Have you ever been some where with your kid like dance classes, cheerleading or any after school events and noticed the parents judgement being passed around towards one another and the toppers who just can’t help themselves? Lol, it is something I thoroughly enjoy watching. I never engage in such things like that. I’ve been around individuals that did nothing but try to be toppers and judge and make people feel less important than them. That is something I’m not about and never will be. I love myself and people’s authenticities. Not what they may have or may not have or pretending to be fake. So what do I do in these situations you ask? Well, I put my head phones in and observe there very imperfect human naturea 🤣😉😊❤️ . Stay weird, be different, and remember there is no other person you have to impress. 🥰

Walking away from it all…

Growing up in a family full of narcists and psychos. I made it out barely. I was raised to think I was going to be a no body. That I was just nothing. I was told I could have been given away and I’m lucky she didn’t. I get lied about and disrespected for defending my own family. I literally am accused of things that never happened only because of their jealously or because I spoke the TRUTH. People attack me and my family first then say I’m the one who started things. Never have I lied about anything I have said about a person and I never will. I’m 100 % honest and will always be that way. I am cutting the rotten ouy of my life for good. No more handouts no more shoulder for people to cry on no more listening. I’m done with it all. People are cruel and unjust in their behaviors. It’s apparently wrong to want face to face judgement and communication. Because everyone loves online now. Or whispers behinds everyone’s back. I’m a weird person I guess. I like to talk things out face to face. I have earned everything and did everything in my life on my own. I don’t get handouts, I don’t have a daddy bail me out. Shit the only dad I knew treated me like a piece of shit till I joined the military. But at the end of the day after all the bs I have learned I alone have my back. I alone have to defend myself and I alone will always be better than the spoiled, self rightious people I know. Here’s to never ever speaking to another soul in my life.

Never easy in life.

No matter what you say or do people will judge you, lie about you, and even blame you for things they had every part in. I’ve been called allot of things but stalker has never been one. Lol till tonight. I find it cute people think I check up on them when I want nothing to do with them. I’m childish but they have screen shots in their phone from year ago 😂 I just can’t with the crazy. I got enough of my own crazy. I always admit when I’m wrong and if I said something. I just wish people would get it through their heads I’m doing 10x better than they ever will. I’m not checking up on no one and I’m loving my life. I’m just that rare person that prefers face to face conversation rather than technology fighting even if that means waiting a year to do so. I’m patient only in that way. Lol I stand up for people who don’t deserve it and I was raised in a family that never wanted me in the first place. I am human and I make mistakes as does everyone. But I own my shit. Every little thing. So I wish people would just stop. Stop lying, stop using people, and realize I could

careless if you died tomorrow. This family I no was raised in isn’t shit and won’t ever be shit. I am a veteran, I have 2 college degrees, I go to therapy and I know when to ask for help because who isn’t crazy these days but do not ever say I’m a liar or stalker cause those are 2 things I’m not. I defend my love ones and I realize they must fight their own fight. I’m done. And I can not wait to move far from Lakeland. Soon isn’t soon enough.

What they don’t know! But must be told….

What they don’t know, is not any of their business but some people are so nosey they can not help themselves. I have been that person, who hasn’t?! Well, What they don’t know is in this relationship of almost 14 years there have been great, good, bad, and awful moments. What they don’t know is that not one single sole but two individuals in the relationship know precisely what is going on. They don’t know year nine was the year she decided to take no more abuse. That is the only year anyone knows about because she let it out.

Not letting out his information or past within the relationship but just hers. To everyone now she was now this awful wife, mother, and friend. Because what they did not know and given misguided information; instead of minding their business they were concerned with hers. What they didn’t realize was she sacrificed so much for her relationship. Mind, body, and soul; for nine whole years throughout the ups and downs she held on to his abuse, emotionally, physically, and mentally. The leaving and returning, the cheating, verbal abuse, and personally my favorite the affairs. This was through the first nine years; throughout the nine years she stayed faithful to him and allowed the abuse without doing unto him as he did to her.

Year 9; what they didn’t know is she couldn’t take anymore and became something she was not proud of and instead, the higher road did not look as good as payback. So taking the lower path which looked so much more enticing, made others gossip, lie, and call her names. But that is still ok because what they didn’t know is that these trials and tribulations only made her stronger and therefore made their relationship stronger. She never gave up on the relationship and never did she not own her mistakes, like so many of those that were putting themselves in her business. No one is perfect, but in the end, she found two wrongs did not make it right, and they grew in strength, and nothing was tearing them apart.

What they didn’t know is that this woman does not have mind control over others, she never makes anyone do anything they do not want to do, or is she going to own every one of her own mistakes like so many around her DO NOT do or even acknowledge. But instead, what they did not know was she ended up a stronger woman, wife, mother, and friend. She never once left her children, never not once did she turn her back on her husband, she just was human. Pain can make people do awful things, and it can also make you a stronger person. But what people need to understand is there is so much more THEY DO NOT KNOW! The story is not over, they have many more trials and tribulations, but in the end, they will make it. What they do not know is that these two people are not perfect but perfect for each other. Our grass may need mowed and watered sometimes, but ours is REAL, RAW, HAPPY, LOVING, FORGIVING, AND BEST OF ALL HUMAN.

In the end, what they don’t know is still NONE OF THIER FUCKING BUSINESS!! This is for those that just HAVE TO KNOW because it is so much easier ignoring their own flaws within their relationships.

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