section_path: Mental health/Onset of illness
section_name: Onset of illness
paragraph_text: Onset of illness
  
  Wilson was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and mild bipolar disorder. From 1965 on, he regularly experienced auditory hallucinations in the form of disembodied voices. Wilson referred to the voices as "heroes and villains" that contributed to "a life of scare".
  
  His family and associates faced challenges in discerning genuine mental health issues from potential manipulative behavior on Wilson's part. Subsequent to his Houston flight incident from December 1964, Marilyn arranged his first psychiatrist visit, where it was ruled that Wilson's condition was due to work-related fatigue. Wilson typically refused counseling, and his family believed his idiosyncrasies stemmed from drug habits or were innate to his personality. Marilyn countered accusations of neglect on her part, emphasizing her repeated efforts to get him professional help.
  
  According to Wilson, he was introduced to recreational drugs by an acquaintance during a Beach Boys tour. His hallucinations emerged early in 1965, about a week after his first time using psychedelics. Loren Schwartz, his supplier, said that Wilson's first dosage was 125 micrograms of "pure Owsley " and resulted in "full-on ego death ". Mike Love observed signs of irregular behavior in Wilson by July, recalling an incident where Wilson deliberately crashed his car, an act Love deemed out of character. His drug use was initially concealed from his bandmates and family, including Love, who had thought Wilson to be strictly opposed to drugs.
  
  asked me to come down to Studio B. When we got down there, he said to me, "Let me play something that I hear when I've been on LSD." He sat down at the piano and played one note. He described what he was hearing. That's when I knew he was in trouble.
  
  Wilson, in 1990, attributed LSD to his developing "a Jesus Christ complex " in the mid-1960s. Following the advice of Four Freshmen manager Bill Wagner, Wilson consulted with a UCLA psychiatrist on the adverse effects of LSD. The psychiatrist later told Wagner, "I don't know if he is savable. He gives me the impression he's been on it for a while, and he's entirely enamored of it." By 1966, Wilson acknowledged using "pills" for introspection rather than leisure and viewed psychedelic usage as benign. His 2016 memoir states that he abstained from consuming LSD for a second time until he was 23, around 1966 or 1967. Marilyn suspected he had numerous LSD experiences in the ensuing years, although she knew of only two such incidents at the time. Ledbetter, in 2004, claimed Wilson had taken LSD only thrice in his life.
  
  As Wilson's condition worsened, he grew susceptible to paranoid delusions, believing that his auditory hallucinations were Satan coming "in the form of other people that were competing with me and had ideas of killing me". By 1968, following the birth of their first child, Marilyn's concerns about Wilson's mental health intensified. Wilson was hospitalized later that year and prescribed Thorazine for severe anxiety disorder. He may have self-admitted and possibly received treatments ranging from talking therapies to doses of lithium and electroconvulsive therapy during this stay.
  
  Wilson was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder and mild bipolar disorder. From 1965 on, he regularly experienced auditory hallucinations in the form of disembodied voices. Wilson referred to the voices as "heroes and villains" that contributed to "a life of scare".
  
  His family and associates faced challenges in discerning genuine mental health issues from potential manipulative behavior on Wilson's part. Subsequent to his Houston flight incident from December 1964, Marilyn arranged his first psychiatrist visit, where it was ruled that Wilson's condition was due to work-related fatigue. Wilson typically refused counseling, and his family believed his idiosyncrasies stemmed from drug habits or were innate to his personality. Marilyn countered accusations of neglect on her part, emphasizing her repeated efforts to get him professional help.
  
  According to Wilson, he was introduced to recreational drugs by an acquaintance during a Beach Boys tour. His hallucinations emerged early in 1965, about a week after his first time using psychedelics. Loren Schwartz, his supplier, said that Wilson's first dosage was 125 micrograms of "pure Owsley " and resulted in "full-on ego death ". Mike Love observed signs of irregular behavior in Wilson by July, recalling an incident where Wilson deliberately crashed his car, an act Love deemed out of character. His drug use was initially concealed from his bandmates and family, including Love, who had thought Wilson to be strictly opposed to drugs.
  
  asked me to come down to Studio B. When we got down there, he said to me, "Let me play something that I hear when I've been on LSD." He sat down at the piano and played one note. He described what he was hearing. That's when I knew he was in trouble.
  
  Wilson, in 1990, attributed LSD to his developing "a Jesus Christ complex " in the mid-1960s. Following the advice of Four Freshmen manager Bill Wagner, Wilson consulted with a UCLA psychiatrist on the adverse effects of LSD. The psychiatrist later told Wagner, "I don't know if he is savable. He gives me the impression he's been on it for a while, and he's entirely enamored of it." By 1966, Wilson acknowledged using "pills" for introspection rather than leisure and viewed psychedelic usage as benign. His 2016 memoir states that he abstained from consuming LSD for a second time until he was 23, around 1966 or 1967. Marilyn suspected he had numerous LSD experiences in the ensuing years, although she knew of only two such incidents at the time. Ledbetter, in 2004, claimed Wilson had taken LSD only thrice in his life.
  
  As Wilson's condition worsened, he grew susceptible to paranoid delusions, believing that his auditory hallucinations were Satan coming "in the form of other people that were competing with me and had ideas of killing me". By 1968, following the birth of their first child, Marilyn's concerns about Wilson's mental health intensified. Wilson was hospitalized later that year and prescribed Thorazine for severe anxiety disorder. He may have self-admitted and possibly received treatments ranging from talking therapies to doses of lithium and electroconvulsive therapy during this stay.