two of my friend are fighting and both of them are depressed lmfao and one of them is lashing out and yk hurt people hurt people lmfao and all that shit and the other one is different and it s weird and seems to have given up and i m worried and it s self sabotaging of myself to want to help them but is it bad to do that and every time i try to help someone i end up neglecting myself and ik that it will probably happen again btu do i even care anymore i ve always wanted to be the best i ve always had to be the best i had to be perfect but now idk i just don t care if i m mediocre if i don t get everything right and that d be good actually lmfao like being more self forgiving but no i think i m just depressed like i ve always been but shit idk everything s piling up and i m scared and i want a way out and the way out that i thought i had doesn t seem to be working so god idk sometimes i just want to pop some pill and just fucking die wouldn t that be better like sure some people care about me here but they d get over it right haha look at me i just don t care anymore it s so weird how much i ve changed i used to hate the idea of suicide because everyone who loved me would be hurt but now they d just get over it wouldn t they lmfao i m overdramatic sorry this post is all over the place
two of my friend are fighting and both of them are depressed lmfao and one of them is lashing out and yk hurt people hurt people lmfao and all that shit and the other one is different and it s weird and seems to have given up and i m worried and it s self sabotaging of myself to want to help them but is it bad to do that and every time i try to help someone i end up neglecting myself and ik that it will probably happen againbtu do i even care anymorei ve always wanted to be the best i ve always had to be the best i had to be perfect but now idk i just don t care if i m mediocre if i don t get everything right and that d be good actually lmfao like being more self forgivingbut no i think i m just depressed like i ve always been but shit idk everything s piling upand i m scaredand i want a way out and the way out that i thought i had doesn t seem to be working so god idk sometimes i just want to pop some pill and just fucking die wouldn t that be better like sure some people care about me herebut they d get over it right hahalook at me i just don t careanymoreit s so weird how much i ve changed i used to hate the idea of suicide because everyone who loved me would be hurt but now they d just get over it wouldntthey lmfao i m overdramaticsorry this post is all over the place
Dos de mis amigos están luchando y los dos están deprimidos lmfao y uno de ellos está golpeando y yk lastimar a la gente lastimar a la gente lmfao y toda esa mierda y el otro es diferente y es raro y parece haber renunciado y estoy preocupado y es yo mismo saboteando de mí mismo para querer ayudarles pero es malo hacer eso y cada vez que intento ayudar a alguien termino negándome a mí mismo y a IK que probablemente volverá a suceder btu do incluso me importa más siempre he querido ser el mejor que siempre he tenido que ser el mejor que tenía que ser perfecto pero ahora idk no me importa si me miento si no lo hago todo bien y eso es bueno en realidad lmfao como ser más auto perdonando pero no creo que me deprima como siempre lo he sido pero mierda idk todo s s living upand me temo y quiero una manera de salir de mi mente porque creo que no parece estar tan solo deprimido como siempre he estado pero mierda todo lo que me gusta me muerdo y me siento mejor que me lo que me han hecho bien bien bien que me han cuidado porque creo que me tienen que no me parece estar tan bien