From what you described you are just the normal man who is not the top 5% in this gynocentric culture. And you will be at some point attacked by women. That is normal. Needless to say you should have never exposed yourself to these two thots who bulied you.  Most guys will increasingly go through what you have gone. As women will get more bitter and society will get more gynocentric. Its up to the man to have some selfrespect and honor and reduce his interactions with women to the minimum.  It is normal for you to try and experiment. Its normal for you to want women if you never had them, especially if you grew up in the west bombarded with romantic indoctrination. It is not normal for you to go through hoops and do shit because of women and getting humiliated, unless you want to end with issues. I tried to help incels but they seem so programmed and so indoctrinated that my efforts were irrelevant, and probably just hurt them more.  Incels issues have nothing to do with not having sex. But they fetishized the modern female that rejected them so much and humiliated them so much. They were indoctrinated by society, music, school, tv, movies, maybe even porn addiction. Its ok to crave sex, it is not ok to crave an idealized female that doesnt exist. The problem is simping and relationships with women, especifically cohabitation.  Therefore the difference between a mgtow and an incel. Is that the incel suffers with not getting that special woman and female validation. While the mgtow even though he might have done his simp sins he realizes that he himself is not happy with relationships with women and that women holds him back in life in many ways. So if you have the selfawareness of mgtow, then you are not an incel. Incels dont realize the problem is in society and female nature.  If you want to get laid you have to go for the unrealistic childlike media indoctrinated expectations of women. The porn of women is the media, so if you are dependent on female validation you are fucked because they always want more, and even then they wont be happy. Many are the men who are cucked and pussy whipped, doing steroids and becoming gangsters because they are what i call, weaponized incels. But if you dont care about female validation, and you just want to fuck, then you will be fine for the most, except false allegations, and you can also bang escorts. If you can bang an escort without feeling bad, and you are happy with it, then you are free from women, and you are not an incel virgin. Basically if we all voted with our money and all banged escorts the world would fix the gynocentric problem.  Apart from that you need to understand that fixing your diet and finding a sport that you like is essential for your health. If you want to survive in this society you have to blend in. If you look like a good target you will be a target. Workout dude its the best thing you can do in your life (if you have no conditions).  This culture is also turned against women. Many men use TRP and PUA stuff with success. All you have to do is look good, and push the right buttons, lie and manipulate them, use every dirty trick in the book.  For your other question of you going back to the plantation. Dont feel bad if that happens. And if you are armed with mgtow knowledge, you will at least see the redflags from a mile away. But you won't be invunerable to oneitis, because its mostly a chemical thing in your brain. So if your path includes experiencing it to learn it, you will definitely see what we talk about here. You will see it is deeply ingrained in their nature to be Like That.  Im what incels call Chad Lite. Basically im in the border, I can get laid, and i did get laid many times, got girlfriends etc... But im just in that level where im not the top Chad so they think they have leverage over me and dont just bend over but im enough good looking to call their attention and catch their often unwanted interest, its not a good combination. Advice from Chads dont work with me, and advice from normies even less, when it comes to dealing with women. What works with me to keep them in line, or if i even want to get laid, is being in part myself as i grew up, which is being the reckless thug who laughs at their shit and doesnt give a fuck about them and this cucked society.