why am i here i have class i need to go back i m sweating my backside is all gross and wet and it s not because it s hot i m wearing short something is wrong with me i m broken i can t be around people but i m lonely i can t care about college awful apathy is in my vein i can t even pretend to have any desire for life or conversation i m going to fail my class maybe failing something will finally wake me up or no i m nothing of value without my grade it s all i ve ever had it s all i m actually good at and now i realize how utterly pointless and empty that overwhelming stress wa good grade never made me like living or myself if i fail it is justification that my existence is worthless i m just lonely and socially anxious to the point of phobia and scared of others and especially of myself i just want to die i m supposed to commit suicide i m sure of it i am not meant to exist i do not belong here i belong nowhere i m tired really really tired
why am i here i have class i need to go back i m sweating my backside is all gross and wet and it s not because it s hot i m wearing short something is wrong with mei m broken i can t be around peoplebut i m lonelyi can t care about college awful apathy is in my veini can t even pretend to have any desire for life or conversation i m going to fail my class maybe failing something will finally wake me up ornoi m nothing of value without my grade it s all i ve ever had it s alli m actually good atand now i realize how utterly pointless and empty that overwhelming stress wa good grade never made me like living or myself if i fail it is justification that my existence is worthless i m just lonely and socially anxious to the point of phobia and scared of others and especially of myself i just want to die i m supposed to commit suicide i m sure of it i am not meant to exist i do not belong here i belong nowherei m tired really really tired
¿Por qué estoy aquí tengo clase tengo que volver estoy sudando mi trasero es todo bruto y mojado y no es porque es caliente estoy usando corto algo está mal con mei m roto no puedo estar alrededor de la gente pero me siento solo no puede preocuparse por la universidad terrible apatía es en mi vena ni siquiera puede pretender tener cualquier deseo de vida o conversación voy a fallar mi clase tal vez fallar algo finalmente me despertará o no m nada de valor sin mi grado es todo lo que he tenido es alli m realmente bueno y ahora me doy cuenta de lo completamente inútil y vacío que estrés abrumador wa buena nota nunca me hizo como vivir o yo mismo si fallo es justificación que mi existencia es inútil estoy solo y socialmente ansioso al punto de fobia y miedo de los demás y especialmente de mí mismo sólo quiero morir me supone suicidarme estoy seguro de que no estoy destinado a existir no pertenezco aquí no pertenezco a ninguna parte estoy cansado realmente cansado realmente cansado