(CNN) -- U.S. Sgt. Bowe Bergdahl -- a former captive, a survivor and a hometown hero to many in Hailey, Idaho -- is being accused by some of his fellow soldiers of deserting his post. This charge of treason will be proven or dismissed in the coming weeks and months. But whether it is true or not, and whether he faces official military charges, he has already been sentenced to life to be haunted by his captivity -- and if the allegations are true, his choices. Survivors of the Hanoi Hilton, POWs during Vietnam such as Sen. John McCain and Medal of Honor winner Adm. James Stockdale, endured the rigors of long days, months and years of surviving captivity. But Bergdahl's experiences were starkly different from those of his military predecessors.
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Bowe Bergdahl a "hometown hero" in Hailey, Idaho, and a "deserter" to some soldiers
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O'Shea: He learned Pashtun; building rapport with captors is critical to survival as a hostage
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He says Bergdahl probably wondered each day if this would be his last
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To break vow to fellow soldiers is terrible: If he indeed deserted, that will haunt him, too
One can only speculate about his original intent, but I expect his opinion of the @placeholder that sacrificed so much to bring him home is not what it was five years ago.