The Dying Full Moon in Taurus, 24th September, 2018: I’m broken too, And spoken for, Do not, tempt me~~


“The moon, too, abuses her subjects,

But in the daytime she is ridiculous” (11-12). ~~Sylvia Plath

We women, like Silvia Plath also hate the moon sometimes. It is a legit feeling, La Luna is too intertwined in our psyches. She is the IDA NADI of Laya Yoga. She represents our feminine states and sometimes, it angers us. Because being feminine and magical has not always looked at as positive in the patriarchal world; like the Moon…but we continue to tread on…a little bit of love, a little bit of regret and of course a pinch of hatred.

We do feel hollow and ridiculous sometimes, when our shine is taken away. Usurped and we too want to hide away in waxing and waning phases to feel the melancholia of this world. Sometimes even we wish to not shine our light because we have been abused more often than not. But the…

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More on Tantra/Witchcraft~~

Listen, O Devi, I will speak concisely of the essence of yoga. The body resembles a tree, with the root above and the branches below. In the macrocosm there are tirthas (bathing places) which also exist in the body. The macrocosm is like the microcosm. – Todala Tantra, II

What do you think these words stand for? Do they incite fear or abhorrence in you? If they do, then you’re seriously misguided AF!

They are pagan based ideologies that try to grasp the interplay of the divine masculine and divine feminine energies that are at the crux of creation.

Whether you call them Shiva/Shakti or by any other name, it does not matter. Whenever you try to understand how this binary plays out, you are in fact a witch or a tantrika. And every treatise that tries to explain this “game” or lila as is called in Sanskrit is known as Tantra.

You might have heard of the FOUR VEDAS that were given to humanity by Brahma, the Godhead who created this Universe. Brahma has four faces and each of the Vedas, Rig, Sama, Yagur, Atharva are said to have emanated from each of those four faces.

Brahma is a part of the holy trinity of Sanatan Dharma, the other two “Gods” being Vishnu and Shiva. The word Brahma comes from the root BRH which means “to expand, grow, fructify”. It is said Brahma expands, much like the EXPANDING UNIVERSE because this very universe is woven out of his own substance.

What do you think is the meaning of Brahma? If you study Western occultism, then you might know of the MANIFESTED LOGOS. This LOGOS is the whole Universe.

In Christology, the Logos (Greek: Λόγοςlit. ”Word”, “Discourse”, or “Reason”) is a name or title of Jesus Christ, seen as the pre-existent second person of the Trinity. The concept derives from John 1:1, which in the Douay–Rheims, King James, New International, and other versions of the Bible, reads: In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God…~~Wiki

Interestingly, in Sanskrit, we say VAKYA BRAHMA. That translates to, the WORD is GOD. Do you see how this is panning out?

Brahma — the symbol of the Universe. In esoteric parlance, Brahma is Father-Mother-Son, or Spirit, Soul and Body at once; each personage being symbolical of an attribute, and each attribute or quality being a graduated efflux of Divine Breath in its cyclic differentiation, involutionary and evolutionary. In the cosmicophysical sense, it is the Universe, the planetary chain and the earth; in the purely spiritual, the Unknown Deity, Planetary Spirit, and Man — the Son of the two, the creature of Spirit and Matter, and a manifestation of them in his periodical appearances on Earth during the “wheels,” or the Manvantaras. ~~HPB

So Brahma gave us the FOUR VEDAS.

But it is Shiva who gave us the TANTRAS and why is that?

The Tantras are known to contain the practical application of how the Vedas work. Therefore, we may conclude that the TANTRA in essence is like the fifth Veda. Tantras were given to humanity, “to gain liberation through expansion in all spheres of existence…”

The Vedas definitely have their importance, but in this Kaliyuga (NOTHING TO DO WITH GODDESS KALI), Tantra actually holds way more importance and is the best tool for enlightenment or self actualization.

Kali Yuga (Sanskrit: कलियुगtranslit. kaliyugalit. ‘age of Kali’) is the last of the four stages (or ages or yugas) the world goes through as part of a ‘cycle of yugas’ (i.e. Mahayuga) described in the Sanskrit scriptures. The “Kali” of Kali Yuga means “strife”, “discord”, “quarrel” or “contention”. ~~Wiki

Tantra has two paths- Left and right.

Oh BTW, do you know who started the use of the term LEFT HAND PATH in the West. One of my spiritual teachers and a great tantric called Blavatsky. She was a Vamachari tantric and she brought this path in focus to her Western students! She has been a guiding force in my life…she is always with me, guiding me and helping me to realize my mission in the 3d realm. And as some say, she never intended the use of left hand magick to have negative connotations. Her words and h er work were misconstrued.

It is generally held that those who participate in the rituals of Five Ms belong to the category of Vāmācāra.” ~~N. N. Bhattacharyya

What are these FIVE Ms, you ask?

