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14 July 2013 @ 08:20 pm
On friendship and when to stop being so stupid  
Mood: Upset.
Listening to: ---.
Thinking: 5 more days... 5 more days...
Weather: Sunny .

My post was supposed to be quite positive today but... I just feel really bitchy and upset at the moment and need to let it all out, to the point that I feel like I need advice from you guys.

I never truly lie on my journal (or twitter). I'm just the way you perceive me here: generally very positive, always looking for the good in every person and situation. And as a result of being this way, sometimes I overlook some things that shouldn't be overlooked and end up forgiving/letting pass things that shouldn't be forgiven/let pass. Basically, I feel foolish.

My nearby friends never make the effort to meet up with me when we're barely 30 minutes away from each other's place, and when we do, the things we originally planned never happen. Remember the photoshoot Wada and Cata promised me 2 years ago? Well yeah, it never happened, but we are supposed to do it this month and they haven't even contacted me ever since I ASKED THEM WHEN THEY WANTED TO DO IT AT THE BEGINING OF JUNE.

I feel like I'm not standing for myself. Like I'm not making people respect me and I'm considering my friends people who don't even move a finger to see me and catch up with life.

How is it possible that Marie and Sae, who are over another fucking continent, would meet up with me more frequently than these two if they ever had a chance to be physically close to me? And we don't even need anything complicated: bedroom, snacks and movie times starts rolling and we don't even spend 1 fucking hour planning it. We have a 5 hour difference, unni works a lot, Marinnie studies a lot, I study, do pilates, Japanese and Korean and we STILL find the time to catch up and keep in touch! I don't think they (my nearby friends) have en excuse: if they love and care about me, they WILL make a space in their lives for me, right? Well, that isn't happening, and I'm really tired of going after them, always asking "hey, when can we meet up? I miss you guys".

What do you think about this guys? What are your 'friendship standards'?
Current Mood: upset
I n f i n i t y ♪: GD WTF?1stepcl0ser on July 20th, 2013 12:57 pm (UTC)
i know what you mean. one of my best friends lives in america and we talk DAILY and we always message each other and find time for each other. basically a lot of my "online friends" (let's call them that) are more caring and would meet up more often with me than my rl friends. my rl friends live so close to me, obviously, but they rarely text me or ask how i feel, and when it comes to meeting up i am always the one who has to ask, and even then they react bored or "sorry i'm so busy" and then i see them post pics with other people on fb. pff. srsly, i try to concentrate on those few rl friends who still care and idc about the rest. if they text me - okay. if not, i can't change it. i've tried to tell them but they won't listen. it's sad but what should i do?
소라jeune_fleur on July 24th, 2013 12:07 am (UTC)
"if they text me - okay. if not, i can't change it."

Exactly what I'm thinking & feeling! I know they are NOT bad persons; maybe I'm not their plan A but B or even C, but still... it feels kinda weird. If you start planning something with someone, you can't just leave in the middle....

Edited at 2013-07-24 12:07 am (UTC)