i just don t care anymore i don t care what happens anymore just fucking kill me i m done i don t have the will to do this anymore i realize no matter what i do my life will always get worse so i should just do it and get it over with i tried i waited year for it to get better but that s not going to happen my health is shit my mental health is shit and my mind just keep processing way to get the job done i wish i would have drowned asa child because than i wouldn t know this pain and i d have le to leave behind i would have at least had some level of hope before departing but life a bitch and then you die i know the end will come before the end of this year but now i m certain the timeline ha been moved up more like month maybe it will be today maybe tomorrow i don t know yet but i won t see because i have no desire to live that long i don t care anymore this whole world s a poorly written joke anyways where some will struggle till death and others will constantly have thing work out than the asshole will tell you oh it get better well i ve waited long enough and i m done playing this game i don t care anymore i know i have undiagnosed ptsd and i know who is responsible and that they ll never be punished i can barely even get people in my own family to believe me about the cause i m so tired of this world so tired of everything i have no use for a god so i can only ask of nature no matter what label i give it the request is the same please kill me and return me to the earth leaving behind not even a memory erase every trace of my existence and make everyone forget me that is my only wish at this point
i just don t care anymorei don t care what happens anymore just fucking kill mei m donei don t have the will to do thisanymorei realize no matter what i do my life will always get worseso i should just do it and get it over with i tried i waited year for it to get better but that s not going to happen my health is shit my mental health is shit and my mind just keep processing way to get the job done i wish i would have drowned asa child because than i wouldn t know this pain and i d have le to leave behind i would have at least had some level of hope before departing but life a bitchand then you die i know the end will come before the end of this yearbut now i m certain the timeline ha been moved up more like month maybe it will be today maybe tomorrow i dont knowyetbut i won t see because i have no desire to livethat longi don t care anymore this whole world s a poorly written joke anyways where some will struggle till death and others will constantly have thing work out than the asshole will tell youoh it get betterwell i ve waited long enoughand i m done playing this game i don t careanymorei know i have undiagnosed ptsd and i know who is responsible and that they ll never be punished i can barely even get people in my own family to believe me about the cause i m so tired of this world so tired of everything i have no use for a godso i can only ask of nature no matter what label i give it the request is the same please kill me and return me to the earth leaving behind not even a memory erase every trace of my existence and make everyone forget me that is my only wish at this point
No importa lo que haga mi vida, siempre se pondrá peor, así que simplemente debería hacerlo y terminarlo con lo que intenté. Esperé un año para que mejorara, pero eso no va a pasar. Mi salud es una mierda. Mi salud mental es una mierda y mi mente sigue procesando la forma de hacer el trabajo. Ojalá me hubiera ahogado como un niño porque no sabría este dolor y tendría que dejarlo atrás. Al menos tendría algún nivel de esperanza antes de irme. Pero la vida una perra y luego morirás. Sé que el final vendrá antes de que termine este año. Pero ahora estoy seguro de que la línea temporal se ha movido más como un mes. Tal vez sea hoy. Mañana no lo sabré. Pero no lo veré porque no tengo ganas de vivir que longi no me importa más este mundo. Es una broma mal escrita, de todos modos, donde algunos lucharán hasta que la muerte y otros tengan trabajo constantemente.