The five M’s are

  1. Madya or Alcohol which allegorically means SOMA or Amrita, the divine nectar.
  2. Mamsa or meat which allegorically refers to the control of speech…yay for the vegans! lol
  3. Matsya or fish which refer to the IDA and the PINGALA nadis. If proper control can be had of them through pranayama, then one reaches samadhi.
  4. Mudra or parched grain which refers to keeping spiritual company and staying away from low vibes.
  5. Maithuna or sex which means the uniting of the kundalini with Parashiva, the nucleic consciousness at the Shasrara or the Pineal gland. Maithuna opens your third eye.

These five Ms have a deep symbology. While immersed in tantra, you will slowly move away from crude enjoyments because they will mean nothing.

If one is too addicted to these things, when they do it consciously, they will move away from them…slowly but surely…

The right path is linear. Like a straight line. It consists of rituals, worship and such.

The left path, which is sometimes considered dark or black magic is non linear. However, there is nothing dark or negative about the left path. In fact, this path, although not suited for all, can bring one to moksha and gyana, enlightenment and wisdom earlier than the right path.

The left hand path is not EVIL…please study before you say this…please…the left is the IDA or the CHANDRA NADI…

“In Buddhist tantra, the right hand symbolises the male aspect of compassion or skilful means, and the left hand represents the female aspect of wisdom or emptiness.” ~~Robert Beér’s Encyclopedia of Tibetan Symbols and Motifs

But the left path is not easy…it is difficult and the sadhaka or the tantric/witch must be of Vira swabhav(nature), which translates to BRAVE CONSTITUTION. Because the left path opens up unknown chapters of reality. It shows us things that can scare or frighten the weak or the coward and can sway them from their spiritual path. Therefore, before you begin to delve into tantra, it is important to know which path to follow.

I have always been a Vamachari or a follower of the left hand path…

Since most humans are now full of greed and cowardice, there is such fear of the left path or witchcraft which is frickin’ baseless. Why be scared if you understand that everything exists in everything and everything is nothing. SO much so for semantics.

In representations of the Buddha image, the right hand often makes an active mudra of skillful means—the earth-touching, protection, fearlessness, wish-granting or teaching mudra; while the left hand often remains in the passive mudra of meditative equipoise, resting in the lap and symbolizing meditation on emptiness or wisdom.” ~~Robert Beér

The left hand path is the path of Sunyata or the Great Void or the Goddess…so special as I write about this during navaratri…

The tantras are divided into two parts- AGAMA and NIGAMA. In the Agamas, we see worship taking the center stage, but in Nigama, we see the preponderance of Science. Of course, not the materialistic Science of today, but metaphysical and spiritual science.

However, in this era, which is considered to be Kaliyuga, the practise of Agama shastra is probably the best way to seek enlightenment. It is the quickest and the easiest path. Forget the Vedas, the Smrutis and the Puranas for now. This is the time to understand tantra.

Tantra is about delicate balance, so when you learn to ace this energy, you find that you are perpetually in a state of bliss. No matter what happens, your samadhi cannot be disturbed.

Shiva tells us that if we learn the tantric mantras and how to activate the chi in them, then we have created internal alchemy. We become the alchemists.

The basis of tantra is Shiva/Shakti and Shiva is Shakti as Shakti is Shiva. Nothing is Everything and Everything is Nothing…can you sense how sublime this reality can be? It’s just magick!

The changeless, absolute and pure consciousness is Shiva, while the natural tendency of Shiva towards the outward manifestation of the five divine activities is Shakti. So, even though Shiva is Shakti, and Shakti is Shiva, and even though both are merely aspects of the same reality called Paramasiva, still, these concepts of Shiva-hood and Shakti-hood are counted as the first two tattvas. These two tattvas are at the plane of absolute purity and perfect unity. ~~B. N. Pandit, Specific Principles of Kashmir Shaivism (3rd ed., 2008), p. 73.”

In the Vedas, this Shakti is Gayatri and Gayatri is Adhyashakti or the Primordial Mother.

Shiva has said in the Brihadnila Tantra to his consort or Shakti Parvati, that if one understands the fundamental crux of the tantra, then they will never be wanting for anything. And in war, during storms and tsunamis and other natural disasters, Shakti’s mantras will alleviate their suffering. Even during paranormal haunting.

This text Brihad Nila tantra is the secret of all secrets and even just having the text is like having the Goddess Laxmi reside in your place. This path is not one of renunciation. It is a path that brings you all kinds of success.

In fact, with the understanding of the text, the esoteric parts, one will become a miracle worker. A magician.

