cal's listography / › daily log (風物詩) list updates,2019-08-14:7130020512/1426717311/1565783163 › daily log (風物詩) index ― __♥:__ best days _2019_ ⇢ __january__ *__0101 |__ fireworks (cu de copacabana), rio, chan's a pothead and felix's a funkeiro according to _stele,_ reducing sleep meds, _hymn of death._ ♥ *__0201 |__ dreamt of seulgi, tinder boys, _rachel_ comforting me at playground, hanging out with _sis, rafa and her cousin._ *__0301 |__ _i wish that i could wake up with amnesia,_ yt vids, nap till 7pm, au, ranting to my friends while crying. *__0401 |__ not eating, _skiz_ vids, matricula na escola, call with _may_ (she helped me a lot), getting back with debbie (feeling happy.) *__0501 |__ _você não vai parar de sorrir?,_ eyebrows, going to the pub with sis, rafa and rachel, karaoke night, _p.s. still love you (45%)._ *__0601 |__ watching _you,_ _wifi ralph,_ exchanging affection with sun at the cinema, holding hands with may in the mall, meeting my old school friends. ♥ *__0701 |__ family reunion in my bedroom, _you,_ doing nothing, being dirty with _fer,_ sleeping 5am talking to _debbie._ *__0801 |__ fake married with davi, feeling down, _recognize small victories,_ depression crisis, _kaguya_ and _hymn of death._ *__0901 |__ still sad, time alone, _lady midnight (7%),_ drawing, watching _bunny girl._ *__1001 |__ isolated, quality time with my parents, book (17%), _accidentally in love,_ ill never be a normal teen. *__1101 |__ _im just gonna stay in bed forever,_ no meds and no food, _a quiet place,_ taking a nap, _thirty but seventeen._ *__1201 |__ sleeping 8am, _still seventeen,_ dance medley, i need to **** someone jeez, bingewatching _sex education._ *__1301 |__ bored, anime and kdrama, _lady midnight (25%),_ i can't sleep without meds, trying to be alone but looking for friends. *__1401 |__ chae day!!, in my bedroom for a week, _kubo and the two strings,_ finishing _bunny girl_ and _still 17,_ i dont feel the same. *__1501 |__ _titans,_ listening to 2000s songs, popcorn, hating myself, taking sleep pilss. *__1601 |__ crying at the therapist, _no one can help me,_ finishing _titans,_ mom saying hyunjin looks like a girl, _junkyu._ *__1701 |__ YG TREASURE BOX REALITY ALL DAY! *__1801 |__ finishing ygtb, junkyu will make a debut, helping sister with her job interview, laughing at vids with mom. ♥ *__1901 |__ stray kids' vlive, burn the stage, horror gameplay, feeling sad and alone, ice cream. *__2001 |__ sky castle, _el laberinto del fauno,_ conversations with _lari,_ ice cream again, maybe i have a date tomorrow. *__2101 |__ scared of stepping out of my comfort zone, _skz,_ games with debbie and davi, _sky castle_ with mom. *__2201 |__ going out of home, listening to songs, visiting the hospital, the mall, buying school objects. *__2301 |__ laying in bed all day, stray kids are saving my life, _the haunting of hill house,_ mingau de aveia. *__2401 |__ finishing hill house, _life is strange 2,_ watching live all day!!, tapioca, _rachel._ *__2501 |__ grandma is home, _sky castle_ with fam, afternoon conversation, dancing the night away, making future plans with _debbie._ ♥ *__2601 |__ sleeping 8am, my phillipines' friend!, boring day, rabbit with _tina,_ we talked for more than 7 hours. *__2701 |__ boring day. *__2801 |__ talking in baby voice with debbie, fun chat with safadas do johnny, felix is my ex crush (japa), juan is a cutiepie! *__2901 |__ driving grandma home, _sky castle,_ the 9th, _tina._ *__3001 |__ therapy, talking about killing the old me, kdrama with mom, _foda-se,_ alan. *__3101 |__ making stele's social media au, writing poetry, sky castle!!!, sweet popcorn. ⇢ __february__ *__0102 |__ stele's bday!!!, crying bc of k-drama, song _hero,_ talking to davi, _am i doing the right thing?