i ve been keeping myself from here yet at the same time i keep coming back to read about other s experience maybe a a way to prove to myself that i don t have it a bad still though i feel so depressed and withdrawn from everything this suck everything suck i wish it wasn t like this plus i still can t put my finger on what exactly made me start thinking in such a nihilistic way i m constantly thinking if i went back in time or maybe if i did this just thinking of what could ve been knowing it s just going to drown me in hole of self absorbence i don t know if this ha bad grammar so if it doe then sorry
i ve been keeping myself from here yet at the same time i keep coming back to read about other s experience maybe a a way to prove to myself that i don t have it a bad still though i feel so depressed and withdrawn from everything this suck everything suck i wish it wasn t like this plus i still can t put my finger on what exactly made me start thinking in such a nihilistic way i m constantly thinking if i went back in time or maybe if i did this just thinking of what could ve been knowing it s just going to drown me in hole of self absorbencei dont know if this ha bad grammar so if it doe then sorry
He estado manteniendo a mí mismo de aquí sin embargo, al mismo tiempo sigo volviendo a leer sobre la experiencia de otros tal vez una manera de demostrar a mí mismo que no lo tengo un mal todavía aunque me siento tan deprimido y retirado de todo esto chupar todo chupar deseo que no era como este plus todavía no puedo poner mi dedo en lo que exactamente me hizo empezar a pensar de una manera tan nihilista estoy constantemente pensando si fui atrás en el tiempo o tal vez si lo hice sólo pensando en lo que podría haber estado sabiendo que sólo va a ahogarme en el agujero de autoabsorenciai no sé si esto tiene mala gramática así que si lo hace entonces lo siento