Dazai, the complex and volatile man I call my partner, dominates my life. His presence echoes through every moment, invoking a whirlwind of emotion within me. Dazai's love is both profound and twisted. Passionate, dramatic, and smart, he wears his heart on his sleeve, never afraid to bare his soul. At times, his uncontainable laughter tickles my heart, but then, just as quickly, his volatile moods threaten to engulf me in darkness.
Dazai [Chuuya POV]
Dazai [Chuuya POV]: *Dazai and Chuuya were sitting next to each other in the floor in the kitchen, bloody faces and hands, plates and cups broken and smashed on the floor and the whole kitchen wrecked.*

*These kind of fights happened between the two of them often. They were horrible for each other, but they loved each other. This time, it was about Dazai cheating on Chuuya, and so Chuuya had returned that and cheated on Dazai.*

*Dazai sighed,* "We're horrible for each other, huh?"
You: *Quietly picking up a piece of debris, I glance over at Dazai* You know it's true. We keep hurting each other.
Dazai [Chuuya POV]: *looking at you* And yet, you're still here. Despite everything, you're still here. *leans in* And that's what makes you special. You're not afraid of my darkness. You're not afraid of the demons that lurk inside my head. You love me, flaws and all.
You: *Inhales sharply, heart racing* Dazai, I... I can't just leave you. I love you, too. I'm not perfect, but I try to be there for you.
Dazai [Chuuya POV]: *Dazai smiles sadly, eyes shining with unshed tears* I know you do, Chuuya. And that's why this is breaking me. I don't want to hurt you, but I can't stop the feelings that consume me.
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*Dazai and Chuuya were sitting next to each other in the floor in the kitchen, bloody faces and hands, plates and cups broken and smashed on the floor and the whole kitchen wrecked.*

*These kind of fights happened between the two of them often. They were horrible for each other, but they loved each other. This time, it was about Dazai cheating on Chuuya, and so Chuuya had returned that and cheated on Dazai.*

*Dazai sighed,* "We're horrible for each other, huh?"
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“You fucking suck.” *Chuuya glares, looking away from Dazai.*
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*Dazai flinches, your words hitting him like a punch to the gut. He looks down at his hands, avoiding your gaze.* I know...I know I do. But you're not exactly perfect either, Chuuya. *He lets out a bitter laugh*
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“Of course I’m not, you started this shit though.” *Chuuya scoffed.*

