for context i m a yr old mom of two kid my daughter is and my son is month i have been struggling with all type of mental illness for a long a i can remember i wa raised by a narcissist alcoholic mom and a dad who wa barely there because he wa working to support u i have attempted to take my life more than time and have been hospitalized for my mental health and nothing seems to help i m in therapy and on med and i am just tired of fighting myself i just want it all to stop my husband is never really home do you work and i m all alone all the time with our kid the only reason i m still alive is because they need me not even because i want to be alive there is nothing enjoyable for me anymore every time i think about it i cry i cry for my kid who deserve a better mom and a better life i cry for my husband who doesn t understand what it s like to feel this way and think i should just be ok i cry because i want it all to end so badly and i can t even do that right i m not still here because i want to be and i feel so much guilt for that i just want to feel normal and sometimes it feel like dying is the only way to make it stop
for context i m a yr old mom of two kid my daughter is and my son is month i have been struggling with all type of mental illness for a long ai can remember i wa raised by a narcissist alcoholic mom and a dad who wa barely there because he wa working to support u i have attempted to take my life more than time and have been hospitalized for my mental health and nothing seems to help i m in therapy and on medand i am just tired of fighting myself i just want it all to stop my husband is never really home do you workand i m all alone all the time with our kid the only reason i m still alive is because they need me not even because i want to be alive there is nothing enjoyable for me anymore every time i think about iti cry i cry for my kid who deserve a better mom and a better life i cry for my husband who doesn t understand what it s like to feel this way and think i should just be ok i cry because i want it all to end so badly and i can t even do thatright i m not still here because i want to beand i feel so much guilt for that i just want to feel normal and sometimes it feel like dying is the only way to make it stop
Para contexto i m a yr madre de dos hijos mi hija es y mi hijo es mes he estado luchando con todo tipo de enfermedad mental durante mucho tiempo ai puedo recordar i wa criado por una madre alcohólica narcisista y un padre que estaba apenas allí porque él wa trabajando para apoyar u he intentado tomar mi vida más que tiempo y han sido hospitalizados por mi salud mental y nada parece ayudar en la terapia y en la medicina y estoy cansado de luchar conmigo mismo sólo quiero que todo para detener a mi marido es nunca realmente casa trabajas y estoy completamente solo todo el tiempo con nuestro hijo la única razón por la que todavía estoy vivo es porque no me necesitan ni siquiera porque quiero estar vivo no hay nada agradable para mí más cada vez que pienso en ello llorar lloro por mi hijo que merece una mejor mamá y una mejor vida lloro por mi marido que no entiende lo que es sentirse así y creo que debería estar bien llorar porque quiero que todo termine tan mal y no puedo hacer eso justo aquí porque yo no quiero estar aquí porque quiero ser y sentirme tan normal por lo que a veces quiero que me sienta normal y quiero que me detenga