i have a friend group at school yet i feel lonely and helpless i have anxiety and depression i ve always been a big guy 9 0 pound and i ve always been bullied for it i can t get a girlfriend because i m ugly and socially awkward i can t focus on school because i m always tired i can t talk to anyone about my feeling because i hate letting people into my bubble i miss the happy and innocent me at young age my mom left me with my grandma i hate to think what s gon na happen once she dy i hate myself i m ashamed of myself i wan na kill myself i m such a pussy i m afraid that god is real and i ll be punished i m afraid that when i die it will all be black and boring i don t know what s gon na happen if i do it if i fail straight to a hospital if my life doesn t get better i ll do it i hope if i do it i ll be reborn a someone normal and start over
i have a friend group at schoolyet i feel lonely and helpless i have anxiety and depression i ve always been a big guy 9 0 poundand i ve always been bullied for it i can t get a girlfriend because i m ugly and socially awkward i can t focus on school because i m always tired i can t talk to anyone about my feeling because i hate letting people into my bubble i miss the happy and innocent me at young age my mom left me with my grandma i hate to think what s gon na happen once she dy i hate myself i m ashamed of myself i wan na kill myself i m such a pussyi m afraid that god is real and i ll be punished i m afraid that when i die it will all be black and boring i dont know what s gon na happen if i do it if i fail straight to a hospital if my life doesn t get better i ll do iti hope if i do iti ll be reborn a someone normal and start over
Tengo un grupo de amigos en la escuela todavía no me siento sola e indefensa tengo ansiedad y depresión siempre he sido un chico grande 9 0 libras y siempre he sido intimidado por ello no puedo conseguir una novia porque soy fea y socialmente incómoda no puedo centrarme en la escuela porque siempre estoy cansada no puedo hablar con nadie acerca de mi sentimiento porque odio dejar que la gente en mi burbuja echo de menos a la feliz e inocente yo a la edad temprana mi mamá me dejó con mi abuela odio pensar que s gon na sucede una vez que ella dy me odio a mí mismo me avergüenzo de mí mismo quiero que na me maten a mí mismo soy un chochito temo que dios es real y voy a ser castigado me temo que cuando muera todo será negro y aburrido no sé lo que s gon na sucede si lo hago si no lo hago directamente a un hospital si mi vida no consigue mejor voy a hacerlo espero que si lo hago renacido alguien normal y empezar de nuevo