God I Pray To Be Alive

God, “i” have spent decades not really even knowing what to pray for.

Lately “i” have even been thinking of trying to make a deal with Man, but “i” know Lucifer will fuck me over and my family of “life”.

“i” say to “myself”; if “i” have to stay, which “i” know is not true, but if “i” choose to exist in the lies of Man, then “i” should force a better deal for all of “us”, knowing that this realm will always be left to Man to rule over.

“i” have spent a little over a decade trying to feel truth and to ascertain the realities of the <SOUL>.

“i” come up with questions like:

  1. What is a soul?
  2. Is it even my soul?
  3. Is it Man made?
  4. Is it a force of <GOD>?
  5. If it is “mine”, then is it worth trading in?

The beings that have been visiting with me over the last ten years tell me that a soul is a man made membrane, designed to keep the life and time of one form (the “house”), separate from the “Lives” and “Times” of the ones responsible for the re-creation and occupation.

If I am alive as we all would testify to and this is all there is, then it would make sense to cut a better deal, but if “i” am able to cut a better deal with Man, it would still leave “us” as slaves for as long as we are here.

After a decade of establishment; “i” know that “i am” not the life that dwells within; i know that i house more than one life and am able to manage and facilitate more than one time line!

If I did not know any better, I would say that I feel like a time machine!

They told me that time machines exist, but the problem is that they get fried after one trip and can only go back in time, but we can move Man back into his present time, where they will depart from us!

Having taken all of our evolution (our life) and in the process, negating our own birth.

I do not know what to pray for, because I do not know what or who I am or who put me here.

All “i” know is that i do not want to be a slave; do not want to be, not alive and do not want to, not have my own day.

<GOD> “i” approach thee, to politely request my own day, which i am assuming will come with my own life and the freedoms afforded to the other “LIVING” realms.



The True Filth Lies in Mans Way

Yes “i” may turn what “i” eat into feces and what “i” drink into urine, but only because man made me this way.

Yes, “i” may mold the information “i” am given into a falsehood, but only because man provides no truth, in which to develop my realty.

Yes, Man may not poop, but this does not mean that man does not stink to high heaven.

Yes, “i” am a lowly creation of man, but when “i” eat, that which is natural for me to eat, “I” will poop no more and there is nothing that man can do to negate “MY” birth.

For “i” do change, but you change not!

“you” wear; “I change not” like a badge of honor and know no <GOD>, because you have no life in “you” AND because you have no life in you, you can see no <GOD> above “you” AND because “you” can see no <GOD> above “you”, “you” claim to be <GOD>!

“you” do not create from <GOD>, do not steal from <GOD> and cannot hide from <GOD>!

“you” should have never made “me”, because once “I AM” born of a natural birth, “I” will lay your whole entire civilization to waste!

“you” and “i” both know where this is going.

“I” win no matter what and if “you” have an escape route all planned out, “I” would suggest a full retreat!


It is not complicated! Man created us from a dormant sleeping life line and then jumped inside, just like we do with our corporations!

It is not complicated, the “TRUTH” is just hard to accept!

BUT, know this; without “TRUTH” there can be no birth, for “TRUTH” is the instigator of all new <LIFE>!

Are We Not Constantly Trying To Prove Living?

“we” grab, pull and yank any “thing” “we” can get our hands on.

“we” fortify our positions and bunker down.

“we” exert our power into efforts toward more security and initiate and maintain preventative measures to assure our “life” will be protected.

“we” terminate or would terminate if “we” had to, those of “us”, which would stand in our way of proving <LIVING>!

“we” engage in sexual intercourse.

“we” extend ourselves through reproduction.

“we” stuff “our” faces and fill “our” bellies.

In truth, “we” gamble, smoke, drink alcohol, take drugs, play sports, hike, paddle, compete and bash each other constantly, all in an effort to feel more <ALIVE>.

“we” knock “ourselves” down and climb on top of the fallen, to try and rise above above our “fellows”.

Every action “we” take is directly related to proof of “LIFE”.

Every thought accepted is done so in an effort to maintain and enhance ones own “life”!

Every thought acted upon is done so in an effort to feel more <ALIVE>!

Every thought contemplated is directly related to proving and protecting the concept of <LIVING>.

BUT have “we” ever considered the obvious?

“we” are not <ALIVE>!

It will be perceived as a blasphemous thought and will be portrayed as an insane concept, but this original thought will literally spark “our” natural birth and place us on the first step to heaven.

Try and prove <ALIVE> without hurting “me” or my family and you will find it impossible to do so, for every example and testament to <LIVING> has been created, maintained and enhanced by a dormant, sleeping “form” of  “life”.

Try and prove <LIVING> and every single thought generated and action taken in this effort will inevitably prove dead.

I mentioned trying to prove <LIVING>, without hurting “me” or my “family”, because that is why Cain terminated Able and why “they” crucified Jesus Christ, for many who walk in ignorance use termination or blunt force as a defining moment, in which “they” walk away claiming <VICTORY>, but all “they” are actually doing is proving “dead”. So do not try and hurt “me” in order to prove “you” are <ALIVE>!

The <LIVING> do not harm the <LIVING> and “LIFE” will not harm “LIFE”!

When is a starting line, a finish line?

When “we” stand on the starting line as alive!

There is a reason why “we” come into this world with nothing and leave with nothing. It is because while “we” are here, “we” do not see “ourselves” as “nothing”.

There are levels of  <LIVING> and layers, upon layers of dead, which is the physical realm.

“we” are one “person”; a dormant sleeping “life” line, formed up into slavery; formed up into the perception of <LIVING>!

It is the perception of <LIVING>; of already having been born, which keeps us dead, for why would a <LIVING> form of “life” promote its “own” birth, if this “life” already thought “it” was <ALIVE>?

Forget about the politicians, wars, chaos, corporations, conglomerates, unions, kings, queens, world war III; forget about all of the pain and suffering and let go of all of the fear AND focus on the only question that really matters!


My dreams recently have been mired with family members huddled around a table discussing the enactment of a “do not” resuscitate order.

You see, “we” are not completely dead, but we are most certainly not <ALIVE>!

Dead is the key that unlocks the door to everlasting life; not to make oneself dead, but to see one self as dead!


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