feeding my soul



Her talk made me feel as if I were in India again listening to my teachers at the Krishnamacharya Yoga Mandiram. Yet, I left depressed because I feel sometimes that I am the lone voice in the wilderness where I live insofar as getting the personal transformation message out there. I left with the feeling that I don’t belong here, that my ideas on yoga are too “out there.” The feeling that I don’t belong here is so overwhelming at times that it tears at my heart and soul. But that feeling also makes me grateful for my private students who come to my house because they are so dedicated to change and to their practice.

One of my former private students, a business entrepreneur, once told me that it’s hell being a pioneer, that it’s much easier being a follower because the pioneer is the one who gets the arrows shot up her ass. Take that advice for what it’s worth. I will write more later about Uma Krishnamurthy’s lecture.

I told my husband when I got home that the truth that is held in the ancient teachings that Uma spoke about was the reason I travel to India — it nourishes me like no other place does and I can’t explain it. This post comes the closest to an explanation.

I think I will put on some music and dance.

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8 Comments Add yours

  1. sweetmango says:

    Teachers are placed where people need to be taught…. otherwise they would not be able to pass on their knowledge. I understand how you feel. Sometimes our role as teachers is to show an alternative by making our lives a living example.
    I think the key as a teacher is balance….time teaching, leading by example offset by blocks of time surrounded and immersed in the vibrational energy and thought patterns of people who are kindred spirits who enhance your own learning and to whom you never have to explain a thing to, because they intrinsically understand you.
    I really do understand.
    You are not alone, even when it feels like it….but….i really do understand how you are feeling


  2. Linda-Sama says:

    thank you so much….and yes, I understand what you are saying…and I also know that our difficulties, our aversion, and everything else wrapped up inside it, is ALL a training, it ALL is part of the Path…and that it is my mind and my Ego that puts up the self-imposed walls.

    I GET THAT. but still…..:(

    love what you say about “vibrating at the same level” and being with people that you never have to explain anything to because they get it. as you get it! I feel that I have been on a different planet for so long you can call me ET….

    metta to you, my friend.


    You are not alone.


  4. Rob Goerss says:

    I just want to say that Michelle really nailed it — teachers are placed where people need to be taught. This both relates to the teaching you received, Linda, and your role as a teacher on another planet.


    This may sound funny, but I am a recovering alcoholic who attends AA meetings, and that is the one place in this town where I find people who have a deep spiritual connection with me… Something greater than the glue that binds all of humanity.



  5. Linda-Sama says:


    I understand what you say about the connection at AA meetings — I teach yoga/meditation at a domestic violence shelter to poor Hispanic women survivors so what I say is translated, which adds another layer! These women connect more to what the true purpose of yoga is — personal transformation — than what I have seen in fancy yoga studios.








  7. Emma says:


    beautiful quote/idea from uma about dancing. how lovely.


  8. svasti says:




    I know, I do. xo


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