hello guy first time posting here i hope everyone is doing alright at this time i just found out my friend ha committed suicide a year ago first let me give some background my friend is such a gentle loving soul and very devoted to his religion jehovah s witness he is not the most social person around bit awkward and also had plenty of issue in the past mentally due to a rough upbringing we were good friend he d always give me encouragement and just be there for me for anything i wa cut off from the religion due to myself realizing and developing my own belief i don t have a grudge towards the religion or anything like that despite being cut off and not being able to socialize with anyone from that religion cu it s the rule also i felt awkward and embarrassed that i am cut off therefore i did not have the courage to face my friend a year passed i m on a skiing trip with my brother i asked how my friend is doing since he sometimes still go to their church so i figured he d know something he told me he passed away a year so from suicide i am shocked from the news i can t seem to comprehend or accept the fact he seemed to be very devoted to his faith and committing suicide is one of the thing that are forbidden also i feel like trash for being a horrible friend and not even checking in on him at all or at least tried to due to my insecurity my mind ha been in shamble i don t know how to make amends i don t know if i can see the parent they d just be like so now you care where were you thr whole time etc etc i wa hoping to visit his grave but he wa cremated and ash were spread somewhere now all i can think of is his obit picture smiling but i can see there s so much hurt inside that broken smile
hello guy first time posting here i hope everyone is doing alright at this time i just found out my friend ha committed suicide a year ago first let me give some background my friend is such a gentle loving soul and very devoted to his religion jehovah s witness he is not the most social person around bit awkward and also had plenty of issue in the past mentally due to a rough upbringing we were good friend he d always give me encouragement and just be there for me for anything i wa cut off from the religion due to myself realizing and developing my own belief i don t have a grudge towards the religion or anything like that despite being cut off and not being able to socialize with anyone from that religioncu it s the rule also i felt awkward and embarrassed that i am cut off therefore i did not have the courage to face my friend a year passed i m on a skiing trip with my brother i asked how my friend is doing since he sometimes still go to their church so i figured he d know something he told me he passed away a year so from suicide i am shocked from the news i can t seem to comprehend or accept the fact he seemed to be very devoted to his faith and committing suicide is one of the thing that are forbidden also i feel like trash for being a horrible friend and not even checking in on him at all or at least tried to due to my insecurity my mind ha been in shamblei don t know how to make amendsi don t know if i can see the parentthey d just be like so now you care where were you thr whole time etcetc i wa hoping to visit his grave but he wa cremated and ash were spread somewhere now all i can think of is his obit picture smiling but i can see there s so much hurt inside that broken smile
Hola chico primera vez publicando aquí espero que todo el mundo está haciendo bien en este momento me acabo de enterar mi amigo ha suicidarse hace un año primero permítanme dar algunos antecedentes mi amigo es un alma amorosa tan gentil y muy devoto a su religión jehovah s testigo él no es la persona más social alrededor poco incómodo y también tenía un montón de problemas en el pasado mentalmente debido a una educación áspera fuimos buenos amigos él siempre me dio ánimo y sólo estar allí para mí para cualquier cosa que yo wa cortado de la religión debido a mí mismo realizar y desarrollar mi propia creencia no tengo un rencor hacia la religión o cualquier cosa como que a pesar de ser cortado y no ser capaz de socializar con nadie de esa religión cu es la regla también me sentí incómodo y avergonzado de que estoy cortado por lo tanto no tuve el valor de enfrentarme a mi amigo un año pasado en un viaje de esquí con mi hermano me pregunté cómo mi amigo está haciendo ya que a veces todavía va a su iglesia