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I have been fat for most of my life, since I was a child. We all know how cruel children can be and believe me they were. Every day of my life for years I was tormented and tortured based on my weight. It wasn't just the kids though, teachers were guilty too. I had teachers tell me I was fat and worthless too, I had teachers TELL other kids to pick on the 'fat girl'. When you're a kid who is doing everything you can to lose the weight, the pain of that cruelty and judgment is unbelievable.

I have only been able to lose weight once in my life and that was because I was very sick and did not know it. I have spent many years trying and trying to lose weight but no matter what I do I cannot seem to lose it. I have spoken to my Dr. about the lap-band surgery and he flatly refused. He said I wasn't trying hard enough because I guess 25 years isn't enough for him.

Thin people tend to think that all fat people are lazy slobs who don't care about themselves or the choices they make. For some that is true, I'll admit. But for a lot of us that isn't true. Many of us struggle daily to try to force our bodies to drop those extra pounds thin people find so offensive. We try to make healthy choices and exercise all while listening to thin people ridicule us.

Do you know how painful i]]> http://www.cafemom.com/journals/read/1613210/Sizism http://www.cafemom.com/journals/read/1613210/Sizism Sun, 01 Aug 2010 13:06:49 EDT <![CDATA[The Twilight Phenomenon]]>  Ahh Twilight, the worldwide phenomenon that makes little girls and their moms wet their pants. But the question is WHY? Why does every female become obsessed with this? I will admit that I enjoyed the books but I cannot understand it.

Teenagers I understand, the books are pretty good and the actors are ok if you're 15. But I do not understand 40-50 year old women obsessing over these guys. Taylor Lautner is a child and I met a woman with a tattoo of him, she's 42. If she was a man obsessing over Taylor Swift it would be creepy and people would call him a predator. So why is it "cute" when a much older woman is wetting her pants over these guys?

I'm sorry I just don't get it, I love vampires, but I just don't think Twilight is the epitome of vamp stories. They are ok books but they aren't that good and I don't think that the movies are anything special. And this may get me stoned to death but I do not think Taylor and Robert are attractive. Taylor is a child and Rob is a sissy. Sorry ladies.

http://www.cafemom.com/journals/read/1608590/The_Twilight_Phenomenon Wed, 07 Jul 2010 17:13:19 EDT <![CDATA[A Dark and Stormy Night]]>  

A Dark and Stormy Night.

It was late and I was lost. The rain poured down on me, it was the reason I was lost. Well it was part of the reason, I knew better than to wander off like this, there was a reason that it was forbidden to be in these woods at night. I was soaked to the skin, not an inch of my body was dry. Why had I run away from him like this? Steve was always a jerk, I shouldn’t let him get to me like that.

“Idiot.” I said to myself. Just then there was a flash of lightning and a crash of thunder, unable to help myself I screamed. When the lightning faded and my eyes cleared, there was a shape before me. There standing in the pouring rain was a man. “Good,” I thought, “Steve found me.”

I ran toward him calling his name. As I got closer realized with a start that it was not Steve but a stranger standing in the rain. This man was several inches taller than Steve. His hair long and dark where Steve’s was short and fair. The stranger started toward me. I stopped running.

Lightning struck again, illuminating him for a moment. Part of me was frightened but part of me was drawn to him. He was beautiful and he smiled at me. The thunderclap deafened me but he seemed unaffected and continued toward me. I knew I s]]> http://www.cafemom.com/journals/read/1591301/A_Dark_and_Stormy_Night http://www.cafemom.com/journals/read/1591301/A_Dark_and_Stormy_Night Sat, 17 Apr 2010 03:35:07 EDT <![CDATA[incompetent hospital staff and suffering new mom]]>  

I was wondering if anyone else suffered so at the hands of the hospital when they gave birth. This is pretty long and I appreciate anyone who reads to the end. It’s basically a looong rant but I gotta tell someone!

My regular ob was on vacation when my daughter was born, leaving me with an out of town surgeon and the on call ob. I have no complaints about the surgeon, he did his job well. The on call ob however is another story. I am a type one diabetic, he was convinced that I was a gestational diabetic. No matter how we tried we could not get through to him that I am type one.

The first morning the nurse came to check my sugar, okay no problem there used to that. I needed a little corrective insulin and said she would get it. I told her that it was okay I'd take care of it as I had my own on me. She said "let me just go check that in and I'll be right back." She returns and gives me hospital insulin, which is different from my own, and started to leave. When I asked where my insulin was she said that the person she had to check it in with was not there and that I would get it back later. It was not until much later I was told that I could not have it back until I left.

Meanwhile my sugar is not behaving, it is always running a little high. Meals, blood sugar checks and insulin are not running at the right intervals and no one will]]> http://www.cafemom.com/journals/read/1565405/incompetent_hospital_staff_and_suffering_new_mom http://www.cafemom.com/journals/read/1565405/incompetent_hospital_staff_and_suffering_new_mom Sat, 09 Jan 2010 03:29:32 EST