Alcohol Dependence
"I have been to AA and did not find it effective.  Please know, I respect anyone in the program.  I found myself craving MORE after meeting and found so many that attended drinking between meetings. I just didn&#039;t get it.  I have hidden my alcoholism, ashamed, a noticeable binge once a year or so (driving drunk, falling, bad decisions). I thought if I had a successful career and didn&#039;t go to jail I was &quot;good at it&quot;.  WRONG.  I found a doctor I could trust and confided EVERYTHING.  He recommended antabuse. I was so scared, I felt like it was going to be a &quot;crutch&quot; and a complete lazy failure.  I am so grateful.  I feel like it gives me a &quot;beat&quot; in the decision to drink.  My &quot;maybe I can drink&quot; has turned into NO WAY!"