i ve felt like this for a bit but never super realized until i looked into a depression a i ve thought more and more recently that i might have depression i ve just kind of been watching youtube and show recently not doing anything i like recently i haven t had any good motivation to get up and do stuff like playing video game even though i want to i just can t get myself to i ve been failing school i can t motivate myself to sit down and even do that which i really really need to do and i feel bad for it too since i haven t done really anything and my mom stuck her neck out to help me i ve just about always had good grade up until spring of last year i think i m always happy when out doing stuff around people basically but i m not always feeling that way i ve just kind of been feeling off and a bit sad i want to reach out to people but i don t have the courage to do so even if they re a relative or a close friend i don t want anyone feeling sad because i am and i m just kind of trying to keep people other than myself happy people have asked me sometimes if i m ok but i always respond with i m fine sometimes i know like at the beginning of conversation i sound a bit sad which is why people ask if i m ok but then i kind of just go to a normal somewhat happy tone i don t want to really say i m depressed cause i think it s just my own fault for being too lazy and i know recently especially i haven t been getting to sleep really at a time i should just cause i don t feel tired basically ever so i just stay awake and sometimes force myself to sleep i m not really ever cry which isn t very depression like which is guess is kind of why i ve just thought for awhile that i don t which i probably don t i m sure i m exaggerating but i don t really get to a point where i feel sleepy and then when i do go to sleep i sleep for hour and even if i do set alarm i wake up but i m just not motivated enough to actually get up so i usually just fall back asleep but i just haven t told anyone up until now especially not irl until now but even this ha taken some courage to admit even to myself but i probably didn t say everything a im just kind of piecing stuff together in no specific order or anything and just ramblind on but i m sorry this ha been long thank you for reading and have a nice day or night i did forget to mention some stuff i don t really have suicidal thought i mean i ve thought of suicide but never actually thought about doing it and i have been thinking about talking to a friend that i believe ha had depression in the past but i don t know if they still do so i don t really want to put that weight on their shoulder a well and also i haven t been eating a much probably not because of depression if i even have it which i m sure i don t at this point and also my hygiene i haven t been taking care of my hygiene the best i kind of stopped brushing my teeth for awhile i hate to admit it but my teeth are pretty yellowed and i haven t really been taking care of thing such a acne a well
i ve felt like this for a bit but never super realized until i looked into a depression a i ve thought more and more recently that i might have depression i ve just kind of been watching youtube and show recently not doing anything i like recently i haven t had any good motivation to get up and do stuff like playing video game even though i want to i just can t get myself to i ve been failing schooli can t motivate myself to sit down and even do that which i really really need to doand i feel bad for it too since i haven t done really anything and my mom stuck her neck out to help me i ve just about always had good grade up until spring of last year i think i m always happy when out doing stuff around peoplebasicallybut i m not always feeling that way i ve just kind of been feeling off and a bit sad i want to reach out to peoplebut i don t have the courage to do so even if they re a relative or a close friend i don t want anyone feeling sad because i am and i m just kind of trying to keep people other than myself happy people have asked me sometimes if i m okbut i always respond with i m fine sometimes i know like at the beginning of conversation i sound a bit sad which is why people ask if i mokbut then i kind of just go to a normal somewhat happy tone i don t want to really say i m depressed cause i think it s just my own fault for being too lazyand i know recently especially i haven t been getting to sleep really at a time i should just cause i don t feel tired basically everso i just stay awake and sometimes force myself to sleep i m not really ever cry which isn t very depression like which is guess is kind of why i ve just thought for awhile that i don t which i probably donti m sure i m exaggeratingbut i don t really get to a point where i feel sleepy and then when i do go to sleep i sleep for hour and even if i do set alarm i wake upbut i m just not motivated enough to actually get up so i usually just fall back asleepbut i just haven t told anyone up until now especially not irl until now but even this ha taken some courage to admit even to myselfbut i probably didn t say everything a im just kind of piecing stuff together in no specific order or anything and just ramblind onbut i m sorry this ha been long thank you for reading and have a nice day or night i did forget to mention some stuff i don t really have suicidal thought i mean i ve thought of suicide but never actually thought about doing itand i have been thinking about talking to a friend that i believe ha had depression in the pastbut i don t know if they still doso i don t really want to put that weight on their shoulder a well and also i haven t been eating a much probably not because of depression if i even have it which i m sure i don t at this point and also my hygiene i haven t been taking care of my hygiene the besti kind of stopped brushing my teeth forawhilei hate to admit it but my teeth are pretty yellowedand i haven t really been taking care of thing such a acne a well
He sentido como esto por un poco pero nunca super realizado hasta que miré en una depresión a he pensado más y más recientemente que podría tener depresión he estado viendo youtube y mostrar recientemente no hacer nada me gusta recientemente no he tenido ninguna buena motivación para levantarme y hacer cosas como jugar al videojuego aunque quiero no puedo llegar a haber estado fallando en la escuela no puedo motivarme para sentarme e incluso hacer eso que realmente necesito hacer y me siento mal por ello también ya que no he hecho realmente nada y mi mamá me ha puesto el cuello para ayudarme siempre he tenido buena nota hasta la primavera del año pasado creo que siempre estoy feliz cuando hago cosas alrededor de la gentebasiicamente pero no siempre siento que de esa manera me he sentido mal y un poco triste quiero llegar a la gente pero no tengo el valor de hacerlo incluso si se trata de un pariente o un amigo cercano no quiero que alguien se sienta triste porque estoy y estoy tratando de mantener a otras personas que yo mismo me han preguntado a veces si estoy bien pero siempre responderé con alguien que estoy triste porque estoy y estoy tratando de mantener a la gente que me han satisfecho