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Jul 11, 2014

Weird or Normal???

I have a while ago ranted, raved, grieved, seethed about a few people who created something out of nowhere using my name and then it took some time for me to come out of it.  In fact a lot of heart pain and a lot of confusion later, things got okay.  In fact okay to a point where I starting giving almost zero importance to a lot of things and people in the life who are just acquaintances and just move on instead of even thinking about them.  It has been a pain, a jolt but bearable.  Learned quite a few lessons and kept moving on.

After that, the interaction has really gone down... a particular person who just calls me nonstop akka twice in the same sentence tried to keep in touch, feigned innocence, acted all good and kept giving information unsought and kept spoiling my moods in between in spite of requesting not to but then it all became a part of life, just listen to her if we have time or do not even pick up the call.. now thinking back, for people whose sole purpose is to talk about others and get our work done, NEVER ever pay attention.

Looking back why blame that person it is her nature.  I think I myself had that part in me where I wanted to listen to what people are talking about me.  My conscious effort of being good to all the people no matter what they are ignoring their weaknesses and focusing on their individual strengths kind of backfired or maybe it did work very well.  I had only seen the best in them and went with it and no matter what never waver from that consciously nurtured habit of mine no matter how many dirty set backs.

Looking back, I was so attached to Atlanta,  I realize later it was not the place, it was the people here, who I thought were really really good, caring, concerned, who had helped me (no denying) in the phase I needed them most, took care of my kid, spent their valuable time with her, playing, teaching, driving her around and making place for us in their lives.  It was all really well, good and I always patted myself on my back for being able to find out the gems of people to be around me... in fact they were and are.  It is the people in the middle who kept calling me to update stuff that were the mischief mongers, using my name for what they wanted to say 'cos I was no longer there.. BUT Damn!!! what the hell will they get out of such thing!!  It is disgusting.  There are some incidents which I still get irritated to, some people whose thoughts just boil my blood but am trying to cut down those feeling, tough it is but it is not impossible.  Maybe age has dampened my anger or whatever..

From now on I will consciously try and erase a few people who now I know are for sure the true sick ones.. the point of the post or the thought process is eliminating them from life is easy but is eliminating such situations ever possible.. is it the people that are weird or me for not understanding them or maybe I have to be even more sterner with the people that talk. I have always known that people who talk to me will talk against me to someone else who will listen but even when you dont listen they want to talk???? is it still in our hands...

well yes... just do not even have mercy or whatever who talks nonsense is a nuisance any time even if you listen or not, so do not associate yourself to it... Actually Run from such people because once they understand you are not going to tell anything they want, they will spread what they want to say on your name 'cos you wont let them reach you anyways :(...

 my funda for now until this goes wrong somewhere too :)

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