom was never home and my bully (mild understatement) brother Terry was up to his mind games with us.  He came up with the idea to take his own fecal matter and chase us around the house with it.  He kept yelling that he was gonna make me wear it, make me taste it.  Are there words to describe a seven year old girls moment of terror?  I tried to reason with myself that at least he wasn’t angry and ready to use one of us as a punching bag.  I tried to wrap my brain around the idea that he was going to catch me being soo much bigger and stronger.  I tried to prepare myself to accept that he was going to smear this disgusting handful of feces all over me.  Moments like these offer more challenges than opportunity to gain gifts and strengths as its so difficult to know what good can come from surviving this kind of traumatic torture. More often than not, children who grow up in this environment tend to remain more damaged than strengthened.  Retelling the memory forces a surviver to relive every moment described.  I am still unsure if i really gained anything positive or productive from that experience.  Perhaps the gift i received was hidden in the strength required to endure it?

Down with the white man.
