Rant: My jealousy issueDecember 28, 2011 by

This will just be a quick blog with me ranting (hence the title) about last night's events and such...

Last night was the night my boyfriend finally turned 19, so he's officially legal to drink and go to clubs and all that. The night started at his house with a few drinks and dinner. This was the first night that I was NOT the designated driver so I told my friend who had showed up that I just wanted to get buzzed. After some drinks and shots, my head was a bit fuzzy and I got really tired...it really doesn't take much for me to get buzzed. Anyways, being buzzed I continued to refuse any alcohol put in front of me or offered to me for the rest of the evening.

Birthday boy, being the birthday boy decided he wasn't going to stop, which no one did, and hey why stop a guy from getting drunk on his 19th?

After dinner we decided to go out, however being a Tuesday night there wasn't going to be much open after about 11pm-12am. We started by going to a nice bar and ordered some drinks. Our DD of the night went to go pick up another friend and we were shortly reunited with them. By this time it was last call at this bar, and the stewardess suggested the strip club a couple of blocks over. It would be open later and everyone was expecting a long night anyways, so what the hell. 7 girls and 3 guys, that was what our party looked like...awesome, we're going to the strip club (which my dad happens to work in the building next door, one of the local radio stations).

My boyfriend was drunker and drunker by the minute, which I honestly didn't mind because, hey all of use together couldn't have stopped him anyways. I always knew that he had a lot of girl-friends, not that he dated, but he's one of those guys that doesn't have very many guy friends. He gets a long with girls very well and when he's drunk he acts a little more, gay in the sense that if he fools around out of fun, they won't take it seriously.

[Finally here's where the problem lies]Being at a strip club, there are poles. We chose a spot that had three smaller couches around a raised platform with a pole which my partner eventually started to dance on despite the things happening around him. He was giving everyone lap dances and dancing to the music playing with everyone...but me. I think it was partly because his parents were there (his mom was the DD) and because I honestly need a club to dance in, I can't even dance that well in the first place (plus by this time, my head was clearer, my buzz was gone). I've told him before that I am kind of jealous of anything that gets near to him. We have set up rules for touching and kissing other people when drunk (like hugs are okay, and kisses on the cheek are okay).

I guess what really bothered me, despite the fact that he kissed me more than once last night was the fact that my jealousy really started to act up. I kept thinking 'he's mine' and wished that he would just chill. I have the theory that I am like this because I never really had very many friends and always felt that I really had to hold on to them and cherish them if we went separate ways. I feel like I should be the only one to have him even though I realize he's his own person and there are other people that love him and are friends with them. It just frustrates me when I think that he should only be mine, it's so selfish and horrible. Basically I'm more angry at myself.

So much for a 'quick' blog...ah well, word vomits happen.

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My Christmas bust...December 25, 2011 by

So it was kind of a disappointing year for me, mostly because I didn't get the geeky things that I asked for...which is really the only things I wanted. I even got things that I didn't want this year. I feel like I'm the only one who didn't get what they asked for because I got everyone what they asked for... :(

What I asked for (aka; THE LIST)

Money for school/car

utensils/hope chest stuff

insense holder and stuff


avatar movie dvd

nickelback 'here and now' cd

chapters or hmv gift card

magazine subscription

-nintendo power

-otaku USA

The Chronicles of Narina Prince caspian/ whole trilogy

X-men 3

X-men first class

Treasure Island DVD

Mario Kart 7 3DS game



Now granted, some of these are expensive however they are work-able and I asked for plenty smaller things, ie. CDs and DVDs.

What I got (mostly):

Body Pillow

Stove-top wok

paring knife

Ice-cream scoop

Battleship board game (WTF, did NOT ask for this EVER in my life mom)


small hammer


laptop cooler (definately usful)

Tattoo meaning book


Japanese Essentials book (basically what common mistakes people make in Japanese and how to correct them)


various shower and personal hygiene products

$20 iTunes cards


What I gave people for Chirstmas:

Boyfriend (aka. Nick): got the most really...Kingdom Hearts II poster, Final Fantasy Dissidia Terra Brandford figurine, and two necklaces (Final Fantasy related).

Good friends Jen and Mike: Fairy Tail Bluray and DVD combo pack #1

Mom: Cindy Lauper CD, High School Musical DVD (BOTH things she asked for)

Dad: Model Mercades for his office (honestly, he's really hard to buy for)

Younger Brother: $50 iTunes card (that I got an employee discount on, came to $35 total)

Nick's Parents: Candycane flavoured coffee and the mom a $15 iTunes card.


I guess it's not about the receiving on Christmas, but the giving (which I think I did really well at this year)...

That and tomorrow I'm going to go try and get a PS3 160GB for $199.99....wish me luck~



Got the PS3 at the first store I went to, which is where I work (get 10% discount....basically 2% tax altogether) but didn't have enough in the bank, ended up going about 60% (me) nd 40% boyfriend money to buy that (oh and I got Mario Kart 7...why not? everyone else has it :P ). Now that everything is set up and I'm done work, I am one happy camper playing Hyperdimension Neptunia (forgot to mention I got it from my BF for Chirstmas...I picked it out earlier...) and downloading some DLC that I probably don't need... LOL Thanks for all the comments, I'll try and reply to them~

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What should I be...December 22, 2011 by

...gaming, and watching this holiday season.

