i m so tired everything is rough right now i m getting sick of it and i want out it seems thing go wrong at every turn lately for example my family went on a big march break trip one week on a resort wa gon na be awesome to top it off i wa turning sixteen that week and guess what happens i get norovirus for day and then the flu for the rest of it i missed half of the trip how fucking incredible back home now and thing are more stressful than when i left the ceiling of my parent restaurant caved in from prolonged water damage which our landlord wouldn t fix and we ve been closed for a month now with repair only starting recently i have been unable to work this whole time which is lovely considering i am paying of an expensive computer feel selfish to complain considering the scale of issue that my parent are facing but still fucking suck i can barely get myself out of bed in the morning now and i ve missed lot of school a a result of course my grade have fallen i ve got missing assignment littered about and it suck cause not long ago i wa a 90 and up student i just want to be dead i m not brave enough to do anything though so i guess i ll sit and suffer i wa hoping i d have turned all this around by it s been year that this ha been going on now and i am so disappointed in myself for it i know i could do better than this i know i have the capability if i could just have enough energy and will to get the fuck out of bed every morning all would be perfect if i could look at myself in the mirror without wanting to claw my face off all would be perfect but none of this is gon na happen because i don t have the drive to bother with any of it nobody know either i don t think anybody ha the slightest clue and if they have an idea they don t know the depth of it i m not gon na tell them i ll probably have died already by the time i have the courage to say anything oh well i certainly won t tell my parent i don t even know how we are still afloat financially with everything that s happening but we are barely and i m not gon na add stress to them
i m so tired everything is rough right now i m getting sick of itand i want out it seems thing go wrong at every turn lately for example my family went on a big march break trip one week on a resort wa gon na be awesome to top it off i wa turning sixteen that week and guess what happens i get norovirus for day and then the flu for the rest of it i missed half of the trip how fucking incredible back home now and thing are more stressful than when i left the ceiling of my parent restaurant caved in from prolonged water damage which our landlord wouldn t fixand we ve been closed for a month now with repair only starting recently i have been unable to work this whole time which is lovely considering i am paying of an expensive computer feel selfish to complain considering the scale of issue that my parent are facing but still fucking suck i can barely get myself out of bed in the morning nowand i ve missed lot of school a a result of course my grade have fallen i ve got missing assignment littered about and it suck cause not long ago i wa a 90 and up student i just want to be dead i m not brave enough to do anything though so i guess i ll sit and suffer i wa hoping i d have turned all this around by it s been year that this ha been going on nowand i am so disappointed in myself for iti know i could do better than thisi know i have the capability if i could just have enough energy and will to get the fuck out of bed every morning all would be perfect if i could look at myself in the mirror without wanting to claw my face off all would be perfect but none of this is gon na happen because i don t have the drive to bother with any of it nobody know either i don t think anybody ha the slightest clue and if they have an idea they don t know the depth of it i m not gon na tell them i ll probably have died already by the time i have the courage to say anythingoh well i certainly won t tell my parenti don t even know how we are still afloat financially with everything that s happeningbut we are barely and i m not gon na add stress to them
I m tan cansado todo es duro en este momento me estoy cansando de ella y quiero fuera parece que la cosa va mal en cada vuelta últimamente por ejemplo mi familia fue en un gran viaje de marcha de descanso una semana en un resort wa gon na ser impresionante para superarlo i wa cumplir dieciséis esa semana y adivina lo que pasa me norovirus para el día y luego la gripe para el resto de él me perdí la mitad del viaje cómo mierda increíble volver a casa ahora y cosa son más estresantes que cuando dejé el techo de mi restaurante padre se cagó en el daño de agua prolongada que nuestro propietario no arreglaría y hemos estado cerrados por un mes ahora con reparación sólo empezando recientemente he sido incapaz de trabajar todo este tiempo que es encantador teniendo en cuenta que estoy pagando de una computadora cara me siento egoísta a quejarse teniendo en cuenta la escala de problema que mi padre están enfrentando pero todavía chupando apenas puedo salir de la cama en la mañana ahora y he perdido mucho de la escuela un resultado de curso me han caído me he perdido la asignación y he chupado causa no hace mucho tiempo wa a 90 y up student i just want i m goar toofish to whovery