i wake up feeling guilty everyday i truly do feel like people would be happier without me of course i know that s not true but the feeling eats away at my soul everyday all i can constantly think about is the money that s ha been spent on me i feel sick looking at myself in the mirror i don t feel worthy for myself i don t feel worthy for others either i just want to be enough i just want to feel normal doing the simplest thing like breathing fill me with dread and worry when i m around others i ve never had a super close friend though i never really got out a a kid i never really felt understood i find it hard to believe that one day i will feel comfortable with myself because this feeling ha plagued me ever since i wa a child i look forward to when i sleep because that s when i m not limited and i feel free the thought of dying painlessly and giving into the void is what soothes me when i m stressed or sad i want to keep going but it s been so long of me being useless i don t know how to catch up i feel so much dread in simply existing
i wake up feeling guilty everyday i truly do feel like people would be happier without me of course i know that s not true but the feeling eats away at my soul everyday all i can constantly think about is the money that s ha been spent on me i feel sick looking at myself in the mirror i don t feel worthy for myself i don t feel worthy for others either i just want to be enough i just want to feel normal doing the simplest thing like breathing fill me with dread and worry when i m around others i ve never had a super close friend though i never really got out a a kidi never really felt understood i find it hard to believe that one day i will feel comfortable with myself because this feeling ha plagued me ever since i wa a child i look forward to when i sleep because that s when i m not limited and i feel free the thought of dying painlessly and giving into the void is what soothes me when i m stressed or sad i want to keep going but it s been so long of me being useless i dont know how to catch up i feel so much dread in simply existing
Me despierto sintiendo culpa todos los días realmente siento que la gente sería más feliz sin mí, por supuesto sé que no es verdad, pero la sensación se come lejos en mi alma todos los días todo lo que puedo constantemente pensar es en el dinero que se ha gastado en mí me siento enfermo mirándome a mí mismo en el espejo no me siento digno para mí mismo no me siento digno para los demás o simplemente quiero ser suficiente sólo quiero sentirme normal haciendo lo más simple como respirar llenarme de miedo y preocupación cuando estoy alrededor de otros nunca he tenido un amigo súper cercano aunque nunca realmente salí de un kidi nunca realmente me sentí entendido me resulta difícil creer que un día me sentiré cómodo conmigo mismo porque este sentimiento me ha atormentado desde que era un niño me mira hacia adelante cuando duermo porque eso es cuando no estoy limitado y me siento libre el pensamiento de morir sin dolor y ceder en el vacío es lo que me calma cuando estoy estresado o triste quiero seguir adelante pero ha sido tan largo de ser inútil no sé cómo alcanzarme me siento tan aterrado simplemente en la existencia simplemente