_ *__0202 |__ _hereditary,_ watching horror movies alone is my job, finishing _sky castle,_ i guess i don't wanna die, crepioca. *__0302 |__ flirting with girls, esfiha and ice cream, stray kids!!, talking to davi. *__0402 |__ _am i liking her again?,_ everything is so twisted..., remembering old days, feeling hot in a green shirt, buying tickets for bts movie. *__0502 |__ talking about getting out of comfort zone in therapy, getting eyebrows done, haircut(e)!, lots of selfies, sexy. *__0602 |__ _owari no seraph,_ anxious about school starting, but it didn't actually, making lots of gifs and pics, feeling beautiful. ♥ *__0702 |__ _ouija,_ also _romance is a bonus book,_ laughing with my mom, flirting, feeling kinda depressed at night. *__0802 |__ spoiling my girlfriend, bingewatching _one day at a time,_ pretty much it?, oh maybe this girl will come to rio. *__0902 |__ seulgi bday and i did nothng, uniform, cousins, crying at the cinema bc of singularity, rock concert w may and stele and lots of dogs. ♥ *__1002 |__ _she's using me,_ caleb day, exchanging lots of midia with the bunny of my kitten, trashy movie with nath and rafa, _jennifer's body._ *__1102 |__ resident evil 2, first day of school, im very friendly actually, viviane is my teacher Again. *__1202 |__ feeling bad, headache and bodyache, skipping school, _dear ex._ *__1302 |__ nath and rafa, _meteor garden_ with parents, _brooklyn 99,_ gay panic. *__1402 |__ finishing _meteor garden,_ cólica, napping at afternoon, b99, _maybe i have i crush?_ *__1502 |__ dont remember, b99, late for school, having a crush on this boy. *__1602 |__ resenha, meeting alfa friends again, they were all drunk, making out with breno Oh My God, karaoke night with family. ♥ *__1702 |__ driving sister home, yeah everything is upside down, i'm never seeing them Ever Again, _davi._ *__1802 |__ mariana's birthday rolê, _minha vida em marte,_ misturando as tribos, going to school right after rolê, coming home early. ♥ *__1902 |__ _romance is a novel book_ with parents, letícia is also bi!, i hate chemistry, my gf telling me im prettier then usual. *__2002 |__ smiling in therapy, debbie's letter, we went on a call and i cried, i love seeing her face and hearing her voice :<, SHE TALKED TO MY PARENTS, we looking at each other's lips as if we were going to kiss, me skipping class and having an anxiety attack. ♥ *__2102 |__ _brooklyn 99,_ monsta x is coming to brazil Oh No, call with debbie again, not going to school, horror stories animated. *__2202 |__ waking up early, 1 fav and ill talk to my crush, brown lipstick, coming home early, call with debbie. *__2302 |__ _sam and colby,_ shopping carnival stuff, _mayra and mariana,_ dancing to my pace in a devil's costume, sleepover. ♥ *__2402 |__ strogonoff de cogumelo, i'm a devil girl, bloco das pocs!, walking downtown and actually having fun, ending the day with debbie. ♥ *__2502 |__ _sam and colby,_ looking for things to do, feeling kinda sad, _remember when we were best friends and confidents,_ my gf is cute. *__2602 |__ _romance is a novel book,_ popcorn, missing the old days, i hate chemistry, _am i feeling depressed._ *__2702 |__ catching up b99, packing for the trip, 12 hours with debbie, we got so close and she met my familly, shower and touching, rafa as a nun. ♥ *__2802 |__ taking hours to get to araruama, pastel, tio marcio e tia paula, crush at the condo (jorge eduardo), feeling bad at night. ⇢ __march__ *__0103 |__ raining, going to the club, quiosque de batata com queijo, dancing kpop, brigadeiro. ♥ *__0203 |__ barbecue, swimming pool, laughing a lot with my family bc of shit (literally), baile de carnaval, trying to find weed and jorge eduardo. ♥ *__0303 |__ going to cabo frio, rich’s condo, feeling bad on the way back, 3hours in the bus. *__0403 |__ swimming pool!, it was raining so we didn’t go to carnagay, baile de carnaval, devil girl, _solta minha irmã!_ and me hitting on a het girl. ♥ *__0503 |__ coming back to rio, listening one direction, feeling empty and alone, i don't really have friends, lobo no telegram, _debbie._ *__0603 |__ declaring myself to debbie, we did _it_ together, horror gameplay, davi is my sugar daddy. *__0703 |__ carteirinha de estudante, buying a necklace, _romance is a novel book,_ wanting to die, davi's call. *__0803 |__ date with may's friend, _captain marvel,_ we had pizza and went to hotzone with no money, fun day!!!, mom saw me. ♥ *__0903 |__ not seeing monsta x :), thinking about coming out to my parents, _spiderverse,_ isolating myself, _i wanna die._ *__1003 |__ 5 months with her, text with bts lyrics, _rei édipo,_ call with mayra and deb, _juventude assassina._ ♥ *__1103 |__ BUYING