hi everyone in the past few year that i have been living alone a a student i noticed myself falling into period of time where i would not leave the house alone it s not a if i don t enjoy going outside i live in vancouver and there are some truly beautiful day here where the sunlight make this city breathtaking my issue isn t a fear of going outside it s more of a fear of the people i ll encounter and how they may judge me i ve always struggled with depression and low self esteem i ve always felt nervous about other people looking at me i avoid leaving the house alone unless it s necessary and when i do it s usually at night i ve even had point in the past where i ve drunk alcohol to make myself feel le nervous about leaving the apartment for grocery i usually don t make eye contact when i m alone outside and keep my eye focused ahead or on the ground why do other people scare me so much when i m on my own i can leave if i m with friend but on my own i always get nervous and procrastinate until nighttime when fewer people are out i think i just feel safer inside because other people aren t there to see me or place judgment i m fortunate enough that my current bos allows me to work from home so unless i need to leave the house i usually won t i even try to get most of my grocery via amazon so i can minimize the chance of going outside i feel like i want to hide in here and not think about anything i don t even want to look at myself i wa wondering if there are other people who feel this way too is there a name for what i m experiencing am i just lazy i just want to know how to feel better
hi everyone in the past few year that i have been living alone a a student i noticed myself falling into period of time where i would not leave the house alone it s not a if i don t enjoy going outside i live in vancouver and there are some truly beautiful day here where the sunlight make this city breathtaking my issue isn t a fear of going outside it s more of a fear of the people i ll encounter and how they may judge me i ve always struggled with depression and low self esteem i ve always felt nervous about other people looking at me i avoid leaving the house alone unless it s necessary and when i do it s usually at night i ve even had point in the past where i ve drunk alcohol to make myself feel le nervous about leaving the apartment for grocery i usually don t make eye contact when i m alone outside and keep my eye focused ahead or on the ground why do other people scare me so much when i m on my own i can leave if i m with friend but on my own i always get nervous and procrastinate until nighttime when fewer people are out i think i just feel safer inside because other people aren t there to see me or place judgment i m fortunate enough that my current bos allows me to work from home so unless i need to leave the house i usually won ti even try to get most of my grocery via amazon so i can minimize the chance of going outside i feel like i want to hide in here and not think about anything i don t even want to look at myself i wa wondering if there are other people who feel this way too is there a name for what i m experiencing am i just lazyi just want to know how to feel better
Hola a todos en los últimos años que he estado viviendo solo un estudiante me di cuenta de que cayendo en el período de tiempo donde no me gustaría salir de la casa sola no es un si no me gusta salir vivo en Vancouver y hay un día realmente hermoso aquí donde la luz del sol hace que esta ciudad impresionante mi problema no es un miedo a salir de ella es más de un miedo a la gente que encuentro y cómo me pueden juzgar siempre he luchado con depresión y baja autoestima siempre me he sentido nervioso por otras personas que me miran evitan salir de la casa sola a menos que sea necesario y cuando lo hago es generalmente en la noche incluso he tenido punto en el pasado donde he bebido alcohol para hacerme sentir nervioso por salir del apartamento para la tienda de comestibles por lo general no hago contacto visual cuando estoy solo fuera y mantener mi ojo enfocado delante o en el suelo por qué otras personas me asustan tanto cuando estoy en mi propio puedo irme si estoy con amigo pero en mi propio siempre me pongo nervioso y procrastinado hasta la noche cuando menos gente está fuera