for reference i am f graduating college in may i grew up in a really shitty town and i worked really hard in school to guarantee i could get into my dream college and move to a city where i thought i would find more likeminded people college sincerely sucked i had terrible friend now don t really have friend don t really like my major scared that i only have qualification for a job i won t like and not to mention half of college wa online because of covid i am so terrified of applying for job and figuring out what i want to do with my life this wa literally my biggest fear going into school wa that i would waste year on a degree i don t love and don t know what i want to do i feel like applying to job is also accepting that i am no longer a student which ha been a huge part of my identity for what year i also think having college be a huge disappointment make me really nervous for everything else like the narrative that high school and college are supposed to be the best year of your life is pushed so much and both really weren t great i ve also heard it really hard to make friend outside of school which scare me a lot i feel like i have a few friend that i talk to occasionally but i don t think of them a my best friend or that i am overly close with them i think i am a nice and interesting person who care about others a lot and i don t understand why i have had such a long history of really horrible friend who never really cared about me literally had my best friend in high school pick the guy who sexually assaulted me over me i just am so scared that life won t get better it seems so easy for other people and i don t understand why figuring out life ha been so difficult for me
for reference i am f graduating college in may i grew up in a really shitty town and i worked really hard in school to guarantee i could get into my dream college and move to a city where i thought i would find more likeminded people college sincerely sucked i had terrible friend now don t really have friend don t really like my major scared that i only have qualification for a job i won t like and not to mention half of college wa online because of covid i am so terrified of applying for job and figuring out what i want to do with my life this wa literally my biggest fear going into school wa that i would waste year on a degree i don t love anddon t know what i want to do i feel like applying to job is also accepting that i am no longer a student which ha been a huge part of my identity for what year i also think having college be a huge disappointment make me really nervous for everything else like the narrative that high school and college are supposed to be the best year of your life is pushed so much and both really weren t greati ve also heard it really hard to make friend outside of school which scare me a lot i feel like i have a few friend that i talk to occasionally but i don t think of them a my best friend or that i am overly close with them i think i am a nice and interesting person who care about others a lotand i don t understand why i have had such a long history of really horrible friend who never really cared about me literally had my best friend in high school pick the guy who sexually assaulted me over me i just am so scared that life won t get better it seems so easy for other peopleand i don t understand why figuring out life ha been so difficult for me
Como referencia estoy graduando universidad en mayo me crié en una ciudad realmente de mierda y trabajé muy duro en la escuela para garantizar que podría entrar en mi universidad de sueño y mudarme a una ciudad donde pensé que encontraría gente más parecida universidad sinceramente chupada tenía un amigo terrible ahora realmente no tengo amigo no realmente me gusta mi mayor miedo que sólo tengo la calificación para un trabajo que no quiero y no mencionar la mitad de la universidad en línea porque covid estoy tan aterrorizado de solicitar trabajo y averiguar lo que quiero hacer con mi vida este wa literalmente mi mayor miedo ir a la escuela wa que perdería el año en un grado que no amo y no sé lo que quiero hacer me siento como aplicar al trabajo es también aceptar que ya no soy un estudiante que ha sido una gran parte de mi identidad durante el año que también creo que tener universidad ser una gran decepción me hace muy nervioso por todo lo demás como la narrativa que la escuela secundaria y la universidad se supone que ser el mejor año de tu vida se empuja mucho y ambos realmente no han oído realmente ser un amigo muy difícil de hacer fuera de la escuela que me asustan mucho me siento que tengo un amigo que tengo que hablar de vez