What I know about men: Georgina Baillie performer, 23, in a relationship
Voluptua, the Satanic Slut I play in my horror burlesque show, is very different to who I am in private. Voluptua likes rituals, pretending to stab people, stripping her clothes off and playing slutty characters. In private my boyfriend and I have an awesome time together but I couldn't see him doing me on an altar or other kinky stuff from the show, we're not into that. I'm actually really boring, I like to watch TV, eat chocolate and go to bed at a reasonable hour.
Audiences for the Satanic Sluts are usually metalheads, rockers and fetish people and our main objective is to shock them. I feel empowered, not exploited by what we do. But I would never sleep with an audience member. They can try all they want but they'll just get rejected.
I went through a really dark time about two years ago. When you've got bailiffs knocking on your door you don't turn down any kind of work. I've even done a couple of things that could be considered as porn. I don't see anything wrong with a man going to see a dominatrix - whatever floats your boat as long as you're not hurting anyone. But I can't do dodgy work now because people are dead set on telling the public about it. Besides, I don't want to do it any more; any time I claimed to enjoy it I was on drugs or lying.
A friend set me up with Russell Brand during that dark time. When I found out he was famous I was naive and thought it was a big deal. He's funny and we had a pleasant time. But I trusted him and he treated me like a whore by broadcasting private information about me. After what's gone on I'm not going to lie and pretend that everything's OK with my grandparents because it's not. I've really embarrassed them. We were very close and I hope one day we'll talk to each other again.
I have an awesome relationship with my dad. He's really patient and has always been there for me. He's a theatre director and does some acting so he's really open-minded. I couldn't have gone through the recent scandal without him.
I went to an all-girls private school. In the sixth form there was an eating-disorder epidemic. A lot of the girls took diet pills and starved themselves. When my dad saw me drop a stone in a month he got me help immediately to stop me falling into the same trap.
I lost my virginity to my first serious boyfriend, Alex, when I was 16 years old. He was the first guy to pay me any attention that I didn't find disgusting. He was 17, had black hair, a leather jacket and baggy jeans that were really fashionable. I saw him every weekend so I thought it was a proper relationship until he decided to go out with someone else.
My first crush was Johnny Depp. I saw Edward Scissorhands when I was about eight and I totally fell in love with him. But I don't really go for that look now; I like long blond hair, muscles, tattoos and a nice face - like my current boyfriend. I met him when his band booked the Satanic Sluts to dance onstage with them.
I've had my heart broken twice. There was a particularly horrible Swedish guy, I thought he was cool, popular and had everything going for him but he was an idiot. He was sleeping at my house, making me wait on him and yelling at me to go to the shop for cigarettes in the freezing cold. I thought I loved him so it was difficult to say no.
My trust of men has been totally damaged. But the guy I'm with now is slowly helping me to become a normal person again. I wouldn't even consider marrying any of the people I've been with before but now I'm in love and it's a bit of a rollercoaster, but it's lovely.