it ha almost been month since i lost my nephew more like my brother though i wa at the time and he wa he wa the person that meant the absolute most to me we have both struggled with suicide our entire life i used to be a very emotional and empathetic person and i tried to make everyone happy i am no longer that in fact in the past year leading up to the event i had slowly lost my emotion empathy my ambition and pretty much everything that make a human human but when it happened i lost everything i wa and am no longer the person i wa i want to be happy again i want to care about people i want to care about music again i want to care about car again i want my hobby back most of all i want him back and what we had we were the same person our emotion the way we thought our diet everything affected our body the same way we thought about thing the exact same way our reaction were the same the thing we loved were the same for the most part our depression wa the same the thing that haunted u were the same the thing we were scared of were the same we were the same person i don t really know how to go on without him i have people that care about me but it doesn t matter they aren t him i don t even know why i m writing this this won t change anything i just wa listening to music he used to love and i wa finally able to cry a bit it s gone now though my feeling are gone again my life feel fake now
it ha almost been month since i lost my nephew more like my brother though i wa at the timeand he wa he wa the person that meant the absolute most to me we have both struggled with suicide our entire lifei used to be a very emotional and empathetic person and i tried to make everyone happy i am no longer that in fact in the past year leading up to the event i had slowly lost my emotion empathy my ambition and pretty much everything that make a human human but when it happened i lost everything i wa and am no longer the personi wa i want to be happy again i want to care about people i want to care about music again i want to care about caragain i want my hobby back most of all i want him back and what we had we were the same person our emotion the way we thought our diet everything affected our body the same way we thought about thing the exact same way our reaction were the same the thing we loved were the same for the most part our depression wa the same the thing that haunted u were the same the thing we were scared of were the same we were the same person i don t really know how to go on without himi have people that care about me but it doesn t matter they arent him i don t even know why i m writing this this won t change anything i just wa listening to music he used to love and i wa finally able to cry a bit it s gone now though my feeling are gone again my life feel fake now
Ha pasado casi un mes desde que perdí a mi sobrino más como mi hermano aunque yo estaba en el momento y él estaba en la persona que más significaba para mí que ambos hemos luchado con el suicidio nuestra vida entera solía ser una persona muy emocional y empática y traté de hacer a todos felices ya no soy que de hecho en el último año antes del evento había perdido lentamente mi emoción empatía mi ambición y casi todo lo que hacen un humano pero cuando pasó perdí todo lo que wa y soy ya no soy la persona que quiero ser feliz otra vez quiero cuidar de la gente quiero cuidar de la música otra vez quiero cuidar de caragain quiero que mi hobby de vuelta más de todo lo quiero de vuelta y lo que teníamos éramos la misma persona nuestra emoción la forma en que pensábamos que nuestra dieta afectaba a nuestro cuerpo de la misma manera en que pensábamos exactamente de la misma manera en que nuestra reacción eran la misma cosa que amábamos eran lo mismo para la mayoría de nuestra depresión era la misma cosa que nos atormentaba a nosotros la misma cosa que estábamos asustados de que éramos la misma persona que éramos la misma persona que realmente conocíamos para ir sin él pero que la gente que se preocupaban por lo que ellos eran materia