TICKETS TO BTS CONCERT!!!, may and sérgio, van gogh went to the petriatian, anxiety attack bc im alone. *__1203 |__ exchanging beef with babi, quiting school and twitter, listening to _better days are coming_ playlist (but they aren't), bad day overall. *__1303 |__ _luzes no céu: fireworks,_ straighten my hair, pushing people away, getting ready to be gone, _the umbrella academy._ *__1403 |__ davi's bday, anger attack, almost got locked in an asylum, _why am i doing this to my parents?, the grudge._ *__1503 |__ _umbrella academy,_ rabbit with _tina,_ my friends/mutuals calming me down, _lincoln,_ we hung out in the rain and talked a lot, i came out to my parents and they were the sweetest!! (thanks odaat). ♥ *__1603 |__ it's been 9 years since i met stele, _we're going to work it out, debbie,_ i'm going to start living, making promises. *__1703 |__ looking for an apartament with nath and rafa, taking pics in all red, _umbrella academy,_ mingau de aveia, _she doesn't care about my words anymore._ *__1803 |__ finished umbrella academy, therapist unvalidating bisexuality, having an anxiety crisis bc of school, _i dont know what to do with my life._ *__1903 |__ mayra really came out of nowhere, _queer eye,_ nath's birthday party!!, all pink and unicorns, it rained a lot, _fernanda._ *__2003 |__ _she's angry at me,_ feeling guilty but at the same time..., babi and ninha giving me emotional support, juliana's house, we watched movies and caressed her cat. *__2103 |__ _happy birthday, vovó,_ taking naps right after waking up, _girl,_ finishing _romance is a novel book,_ rewatching _strong woman._ *__2203 |__ sexy dance video, _singularity,_ writing fanfic, watching k-drama all day long, _wherever you are, i will find you._ *__2303 |__ _myles and lincoln,_ dancing and singing!, i do have friends and they're so good to me, myles will move into my condo, calling _debbie_ in her brother's phone. ♥ *__2403 |__ spending the sunday in a videocall with debbie, we talked a lot about everything and nothing, our relationship has matured, finishing _strong woman._ ♥ *__2503 |__ hanging out with may, mariana and sergio, watching _us,_ seeing an old mutual and luiz da sol, domino's, trashy youtube br series. ♥ *__2603 |__ _queer eye,_ may is my housewife, _oh my ghost_ again, jealous of davi (or i really hate his gf), talking about sex and girls and friends w benefits with tina. *__2703 |__ don't remember. *__2803 |__ gleyce's back at rio, getting my hair done, and a haircut!, i look bad in the pics tho. *__2903 |__ taking hot pics at 4am, nhoque, finishing _oh my ghost,_ dancing bon bon chocolat, call with debbie (i have no doubts i love seeing her more than anything.) *__3003 |__ i moan like a hentai girl, made my parents watch a sad k-drama, im going to do it with davi, deep conversations with debbie (we're insecure but our love is stronger.) *__3103 |__ hanging out with sis and rafa, buying things for their new house, _the handmaiden,_ feeling a little sick, having conversations with debbie about our feelings. ♥ ⇢ __april__ *__0104 |__ erotic dream (she was facing me on my lap), a couple listo, queer eye cast interviews, _while you were sleeping,_ almondega. *__0204 |__ mayra came here, _queer eye,_ i'm antoni and she's tan, outside photoshoot with rocker style, kimi no na wa effect. *__0304 |__ finishing _wyws,_ i'm sick, came back with the art thread on twitter, oreos. *__0404 |__ doing nothing, depressed night. *__0504 |__ finding stray kids, dreamt of debbie in rio, trying to watch a lot of things but failing, jaemin's vlive, mom going to the hospital :( and my dad doesn't trust me alone. *__0604 |__ cuddling with davi, _okay who's going to play with my hair?,_ karaoke with may and mari, me not letting him go, kissing mariana. ♥ *__0704 |__ mariana woke me up giving me a peck, _is she going to be mad at me?,_ afraid of losing friends, _sabrina_ and _hello my twenties,_ editing pics. *__0804 |__ waking up 3pm, _miroh,_ k-drama, fixing listography, not sleeping at all. *__0904 |__ washing hair 5am, finishing _my husband won't fit,_ nath and rafa talk a lot, _did i mess things up with my bff?,_ mesversário. *__1004 |__ 6 months with debbie, _hello my twenties 2,_ sending a lot of gifts to my gf, davi confessing to me, _bad timing._ *__1104 |__ skz's variety at 6am, really stressed out, anger and confusion, date in a milkshake shop with lincoln, _love, death and robots_ and chill. *__1204 |__ noah's birthday is the same as mine, _american psycho,_ juliana caressing my hair, messing things up with debbie in a call, _can i really change?