sometimes i start to plan it by leaving one day and never being found that hopefully i would prepare well enough that no one would ever find me i think that would be better than my family knowing my death wa intentional and planned but i still know they would grieve amp x 00b i m somewhat of an antinatalist and i refuse to ever bring child into this world it just a personal choice i don t judge parent because if i am so miserable why would i create more life maybe if thing looked up and i gained some self esteem again i could have a job i love and more importantly a wife although i don t know how many woman really want to be in a childless marriage i ve never even gone on a date before and i m a m so i worry i ll just be alone for my entire life i feel like a real loser for this i just see life in a very bleak way and i don t see my future a one that is bright and cheerful especially since i don t really believe i deserve good thing i have intrusive thought ocd which is a little voice that throw horrible word and image at me all day and telling me i m a irredeemable human being and a terrible person it exhausting and i feel trapped
sometimes i start to plan it by leaving one day and never being found that hopefully i would prepare well enough that no one would ever find me i think that would be better than my family knowing my death wa intentional and planned but i still know they would grieve amp x 00bi m somewhat of an antinatalistand i refuse to ever bring child into this world itjust a personal choicei don t judge parent because if i am so miserable why would i create more life maybe if thing looked up and i gained some self esteem again i could have a job i love and more importantly a wife although i don t know how many woman really want to be in a childless marriage i ve never even gone on a date beforeand i m a mso i worry i ll just be alone for my entire life i feel like a real loser for this i just see life in a very bleak wayand i don t see my future a one that is bright and cheerful especially since i don t really believe i deserve good thing i have intrusive thought ocd which is a little voice that throw horrible word and image at me all day and telling me i m a irredeemable human being and a terrible person it exhausting and i feel trapped
A veces empiezo a planearlo dejando un día y nunca siendo encontrado que con suerte me prepararía lo suficientemente bien como para que nadie me encontraría nunca pienso que sería mejor que mi familia sabiendo mi muerte wa intencional y planeado pero todavía sé que ellos llorarían amp x 00bi m algo de un antinatalista y me niego a traer un niño a este mundo simplemente una elección personal no juzga padre porque si soy tan miserable por qué crearía más vida tal vez si algo mirado y gané un poco de autoestima otra vez podría tener un trabajo que amo y más importante una esposa aunque no sé cuántas mujeres realmente quieren estar en un matrimonio sin hijos nunca he ido a una fecha antes y me preocuparé estaré solo por toda mi vida me siento como un verdadero perdedor por esto acabo de ver la vida de una manera muy sombría y no veo mi futuro uno que sea brillante y alegre especialmente ya que no creo que me merezca una buena cosa que he intrusivo pensado odd que es una pequeña voz que lanza horrible palabra e imagen en todo el día y me dice que una persona irrefutable y se siente como una persona terrible ser y terrible ser humano y ser agotador y ser