i m currently trying to go no contact with narcissistic family it s so hard to do because i have younger sibling who i can t contact or help at all parent are using them a leverage against me i don t have their landline blocked because that s the only way my sibling can reach me if need be so once every few month i receive a call from my father love bombing me i feel like i m going crazy i have so much guilt disappointment anger and more i ve been trying all week to get into therapy but my insurance is being a po and every place that supposedly is in network turn out not to be the only thing keeping me going is knowing i need to be better to help my sibling and staying strong for my bf and his family they are all i have which kill me i have no family no substantial friend i feel so alone and like no one is willing to work with me to help i m trying to not get suicidal or self harm but i m on the verge of having a mental breakdown unless something give
i m currently trying to go no contact with narcissistic family it s so hard to do because i have younger sibling who i can t contact or help at all parent are using them a leverage against me i don t have their landline blocked because that s the only way my sibling can reach me if need be so once every few month i receive a call from my father love bombing me i feel like i m going crazyi have so much guilt disappointment anger and more i ve been trying all week to get into therapy but my insurance is being a po and every place that supposedly is in network turn out not to be the only thing keeping me going is knowing i need to be better to help my sibling and staying strong for my bf and his family they are all i have which kill me i have no family no substantial friend i feel so alone and like no one is willing to work with me to help i m trying to not get suicidal or self harmbut i m on the verge of having a mental breakdown unless something give
Estoy tratando de ir a ningún contacto con la familia narcisista es tan difícil de hacer porque tengo hermano más joven que no puedo contactar o ayudar a todos los padres están utilizando un apalancamiento contra mí no tengo su teléfono fijo bloqueado porque esa es la única manera en que mi hermano puede llegar a mí si es necesario así que una vez cada pocos meses recibo una llamada de mi padre amor bombardeo me siento como me estoy volviendo loco tengo tanta culpa decepción ira y más he estado tratando toda la semana para entrar en terapia pero mi seguro es ser un po y cada lugar que supuestamente está en red resultado no ser la única cosa que me mantiene en marcha es saber que necesito ser mejor para ayudar a mi hermano y permanecer fuerte para mi bf y su familia son todos los que tengo que me matan no tengo familia ningún amigo sustancial me siento tan solo y como nadie está dispuesto a trabajar conmigo para ayudar a no tener suicidio o auto daño pero estoy al borde de tener un ataque mental a menos que algo da