trigger warning racism do you know these situation where you react insecure and passive although you feel extremely uncomfortable year ago i wa out with a group of people one wa a friend of mine and a few of them were more or le acquaintance so there wa this guy who got drunk and he started making black joke i am mixed race half german and half afro american he became really offensive and insulting he said stuff like oh i m going to say it in your language and then he did those click sound which are common in african khoisan language he wa trying to act like oh i m just joking don t take me serious but he wouldn t stop i felt so uncomfortable and i wa really angry but i wa also insecure i wa giggling nervously and just wanted to change the topic but he kept making stupid joke about me in the end i paid my drink and went home but i acted like everything wa fine it s been year and i can t stop thinking about it i keep overthinking of how i should have reacted and i feel so ashamed of myself whenever i remember this situation tbh what disappointed me the most wa that nobody really said anything someone at the table just said oh just ignore him he s an idiot and they laughed a few day later someone told me that everyone felt really uncomfortable yet no one said anything i feel like it s difficult for me to let this go and it took me a almost year to realize how bad this situation actually wa maybe someone can relate or made a similar experience
trigger warning racism do you know these situation where you react insecure and passive although you feel extremely uncomfortable year ago i wa out with a group of people one wa a friend of mine and a few of them were more or le acquaintance so there wa this guy who got drunk and he started making black joke i am mixed race half german and half afroamerican he became really offensive and insulting he said stufflike oh i m going to say it in your languageand then he did those click sound which are common in african khoisan language he wa trying to act likeoh i m just joking don t take me seriousbut he wouldn t stop i felt so uncomfortableand i wa really angrybut i wa also insecure i wa giggling nervously and just wanted to change the topicbut he kept making stupid joke about me in the end i paid my drink and went homebut i acted like everything wa fine it s been yearand i can t stop thinking about it i keep overthinking of how i should have reacted and i feel so ashamed of myself whenever i remember this situation tbh what disappointed me the most wa that nobody really said anything someone at the table just said oh just ignore him he s an idiot and they laughed a few day later someone told me that everyone felt really uncomfortableyet no one said anything i feel like it s difficult for me to let this go and it took me a almost year to realize how bad this situation actually wa maybe someone can relate or made a similar experience
Hace un año, me sentí muy incómodo, con un grupo de gente, un amigo mío, y unos cuantos de ellos eran más o le conocían, así que este tipo que se emborrachó y empezó a hacer bromas negras, soy mitad de raza mixta alemana y mitad afroamericana, se volvió muy ofensivo e insultante, dijo cosas como oh me voy a decir en tu idioma y luego hizo ese sonido de clic que son comunes en el idioma khoisan africano, él estaba tratando de actuar comooh estoy bromeando, no me tomé en serio, pero él no paraba de sentirme tan incómodo y me enfadé mucho, pero también me giré nerviosamente y quería cambiar el tema, pero seguía haciendo una estúpida broma sobre mí, al final pagué mi bebida y me fui a casa, pero actué como todo lo bueno que ha sido el año y no puedo dejar de pensar en ello, me quedé pensando demasiado en cómo debería haber reaccionado y me siento tan avergonzado de mí mismo, siempre que recuerdo esta situación, lo que me decepcionó a la mayoría de las personas que realmente dijeron algo en la mesa, oh idiota.