or having a good day like aren t you supposed to be depressed if you keep acting like this nobody will believe you that kind of mentality i take hard class i take the max number of credit i can because if i m not working i m wasting time i don t study for shit i get good grade surely this must mean i m decently smart but i fucking hate that my grade don t drop noticeably because i wish someone would notice or just care or something but i clearly can t stand feeling like a failure more and it doesn t make sense because i feel like a failure all the time why not one more it extends to stupider shit too like being in a good mood laughing stuff i m not happy but it s like the reflex is still there and i m so good at hiding it i don t know what i m like when i m actually happy but i m guessing better le angry awkward and doe this mean people like that version of me better or do they just think this is me normal fuck me i wouldn t ever go up to someone and ask for help i couldn t do it but it would just be nice to have someone be concerned for me naturally without me asking
or having a good day like aren t you supposed to be depressed if you keep acting like this nobody will believe you that kind of mentality i take hard class i take the max number of credit i can because if i m not working i m wasting time i don t study for shit i get good grade surely this must mean i m decently smart but i fucking hate that my grade don t drop noticeably because i wish someone would notice or just care or somethingbut i clearly can t stand feeling like a failure more and it doesn t make sense because i feel like a failure all the time why not one more it extends to stupider shit too like being in a good mood laughing stuffi m not happy but it s like the reflex is still thereand i m so good at hiding iti don t know what i m like when i m actually happy but i m guessing better le angry awkward and doe this mean people like that version of me better or do they just think this is me normal fuck mei wouldn t ever go up to someone and ask for help i couldn t do itbut it would just be nice to have someone be concerned for me naturally without me asking
o tener un buen día como si no se supone que estar deprimido si sigues actuando como esto nadie te creerá que tipo de mentalidad tomo clase dura tomo el número máximo de crédito que puedo porque si no estoy trabajando no estoy perdiendo tiempo no estudio para mierda tengo buena calificación seguro que esto debe significar que soy decentemente inteligente pero odio que mi grado no caiga notablemente porque deseo que alguien se dé cuenta o me importe o algo así pero claramente no puedo estar sintiéndome como un fracaso más y no tiene sentido porque me siento como un fracaso todo el tiempo por qué no se extiende a una mierda más estúpida también como estar en un buen humor riéndose cosas no soy feliz pero es como el reflejo todavía está allí y soy tan bueno para ocultarlo no sé lo que soy realmente feliz pero supongo que mejor le molestan y hacen esto significa que la gente como esa versión de mí mejor o simplemente piensan que es normal que me joda nunca ir a alguien y pedir ayuda no podría hacerlo pero sería agradable tener a alguien preocupado por mí naturalmente sin que me pregunten