i ve had suicidal ideation almost everyday for year now i ve kinda lost track when specifically because everything just seems like a blur i feel trapped in a way because i don t want to hurt my friend and family but at the same time i m just so exhausted with living i just want to be set free and i wish they could just let me go and finally allow me to leave this world i mean being gay and asian american should give enough of a reason a to why i ve ended up in this predicament i just wish i could have been born normal i wish i could have had a normal childhood i wish i could had all the thing that came with growing up like crush prom night or dating in high school and then piling that on top of all the other horrible shit that exists within our society i don t even want to continue with life anymore why should i even bother if world i live in wa never made for people like me why would it be bad if i choose to leave it isn t it more selfish for them to keep me hostage alive
i ve had suicidal ideation almost everyday for year now i ve kinda lost track when specifically because everything just seems like a blur i feel trapped in a way because i don t want to hurt my friend and family but at the same time i m just so exhausted with living i just want to be set free and i wish they could just let me go and finally allow me to leave this worldi mean being gay and asian american should give enough of a reason a to why i ve ended up in this predicament i just wish i could have been born normal i wish i could have had a normal childhood i wish i could had all the thing that came with growing up like crush prom night or dating in high school and then piling that on top of all the other horrible shit that exists within our society i don t even want to continue with life anymore why should i even bother if world i live in wa never made for people like me why would it be bad if i choose to leave it isn tit more selfish for them to keep me hostage alive
He tenido ideas suicidas casi todos los días durante el año ahora he un poco perdido la pista cuando específicamente porque todo parece como un borroso me siento atrapado de una manera porque no quiero hacer daño a mi amigo y familia pero al mismo tiempo estoy tan exhausto con la vida que sólo quiero ser liberado y me gustaría que pudieran dejarme ir y finalmente permitirme dejar este mundo significa ser gay y asiático americano debe dar suficiente de una razón por la que he terminado en esta situación me gustaría que hubiera nacido normal me gustaría que podría haber tenido una infancia normal me gustaría que podría tener todo lo que vino con crecer como machacar la noche del baile o salir en la escuela secundaria y luego amontonar que encima de todas las otras horribles mierdas que existen en nuestra sociedad ni siquiera quiero seguir con la vida más ¿por qué debería incluso molestarme si el mundo en el que vivo nunca hecho para la gente como yo ¿por qué sería malo si elijo dejar es más egoísta para ellos mantenerme rehén vivo