And what if the gambler quit one round before his big jackpot? Blind hope of serving good happening in the near future isn't a good reason to keep doing something that makes you miserable, such as living. And my problem hasn't been about being stuck thinking about the future, if I ever thought about the future I wouldn't be in this mess. It's that I'm constantly feeling like shit, unable to do anything with my days, always relying on others to support me and move me through life. I'm not depressed by the future, I'm seemingly unable to experience or enjoy the present.