_ *__1304 |__ spending all day in bed, dad backhugging me, thinking about isolating myself, tina saying pretty words abt not having to have a dream, finishing _hello my twenties :<._ *__1404 |__ waking up early, my hair looks pretty, kpop event (dancing tons of twice and skz), eating at a korean restaurant (japchae is so fckng goog), _may, sun, lila and lore._ ♥ *__1504 |__ changing username to _monstrayz,_ watching iu's drama, _touch your heart,_ telling davi im going to live in sp, debbie being needy with me. *__1604 |__ really bad day, _eu sou a inválida da família, não tem porquê estar aqui,_ cutting my bangs and getting ugly, angry and depressed attack, words cut deeper than knives. *__1704 |__ not sure about what to do, trying to hide my ugly self, _may_ is the tan to my antoni and the noah to my mario, The break up, call with rachel's gf. *__1804 |__ _touch your heart,_ selling bts' ticket, _quando você vai parar de me perder e me ter de vez?,_ ranting to babi abt my family issues(she is such a sweetheart), watching the night sky in the playground at 4am with rachel. *__1904 |__ mom's bday, desintoxicating day, laughing with the girls, _oliver and company,_ late night conversations with rafa. *__2004 |__ visiting grandma, _vó, cê já saiu do brasil?,_ am i extrovert or introvert?, dancing _likey,_ sleeping 10pm and waking up 2am lmao. *__2104 |__ NEW GC WITH ANI AND DEBO AND LAURI, it's easter but doesn't really look like it?, family in the living room and me in the bed, she really blocked me lmao, _a vida pode separar a gente, mas eu vou atrás de você._ ♥ *__2204 |__ twt private acc, _touch your heart,_ she blocked me lmao, selling bts' tickets to luma, TWICE'S COMEBACK. *__2304 |__ netflix and chill with davi, kissing and laughing, _can i be in a relationship now?,_ i loved his taste tho, call with aninha. ♥ *__2404 |__ going to bangu, spending 5 hours outside, new id pic!!, some random person chatting with me on insta, finishing kdrama. *__2504 |__ not sleeping again, late night conversations, amigas da madrugada bar e banda, finishing _my first first love._ *__2604 |__ rewatching _goblin_ all day long, taking naps, i'm eating a lot these days, BAD Dream about school and drowning, jaemin's drama. *__2704 |__ waking up and taking naps at afternoon again, meeting rafa's family, _você é uma bonequinha, quero te adotar,_ rachel's birthday, im socially awkward. *__2804 |__ _goblin_ all day long, my dad doesn't really pay attention to me, strong wind, _is it a tsunami?,_ i'm alone. _42 by 3racha._ *__2904 |__ sad day. rain. nhoque. re-reading 2018's diary. *__3004 |__ sleeping well!!, 2,37ml x 4 = 10 litros, laughing a lot with rachel, _endgame,_ clowning this kid saying his fav scene was cap with the hammer. ♥ ⇢ __may__ *__0105 |__ shitty day. *__0205 |__ _avatar,_ laying in bed all day, _runaway bride,_ thinking about taking the pills, suicide letter, i'm probably on my period (i actually am.) *__0305 |__ woke up with may caressing my hair, juliana came to visit in surprise, dying my hair Black again, sleepover and eating lots of shit, rolê inside the condo, calling random people until dawn. _(tem um carro de gelo aí fora? ah, é porque derreteu.)_ ♥ *__0405 |__ yoonkook fics, remembering how juliana almost made us break into the rooftop, _chambers_ with may all day long, ovomaltine milkshake, okay i'm really seeing bts, _kakegurui._ ♥ *__0505 |__ waking up 4pm, showing mom how meaningful are bts' lyrics, _school 2015,_ instagram, doing random play dance while everyone's sleeping. *__0605 |__ talked to ana karina all morning, slept from noon till six pm lol, rachel is addicted to kdrama, i look pretty in my id, _civil war._ *__0705 |__ back in twitter, don't actually remember how my days are passing by, sungjae's acting skills tho, making plans to my bday, okay funny-long-short story: received