Friday, July 13, 2012

Life's Little Lessons...

This image has been floating around Facebook lately... the first time I saw it, I thought, "hey - that's a goodie."  The more I saw it, the more recent events unfolded, the more I realized it was more than just a nice sentiment - it was the message life is trying to pound into my stubborn rock-hard skull.

It's been said that I have multiple personalities. Ha! If you only knew! LOL! But, it's kind of true... Online I am very bold. I am extremely comfortable putting it all out there - sharing my journey, my struggles, my successes... but in person, I am typically shy. Painfully shy. Depending on the situation, and who I'm with, I range from being "me" - outgoing, outspoken (opinionated), loyal and fun,  to being... well, bullied. My beloved husband - who has felt my wrath on more than one occasion, and who has listened to my complaints about this situation for years - cannot fathom why I allow it. "That's not who you are!" he says, "Stand up for yourself!!"

In recent weeks, it has become more and more of an issue. And my tolerance and acceptance of the situation are changing - drastically.

It would appear that I am growing a spine. 

Let me tell you, growth is painful. This is not fun. It's not easy for me to defend myself, or stand up for myself, or say 'no'. But... in recent days, I'm doing it more than I ever have (though still not more than I'm not, if that makes sense). Each day, and some days it's each hour, I'm being faced with moments where I have to decide if I'm going to get run over or if I'm going to push back. It's exhausting. And it's making my daily life a war-zone.

So, here's to one more of life's little lessons that I'm trying to learn... I think it's time for a glass of wine. Is it 5:00 yet?

No, seriously, is it 5 yet?

1 comment:

  1. chelle,i understand you more than you know,
    SO,in words of alan jackson...."its 5:00 SOMEWHERE"!

    nowgo stand up for yourself,and then have that wine....
    or vice versa if needed