i want to get help so bad i don t want to keep with the if all else fails i can always end my l fe mindset i m just scared because even if i do seek out treatment and for once i find a therapist psychiatrist who actually work for me i m not sure it s going the solve enough to make me want to keep fighting for this life there are so many issue right now so many thing i ve fucked up considerably even if i get to a place mentally where i feel like i can tackle them there s no guaranteeing i can actual change my situation i just wish i didn t have to wake up and continue to make my life worse i m a pathetic person i disgust and humiliate myself i m not meant to be in this world i m not meant to succeed in it im not meant to be anything or anyone other than this miserable lazy poor excuse for a law student i hate the person who look back at me in the mirror more than anything i just wish id never had to know myself
i want to get help so badi don t want to keep with the if all else fails i can always end my l fe mindset i m just scared because even if i do seek out treatment and for once i find a therapist psychiatrist who actually work for mei m not sure it s going the solve enough to make me want to keep fighting for this life there are so many issue right now so many thing i ve fucked up considerably even if i get to a place mentally where i feel like i can tackle them there s no guaranteeing i can actual change my situation i just wish i didn t have to wake up and continue to make my life worse i m a pathetic person i disgust and humiliate myself i m not meant to be in this world i m not meant to succeed in it im not meant to be anything or anyone other than this miserable lazy poor excuse for a law student i hate the person who look back at me in the mirror more than anything i just wish id never had to know myself
Quiero conseguir ayuda así que badi no quiero seguir con el si todo lo demás falla siempre puedo terminar mi mente fe I m sólo asustado porque incluso si busco tratamiento y por una vez encuentro un psiquiatra terapeuta que realmente trabaja para mei m seguro que no va a la solución lo suficiente para que me quiero seguir luchando por esta vida hay tantos problemas ahora mismo tantas cosas que he jodido considerablemente incluso si llego a un lugar mental donde siento que puedo abordarlos no hay garantía de que pueda cambiar mi situación real sólo deseo que no tenga que despertar y seguir haciendo mi vida peor soy una persona patética me disgusto y me humillo no estoy destinado a estar en este mundo no estoy destinado a tener éxito en él no significa ser cualquier cosa o alguien más que esta miserable perezosa pobre excusa para un estudiante de derecho odio a la persona que me mira de nuevo en el espejo más que cualquier cosa que me gustaría id nunca tuvo que conocer a mí mismo