a nude from a guy i thought was trans, fuck i really confessed to _him._ *__0805 |__ _bridget jone's diary,_ yoonkook camp au, i tried not to sleep all day long but failed, buying cake and star candles, last day of _dancing queen, only seventeen._ *__0905 |__ _beauty queen of only eighteen,_ from (tina and may) [], lonely until down, bad day overall, spent it sleeping, my sis made a tribute for me on her insta, talking to _dani_ and _deia._ *__1005 |__ not sleeping at all, seuigiarts, going to the movies, _pet sematary,_ _juju and rachel,_ trying to watch kimi no na wa, sleeping like 11pm but waking up 3am. *__1105 |__ lunch at a restaurant, i was pretty annoyed tho, snapchat's filters (baby and man), bleaching may's hair with mariana. *__1205 |__ looking pretty in the morning, nhoque at lunch, rafa and nath coming over, me isolated in my room, reseting my notebook, late night nap, i'll have a baby with davi called dante, she came to play with me Oh my god. *__1305 |__ yoonkook fanfics, feeling lonely, random play dance really early in the morning, _sam and colby,_ fck i got scared bc my closet door opened, not in the mood to travel to sp :-/ *__1405 |__ not sleeping again (when will i get a good sleeping schedule²), skz's interview, they make me so happy and heartwarmed, dying may's hair in pink (i enjoyed doing it A LOT), _make it right,_ learning fanchant for bts's concert and finally getting excited. ♥ *__1505 |__ bts' songs and fics, _life is strange 2,_ oh gosh i gotta lose 5kg in a week, shopping new coats and a boot with mayra, laughing bc of cameo prints that resembles jk and jin's old ppl clothing, a little girl called me _aunt._ ♥ *__1605 |__ nothing relevant, slept all night and day long, davi calling me santiago to his peralta, hmmm trying to take cute pics but looking ugly. *__1705 |__ twt acc got suspended, also yeah i'm feeling pretty ugly, _lis2,_ setting up outfits for sao paulo, doing pretty much nothing all day?, listening to the _sy tour_ playlist. *__1805 |__ slept for more than 12 hours. *__1905 |__ got soft seeing vids of this korean lesbian couple, got soft reading a goody x bad boy yoonkook fic, basicly A GAY SOFTIE all day, _school 2015._ *__2005 |__ FUCK YEAH i'm sleeping properly, losing my student id, anger attack, fck everything goes wrong in my life, _is there a bad energy around me or i'm the bad energy,_ juliana came here and we made cookies, _the society._ *__2105 |__ sleeping for 3 hours, diva depressão, making talharim on my own, getting eyebrows done, _oh my god im seeing min yoongi for real,_ eating pastel made me sick, b99 is back bitches. *__2204 |__ sleeping for 12 hours fuck yeah, bingewatching _the promised neverland_ it's so fucking good, making nhoque, lost my earphone and get scared at myself in a telegram video, mayra came here and i'm not asleep anymore. ♥ *__2305 |__ stressed about the trip going wrong, but it went well, the night vision through an airplane window is beautiful, seeing tina again uwu, she's shorter than i remember, not feeling so well. *__2405 |__ bts' videos in tina’s tv room, lunching outside, liberdade!!, meeting aninha and lizzie, buying food for the concert's line, it was a nice day but i didn’t get to buy the things i wanted, pastel, soju and saque! ♥ *__2505 |__ COLD AS FUCK, waiting in line with may tina luma and beu, selling cards and gaining cards as well, __FUCK I GOT IN THE STADIUM I SAW BTS WITH MY OWN EYES,__ jin bleached his hair bc of us, hoseok was so happy to be here and his chantings were so lound, namjoon literally forgot portuguese and cried, jimin cried during the truth untold and it was so moving i loVE HIM, taehyung with brazilian flag scarf and his FACIAL EXPRESSIONS damn, jungkook was so hyped up and JUNTOS E SHALLOW NOW i love my baby :(, seeing yoongi’s GUMMY SMILE IRL and we singed seesaw so loudly for him, i literally lost my voice bc of yoonjin, only got to film _serendipity_ and it was worth it bc i enjoyed the concert; bts i love you. ♥ ♥ ♥ *__2605 |__ encceja!!, going outside for lunch, eating massa at a hipster neighbourhood, _bts is breathing the same air as ours,_ not being able to watch the second concert, showing kpop stages to tina’s lil sister, crying