19 March 2009

The pieces finally fit.

Do you do puzzles? Any kind of puzzles; crosswords, jigsaw, anything. I love puzzles, I really, really do. I love looking at something that makes no sense and making sense of it. I think that's why I was so attracted to science. It generally takes logic and careful thought to solve a puzzle. I like that. But what I like best is that there is a point where you can see the answer. That magic moment when what a second before had been a confusing pile suddenly all makes sense. The light bulb goes on, you can see the answer and all you have to do is make it so. That's what has happened to me.

Tuesday afternoon's revelation was like a puzzle suddenly showing me the answer. You all don't realize how long I've struggled with that particular thing and what a huge accomplishment it is to conquer it. Now I know I have to pay attention, that particular battle is something I'll be fighting the rest of my life. But it's kind of like putting out a forest fire, the worst is over I just have to watch for hot spots. I can do that.

So I'm motivated this time from deep within me (the poop), I feel I have all the pieces to the puzzle and that if not in their proper places I can at least see how it's supposed to go, and I have a plan. I'm not going to go into it yet as I'm still working out the details, but it starts now. I'm excited, I'm confident and I'm sure this time I'll make it work. Right now I have to go run.

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I am over it.....
