I give up.

PisangthePingie's picture

I give up.

I am really tired.

I don't know how to express this. No matter how hard I try,
no matter how much time I spend,
no matter how much effort I labored,
no matter how many tears I cried,

it doesn't seem to be enough.

Are things really go this way? Or they won't just find their way to me?

I wish I could stop hoping, stop believing, stop trying.

But it always comes back to me.
In fact, it gets stronger and bigger.

Why can't things, for once go the way I wanted them to be?

I am really, really tired.