i ve made multiple post of this same topic a a way to seek help wherever i can i have no desire to be alive anymore everyday i wake up i think of way of taking my life because i have lost every single friend who wa ever important to me i am year old black non passing transwoman who decided to begin transitioning at i ve gotten to the point of getting my name changed but now i feel that it may have all been a mistake it s not that i feel like i m not trans anymore but that i can no longer take the pain and judgment of being trans i wa taking seven pill a day with hormone and had a huge increase in emotional irregularity anxiety and stress i embarrassed myself in several way to friend that i valued and after two month of reckless sex and drug abuse i found everyone around me pushing me away it s been six month since my last suicide attempt and everyday i wake in pain of missing my friend a i relive all the thing that happened i just want to end it all i want to try to repair the friendship but a large part of me feel thing may never be the same again i also want to just move on but the guilt i feel may live inside me forever i really don t know what to do at this point
i ve made multiple post of this same topic a a way to seek help wherever i can i have no desire to be alive anymore everyday i wake up i think of way of taking my life because i have lost every single friend who wa ever important to me i am year old black non passing transwoman who decided to begin transitioning at i ve gotten to the point of getting my name changed but now i feel that it may have all been a mistake it s not that i feel like i m not trans anymore but that i can no longer take the pain and judgment of being trans i wa taking seven pill a day with hormone and had a huge increase in emotional irregularity anxiety and stress i embarrassed myself in several way to friend that i valued and after two month of reckless sex and drug abuse i found everyone around me pushing me away it s been six month since my last suicide attempt and everyday i wake in pain of missing my friend a i relive all the thing that happened i just want to end it all i want to try to repair the friendship but a large part of me feel thing may never be the same again i also want to just move on but the guilt i feel may live inside me forever i really dont know what to do at this point
He hecho múltiples post de este mismo tema una manera de buscar ayuda donde quiera que pueda no tengo ningún deseo de estar vivo más día a día me despierto pienso en manera de tomar mi vida porque he perdido a cada amigo que nunca ha sido importante para mí soy año viejo negro no pasar transwoman que decidió comenzar la transición en he llegado al punto de conseguir mi nombre cambiado pero ahora siento que puede haber sido todo un error no es que me siento como si no soy trans más pero que ya no puedo tomar el dolor y el juicio de ser trans i wa tomar siete píldoras al día con hormona y tuvo un gran aumento de la irregularidad emocional ansiedad y estrés me avergüenzo de varias maneras a amigo que valoré y después de dos meses de sexo imprudente y abuso de drogas encontré a todo el mundo a mi alrededor que me empuja fuera hace seis meses desde mi último intento de suicidio y cada día me despierto en dolor de faltar a mi amigo a revivir todo lo que pasó yo sólo quiero terminar todo lo que quiero tratar de reparar la amistad pero una gran parte de mí sentir cosa puede que nunca volver a ser el mismo yo también quiero moverme pero la culpa puedo vivir dentro de mí realmente sé lo que realmente quiero hacer