with tina bc of yoongi’s tweet. ♥ *__2705 |__ liberdade with the girls, meeting babi, she’s so cute :(, she told me i meow like a cat, buying yoongi’s fake merch, taking pics with jimin’s papelao, eating tobokki (it’s really bad tho). ♥ *__2805 |__ time is so slow when i’m anxious, saying goodbye to tina and her family, coming back to rio!! i'm finally home, showing my mom clips from the concert. *__2905 |__ my whole body is numb, my father thinks every kpop group is bts, finishing _the promised neverland,_ can't remember things i've done today. *__30-3105 |__ doing nothing, _diva depressão,_ there's something entertaining seeing sub celebs' parties lmao, _rachel,_ crying because of bts' vids, but seriously it's been pretty boring these day, fanfic after midnight. ⇢ __june__ *__0106 |__ pride month!, bisexual and proud, going to the market with dad, feeling like im aging up, yoongi's live, _high school musical._ *__0206 |__ going to my sister's, imagining a life with jungkook, making a g.f.c. in my own head, yeah pretty much it, oh _school 2015._ *__0306 |__ waking up 4 o'clock, rewatching _clueless,_ cher is my fashion influence, oh my god i need a bf or gf, going out for mcdonald's ice cream. *__0406 |__ i didn't sleep at all, scared of having a bad sleep habit, watching _run_ in the parking lot of a market, reading yoonkook fanfics, re-watching _parks and rec._ *__0506 |__ _koe no katachi,_ A FUCKING RAINBOW, french fries, don't remember much more. *__0606 |__ feeling an inner peace, listening _better days are coming_ playlist, my sister is way cooler with me in whatsapp than in real life, ice cream popcorn and pizza, tentacles? *__0706 |__ van gogh is much closer to me these days, staying up until dawn, bangtan's run picnic, changing my phone's pelicula, watching paris' _sy tour_ clips. *__0806 |__ dreamt of giving birth to a boy named samuel/antonio and meeting kim taehyung (he was really nice and sweet), bts' summer package, taking beautiful pics of the sky (it looks like a impressionist painting), _hsm2 and die welle,_ dropping stan twt, _i want to find a love like fanfic's ones._ ♥ *__0906 |__ it's been one month since my bday but it feels like it was ages ago, 2019 seasons greating, pasta and lemon pie, _black mirror,_ enemies to lovers. *__1006 |__ making my own crepioca, _aladdin,_ hanging out with my sister at the mall, playing exo's love shot at renner, buying concealer and brushes, rachel!!, sweet popcorn and _happy death day 2._ ♥ *__1106 |__ _frozen,_ walking around the neighbourhood with rachel, baking carrot cake, i wish i had friends like the _hyyh_ fanfics, something about being loved and taken care of and having someone to pet my hair and cuddle and tell me everything's going to be okay - it's a heartwarming thought. *__1206 |__ spending one more valentine's day alone, _when i became this person who hides theirself from friends?,_ guess i wanna be alone from now on, _bts festa!,_ actually spent hours on youtube at the living room, domino's pizza, realizing i never finished _bon voyage 3,_ disney song's. ♥ [the most fun i had in a long time. all by myself.] *__1306 |__ good amount of time watching _film theorist,_ i miss fullmetal alchemist a lot, wish i had a summer vacation with a campfire, _bon voyage,_ dan howell coming out in video, eating a lot at night, past a.m. conversations with rachel. *__1406 |__ dreamt i was in a bts concert (taehyung and jimin were right in front of me), picking up grandma, disney soundtracks, makeup tutorials (but i don't have any of their products), netflix and chill with rachel, pretty nostalgic day tbh. *__1506 |__ pretty much nothing new: youtube compilations, interviews, fanfics, drunk clips!, private thoughts. also - more makeup and conversations with friends in whatsapp after weeks of isolation. *__1606 |__ short amount of sleep, wisdom teeth, reading ykk fic when jk started live (he cute with his wine), my stomach does funny things when i read romance and smut and my veins of lower body (iykwim) too, BUYING LY:TEAR, sister stopped by. ♥ *__1706 |__ tio roberto, boybands and girlbands, kpop vs pop, salty and sweet popcorn, treta de youtubers gringos, why do i find it so endearing to watch rich people's