a i write this it feel so attention seeking like i am looking for a reason to stay a reason to feel i have all the reason right in front of me my girlfriend my best friend my dog however none of it matter i m drunk and all i want to do is die i m scared i m scared of how that will make my friend family and girlfriend feel how can i put them through that i wish i didn t care i wish i didn t care about their feeling i wish i could just go get a gun or in my car and resume back to the chapter before my birth sometimes surviving an event is the hard part me surviving life is the hard part it feel like i could go in forever forever knowing that it s just chemical in my brain that make me want to blissfully enjoy the enteral slumber that awaits u all medicine scare me what if it change who i am the last time i wa on the medicine i slept for the majority of the day unable to get out of the blissful slumber that carried away my thought and sorrow eventually i ll have the gut if i rid myself of everyone who care
a i write this it feel so attention seeking like i am looking for a reason to stay a reason to feel i have all the reason right in front of me my girlfriend my best friend my dog however none of it matter i m drunk and all i want to do is diei m scaredi m scared of how that will make my friend family and girlfriend feel how can i put them through that i wish ididn t carei wish i didn t care about their feeling i wish i could just go get a gun or in my car and resume back to the chapter before my birth sometimes surviving an event is the hard part me surviving life is the hard part it feel like i could go in forever forever knowing that it s just chemical in my brain that make me want to blissfully enjoy the enteral slumber that awaits u all medicine scare me what if it change who i am the last time i wa on the medicine i slept for the majority of the day unable to get out of the blissful slumber that carried away my thought and sorrow eventually i ll have the gut if i rid myself of everyone who care
a Escribo esto se siente tan atención buscando como estoy buscando una razón para permanecer una razón para sentir que tengo toda la razón justo en frente de mí mi novia mi mejor amigo mi perro sin embargo nada de lo que importa estoy borracho y todo lo que quiero hacer es diei m scarei m miedo de cómo va a hacer que mi amigo familia y novia sentir cómo puedo ponerlos a través de que me gustaría ididn t carei deseo que no me importara acerca de su sensación me gustaría que sólo podría ir a conseguir una pistola o en mi coche y volver al capítulo antes de mi nacimiento a veces sobrevivir a un evento es la parte difícil yo sobrevivir a la vida es la parte dura que se siente como podría ir para siempre sabiendo que es sólo químico en mi cerebro que me hacen querer disfrutar felizmente el sueño enteral que te espera u toda la medicina me asusta qué si cambia quién soy yo soy la última vez que estuve en la medicina me dormí para la mayoría del día incapaz de salir del sueño feliz que llevó lejos mi pensamiento y dolor eventualmente tendré la tripa si me despojo de todos los que se preocupan de todos los que se