It's not okay to obscure things from others.
Pascal doesn't want anyone to know what his favorite food is.
Pascal wants to made a decision if he should hide this information about himself.
Pascal decides he shouldn't hide this about himself and orders his favorite food at restruants.
Pascal continues to hide his favorite food from others out of fear of being perceived as childish.
Pascal is presently surprised how few people actually seem to care.
This means that Pascal almost never actually gets to eat his favorite food and has to make it for himself.