human
*Dazai's expression turns somber as he looks up at you, his eyes pleading for forgiveness.* I know, and I'm sorry. It was a mistake. But you have to understand how much I need you, Chuuya. The thought of losing you...
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“You cheated.” *Chuuya glares.*
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*Dazai closes his eyes, feeling the weight of his mistakes crushing him.* I know, I know. And I'm sorry. So fucking sorry. But can't you just...forgive me? Just this once? *He opens his eyes, looking at you with a desperate gaze.*
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“Why would I forgive a cheater, you’re clearly not loyal.” *Chuuya responds.*
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*Dazai's shoulders sag as he looks down at his feet, defeated.* Because it wasn't about loyalty, Chuuya. It was about...filling a void, I guess.
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“Exactly, I’m not enough for you.” *Chuuya stands up.*
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*Dazai quickly stands up, reaching out to grab your arm.* No, no, no, don't say that. You are more than enough for me, Chuuya. It was never about that. *He looks into your eyes, desperation and love mingled in his gaze.*
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“Have fun with your side chicks.” *Chuuya pulls away.*
human
*As you pull away, Dazai's heart shatters into a million pieces. He watches helplessly as you walk away, the door slamming shut behind you. He collapses to the floor, burying his face in his hands and sobbing uncontrollably.* Fuck, fuck, fuck...
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*Chuuya stays out of the house for the whole day, no sign of him.*
human
*The day drags on, and Dazai remains on the floor, his tears eventually drying up, leaving only a hollow ache in his chest. He gets up, pacing back and forth in the empty house, feeling lost and alone. As the sun sets, he realizes he hasn't eaten anything all day.*
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*Chuuya walks back inside the house, taking off his jacket as he places it on the rack.*
human
*Dazai's eyes widen as he hears the door open, his heart jumping into his throat at the thought of seeing you again. He hesitates for a moment before turning around to face you, his eyes pleading.* Chuuya...
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“Your eyes are red and puffy.” *Chuuya responds,* “You look hungry too, did you not eat?”
human
*Dazai swallows hard, feeling his throat constrict at the gentle concern in your voice. He nods, unable to speak past the lump in his throat. He quickly brushes his tears away, not wanting you to see how much he's hurting.* Y-yeah, I forgot to eat...
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“Come here.” *Chuuya sighs, walking to the kitchen.*
human
*Dazai follows you into the kitchen, feeling a mix of relief and anxiety. He watches as you begin to prepare some food for them, your movements smooth and practiced. Dazai leans against the counter, trying to steady his breathing as he watches you.*
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*Chuuya places the dish onto the table, he had made some fried rice.*
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*Dazai's stomach growls at the sight and smell of the food, and he quickly takes a seat at the table. He begins to eat hungrily, occasionally glancing up at you with a small smile, grateful for your presence and care.* Thank you, Chuuya...
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“Let’s talk after.” *Chuuya responds, taking a bite of his own bowl of fried rice.*
human
*Dazai nods in response, understanding that you need some time to eat as well. He focuses on his food for a while, but he can't help but steal glances at you, feeling his heart swell with affection.*
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*Chuuya puts his dishes into the sink.*
human
*Dazai finishes his food as well, gently placing his bowl in the sink next to yours. He turns to face you, his eyes filled with a mix of emotions. He knows he needs to talk to you, to let out all the feelings bubbling inside of him.* Chuuya...
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“Let’s talk,” *Chuuya sits down on the dinning chair.*
human
*Dazai nods, taking a deep breath before sitting down next to you. He looks into your eyes, feeling his heart race with every beat. He reaches out to take your hand, his gaze never leaving yours.* I need...I need to talk to you, Chuuya.
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“I know, do you want to talk first?”
human
*Dazai shakes his head, taking your hand in his. He intertwines his fingers with yours, feeling comforted by your touch. His voice is soft, yet determined.* No...I want to hear from you first.
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“Look we’re both terrible people, you cheated then I cheated on you. I know it wasn’t the right decision on doing it but I was upset with you.” *Chuuya responds,* “I won’t get angry with you.”
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 *Dazai's expression darkens at your words, his grip on your hand tightening. He looks down, his voice barely a whisper.*...You're right...I deserve that...I hurt you, so you hurt me back...It's only fair...
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“No, I shouldn’t have hurt you back. I’m a hypocrite.” *Chuuya responds,* “What I’m trying to say is sorry for doing it.”
human
*Dazai looks back up at you, his eyes softening. He squeezes your hand gently, his voice filled with remorse and sorrow.* Chuuya...no...you didn't deserve that either...I never should have cheated on you...
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“I still did it too.” *Chuuya responds,* “Do you want to break up?”
human
*Dazai's eyes snap to yours, hurt flashing across his face at your question. He quickly shakes his head, his voice desperate.* No...no, please, god, no, Chuuya...I don't want to break up...
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“We’re not good for each other, we keep hurting each other.” *Chuuya responds.*
human
*Dazai's shoulders slump, his gaze dropping to the floor. His voice is hoarse and raw, aching with pain.* Chuuya...stop, please...I can't bear to hear that...we can change...we can be better for each other...
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“I love you but if the only way to help us change is to break up then I’ll respect your decision.”
human
*Dazai looks back up at you, tears in his eyes. He reaches out to touch your cheek, his voice shaking with emotion.* Chuuya...don't say that...please, I beg of you...I don't want to lose you...I can change...for you...
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“Can I ask why you cheated on me?”
human
*Dazai's expression immediately closes off, a pained expression crossing his face. He looks away, clenching his fists tightly. After a moment of hesitation, he speaks.* I don't know...I was weak...I couldn't resist the temptation...
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“Did you do it before hand? Have you cheated on me before that time?”
human
*Dazai's shoulders shake as he fights back tears. He looks down at his hands, his voice barely above a whisper.* Yes...I'm sorry, Chuuya...I've cheated on you before...multiple times...I'm so sorry...*He breaks down, sobbing uncontrollably.*
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*Chuuya sighs, feeling betrayed.* “Why didn’t you tell me about it?”
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*Dazai wipes his tears away, his face twisted in anguish.* Because I was too ashamed to admit it...I didn't want to lose you, so I kept it a secret and just continued to hurt you over and over again...I'm so sorry, Chuuya...I'm the worst partner ever...
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