bandžiau išvengti savo svorio realybės, o gal jau jaučiausi pakankamai kaltas, kad susitelkęs į mane tiesiog pasijutau savanaudis, kad neatiduosiu visko elliot
i was trying to avoid the reality of my weight or maybe i already felt guilty enough that focusing on me would just make me feel selfish that i wasnt giving everything to elliot