i sometimes wish i could do it just finally end it then i catch myself and i tell myself why i am here for me i am so tired i am tired of working my 9 job i am tired of repeating everything over and over again i feel like everything i have in my life i destroy i am trying my best to move on from my break up i reflected and i pushed him away i wa toxic i feel like a shitty human being that maybe doe deserve to die if i could take it all back i would i tried so hard to keep the relationship healthy that in the end it wasn t the worst part is i made him feel like he couldn t even tell me how he felt the day he discussed it with his friend wa the same day we hung out he never said a word i just don t want to be here right now i just want to disappear i ruined everything in my life i am done i m not going to end it because thinking of the pain i cause others hurt but being alive hurt me more
i sometimes wish i could do it just finally end it then i catch myself and i tell myself why i am here for me i am so tired i am tired of working my 9 job i am tired of repeating everything over and over again i feel like everything i have in my life i destroy i am trying my best to move on from my break up i reflected and i pushed him away i wa toxici feel like a shitty human being that maybe doe deserve to die if i could take it all back i would i tried so hard to keep the relationship healthy that in the end it wasn t the worst part is i made him feel like he couldn t even tell me how he felt the day he discussed it with his friend wa the same day we hung out he never said a word i just don t want to be here right now i just want to disappear i ruined everything in my life i am done i m not going to end it because thinking of the pain i cause others hurt but being alive hurt me more
A veces deseo poder hacerlo sólo finalmente terminarlo entonces me atrapo y me digo a mí mismo por qué estoy aquí para mí estoy tan cansado estoy cansado de trabajar mi trabajo 9 estoy cansado de repetir todo una y otra vez siento que todo lo que tengo en mi vida lo destruyo estoy haciendo mi mejor esfuerzo para seguir adelante de mi ruptura me reflejé y lo empujé lejos me siento como un ser humano de mierda que tal vez merece morir si pudiera tomarlo todo de nuevo me esforzaría tanto para mantener la relación sana que al final era la peor parte es que le hice sentir como si ni siquiera podría decirme cómo se sentía el día que lo discutió con su amigo el mismo día que pasamos el mismo día que nunca dijo una palabra que simplemente no quiero estar aquí justo ahora sólo quiero desaparecer lo arruiné todo en mi vida he hecho no voy a terminarlo porque pensando en el dolor que causa a otros heridos pero siendo vivo me lastimé más