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I have forgotten

from long ago

on how I scribbled on my pad paper,

with my fat pencil. A namesake

I inherit


a birth right I shared


with Ryan,

a brother, no one has seen.

My twin.


Like Cain and Abel, we are

tender sprouted beings

casted like seeds in the field.


Which ones will survive?

Which ones will die?

Which ones will accept the fate?


And rooted, struggling,

ambling each other,

spacing out for survival.

Fighting to be the first,

drawing strength by its number.


I am weak. But he is brave

He is standing there, sizing up.

Leading power to his arms.


While I am left here, fidgeting

struggling to keep balance

with the world

in all its expectations.


Gradually and bitterly

time has come,

when it became a curse

to have a twin. 

Sharing a name.

Sharing a space.


He is no longer-

a brother.


So I strangle him.

Drowned him to his obscurity.

Cut away his connecting cord

succumbing to his last breath.


I let Ryan

soaked and bleed there

to die, with his dear

imaginary life.


To claim solely

my birthright.

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