i m m turning in december and i can t help but feel like my time is quickly running out i ve never been so emotionally distant from my family a i ve had this year and it feel like i m a disappointment to everyone who ha actually cared about me at some point i actually had a sort of future ahead of me but it blew up in my fucking face when i had decided to write a joke essay to the high school i wanted to go to after my mom wouldn t even allow me to go if i wa even accepted the worst part is she doesn t even admit to doing that i don t know what to do anymore i ve always had the feeling of wanting to blow my fucking brain out but i ve never felt it a strong a this why is it that when it come to mental issue for men we are throughly ignored why are you upset why are you depressed you don t have a reason to be depressed you should talk to someone but who is actually listening i m sorry for anyone who actually read this but i ve been in such a terrible mindset the past odd hour i really just need guidance it feel awful to think that inevitably all my family will be gone and i ll be the only one to fend for myself in just a handful of year and somehow in any social circumstance i always end up being the butt end of the joke i don t want to keep doing this for 0 0 something year someone please talk me out of this state if it s even possible to those who read this entire thing i hope you re in a better state than i am
i m m turning in decemberand i can t help but feel like my time is quickly running out i ve never been so emotionally distant from my family a i ve had this yearand it feel like i m a disappointment to everyone who ha actually cared about me at some point i actually had a sort of future ahead of mebut it blew up in my fucking face when i had decided to write a joke essay to the high school i wanted to go to after my mom wouldn t even allow me to go if i wa even accepted the worst part is she doesn t even admit to doing thati don t know what to do anymorei ve always had the feeling of wanting to blow my fucking brain outbut i ve never felt it a strong a this why is it that when it come to mental issue for men we are throughly ignored why are you upset why are you depressed you don t have a reason to be depressed you should talk to someone but who is actually listening i m sorry for anyone who actually read thisbut i ve been in such a terrible mindset the past odd hour i really just need guidance it feel awful to think that inevitably all my family will be gone and i ll be the only one to fend for myself in just a handful of year and somehow in any social circumstance i always end up being the butt end of the joke i don t want to keep doing this for 0 0 something year someone please talk me out of this state if it s even possible to those who read this entire thing i hope you re in a better state than i am
No puedo ayudar pero siento que mi tiempo se está acabando rápidamente nunca he estado tan emocionalmente distante de mi familia que he tenido este año y siento que soy una decepción para todos los que realmente se han preocupado por mí en algún momento en realidad tenía una especie de futuro por delante pero no sé qué hacer más siempre he tenido la sensación de querer volar mi puto cerebro pero nunca he sentido un fuerte un por qué es que cuando se trata de un problema mental para los hombres que estamos a través de ignorado ¿por qué estás molesto por qué estás deprimido no tienes una razón para estar deprimido deberías hablar con alguien pero que realmente está escuchando lo siento por alguien que realmente he estado en una mentalidad tan terrible que he estado en el pasado hora extraña realmente necesito orientación es horrible pensar que toda mi familia se va a ir inevitablemente