Things have been reminding me of her tonight. Not why I loved her, just her. Like they've been forcing me to think about her and my intestines feel weird now. Not my heart. Not my stomach. My intestines. I don't know why that might be! I want to trip with her still. Or just talk! I feel like so much was left unsaid. Not that it really needs to be said anymore. I'd still like to though. I need to apologize for being such a shitty suitor.