edit i realize maybe i write too much you don t need to read it to answer the question in a way i needed to vent also thats what a lot of this is but i can only put one flair i have heavy anxiety social and general i think it s called not sure i avoid going anywhere a much a i can i get very anxious around new people and absolutely hate it and then i also have anxiety about my health what if i am doing something wrong etc i had medication once that i would take if i had a panic attack but i don t have any more it wa a one time prescription after a visit to emergency care depression also cloud my life my anxiety make me depressed issue about my identity make me depressed and overall it s just awful everything feel so awful and it s hard to feel happy about anything even though where i am right now i asked to be i wa seperated from my bf cause of family moving stuff and i am with him again after month of being alone at my family place for month i wa looking forward to being here but i can t even be happy about it because my anxiety mainly it is because of work i have never had a job before and i am gon na start soon at a fast food place yeah i know amazing for someone like me i hate meeting new people everyday i am scared i wont be able to learn quick enough or retain information i really don t look forward to having to interact with people i am scared to be treated like an outcast i m trans and at the interview i let the interviewer call me she which i am not but it wa like whiplash is that the right word and i couldn t say anything now i have to correct him when i call back because i wa told to call back but i am scared because it feel like correcting someone on pronoun make a big deal i don t want it to be a big deal but some people take it so personally it s not something i want brought up all the time honestly i don t want to be a push over but i also don t want to be seen a too defensive another thing i am anxious about is my trip to work i will have to take public transport and i have huge fear of something bad happening to me that i can t relax when going anywhere and i am scared of being asked to come in on many day off and i don t like to say no but i also don t want to be asked to fill any shift whenever they want i said i am willing but honestly only day extra a week i am not doing day work no break thats awful i am scared i wont be able to make the decision i want and fall to pressure sorry if it s a lot to read and maybe i get off topic sometimes my mind is a mess i just want to know how some of you cope that work in job with a lot of customer interaction and people around i feel like i wont make it like i will screw up big time or have a panic attack and i will just walk out because i can t keep my anxiety under control i want to get help but i really have no money i want to find a better job but i have no experience in anything and everything that you don t need experience for is customer oriented or requires heavy lifting and i don t have the time either having to get a job asap because my bf is paying for our accommodation right now and i need to help out so i need to do this but i feel like it s gon na take a toll on me and i don t know what to do
edit i realize maybe i write too much you don t need to read it to answer the question in a way i needed to vent also thats what a lot of this isbut i can only put one flair i have heavy anxiety social and general i think it s called not sure i avoid going anywhere a much ai can i get very anxious around new people and absolutely hate itand then i also have anxiety about my health what if i am doing something wrongetci had medication once that i would take if i had a panic attackbut i don t have any more it wa a one time prescription after a visit to emergency care depression also cloud my life my anxiety make me depressed issue about my identity make me depressed and overall it s just awful everything feel so awfuland it s hard to feel happy about anything even though where i am right now i asked to be i wa seperated from my bf cause of family moving stuffand i am with him again after month of being alone at my family place for month i wa looking forward to being herebut i can t even be happy about it because my anxiety mainly it is because of work i have never had a job beforeand i am gon na start soon at a fast food placeyeah i know amazing for someone like me i hate meeting new people everyday i am scared i wont be able to learn quick enough or retain information i really don t look forward to having to interact with people i am scared to be treated like an outcast i m trans and at the interview i let the interviewer call me she which i am notbut it wa like whiplash is that the right word and i couldn t say anything now i have to correct him when i call back because i wa told to call backbut i am scared because it feel like correcting someone on pronoun make a big deali don t want it to be a big deal but some people take it so personally it s not something i want brought up all the timehonestly i don t want to be a push overbut i also don t want to be seen a too defensive another thing i am anxious about is my trip to work i will have to take public transport and i have huge fear of something bad happening to me that i can t relax when going anywhereand i am scared of being asked to come in on many day offand i don t like to say no but i also don t want to be asked to fill any shift whenever they want i said i am willing but honestly only day extra a week i am not doing day work no break thats awful i am scared i wont be able to make the decision i want and fall to pressure sorry if it s a lot to readand maybe i get off topic sometimes my mind is a mess i just want to know how some of you cope that work in job with a lot of customer interaction and people around i feel like i wont make it like i will screw up big time or have a panic attack and i will just walk out because i can t keep my anxiety under control i want to get helpbut i really have no money i want to find a better jobbut i have no experience in anything and everything that you don t need experience for is customer oriented or requires heavy liftingand i don t have the time either having to get a job asap because my bf is paying for our accommodation right nowand i need to help out so i need to do thisbut i feel like it s gon na take a toll on meand i don t know what to do
edit me doy cuenta de que tal vez escribo demasiado que no necesita leer para responder a la pregunta de una manera que necesitaba ventilar también que es lo que mucho de esto es pero sólo puedo poner un toque tengo ansiedad pesada social y general creo que se llama no estoy seguro de evitar ir a cualquier lugar mucho ai puede me pongo muy ansioso alrededor de la gente nueva y absolutamente lo odio y luego también tengo ansiedad sobre mi salud lo que si estoy haciendo algo maletci tenía medicación una vez que me tomaría si tuviera un ataque de pánico pero no tengo más una receta de una sola vez después de una visita a atención de emergencia depresión también nubla mi vida mi ansiedad me hacen problema deprimido sobre mi identidad me deprime y en general es horrible todo se siente tan horrible y es difícil sentirse feliz sobre cualquier cosa aunque donde estoy justo ahora le pedí ser i wa sepated de mi causa de familia cosas en movimiento y estoy con él otra vez después de mes de estar solo en mi lugar familiar para mes voy mirando hacia adelante a estar aquí pero puedo incluso ser feliz porque mi ansiedad principalmente es porque de trabajo nunca he tenido un lugar y voy a comer muy pronto