when i tried to km the second time what stopped me wa a terror unlike anything i have felt before i ve been planning an overdose for a while now and just planning it out ha brought that feeling right back to me i feel butterfly in my stomach and my heart racing and i know if i were to grab my med crush them up and went to take them i wouldn t be able to fight this terror i ve been told before that that just mean that somewhere deep inside you you want to live but i disagree this feel like basic primal instinct it s so hard to just say do x and then all of your perception will end that s not something you can just do yet people have i want to do this but i don t know how to prepare for this terror i remember when i backed out of my second attempt i kept on saying to myself nothing can prepare you for that i can plan and prepare all i want but taking an action that self destructive is incredibly difficult especially when you have a realistic fear of not dying and being left severely injured i m terrified and i don t know what to do anymore it seems like the best option but it s so cruel that it just ha to be so difficult dying shouldn t be too much to ask for yet absolutely everything fight against you i hate this so incredibly much this is hell
when i tried to km the second time what stopped me wa a terror unlike anything i have felt before i ve been planning an overdose for a while now and just planning it out ha brought that feeling right back to me i feel butterfly in my stomach and my heart racingand i know if i were to grab my med crush them up and went to take them i wouldn t be able to fight this terror i ve been told before that that just mean that somewhere deep inside you you want to live but i disagree this feel like basic primal instinct it s so hard to just say do xand then all of your perception will end that s not something you can just do yetpeople have i want to do thisbut i don t know how to prepare for this terror i remember when i backed out of my second attempt i kept on saying to myself nothing can prepare you for that i can plan and prepare all i want but taking an action that self destructive is incredibly difficult especially when you have a realistic fear of not dying and being left severely injured i m terrifiedand i don t know what to do anymore it seems like the best option but it s so cruel that it just ha to be so difficult dying shouldn t be too much to ask for yet absolutely everything fight against you i hate this so incredibly much this is hell
Cuando he tratado de km la segunda vez que lo que me detuvo wa un terror a diferencia de cualquier cosa que he sentido antes de que he estado planeando una sobredosis por un tiempo ahora y sólo la planificación ha traído ese sentimiento de vuelta a mí me siento mariposa en mi estómago y mi corazón que se aceleran y sé que si yo fuera a agarrar mi medicina aplastarlos y fue a tomarlos no sería capaz de luchar contra este terror que se me ha dicho antes que sólo significa que en algún lugar dentro de ti quieres vivir pero no estoy de acuerdo esta sensación como instinto primal básico es tan difícil de decir sólo hacer xy entonces toda tu percepción terminará que no es algo que sólo puedes hacer y sin embargo la gente tiene que quiero hacer esto pero no sé cómo prepararse para este terror recuerdo cuando me aparté de mi segundo intento me seguí diciendo a mí mismo que nada puede prepararte para que pueda planear y preparar todo lo que quiero pero tomar una acción que auto destructivo es increíblemente difícil especialmente cuando tienes un miedo realista de no morir y ser gravemente herido y no sé qué hacer más parece la mejor opción