maybe is a defense mechanism idk but a few week ago i really tried all the fake it until you make it schtick for a few day it wa fine and people at work were impressed however soon i started to make mistake and i went overboard because now everyone is pointing out my flaw i wa a cry mess and i felt super weak and exposed today i reversed back to my usual you are worthless you really thought you could achieve something mental mantra and somehow i feel better it is like it feel better if i am the one saying it and not the others i feel so effed up for being relieved a i am now i really thought i wa getting better and believing in myself for a change but i guess i am not just built that way
maybe is a defense mechanism idk but a few week ago i really tried all the fake it until you make it schtick for a few day it wa fine and people at work were impressed however soon i started to make mistake and i went overboard because now everyone is pointing out my flawi wa a cry messand i felt super weak and exposed today i reversed back to my usual you are worthless you really thought you could achieve something mental mantra and somehow i feel better it is like it feel better if i am the one saying it and not the others i feel so effed up for being relieved a i am now i really thought i wa getting better and believing in myself for a changebut i guess i am not just built that way
Tal vez es un mecanismo de defensa idk pero hace unas semanas realmente intenté todo el falso hasta que lo haces schtick para un par de días wa bien y la gente en el trabajo se impresionó sin embargo pronto empecé a cometer un error y me fui por la borda porque ahora todo el mundo está señalando mi flawi wa un desastre de llanto y me sentí súper débil y expuesto hoy me reviertí a mi habitual eres inútil realmente pensé que podías lograr algo mantra mental y de alguna manera me siento mejor es como si se siente mejor si soy el que lo dice y no los otros me siento tan effed para ser aliviado un soy ahora realmente pensé que iba a mejorar y creer en mí mismo para un cambio pero supongo que no estoy construido de esa manera