i have bi polar disorder and per my therapisti have dismisive atrachment issue but right now i am struggling probably worse than i have in a while in a drunken fit i deleted almost all of the number in my phone so i had no one to reach out to i even called by sister but found myself hanging up after the first ring because i don t want to bother her i am in a low point right now and i can t pull myself out of it i feel so weak my life is the best it ha ever been i have all of the reason to be happy and yet i am here i right now contemplating feeling like i am at the end of my rope i have the life i have always dreamed of and i just feel like i can t hack it anymore i can feel myself breaking at the seems my thought are everywhere i do y know where i am at right now but i am scared i feel like of i reach out to my family they will say i am doing it for attention
i have bi polar disorder and per my therapisti have dismisive atrachment issue but right now i am struggling probably worse than i have in a while in a drunken fit i deleted almost all of the number in my phoneso i had no one to reach out to i even called by sister but found myself hanging up after the first ring because i don t want to bother her i am in a low point right nowand i can t pull myself out of it i feel so weak my life is the best it ha ever been i have all of the reason to be happyand yet i am here i right now contemplating feeling like i am at the end of my rope i have the life i have always dreamed ofand i just feel like i can t hack itanymore i can feel myself breaking at the seems my thought are everywhere i do y know where i am at right nowbut i am scared i feel like of i reach out to my family they will say i am doing it for attention
Tengo trastorno polar bi y por mi terapeuta tengo un problema de atraque dismisivo pero ahora estoy luchando probablemente peor de lo que tengo en un momento en un ataque de embriaguez he eliminado casi todo el número en mi teléfono no tenía a nadie para llegar a que incluso llamé por hermana pero me encontré colgando después del primer anillo porque no quiero molestarla estoy en un punto bajo ahora mismo y no puedo sacarme de él me siento tan débil mi vida es lo mejor que he sido nunca he tenido toda la razón para ser feliz y sin embargo estoy aquí ahora mismo contemplando la sensación de que estoy al final de mi cuerda tengo la vida que siempre he soñado y me siento como si no pudiera hackearlo cualquier cosa que pueda sentir romperme en las apariencias mi pensamiento está en todas partes que hago y sé donde estoy ahora mismo pero tengo miedo me siento como de llegar a mi familia que van a decir que lo estoy haciendo por atención.