no clue where to put this so it s going here a while back i wa asked what caused you to start drinking so heavily my default respond to that ha always been it s just how i am which for the most part is correct deep down i think i always knew the real answer now i am finally realizing it s truth it s love a little more context i have been sober for over year now and to be honest recently it ha really been tested and i ve come closer than i ever have to relapsing it is worth mentioning i m not the type of person to actively seek a romantic relationship i have had a few very brief fling over the year but nothing i would consider serious and for the most part i have been okay with it but now i have actually caught real feeling for someone and i am falling hard so hard it s really scaring me it s causing me to want to hide from the feeling a i used too by drinking after year of counseling i wa given better tool to help process certain feeling that could lead to me drinking which i do believe they have helped me recently because i actually did something i didn t think i wa capable of i told her how i felt too my surprise she actually didn t tell me no but she didn t exactly say yes either which is why i am feeling the way i am now i believe now i feel like i m on a rollercoaster of high and low i see her and talk to her daily a we do work together however some day she seems so distant and shut off others it seems to me she s overly flirty we have gone out once it didn t really go a planned but it wa still nice now to the stuff that is really eating at me she had just gotten out of a relationship a while back i know it didn t end well and when i told her how i felt she said she still wa trying to get over her ex and she wa confused which is understandable and i want to give her time and space but at the same time i don t want to miss my chance especially because i have not felt this way about anyone for over 0 year to make thing worse her ex is also a coworker in our department and i have seen them leaving together after work multiple time a week which to be fair is really her business but if she really would rather be with him why don t she tell me that s what s killing me i feel like she is using me a a fallback or a second choice i really hope it s not the case i do not think i could handle it i just wish i knew for sure how she felt i can handle being rejected it the limbo i feel like i m in i can t handle and honestly i don t know what to do about it i m so scared i m going to slip one day and have a drink if that happens i know i won t recover from it and i ll loose everything i worked so hard to achieve there s more detail if anyone ha any question if anyone can tell me what i should do please feel free anything is better than how i feel now
no clue where to put this so it s going here a while back i wa asked what caused you to start drinking so heavily my default respond to that ha always been it sjust how i am which for the most part is correct deep downi think i always knew the real answer now i am finally realizing it s truthit s love a little more context i have been sober for over year now and to be honest recently it ha really been tested and i ve come closer than i ever have to relapsing it is worth mentioning i m not the type of person to actively seek a romantic relationship i have had a few very brief fling over the year but nothing i would consider serious and for the most part i have been okay with itbut now i have actually caught real feeling for someone and i am falling hard so hard it s really scaring meit s causing me to want to hide from the feeling a i used too by drinking after year of counseling i wa given better tool to help process certain feeling that could lead to me drinking which i do believe they have helped me recently because i actually did somethingi didn t think i wa capable of i told her how i felt too my surpriseshe actually didn t tell me no but she didn t exactly say yes either which is why i am feeling the way i am now i believe now i feel like i m on a rollercoaster of high and lowi see her and talk to her daily a we do work together however some day she seems so distant and shut off others it seems to meshe s overly flirty we have gone out once itdidnt really go a plannedbut it wa still nice now to the stuff that is really eating at me she had just gotten out of a relationship a while back i know itdidnt endwell and when i told her how i felt she said she still wa trying to get over her exand she wa confused which is understandableand i want to give her time and space but at the same time i don t want to miss my chance especially because i have not felt this way about anyone for over 0 year to make thing worse her ex is also a coworker in our departmentand i have seen them leaving together after work multiple time a week which to be fair is really her businessbut if she really would rather be with him why don t she tell me that s what s killing me i feel like she is using me a a fallback or a second choice i really hope it s not the case i do not think i could handle it i just wish i knew for sure how she felt i can handle being rejected it the limbo i feel like i mini can t handle and honestly i dont know what to do about iti m so scared i m going to slip one day and have a drink if that happens i knowi won t recover from itand i ll loose everything i worked so hard to achieve there s more detail if anyone ha any question if anyone can tell me what i should do please feel free anything is better than how i feel now
No hay idea de dónde poner esto así que va aquí un tiempo atrás me pregunto lo que causó que empezara a beber tan fuertemente mi respuesta por defecto a que siempre ha sido justo cómo soy que para la mayoría de la parte es correcto profundamente creo que siempre supe la respuesta real ahora estoy finalmente dándose cuenta de que s verdad s amor un poco más contexto he estado sobrio desde hace más de un año y para ser honesto recientemente realmente ha sido probado y he estado más cerca de lo que nunca he tenido que volver a caer vale la pena mencionar que no soy el tipo de persona para buscar activamente una relación romántica he tenido unas pocas fugas muy breves a lo largo del año pero nada que yo consideraría serio y por la mayor parte he estado bien con él pero ahora realmente he cogido un sentimiento real para alguien y estoy cayendo tan duro que me está asustando realmente me está haciendo querer ocultar de la sensación de que yo también he usado para beber después de año de aconsejar me ha dado una mejor herramienta para ayudar a procesar cierto sentimiento que podría conducirme a beber que creo que me han ayudado recientemente porque he hecho algo que pensaba que yo era capaz de decirle cómo me he sentido mi sorpresa realmente no me ha dicho