i m 0 and have never even been on a date with a girl before everything ha just gone wrong growing up there were so many time where thing almost changed almost got in a group of people i wanted to be with almost would no longer have been alone but every time something at the last second happens and i lose it forever sometimes my fault but usually not i ve stopped getting my hope up for anything i know it will always just never work out it s like i m destined to just always be like this i had a few friend in high school no one i could ever connect with though i didn t care though maybe i could meet new people through them but for some reason anytime anything interesting would happen with them it wa when i wa gone anytime i am with them same usual boring shit i m not there something crazy happens i started going to college recently i really wa hoping doing this i would meet people make friend but even doing thing like going to event and regularly attending class just nothing i love talking to and meeting people but i just never get placed in the right place at the right time and the moment i get close i fuck up again or something else happens i downloaded some dating apps just to try to meet people i know i wouldn t have much success a a short medium attractive guy i would maybe get a match a week if i wa lucky and we d send a couple message but nothing more last week i finally got someone s contact info and we set up plan to go on a date i wasn t particularly interested in this girl but wa just exited to finally go on a date i had a class for the time we planned but that didn t matter i can miss it thing were finally going well and then last night i suddenly remembered nothing is ever supposed to go well i always get so close so this morning i check my phone she had blocked me i didn t even feel anything it s just how everything go for me i thought i m not angry at her or anything she probably just decided last minute she didn t want to go i m tired i m done trying i m killing myself next week maybe if i keep putting myself out there i ll actually meet someone but it s an endless cycle my depression make it so hard to do that which just cause me to get more depressed what is supposed to break this cycle i ve tried medication no effect therapy i ve tried may therapist and they ve all told me the same bull shit i ve already heard i don t really want to die it would be nice for thing to work out for once but with the cycle i m in nothing will ever change and i don t see a way of breaking it if thing will just be like this forever why bother continuing sorry for this absolute wall of text if you actually read this cool i guess i just needed to write all my thought out gon na go to sleep now bye tl dr god fucking hate me
i m 0and have never even been on a date with a girl before everything ha just gone wrong growing up there were so many time where thing almost changed almost got in a group of people i wanted to be with almost would no longer have been alone but every time something at the last second happens and i lose it forever sometimes my fault but usually not i ve stopped getting my hope up for anything i know it will always just never work out it s like i m destined to just always be like this i had a few friend in high schoolno one i could ever connect with though i didn t care thoughmaybe i could meet new people through them but for some reason anytime anything interesting would happen with themit wa when i wa gone anytime i am with them same usual boring shiti m not there something crazy happens i started going to college recently i really wa hoping doing this i would meet people make friend but even doing thing like going to event and regularly attending class just nothing i love talking to and meeting peoplebut i just never get placed in the right place at the right time and the moment i get close i fuck up again or something else happens i downloaded some dating apps just to try to meet peoplei know i wouldn t have much success a a short medium attractive guy i would maybe get a match a week if i wa luckyand we d send a couple message but nothing more last week i finally got someone s contact info and we set up plan to go on a date i wasn t particularly interested in this girl but wa just exited to finally go on a date i had a class for the time we planned but that didn t matter i can miss it thing were finally going well and then last night i suddenly remembered nothing is ever supposed to go well i always get so close so this morning i check my phone she had blocked mei didn t even feel anything it s just how everything go for me i thought i m not angry at her or anything she probably just decided last minute she didn t want to go i m tired i m done trying i m killing myself next week maybe if i keep putting myself out there i ll actually meet someone but it s an endless cycle my depression make it so hard to do that which just cause me to get more depressed what is supposed to break this cycle i ve tried medication no effect therapy i ve tried may therapist and they ve all told me the same bull shit i ve already heard i don t really want to die it would be nice for thing to work out for once but with the cycle i m in nothing will ever changeand i don t see a way of breaking it if thing will just be like this forever why bother continuing sorry for this absolute wall of text if you actually read thiscool i guess i just needed to write all my thought out gon na go to sleep nowbye tl dr god fucking hate me
Nunca he estado en una cita con una chica antes de que todo ha ido mal creciendo allí era tanto tiempo donde la cosa casi cambió casi consiguió en un grupo de gente con la que quería estar casi ya no habría estado solo pero cada vez que algo en el último segundo pasa y lo pierdo para siempre a veces mi culpa pero generalmente no he dejado de conseguir mi esperanza para cualquier cosa sé que siempre siempre va a funcionar es como si estuviera destinado a ser siempre como esto tuve un poco de amigo en la escuela secundaria nadie podría nunca conectar con aunque no me importa aunque tal vez podría conocer gente nueva a través de ellos pero por alguna razón cualquier cosa interesante pasaría con themit wa cuando me voy en cualquier momento estoy con ellos lo habitual aburrido mierda m no allí algo loco sucede empecé a ir a la universidad recientemente realmente wa esperando hacer esto me encontraría con gente hacer amigos pero incluso haciendo cosas como ir a eventos y regularmente asistir a clase nada me encanta hablar y conocer gente pero nunca me colocan en el lugar correcto en el momento correcto y el momento en el que me acercar