i m a m recently diagnosed with autism and adhd i have a long struggled with mental health i have attempted suicide a numerous amount of time been addicted to drug several time and i have given up completely my mum ha cancer and is going into surgery next week to have half of her lung removed my youngest brother ha non verbal autism and i think about what he might be like if he wasn t autistic and all the thing i would ve done with him one of my brother died six hour after he wa born from heart failure and the only memory i have of him is having my photo taken beside his corpse dressed in pjamas before he wa buried a a result i constantly breakdown whenever i remember or see anything from my childhood i wa bullied by my only friend group when i wa because i wa anxious about talking to my crush at the time and it got to the point where they made me extremely suicidal i wa then in an abusive relationship during the pandemic where i wa constantly gaslighted verbally abused emotionally abused insulted threatened with suicide and self harm a a result my severe anxiety and depression ha been increased to a point where i can t even go into school from how overwhelming it is i haven t been in since early february and i m on different medication for my mental health adhd and sleeping problem my life is so fucking miserable and i hate myself my inability to do anything and how i look i just want to completely tear my body apart from how disgusted i am being in my own body and i just want to kill myself more than anything a i know nothing will improve in my life and i will always forever be like this just getting worse and going down a further spiral
i m a m recently diagnosed with autism and adhd i have a long struggled with mental health i have attempted suicide a numerous amount of time been addicted to drug several time and i have given up completely my mum ha cancer and is going into surgery next week to have half of her lung removed my youngest brother ha non verbal autism and i think about what he might be like if he wasn t autistic and all the thing i would ve done with him one of my brother died six hour after he wa born from heart failure and the only memory i have of him is having my photo taken beside his corpse dressed in pjamas before he wa buried a a result i constantly breakdown whenever i remember or see anything from my childhood i wa bullied by my only friend group when i wa because i wa anxious about talking to my crush at the time and it got to the point where they made me extremely suicidal i wa then in an abusive relationship during the pandemic where i wa constantly gaslighted verbally abused emotionally abused insulted threatened with suicide and self harm a a result my severe anxiety and depression ha been increased to a point where i can t even go into school from how overwhelming it is i haven t been in since early february and i m on different medication for my mental health adhd and sleeping problem my life is so fucking miserableand i hate myself my inability to do anythingand how i look i just want to completely tear my body apart from how disgusted i am being in my own bodyand i just want to kill myself more than anything ai know nothing will improve in my life and i will always forever be like this just getting worse and going down a further spiral
I m a m recientemente diagnosticado con autismo y adhd tengo una larga lucha con la salud mental he intentado suicidarse una cantidad de tiempo numerosos han sido adictos a las drogas varias veces y he renunciado completamente mi mama ha cáncer y va a entrar en cirugía la próxima semana para tener la mitad de su pulmón extirpado mi hermano menor ha autismo no verbal y pienso en lo que podría ser como si él no era autista y todo lo que habría hecho con él uno de mi hermano murió seis horas después de que naciera de insuficiencia cardíaca y el único recuerdo que tengo de él es que mi foto al lado de su cadáver vestido de pijamas antes de que se enterrara un resultado constantemente me desploma cada vez que recuerdo o veo algo de mi infancia me acosaba por mi único grupo de amigos cuando me voy porque me ansioso por hablar con mi aplastamiento en el momento y llegó al punto en el que me hicieron extremadamente suicida