i m fucked up badly with my 9f ex girlfriend and now i m so guilty of how i handled thing i m punishing myself mentally and physically i ve lost nearly 0lbs from not eating and going the gym so now i m around lb at i don t leave the house unless i have to and i just exist in my room everytime i smile or laugh i stop instantly because i don t feel like i deserve to feel happiness anymore i think i ve had a mental breakdown because i m so guilty all the time and i can t seem to forgive myself because it doesn t even feel real that i d decide to make the choice i made i don t even know who i am anymore if i can be so deeply confused at choice i ve made in hindsight imagine knowing deep in your heart you ve met the love of your life and you ve thrown it all away because you can t handle a simple issue
i m fucked up badly with my 9f ex girlfriendand now i m so guilty of how i handled thing i m punishing myself mentally and physically i ve lost nearly 0lbs from not eating and going the gym so now i m around lb at idon t leave the house unless i have to and i just exist in my room everytime i smile or laugh i stop instantly because i don t feel like i deserve to feel happinessanymore i think i ve had a mental breakdown because i m so guilty all the timeand i can t seem to forgive myself because it doesn t even feel real that i d decide to make the choice i made i don t even know who i am anymore if i can be so deeply confused at choice i ve made in hindsight imagine knowing deep in your heart you ve met the love of your life and you ve thrown it all away because you can t handle a simple issue
Estoy jodido con mi ex novia 9f y ahora soy tan culpable de cómo manejé la cosa me estoy castigando mental y físicamente he perdido casi 0lbs de no comer y de ir al gimnasio así que ahora estoy alrededor de lb en idn no salir de la casa a menos que tenga que y yo sólo existo en mi habitación cada vez que sonrío o me río me detengo instantáneamente porque no siento que me merezco sentir felicidad nunca más creo que he tenido una crisis mental porque soy tan culpable todo el tiempo y no puedo parecer perdonarme a mí mismo porque ni siquiera se siente real que me decido a hacer la elección que hice ni siquiera sé quién soy más si puedo estar tan profundamente confundido en la elección que he hecho en retrospectiva imagina saber en el fondo de tu corazón que has encontrado el amor de tu vida y lo has tirado todo porque no puedes manejar un simple problema