I have until January the 5th because that's when I go back to school but I'm sure I can get quite a bit of geek stuff in there~!

I have quite a few animes that I have on hold at the moment, mostly because I go through anime phases and tend to watch something for a week and then drop it to play a game or two.

What should I be watching?

Fairy Tail - I've bookmarked which episode I should be watching. There are over 100 episodes and counting but I'm only on episode 43 or so.

Deadman Wonderland - My boyfriend has insisted I watch it over and over (he's finished it already) and I just need an extra push to get into this series. The ending is open and there is no second season to it, so I'm on the fence.

Darker than Black - I'm on episode like 9 and there are about 24 in total. I dunno why I stopped, the story was okay I guess.

Fractale - I've watched the first two (out of 11 total), however I really want to download all of them and this make take a while with my internet... >,<;;

裏切りは僕の名前を知ってる (Betrayal knows my name) - Don't ask me, ask google for this one. I have the entire series. Hot guys, teen angst, powers and ancient prophecies...


I'm finishing up Final Fantasy II in the next couple days (the goal is to finish the game by Christmas....) but after that I don't know what to go back to.

What should I be gaming?

Radiant Historia - Saw that it was on some of the lists for '___ game of the year' awards and thought that I was going to finish that game a while ago. I'd have to find where I am in the walkthrough, because I'm a cheater like that sometimes...

Kirby Mass Attack - It's hard to sit down and play this game straight because some of the levels want to make me rage quit.

Glory of Heracles - This game is shit. I should enter it into my 'games that should never have been bought'...but...I'm already 9 hours into it so what the hell, why not finish it?

Persona 4 - So many days, so little me. Boyfriend got this game for me ages ago and sadly it's collecting dust and I need to finish it once then do an ultimate social link walkthrough.

Final Fantasy IV (4, on DS) - Got it, played it, got hard, rage-quit...


Watev, gimme ur input or if you have anything else that you think I should watch (or game if I can get my hands on it)~!

Later guys~


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Anime: Fractale - First Impressions: Episode 1December 20, 2011 by

WARNING: May contain spoilers!

Hey guys, yeah I watch anime too, WUUT~!? Anyways, this post will be about the first impressions I had on the first episode of a more recent series called 'Fractale' that I came across while looking at a list of Winter anime for 2011-12.[With lots of pictures~!]

...well okay, let's try this anime

Opening: After going quite far into the first episode we see the opening which essentially consists of psychedelic colours and shapes while the song plays and all the credits roll. I hope this is not the true opening, however it might be and that is just a shame. WARNING: I do NOT recommend you watch this opening high or drunk, your brain might explode.


Well there you go. The first episode only goes so far as to introduce Nessa with Clain's shocked face and then ends. Basically the journey hasn't even begun in the first episode (but does it ever?).

To quote the tetbook chip that Clain picks up in the first episode: "Fractale is comprised of several trillion computers that are networked using 22nd century science. By embedded a Fractale Ternimal in your body and periodically sending your life log to the SkyHigh Hovering Server, everyone can receive a basic income. It is a world that knows nothing of war, where a person's livelihood is garunteed even if they don't work.

Clain getting brainwashed....


Clain: Our main character that lives with projections of parents and a fake dog in a house on a cliff by the sea. Don't you wish you were him? :P His fake parents are essentially there to look after him to a certain extent, although I can't seem to figure out why Clain doesn't make fun of them when they look like this:

'Be sure you're home for dinner, we should eat as a family' (not direct quote, but pretty close)


*looks around*....*steals it*

BABY CLAIN....d'awwww

Other than that, Clain eventually meets Phyrne and the true story starts...


With an entrance like a throw-back to a couple of Miyazaki films I started to like her character within a couple of minutes. She is identified as a priestess by Clain and makes an odd comment about 'people in this era' making me think she is a time-traveler. Her entrance into Clain's life which consists of purposely falling off her glider/flier onto a cliff to avoid being caught by her persueres and being taken back to Clain's house for medical attention. She is interesting and witty as well as mysterious...I liiiiiike her :P



The only thing that we see of Nessa is her entrance where she says 'Ta-da!' at the end of the episode...but i think she will be a fun character



Ending: In one word, disappointing. The entire ending which lasts at least 2-3 minutes consists of Nessa sitting on a rock looking onto the town with the wind blowing her hair while credits roll beside her.




Other Screenshots

For the definition of 'people' refer to the black blob on your left...WAIT, WUT?!



WTF MAN?! It's a fuckin' plate, how the hell do I 'feel good' with a plate?

Just an iPod that takes a 64 GB SD card....no big deal...


The comedy aspect comes from the people who are trying to find Phyrne and act somewhat like Team Rocket with multiple disguses to try and get their way:

First try... ('Ambulance appraoch')

'Sick Mother' approach

'Security' approach....HEY WAT A MINUTE

They then accuse Clain of being a pervert because he re-dressed Phyrne for bed...

 Final Thoughts: Like where this anime could go, didn't like music in the background of important conversation scenes.


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