One should not be ashamed of their sexual desires.
Billy starts to realize as he reaches puberty that he is more attracted to boys than girls.
Billy wants to express his sexuality.
Billy decides that he needs to be open with everyone about who he is, and he doesn't keep his sexuality a secret from anyone.
Billy is careful to only be open to people who he knows will be accepting of his sexual preferences, because he is embarrassed.
Billy feels open and proud of who he is, even when the conversation is difficult for him to have he prefers to be open about his sexuality.
Billy feels ashamed of himself because he is keeping a secret from most of the people he knows.