idk who s going to read this but it doesn t matter i m only writing this for myself i always had friend growing up i wasn t the most popular kid but i had my small group recently some drama happened and i m no longer in the group i wa wronged and i will play the victim because i am i don t have any friend now i haven t got a few year i fell into a terrible life style the only thing i do with my life is go to college work then rot in my bed consuming medium it took a while but it hit me during one of my break away from school and work i realized that i have nothing making me happy i wake up and go on my phone watching random shit all day in my bed at night i m afraid to sleep so i just consume medium until i can t stay awake any longer i recently started think about what make me happy nothing i have no interest to pursue no friend to talk to no life to live i ve seen everywhere that in order to find yourself you should start a hobby based on your interest that s bullshit coming from people that don t have these problem i don t have interest no hobby appeal to me saying find a hobby that interest you is like me telling you to start a hobby that you don t like i don t like anything anymore i don t know who i am and i don t know how to find myself being betrayed by the people closest to you is a blessing and a curse i know they weren t real but i also know loneliness i can t crawl out of this state because i ve got nothing i want to do how do i become curious how do i start to desire thing again i m so lost i don t even know if i have depression or something all i know is i m constantly hurt unless i m consuming medium being idle just hurt i don t know where else to say this
idk who s going to read thisbut it doesn t matter i m only writing this for myself i always had friend growing up i wasn t the most popular kidbut i had my small group recently some drama happened and i m no longer in the group i wa wronged and i will play the victim because i am i don t have any friend now i haven t got a few year i fell into a terrible life style the only thingi do with my life is go to college work then rot in my bed consuming medium it took a while but it hit me during one of my break away from school and work i realized that i have nothing making me happy i wake up and go on my phone watching random shit all day in my bed at night i m afraid to sleepso i just consume medium until i can t stay awake any longer i recently started think about what make me happy nothing i have no interest to pursue no friend to talk to no life to live i ve seen everywhere that in order to find yourself you should start a hobby based on your interest that s bullshit coming from people that don t have these problem i dont have interest no hobby appeal to me saying find a hobby that interest you is like me telling you to start a hobby that you don t like i don t like anythinganymore i don t know who i amand i don t know how to find myself being betrayed by the people closest to you is a blessing and a curse i know they weren trealbut i also know loneliness i can t crawl out of this state because i ve got nothing i want to do how do i become curious how do i start to desire thing again i m so losti don t even know if i have depression or something all i know is i m constantly hurt unless i m consuming medium being idle just hurti don t know where else to say this
idk que va a leer esto pero no importa sólo escribir esto para mí siempre tuve amigo creciendo no era el chico más popular pero tuve mi pequeño grupo recientemente algo drama sucedió y ya no estoy en el grupo me erosionó y voy a interpretar a la víctima porque yo soy no tengo ningún amigo ahora no tengo un poco de año me caí en un estilo de vida terrible lo único que hago con mi vida es ir a la universidad trabajo entonces me pudre en mi cama medio consumo me tomó un tiempo pero me golpeó durante una de mis vacaciones lejos de la escuela y el trabajo me di cuenta de que no tengo nada que me haga feliz me despierto y voy en mi teléfono ver mierda al azar todo el día en mi cama en la noche tengo miedo de dormir así que sólo consumo medio hasta que no puedo mantenerme despierto hace poco empecé a pensar en lo que me hace feliz nada no tengo ningún interés en seguir ningún amigo para hablar con ninguna vida para vivir en todas partes que con el fin de encontrarte deberías empezar un hobby basado en tu basura procedente de personas que no tienen este problema que no tengo interés como hobby no tengo que decir un hobby que te diga algo como un hobby