i can t keep running from how empty i feel how everything feel so forced and fake i m and the social problem began from a very young age the familial problem also i guess i learned from a very young age to brush thing under the rug and bury all of my emotion to the point where i ve been detached from myself for probably year now i ve been to therapy different time and am likely starting again soon but to be honest i don t think it s going to go anywhere until i can be honest with myself but i literally don t know how it s like there s this pit of intense pain that s constantly buried deep within my chest that i suppose will either give me answer or kill me from shame all i know is socializing is completely traumatizing to me school a well i don t know if anybody can relate but i just don t know how to figure myself out or if it s just all in my head i must sound so crazy to anybody reading this but please if you have any question it might really help me to be able to answer them anonymously and unpack stuff i m committed to understanding why everybody treat me like i m some freak i know i m not completely hideous but beyond that i don t think i know what s going on there s like this deep disconnect between how i act even by myself and who i am internally i believe i don t know if any of this make sense but please ask about my childhood or whatever i got ta understand even if it kill me
i can t keep running from how empty i feel how everything feel so forced and fake i mand the social problem began from a very young age the familial problem also i guess i learned from a very young age to brush thing under the rug and bury all of my emotion to the point where i ve been detached from myself for probably year now i ve been to therapy different time and am likely starting again soon but to be honest i don t think it s going to go anywhere until i can be honest with myselfbut i literally don t know how it s like there s this pit of intense pain that s constantly buried deep within my chest that i suppose will either give me answer or kill me from shame all i know is socializing is completely traumatizing to me schoola well i don t know if anybody can relatebut i just don t know how to figure myself out or if it s just all in my head i must sound so crazy to anybody reading thisbut please if you have any question it might really help me to be able to answer them anonymously and unpack stuffi m committed to understanding why everybody treat me like i m some freaki know i m not completely hideous but beyond that i don t think i know what s going on there s like this deep disconnect between how i act even by myself and who i am internally i believe i don t know if any of this make sense but please ask about my childhood or whatever i got ta understand even if it kill me
No puedo seguir corriendo de lo vacío que siento cómo todo se siente tan forzado y falso que el problema social comenzó desde una edad muy temprana el problema familiar también supongo que aprendí de una edad muy joven a cepillar cosa bajo la alfombra y enterrar toda mi emoción hasta el punto en que he sido separado de mí mismo durante probablemente año ahora he estado a terapia diferente tiempo y probablemente estoy empezando de nuevo pronto pero para ser honesto no creo que va a ir a ninguna parte hasta que puedo ser honesto conmigo mismo pero literalmente no sé cómo es que hay este pozo de dolor intenso que está constantemente enterrado en lo profundo de mi pecho que supongo que me dará respuesta o me matará de vergüenza todo lo que sé que socializar es completamente traumatizante para mí escuela bien no sé si alguien puede relacionarse pero simplemente no sé cómo resolverme a mí mismo o si todo en mi cabeza debe sonar tan loco a cualquiera que lea esto pero por favor si tienes alguna pregunta podría realmente ayudarme a ser capaz de responder anónimamente y desmaquillarme me compromete a entender por qué todo el mundo tratarme como a algunos fenómenos no lo sé completamente lo siento pero creo que más allá de