I will be writing at length about Brihad Nila tantra and much more…join me…

“Sivtatva’ and ‘Saktitatva’ (Lord Shiva and Holy Mother Kali) – Father’s semen in mother’s womb, both combined. Next I am born – ‘Sadasiva’ which means a continuous hilarity within my body. Next comes ‘Iswartatwa’ – Man becomes God and he is so made (One is All); ‘Sadvidyatatva’ – All these I am – All is One – I am all these, which is in action. What is that? Suppose in the spiritual world whatever will reveal within the brain will be flashed among the human race and by such phenomenon the world will get real benefit.” ~~ Sri Jibankrishna

Watch this video on the esoteric and secretive Nath sect…and Baba Ramnath AGHORI…one of my Gurus…joy Guru


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A Ghost of my Creation~

The wings of my butterfly shaped soul

Flutter mercilessly in vain

The sound of the death knell

The poignancy of the everlasting pain

Sweet surrender and an ending it longs

Like a moth to the flame

There is no denying this

There is no shame

Death is my poison

Suicide my orgasm

My whole body spasms

With the touch of your eyes

Do not believe these lies

Oh sweet death

Be mine…

I want your embrace

There is just the sublime fall from grace

Oh death…Oh death…

Be mine…

Death from this eternity in waiting

Waiting in the soulless purgatory

This disastrous love story

Is the sweet poison I crave

Life has fucked me hard

But I cannot discard

The thought of you

Are you standing before me?

I ask myself…

Did you leave?

Were you ever here?

Or were you in my mind?

In your eyes my soul I find

Did I wait forever?

Is this all an atrocious mistake?

When everything is at stake

Could I not have been more clever

To know this game makes us a loser

Has it already been that long

But I remember that song

An eternity has passed

I will not go out without a blast

Like the brilliance of a deadly quasar

This is the need of the hour

But you still remain inside of me

Like a soul wrenching ache

Don’t you see?

It’s not just my heart you break

When you deny and you’re filled with hesitation

You are the ghost of my creation

The sound of my incantations

Even in utter darkness

You shine like a trillion Suns

Why such aloofness?

I come undone

You are the tears that trickle down my cheeks

Am I too meek

To keep mourning the loss of inevitability

You are the constricted breath

Chocking me, strangling me

You are my asphyxiation

A wild desperation

You are my incarceration

My goddamn damnation

You are my sweet torment

Why are you so hellbent?

On destroying the sacredness

Of what we might have had

You are my bitter pleasure

And my absolute treasure

The robber of my soul

Be sure to play this role

To eternal oscillation

Of our existences

They become nothingness

As the void of emptiness

Dances around us

Through vast intergalactic distances

You are my dazzling sunshine

Deliver the sign to tell me you are here

As my psychedelic Jesus

You are my raging tempest

You are my perpetual melancholia

You are my abject paranoia

You are my tempest that blows asunder

You are my broken heart

Scattered into a million smithereens

You are my hallucination

You are my desperation

You are my absolution

You are my dream

You are my nightmare

You are all my memories

You are my wonderland

You are my matrix

You are my Sun and the Moon

You are my storm

As you rage inside of me

I have revolted against myself for you

Are you waiting for me?

Hear me call out to you

As Juliet to Romeo

As the poison turned her blue and cold

Much has been told

And now I am fed up

What will it be?

A cup of coffee or suicide?

I know I have laughed hysterically as I have cried

And now it’s time for the final goodbye.

More and more come pouring out…

A Plutonic New Moon in Libra, 8th/9th October 2018: Real love…It’s like feeling no fear, When you’re standing in the face of danger~~



A very Plutonic NM in Libra stares at us in the dark flaring up our emotions and feelings while we try to pivot through this peak moment of Venus retrograde. A NM is a reset button. Interestingly, Libra is ruled by Venus who is in Pluto’s domain Scorpio and she is RX and now listen to this…

A NM in Libra has not happened while Venus has been retro in Scorpio since 2010 and in the last 50 years it has happened twice. Like does that scream KARMIC to you? Correct me if I am wrong. Are you not looking at the same drama unfolding?

A New Moon in Libra while Venus is retrograde in…

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Pluto stations Direct~30th September 2018: We were born to die~~


In an obscure night
Fevered with love’s anxiety
(O hapless, happy plight!)
I went, none seeing me
Forth from my house, where all things quiet be…St. John of the Cross

The dark night of the soul ends…HURRAH! Looks like the spiritual crisis is over. At least for now. we can see the light at the end of tunnel. We made it to the other side of a Pluto retrograde and we’ve faced those demons of the unconscious. Battled with them. Hopefully defeated them…and now we are to rise up through he ashes…

Okay I am not being cliched with the Phoenix. I know I’ve mentioned it like a billion times…but there is actually no better representation. Even I did not want to repeat the symbology. If you’re fed up, then fuck the Phoenix. Take a long look at your life, because it will soon remind you that you are after…

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