i shouldn t post here or anywhere else but i have nothing else so firstly i want to apologize i m sorry that you have to read this first off because it s all nonsense and also because it may be stupid or weird since english isn t my first language i have nothing no family no friend no job i m stuck in my apartment because i m a coward psychiatrist tell me i have agoraphobia but i don t think it s true i m just a waste of time space and money there s no need for me to still be here i ve tried multiple time to end it all when my family were still here i got caught and sent to psychiatric ward and now it s a neighbor who knew my dad he keep coming again and again to see if i m ok i m wasting his time a well like i waste your time writing this i don t even know why i need to do this it s not like i want any help nor i need any help maybe i just want to leave something somewhere testify about loneliness and mental illness i m already shameful just thinking about somebody will see this and witness how i m such a stupid human being just complaining about nothing playing the victim although i m not long time ago i thought i wa a victim tho my dad did thing to me people at school bullied me i wa thinking like that my mindset wa fxcked up now that i ve rethink about it all i see is the problem wa and still is me i can t blame others over what i did i don t wish this to my worst enemy this void that keep devoting me taking more and more space making me disappear slowly again i m sorry about all that and thanks to this sub if that post is not removed if you re in this state i hope you ll get better soon i don t know you but you re worth it don t let anybody tell you otherwise and never give up on thing you like or that make you feel good
i shouldn t post here or anywhere elsebut i have nothing else so firstly i want to apologize i m sorry that you have to read this first off because it s all nonsense and also because it may be stupid or weird since english isn t my first language i have nothing no family no friendno job i m stuck in my apartment because i m a coward psychiatrist tell me i have agoraphobiabut i don t think it s truei m just a waste of time space and money there s no need for me to still be here i ve tried multiple time to end it all when my family were still here i got caught and sent to psychiatric ward and now it s a neighbor who knew my dad he keep coming again and again to see if i mok i m wasting his time a well like i waste your time writing this i don t even know why i need to do this it s not like i want any help nor i need any help maybe i just want to leave something somewhere testify about loneliness and mental illnessi m already shameful just thinking about somebody will see this and witness how i m such a stupid human being just complaining about nothing playing the victim although i m not long time ago i thought i wa a victim thomy dad did thing to me people at school bullied me i wa thinking like that my mindset wa fxcked up now that i ve rethink about it all i see is the problem wa and still is me i can t blame others over what i did i don t wish this to my worst enemy this void that keep devoting me taking more and more space making me disappear slowly againi m sorry about all that and thanks to this sub if that post is not removed if you re in this state i hope you ll get better sooni don t know youbut you re worth it don t let anybody tell you otherwise and never give up on thing you like or that make you feel good
Yo no debería publicar aquí o en cualquier otro lugar pero no tengo nada más así que en primer lugar quiero disculparme siento que tienes que leer esto primero porque todo es una tontería y también porque puede ser estúpido o extraño ya que el inglés no es mi primera lengua no tengo nada familia ningún amigono trabajo estoy atascado en mi apartamento porque soy un psiquiatra cobarde me dicen que tengo agorafobia pero no creo que es verdad que sólo una pérdida de tiempo espacio y dinero no hay necesidad de que todavía esté aquí he intentado varias veces para terminar todo cuando mi familia todavía estaba aquí me atraparon y enviaron a la sala psiquiátrica y ahora es un vecino que sabía que mi padre sigue viniendo una y otra vez para ver si me mok i m perder su tiempo un bien como yo perder su tiempo escribiendo esto ni siquiera sé por qué necesito hacer esto no es como quiero ninguna ayuda ni necesito ninguna ayuda tal vez sólo quiero dejar algo en algún lugar de la soledad y la enfermedad mental me acaba de ver a alguien ver esto y ver cómo soy un estúpido ser humano que se queja de nada jugar a la víctima aunque hace mucho tiempo que yo pensaba que era una víctima