My Life of Late

My life of late has mainly consisted of focusing on making it through the day. Everything, from getting out of bed to brushing my teeth to preparing food is taking an immense amount of effort. And the most effort of all is going into getting me to and through work.

As Bryan put it, “Yep, you’re back to work,” (after the panic attacks) “but other than that, you’re a basket case.”

Question: When I look at the distribution of effort over tasks, does it align with my core values, the things most important to me?

Question: What’s most important to me?

Answer: Taking care of myself and my family.

Answer: Not so much.

I need a reset, a hard reset. Where’s that button for my brain?