life concerns. *__1806 |__ dance covers, JOLLY, some asmr as well, spent the day in youtube so WHAT, kinda tried to watch shingeki too, ykk!travel and vampire, _why do i feel nostalgic about things that didn't happen to me._ *__1906 |__ never laughed harder than in jolly interviewing nct, red velvet and stray kid's comeback (actually only liked rv's), alan twitch, crying bc of a parenting fic, ate a LOT at night, esfiha and popcorn. *__2006 |__ finally got to watch tv after weeks with grandma here, mom doesn't really pay attention to me bc she wants to be in her phone, but can i blame her when i do the same, listo is down for some reason? *__2106 |__ monsta's new song is SO good shout out to "who do u love", kinda tired of all those people in my home, nath and tio roberto and leo, pizza night, _murder mystery_ again, going outside in the dark for a lil while, loneliness. *__2206 |__ making my own food, i actually made crepioca and popcorn but i'm proud, karen bachini, why do i find it so satisfying to watch longass makeup videos, trying to understand omegaverse in fics. *__2306 |__ encceja tests, got 70% right of humanas and natureza, _kakegurui,_ leaving grandma at her home (finally), travel au atualizado, _stranger things 2_ with my parents, talking to tina, late night bath, _5th muster 'magic shop'._ ♥ *__2406 |__ lasagna, cooked all of my meals, _run this town,_ am i capable of feeling sexual atraction towards someone or i only feel this heat in my veins reading smut, _orochi,_ f*ck me i'd give him anything he asked me. *__2506 |__ dorama day with mom, _erased,_ going to the market, finishing _stranger things'_ season 2, learning a lot of new english words (and you'd thought fanfic isn't culture), pão de queijo. *__2606 |__ on my period (i actually saw it coming), _dallyeola bangtan!,_ family hung out, _why should i talk to people when they don't talk to me,_ disappointed at _toy story 4_ and mcdonald's fries. *__2706 |__ i go to the market a lot, sonho, feeling kinda moody bc of cólica, dual-national, talking to ana karina about languages and europe, rachel came here to make brigadeirão, watching _spider-man_ and _american pie._ ♥ *__2806 |__ brigadeirão, family really pissed me off, festa junina, actually didn't enjoy it, ate a lot and am feeling bad about it, arguments with my sister, just wanna read some romantic bullshit. *__2906 |__ house all for me and rachel, _american pie,_ this teen movies are all misoginist and women are reduced to nothing but stupid holes for men to fill in (disgusted by it), feminist playlist, mc's ice cream. *__3006 |__ _bts world,_ introducing these crackheads to my cousin, feeling a little empty after finishing a long ass fanfiction, _i'll never find love,_ nath and rafa at home, not socializing. ⇢ __july__ *__0107 |__ killing time the whole afternoon, socializing (social media and face to face), larissa and juliana stopped by, we baked red velvet!! and celebrated my bday lol, big hung out watching _dark._ ♥ *__0207 |__ _this town is ours,_ i want to travel to europe so badly, miss having friends, ly: tear just arrived, what are the chances of me getting a yoongi photocard ♥, old poems. *__0307 |__ making lunch, stressed out at the ctothes shop, tbh i'm angry bc i'm uncomfortable with my body, edgy teen i guess, cute deserts yt channel, _one spring night,_ listening to piano songs. *__0407 |__ rainy day, binge-watched _stranger things,_ i mean it i was the entire day before a tv screen, came back to tt and socialize itself, _does falling in love hurt?,_ blind!myg. *__0507 |__ average day. *__0607 |__ myles' bday, outback's fries, i get so uncomfortable playing never have i ever, feeling like i fit in between teens but also cringing bc of them, pecking girls, _eu fico com tesão só de olhar pra você pq você é muito bonita,_ also _is she interested in me?,_ talking to may and tina!!, plans to hang out in europe with them. ♥ *__0707 |__ sleep privated, ykk fics all day long, meet-cute and hella fluff couple, crying because of depression and black holes and galaxies within us, afternoon nap, pizza night, _love actually._ *__0807 |__ kinda relaxed, _i want to be pampered,_ _howl's moving castle,_ i like to watch romcoms so i