it never get easier no matter how many year i wait it s not getting better i never learn to cope properly i don t even feel the slightest bit more okay or hopeful even after three year of therapy i am so fucking miserable every single day everything is so exhausting and i dread the fact that i have to wake up tomorrow and do something i just want to be left alone i can t deal with all of this i already shut down because of the smallest thing i have depressive episode every single day after work i don t want to live a a human being i hate this stupid world and everything in it i don t want it i never wanted to live in the first place i m so angry that i am forced to just exist because otherwise i d make people feel sad the joy i might feel for a few second once in a while doesn t make up for how much pain i go through daily none of this is fucking worth it and everyone who say it is is either lying to themselves or incredibly stupid
it never get easier no matter how many year i wait it s not getting better i never learn to cope properly i don t even feel the slightest bit more okay or hopeful even after three year of therapy i am so fucking miserable every single day everything is so exhausting and i dread the fact that i have to wake up tomorrow and do something i just want to be left alonei can t deal with all of this i already shut down because of the smallest thing i have depressive episode every single day after work i don t want to live a a human being i hate this stupid world and everything in iti don t wantiti never wanted to live in the first place i m so angry that i am forced to just existbecause otherwisei d make people feel sad the joy i might feel for a few second once in a while doesn t make up for how much pain i go through daily none of this is fucking worth it and everyone who say it is is either lying to themselves or incredibly stupid
Nunca se vuelve más fácil, no importa cuántos años espere no es cada vez mejor nunca aprender a hacer frente correctamente ni siquiera sentir el más mínimo poco más bien o esperanza, incluso después de tres años de terapia estoy tan jodidamente miserable cada día todo es tan agotador y temo el hecho de que tengo que despertarme mañana y hacer algo que sólo quiero que quede solo no puedo lidiar con todo esto ya me he cerrado debido a lo más pequeño que tengo episodio depresivo todos los días después del trabajo no quiero vivir un ser humano odio este estúpido mundo y todo en iti don no quiero que nunca quise vivir en el primer lugar estoy tan enojado que estoy obligado a existir porque de otra manera la gente se siente triste la alegría que podría sentir por unos segundos de vez en cuando no compensa cuánto dolor tengo a diario nada de esto vale la pena y todos los que dicen que es mentirse a sí mismos o increíblemente estúpido