hello i hope you are having a good day i have been suicidal for the last year at least i am 9 male idk if that matter and i never told anyone about it because well i am too shy today i built enough strentgh to be able to open up about my suicidal thought to my mother just to feel absolutely destroyed by her reaction she immedately asked if i am autistic no joke and didnt stop saying that i wa telling her this to threaten her or make her feel guilty i wa very confused when i heard that and she still continued doubting my academic performance even though i told her many time i am still doing well in my study then finally she somehow ended up beating me up out of rage telling me that i am lazy that i dont help at home that i dont pay the bill that i dont get the highest grade making feel me like i am burden to everyone well i guess that must be true right i am worthless so i should disappear soon trust me i want to die really badly but i get slapped by reality and i realize how weak i am when i try killing myself i am sorry for being such a disappointment to everyone i am truly sorry
hello i hope you are having a good day i have been suicidal for the last year at least i am 9 male idk if that matterand i never told anyone about it because well i am too shy today i built enough strentgh to be able to open up about my suicidal thought to my mother just to feel absolutely destroyed by her reaction she immedately asked if i am autistic no joke and didnt stop saying that i wa telling her this to threaten her or make her feel guilty i wa very confused when i heard that and she still continued doubting my academic performance even though i told her many time i am still doing well in my study then finally she somehow ended up beating me up out of rage telling me that i am lazy that i dont help at home that i dont pay the bill that i dont get the highest grade making feel me like i am burden to everyonewell i guess that must be trueright i am worthless so i should disappear soon trust mei want to die really badlybut i get slapped by realityand i realize how weak i am when i try killing myself i am sorry for being such a disappointment to everyone i am truly sorry
Hola espero que estés teniendo un buen día he sido suicida durante el último año por lo menos soy 9 hombre idk si ese asunto y nunca le dije a nadie sobre él porque bueno soy demasiado tímido hoy he construido bastante strentgh para poder abrir sobre mi pensamiento suicida a mi madre sólo para sentirse absolutamente destruido por su reacción ella preguntó inmediatamente si soy autista no bromea y no dejó de decir que yo wa decirle esto para amenazarla o hacerla sentir culpable yo wa muy confundido cuando escuché eso y ella seguía dudando de mi rendimiento académico a pesar de que le dije que todavía estoy haciendo bien en mi estudio entonces finalmente ella terminó golpeándome de alguna manera por rabia diciéndome que soy perezoso que no ayudo en casa que no pago la factura que no tengo la calificación más alta que me hace sentir como si soy carga para todoswell supongo que debo ser verdad no vale la pena así que debería desaparecer pronto me quiero morir realmente mal pero me doy cuenta de lo débil que soy cuando intento matarme siento por ser tan decepción para todos lo que realmente lo siento