I’ve held a lot of toxic things in,
never one to volunteer information.
I’ve spent my whole life listening to everyone else speak
their minds,
their truths

I’ve watched everyone else
live their lives
voice their opinions
while I was still waiting for the right moment to live mine

The longer I waited
to fit into everyone’s schedule,
the more I understood that I was dying a terrible death
and that I was worth more alive than dead