every single day i just wake up miserable and an insane urgency to immediately end myself everything is just empty now nothing really get me excited and i don t even have anyone to talk to cuz most of my friend are just not that close my family is much worse a nobody ever care about each other i have a father but i don t have any father figure cuz he wa and is never there for me ever i can t even share anything to anyone cuz everyone just tell me that it s normal for people my age to experience the thing i am going through i just absolutely hate my life and everything i literally have no will to live i even sometimes subtly and unintentionally put myself at dangerous situation to like somehow get myself killed even though everyone just say it s normal to experience these at my age i don t see anyone my age talk or even behave the way i do i also hate the fact that i am self aware of every way i am behaving but still can t seem to help myself fix those thing i really really really hope everyone is living better life than me
every single day i just wake up miserable and an insane urgency to immediately end myself everything is just empty now nothing really get me excited and i don t even have anyone to talk to cuz most of my friend are just not that close my family is much worse a nobody ever care about each other i have a fatherbut i don t have any father figure cuz he wa and is never there for me ever i can t even share anything to anyone cuz everyone just tell me that it s normal for people my age to experience the thing i am going through i just absolutely hate my life and everything i literally have no will to live i even sometimes subtly and unintentionally put myself at dangerous situation to like somehow get myself killed even though everyone just say it s normal to experience these at my age i don t see anyone my age talk or even behave the way i do i also hate the fact that i am self aware of every way i am behaving but still can t seem to help myself fix those thing i really really really hope everyone is living better life than me
Cada día me despierto miserable y una urgencia loca para terminarme inmediatamente todo está vacío ahora nada realmente me emociona y ni siquiera tengo a nadie para hablar con cuz la mayoría de mi amigo no son sólo que cerca de mi familia es mucho peor que nadie nunca se preocupa por el otro tengo un padre pero no tengo ninguna figura de padre cuz él wa y nunca está allí para mí nunca puedo ni siquiera compartir nada con nadie porque todo el mundo me dice que es normal para la gente mi edad para experimentar lo que estoy pasando yo sólo absolutamente odio mi vida y todo lo que literalmente no tengo ninguna voluntad de vivir incluso a veces sutil e involuntariamente me pongo en situación peligrosa como de alguna manera conseguir que me maten a mí mismo incluso aunque todo el mundo dice que es normal experimentar estos a mi edad no veo a nadie mi edad hablar o incluso comportar la forma en que lo hago yo también odio el hecho de que soy autoconsciente de cada manera que me estoy comportando pero todavía no puedo parecer ayudarme a arreglar esa cosa realmente realmente realmente espero que todos estén viviendo mejor vida que yo