i put a resolution that if i didn t get a relationship by the time i m 0 i m going to kill myself at the end of the year i m 9 i turn 0 in mount i found someone but i really screwed everything up because i feel i don t deserve to be happy with anyone and this feeling like i should just end it all is still here on how a screwed everything up is i wasn t there when she needed me most when her mother died i talked to a few others and they think it s because i couldn t handle my mother s own mortality when this happened i retreated into myself and closed everyone out and barely spoke with anyone i don t know if i can make it much longer because i love her with everything i have and her heart is broken because of me i hurt her i can t fix it and i can t handle that
i put a resolution that if i didn t get a relationship by the time i m 0i m going to kill myself at the end of the year i m 9i turn 0 in mount i found someone but i really screwed everything up because i feel i don t deserve to be happy with anyone and this feeling like i should just end it all is still here on how a screwed everything up is i wasn t there when she needed me most when her mother died i talked to a few others and they think it s because i couldn t handle my mother s own mortality when this happened i retreated into myself and closed everyone out and barely spoke with anyone i dont know if i can make it much longer because i love her with everything i have and her heart is broken because of me i hurt her i can t fix itand i can t handle that
Puse una resolución que si no conseguía una relación para el momento en que me voy a matar a mí mismo al final del año i m 9i vuelta 0 en montura encontré a alguien pero realmente lo arruiné todo porque siento que no merezco ser feliz con nadie y esta sensación como que debería terminar todo está todavía aquí en cómo un jodido todo es yo no estaba allí cuando ella me necesitaba más cuando su madre murió hablé con unos cuantos otros y piensan que es porque no podía manejar la propia mortalidad de mi madre cuando esto sucedió me retiré en mí mismo y cerré a todos y apenas habló con alguien no sé si puedo hacerlo mucho más tiempo porque la amo con todo lo que tengo y su corazón está roto porque de mí la lastimé no puedo arreglarlo y no puedo manejar eso