im tempted to choose death not through a bullet through my head or a rope or some pill but through starvation to test and see if my desire to die really is stronger than my carnal will to live to finally feel alive in my body a i weaken day by day and feel myself shrivel and decay just like how this depression ha been eating away at my mind i want it to symbolically show to be eating away at my body and to die gracefully paper delicate skin and bone lay over the ground carelessly wrapped in a blanket to be kissed by death to know i have a set amount of day left to live the people around me will be alarmed a i visibly start to die before their eye then ill finally see who care for me to atleast experience what it would feel like to not be obese once in my life
im tempted to choose death not through a bullet through my head or a rope or some pill but through starvation to test and see if my desire to die really is stronger than my carnal will to live to finally feel alive in my body a i weaken day by day and feel myself shrivel and decay just like how this depression ha been eating away at my mind i want it to symbolically show to be eating away at my body and to die gracefully paper delicate skin and bone lay over the ground carelessly wrapped in a blanket to be kissed by death to know i have a set amount of day left to live the people around me will be alarmed a i visibly start to die before their eye then ill finally see who care for me to atleast experience what it would feel like to not be obese once in my life
Estoy tentado a elegir la muerte no a través de una bala a través de mi cabeza o una cuerda o alguna píldora, sino a través de la inanición para probar y ver si mi deseo de morir realmente es más fuerte que mi voluntad carnal para vivir para finalmente sentirse vivo en mi cuerpo un me debilito día a día y me siento me marchito y decaimiento al igual que esta depresión ha estado comiendo en mi mente quiero que simbólicamente mostrar estar comiendo en mi cuerpo y morir elegantemente papel piel delicada y hueso yacía sobre el suelo sin cuidado envuelto en una manta para ser besado por la muerte para saber que tengo una cantidad fija de día para vivir la gente a mi alrededor se alarmará un i visible comienzo a morir antes de que su ojo entonces enfermo finalmente ver quién se preocupa por mí al menos experimentar lo que se sentiría como no ser obeso una vez en mi vida