my parent recorded a great deal of my early childhood so there is a lot of footage of me when i wa very young i used to be the most innocent and carefree little boy who never even once thought about what others thought about him or the way he looked i never cared about being lonely it wa just me with me and my mom and dad and i wa the happiest kid in the world the smallest thing made me smile year later i am now miserable and wishing i wa dead i barely even speak to my parent anymore and i push away and resent everybody around me my parent are heartbroken by the fact that i don t speak to anyone i m horrified by how shit my life ha become and how terrible of a person i am now due to my own mental health deteriorating beyond control i had so many friend a year ago but all i do is push people away and be a burden seeing what i used to be and comparing it to what i am now make me want to cry every time i see a little kid being happy and innocent i wish so badly that i never grew up and i could have remained a happy little boy forever
my parent recorded a great deal of my early childhood so there is a lot of footage of me when i wa very youngi used to be the most innocent and carefree little boy who never even once thought about what others thought about him or the way he looked i never cared about being lonely itwa just me with me and my mom and dadand i wa the happiest kid in the world the smallest thing made me smile year lateri am now miserable and wishing i wa dead i barely even speak to my parent anymoreand i push away and resent everybody around me my parent are heartbroken by the fact that i don t speak to anyone i m horrified by how shit my life ha become and how terrible of a person i am now due to my own mental health deteriorating beyond control i had so many friend a year agobut all i do is push people away and be a burden seeing what i used to be and comparing it to what i am now make me want to cry every time i see a little kid being happy and innocent i wish so badly that i never grew upand i could have remained a happy little boy forever
Mi padre grabó una gran cantidad de mi primera infancia así que hay un montón de imágenes de mí cuando yo era muy joven solía ser el niño más inocente y despreocupado que ni siquiera una vez pensó en lo que los demás pensaban de él o la forma en que se veía nunca me importó estar solo sólo conmigo y mi mamá y papá y yo wa el niño más feliz en el mundo la cosa más pequeña me hizo sonreír año después ahora soy miserable y deseando que yo fuera muerto apenas hablar con mi padre ya y me empujo lejos y resentí a todo el mundo a mi alrededor mi padre están descorazonados por el hecho de que no hablo a nadie me horrorizó por cómo mierda mi vida se ha convertido y lo terrible de una persona que ahora soy debido a mi propia salud mental deterioro más allá de control tuve tantos amigos hace un año pero todo lo que hago es empujar a la gente lejos y ser una carga ver lo que solía ser y compararlo con lo que soy ahora me hacen querer llorar cada vez que veo a un niño pequeño ser feliz e inocente deseo tan mal que nunca he crecido y podría haber permanecido un niño feliz para siempre