For me it's mainly frustrating, because I'm always seeing other girls my age doing normal stuff like dating and making lot of friends and going out. But because I'm so hopeless at communicating with others and I have bad anxiety it is difficult for me to do those things even though I would like to. I don't think being autistic is inherently bad, a lot of autistic people are very successful and happy as a result of their autism. But if I could press a button that would make me not be autistic any more I'm pretty sure I would press it.