i guess i just need to vent too i m a timid and shy person with social anxiety i m afraid of what people think of me i m afraid of being judged negatively i m afraid of being rejected im afraid of taking my mask off in class in fear of catfishing today i didn t have my mask on for a split second and went to the bathroom to throw something away i see classmate and i immediately froze and walked out before they could even say hi they probably think i hate them now i couldn t even think it s like my body moved itself i did take my mask off without thinking once and the lady complimented me on how pretty i wa i wa so shocked i know i m not ugly and that beauty is in the eye of the beholder but i still can t help but feel ugly i m afraid of speaking up and asking question i cant make eye contact with people bc i m scared i might see disgust in their eye i m scared of applying for certain job bc i m afraid i won t be able to do it so i settle for the easiest and worst retail job im afraid for my career in design bc i feel like i won t be able to sell myself to people im afraid of talking to people bc i ll stumble over my word i m afraid of falling in love for fear of being left and if i do fall in love it ll turn into obsession and infatuation from fear of them leaving cheating growing up i ve had to deal with domestic abuse violence when it came to my parent my father wa quite the bully always saying i couldn t do anything hell that man ha never said a nice thing in his life in middle school i ve dealt with rejection and it wa quite painful and other teen asking me out a a joke i spent the rest of highschool in online school so i never really got to experience that vital part of life i ve been in therapy for year on and off but it just didn t work for me talking about my shitfuck dad all day doesnt help with my fear how can i stop this fear that ha taken over my life
i guess i just need to vent too i m a timid and shy person with social anxiety i m afraid of what people think of mei m afraid of being judged negatively i m afraid of being rejected im afraid of taking my mask off in class in fear of catfishing todayi didn t have my mask on for a split second and went to the bathroom to throw something away i see classmateand i immediately froze and walked out before they could even say hi they probably think i hate them now i couldn t even think it s like my body moved itself i did take my mask off without thinking once and the lady complimented me on how prettyiwa i wa so shockedi know i m not ugly and that beauty is in the eye of the beholderbut i still can t help but feel ugly i m afraid of speaking up and asking question i cant make eye contact with people bci m scared i might see disgust in their eye i m scared of applying for certain jobbc i m afraid i won t be able to do it so i settle for the easiest and worst retail job im afraid for my career in design bc i feel like i won t be able to sell myself to people im afraid of talking to people bc i ll stumble over my word i m afraid of falling in love for fear of being left and if i do fall in love it ll turn into obsession and infatuation from fear of them leaving cheating growing up i ve had to deal with domestic abuse violence when it came to my parent my father wa quite the bully always saying i couldn t do anything hell that man ha never said a nice thing in his life in middle school i ve dealt with rejection and it wa quite painful and other teen asking me out a a joke i spent the rest of highschool in online schoolso i never really got to experience that vital part of life i ve been in therapy for year on and off but it just didn t work for me talking about my shitfuck dad all day doesnt help with my fear how can i stop this fear that ha taken over my life
Supongo que sólo necesito ventilar también soy una persona tímida y tímida con ansiedad social me temo de lo que la gente piensa de mei m miedo de ser juzgado negativamente me temo de ser rechazado mi miedo de quitarse mi máscara en clase en el miedo de catfishing hoy no tenía mi máscara encendido por una fracción de segundo y fui al baño para tirar algo lejos veo classmate e inmediatamente me congelé y me fui antes de que pudieran incluso decir hola creo que probablemente los odio ahora ni siquiera podría pensar que es como mi cuerpo se movió a sí mismo me tomé mi máscara sin pensar una vez y la señora me felicitó por lo bonito que yo wa tan sorprendido sé que no soy feo y que la belleza está en el ojo del beholder pero todavía puedo ayudar pero me siento fea me temo que hablar y hacer pregunta no puedo hacer contacto visual con la gente bci m miedo podría ver disgusto en sus ojos me da miedo tener que aplicar para cierto trabajobc i m miedo de ser capaz de hacerlo así que me callo para el trabajo más fácil y peor minorista im miedo para mi carrera en el diseño imc i se siente capaz de vender a la gente a mí mismo con miedo