i had so many suicidal thought last night while i wa driving to try to make myself feel better i thought drowning is scary but i can go put my car in the river and drown then i went well let s look up to see what medication we have that might do it i m just so tired i ve tried so many different medication at this point i do therapy nothing ha worked i m still holding onto a little sliver of hope thing won t always be this way maybe one day i can keep my house clean all the time maybe one day i won t be so stressed and anxious maybe one day i ll be able to stay consistent and do well at my job if feel like it s further and further away i also just believe i m a total fucking failure at and discredit all the thing i ve done because it s just not good enough to me i don t know how to stop the negative self talk oh and i m also sometimes hearing voice lately sometimes i know they re not there real other time they sound like they re right next to my window or in my house i really wish i could just not exist for a week or a month why can t i just shut it all fucking off for a while i even just had a nice date with my partner and i m already back to thinking well i should still kill myself soon
i had so many suicidal thought last night while i wa driving to try to make myself feel better i thought drowning is scary but i can go put my car in the river and drown then i went well let s look up to see what medication we have that might do iti m just so tired i ve tried so many different medication at this point i do therapy nothing ha workedi m still holding onto a little sliver of hope thing won t always be this way maybe one day i can keep my house clean all the time maybe one day i won t be so stressed and anxious maybe one day i ll be able to stay consistent and do well at my job if feel like it s further and further away i also just believe i m a total fucking failure at and discredit all the thing i ve done because it s just not good enough to me i dont know how to stop the negative self talkohand i m also sometimes hearing voice lately sometimes i know they re not there real other time they sound like they re right next to my window or in my house i really wish i could just not exist for a week or a month why can t i just shut it all fucking off for a while i even just had a nice date with my partner and i m already back to thinkingwell i should still kill myself soon
Tuve tantos pensamientos suicidas anoche mientras conducía para tratar de hacerme sentir mejor pensé que ahogarme es aterrador pero puedo ir a poner mi coche en el río y ahogarme entonces fui bien miremos hacia arriba para ver qué medicación tenemos que podemos hacer que lo haga yo sólo estoy tan cansado he intentado tantos diferentes medicamentos en este punto hago terapia nada ha trabajado todavía aferrarse a un poco de esperanza cosa no siempre será de esta manera tal vez un día puedo mantener mi casa limpia todo el tiempo tal vez un día no voy a estar tan estresado y ansioso tal vez un día voy a ser capaz de permanecer consistente y hacer bien en mi trabajo si siento que es más lejos y más lejos también creo que soy un fracaso total en y desacreditar todo lo que he hecho porque no es lo suficientemente bueno para mí realmente no sé cómo detener la plática negativa yo también a veces escuchar voz últimamente a veces sé que ellos no están allí otra vez suenan como que están justo al lado de mi ventana o en mi casa realmente no podría existir por una semana o un mes por lo que puedo cerrar todo lo que debería matar a mí mismo mientras que todavía tenían una cita con mi pareja.