can believe love may happen to me someday, it's cold and i want to feel my heart burn, reading tons of ttau. ♥ *__0907 |__ i didn't do much?, baked some bolinho de chuva, lying down the entire day, random yt videos ig. *__1007 |__ may came here, she gave me a seokjin card, laughing and cuddling, namorado coreano da coreia do sul, discovery home and health, volleyball game sucks. *__1107 |__ searching for myself, _eat pray love,_ my own bedroom, _quando você vai cortar o cordão umbilical, mãe?,_ taking rivotril. *__1207 |__ _spiderman: far from home_ is a fucking romcom and it's a masterpiece, i'd 10/10 date peter or mj, eating bunch of candy trash, salgadinho, smart conversations with sister and cousin, militantes!! ♥ *__1307 |__ love is irrealistic (but i'm buying it anyways), my family don't give a shit to what i say, _the sixth sense,_ watching _evangelion_ and eating mingau past midnight. *__1407 |__ pasta, iu's drama, _hotel del luna,_ pretty bored and i can't focus, am i going to be on my period, _five feet apart,_ i can't seem to cry at sad movies anymore. *__1507 |__ kinda melancholic? *__1607 |__ supermarket, sonho de creme, seeing bts stuff with my family, sad because of monsta, bolo de cenoura, sad sad sad, chat with sun (she understands me a lot). *__1707 |__ getting my eyebrows done in a new place, the professional is so sweet, on my period, god lots of cramps, _hotel del luna,_ sleeping in my own bedroom (actually didn't get to sleep.) *__1807 |__ reading tons of fanfics, slept in a fucked up hour, drawing again!!, a galaxy eye with a butterfly, waking up 5pm in the next day. *__1907 |__ wine with may while watching jk's drunk live, crazy drinks and alcoholic brigadeiro, psychological analysis, we don't know taehyung!, i'm jk bc he's a not complex sugar daddy and may's jimin bc she's two faced, whisper challenge, _minha vida em marte_ is our movie, _neoneun na, naneun neo._ ♥ *__2007 |__ dia do amigo, may and myles, laughing a lot with _twilight,_ i wanna a vampire sugar daddy, eating tons of shit, singing kpop gg. ♥ *__2107 |__ goodbyes are bittersweet, ykk travel fic made me cry, texting ex and regretting it, fuck her, _aninha is my soulmate,_ making plans to see each other more, woke up 4pm, skype with ana karina, _megatubarão._ ♥ *__2207 |__ 3 hour sleep?, starting a diet, napping, buying cosmetics, will start a skincare routine, _evangelion,_ came back on tinder. *__2307 |__ crying a lot, _i don't know what i'll do with my future,_ singing 'till the sun goes up, listening to r&b brazilian artists, crying my heart out during _the lion king._ *__2407 |__ trying to rearrange my sleeping schedule, remembering may saying i feel too much, grandma's, trying not to sleep, _euphoria,_ waking up like 3am. *__2507 |__ _euphoria_ early morning, karaoke alone, soulmates with aninha, ugh i actually listened to a lot of music, tinder?, regretting talking. *__2607 |__ angry bc i woke up 18h, starting skincare routine with protex and granado's lavander moisturizer, talking a lot to sun. *__2707 |__ _my first first love,_ kim taehyung would be my perfect boyfriend, picturing dates in paris, may got angry at me and tina and we're kinda lost, making plans of partying with barb. *__2807 |__ away from social media, jisoo's k-drama, buzzfeed cartoonist videos. *__2907 |__ _cotton candy,_ failing to organise my sleep schedule. _euphoria_ gets on my nerves. *__3007 |__ visiting possible new house, k-drama, _i'm bad at comunicating,_ the power of the house died and i got into this really comfy environment. *__3107 |__ non-sleep, skype with ana karina, _pets,_ really bad mood and everything was hurting, visiting new house, 0 tolerance with my sister, hanging out with lincoln, milkshake and talking about our friendship, sleeping 9pm!! yay. ♥ ⇢ __august__ *__0108 |__ _please be good to me, august,_ in a good mood, título de eleitor, pretending to be a grown up but will my dad let me tho?, 5 days to leave the apto, missing grandma, mental breakdown, crying until early hours. *__0208 - 1408 |__ new house, but i spent a few days in my sister's house so i could taste independence, bts' vacation, kinda looking for a job, yt art channel. ]]> Wed, 14 Aug 2019 11:46:03 +0000