i feel so tired so exhausted i sleep most of the day away and have no reason to get up thing are hard and my life is in a bad spot on one had i feel like i wan na let go and let the tear flow but on the other hand i just feel so empty and they don t even wan na come out i just sit here staring at the same spot in the wall with no drive to do anything anymore i m not sure the anti depressents are even helping me much anymore they re gon na run out soon anyways because of some bullshit with my insurance that s nice i just feel like i need to get out get some where far away and if i don t soon thing are gon na end badly i have nightmare about my emotional support animal dying still it s so hard to get over it my friend keep checking in on me because i m not active and say it s fine and i can vent but i feel i m letting them down i don t even drink to escape and feel like i can t anyways because an abusive drunk father i had got violent when he did and i m scared of ending up like him this is a vent post so i don t expect any reply out of it i just really needed to let this out and i obviously couldn t tell a therapist because i d just be put in a damn hospital and billed out of my as for it
i feel so tired so exhausted i sleep most of the day away and have no reason to get up thing are hard and my life is in a bad spot on one had i feel like i wan na let go and let the tear flow but on the other hand i just feel so empty and they don t even wan na come out i just sit here staring at the same spot in the wall with no drive to do anything anymorei m not sure the anti depressents are even helping me much anymore they re gon na run out soon anyways because of some bullshit with my insurance that s nicei just feel like i need to get out get some where far away and if i don t soon thing are gon na end badlyi have nightmare about my emotional support animal dying still it s so hard to get over it my friend keep checking in on me because i m not active and say it s fineand i can vent but i feel i m letting them downi don t even drink to escape and feel like i can t anyways because an abusive drunk father i had got violent when he did and i m scared of ending up like him this is a vent postso i don t expect any reply out of it i just really needed to let this out and i obviously couldn t tell a therapist because i d just be put in a damn hospital and billed out of my as for it
Me siento tan cansado tan exhausto que duermo la mayor parte del día y no tengo razón para levantarme la cosa son duros y mi vida está en un mal punto en uno tenía me siento como quiero na dejar ir y dejar que la lagrima fluya pero por otro lado me siento tan vacío y ni siquiera quieren salir me siento aquí mirando al mismo lugar en la pared sin ningún impulso para hacer nada más no estoy seguro de que los antidepresivos incluso me están ayudando mucho más que se van a salir pronto de todos modos debido a alguna mierda con mi seguro que s nicei sólo siento que necesito salir de allí lejos y si no pronto las cosas van a terminar maldi tienen pesadilla sobre mi apoyo emocional animal muriendo todavía es tan difícil superarlo mi amigo sigue comprobándome porque no estoy activo y digo que es fino y puedo desahogarme pero siento que les estoy dejando bajar ni siquiera beber y sentir que puedo salir de todos modos porque un padre borracho se puso violento cuando lo hizo y tengo miedo de terminar como este es un punto de vista que necesito un punto de vista y el hospital me lo puedo decir porque realmente no puedo hacer una respuesta porque