i feel like i m really close to ending my own life i cant imagine myself living another year i ve had happy day but i haven t been able to appreciate anything good that ha happened to me i m so hyper focused on every bad thing that it just make me want to end it all the only thing that s really stopping me is lack of a proper method and making it seem like a big deal i don t want anyone to care i don t want it to effect my family or for them to even notice i m trying to distance myself from everyone close to me so i can make it easier on them when i ve finally had enough the sad part is that i ve been so lucky to have a decent upbringing but everything i feel right now is just my fault i don t have any valid reason to feel this way so many people have had it worse i cant even be mad at anyone else i did it to myself and i continue to do this i ob over my appearance too much and it just hurt looking at myself i cant stand to hear myself speak or let other people see me i m so disappointed in myself for letting this happen to me i don t think i ll be able to get out this mindset and a soon a the time is right i ll probably take the east way out man this suck
i feel like i m really close to ending my own life i cant imagine myself living another year i ve had happy daybut i haven t been able to appreciate anything good that ha happened to mei m so hyper focused on every bad thing that it just make me want to end it all the only thing that s really stopping me is lack of a proper method and making it seem like a big deali don t want anyone to carei don t want it to effect my family or for them to even notice i m trying to distance myself from everyone close to meso i can make it easier on them when i ve finally had enough the sad part is that i ve been so lucky to have a decent upbringing but everything i feel right now is just my fault i don t have any valid reason to feel this way so many people have had it worse i cant even be mad at anyone else i did it to myself and i continue to do this i ob over my appearance too muchand it just hurt looking at myself i cant stand to hear myself speak or let other people see mei m so disappointed in myself for letting this happen to mei don t think i ll be able to get out this mindset and a soon a the time is right i ll probably take the east way out man this suck
Me siento como si estuviera muy cerca de terminar mi propia vida no puedo imaginarme viviendo otro año he tenido un día feliz pero no he sido capaz de apreciar cualquier cosa buena que ha sucedido a mei m tan hiper centrado en cada cosa mala que sólo me hace querer terminar todo lo que realmente me detiene es la falta de un método adecuado y hacer que parezca como un gran trato no quiero que nadie se preocupe no quiero que afecte a mi familia o para ellos incluso me doy cuenta de que estoy tratando de distanciarme de todos los cercanos a mí así que puedo hacerlo más fácil en ellos cuando finalmente he tenido suficiente la parte triste es que he tenido tanta suerte de tener una educación decente pero todo lo que siento ahora es mi culpa no tengo ninguna razón válida para sentir esta manera así que muchas personas han tenido peor que no puedo siquiera estar enojado con cualquier otra persona lo hice a mí mismo y sigo haciendo esto ob sobre mi apariencia demasiado y me duele mirar a mí mismo este hombre no puedo estar de pie para escucharme hablar o dejar que otras personas me vean tan decepcionados en mí mismo por dejar que esto suceda a mí mismo creo que voy a poder sacar un buen rato y que probablemente este hombre no puede salirme de esta manera