when people ask me what i wan na do or what my plan for something is i always kinda give a vague idea or like say very generic thing everyone around my age might be saying like oh i wan na move out and pursue this or that type stuff but in reality i don t even know if i want to be here i think that my lack of proper planning for thing or goal setting is because when i wa younger i had to go through a lot of difficult thing that traumatized me and made me minimize the space i took up not only in everyone else s life but in my own so much to the point that i didn t even think i wa gon na make it to the age that i am today i really only planned on being here a day longer than i wa yesterday and eventually it s added up and i have been here for this many year i don t know how to look forward or plan for thing ahead farther than tomorrow really because i never intended to be here for that long anyway but it s becoming a really bad problem a i am in my 0 and everything i do now is going to affect the rest of my life it s hard to know what i want to do or what i want to pursue when my whole life i didn t think that i would even be here i am so lost and genuinely don t know what i am doing or who i am and i feel detached from everyone around me i feel like i am just existing and i am thankful for the thing i ve experienced and the people in my life and all that but i m just so lost i genuinely have no word to describe the void i feel and sometimes can not believe that i did this to myself i made myself so small i don t even see me so how could anyone else see me it s so hard when your own mind is the thing that make it hard for you to do anything and i ve just been struggling a lot lately
when people ask me what i wan na do or what my plan for something is i always kinda give a vague idea or like say very generic thing everyone around my age might be saying like oh i wan na move out and pursue this or that type stuff but in reality i don t even know if i want to be here i think that my lack of proper planning for thing or goal setting is because when i wa younger i had to go through a lot of difficult thing that traumatized me and made me minimize the space i took up not only in everyone else s life but in my own so much to the point that i didn t even think i wa gon na make it to the age that i am today i really only planned on being here a day longer than i wa yesterday and eventually it s added upand i have been here for this many year i dont know how to look forward or plan for thing ahead farther than tomorrow really because i never intended to be here for that longanywaybut it s becoming a really bad problem a i am in my 0 and everything i do now is going to affect the rest of my life it s hard to know what i want to do or what i want to pursuewhen my whole lifei didn t think that i would even be here i am so lost and genuinely don t know what i am doing or who i am and i feel detached from everyone around me i feel like i am just existingand i am thankful for the thing i ve experienced and the people in my life and all thatbut i m just so lost i genuinely have no word to describe the void i feel and sometimes can not believe that i did this to myself i made myself so small i don t even see meso how could anyone else see me it s so hard when your own mind is the thing that make it hard for you to do anythingand i ve just been struggling a lot lately
Cuando la gente me pregunta lo que quiero hacer o lo que mi plan para algo es siempre me da una idea vaga o como decir algo muy genérico todo el mundo alrededor de mi edad podría estar diciendo como oh i wan na move out and follow this or that type things, pero en realidad ni siquiera sé si quiero estar aquí creo que mi falta de planificación adecuada para la cosa o el ajuste de objetivos es porque cuando yo era más joven tuve que pasar por una gran cantidad de cosas difíciles que me traumatizó y me hizo minimizar el espacio que tomé no sólo en la vida de todos los demás pero en mi propia tanto al punto de que yo ni siquiera pensaba que iba a hacer a la edad que soy hoy realmente sólo planeé en estar aquí un día más largo que ayer y eventualmente se sumó y he estado aquí durante este año no sé cómo mirar hacia adelante o planificar para algo más adelante que mañana realmente porque nunca tenía la intención de estar aquí por ese tiempo más largo pero se está convirtiendo en un problema realmente malo que estoy en mi 0 y todo lo que hago ahora va a afectar el resto de mi vida que es difícil saber lo que quiero hacer que yo o lo que quiero seguir