i realized the only reason i haven t killed myself is i don t want to be a burden on my brother and cause him and harm idk realizing that made me freak the fuck out the idea that i haven t lived my life for myself for year is making me have the urge again for some reason and it s scaring me the only thing that give me comfort is planning a day to end it so i don t end it now i really don t want to be here anymore i feel like people only want me around when it s convenient for them or when i can help them i am a last resort for everyone because i have no need at all i fucking hate myself and the only people who care about me are the people who have to this is stupid but it wa cathartic to write lmao
i realized the only reason i haven t killed myself isi don t want to be a burden on my brother and cause him and harm idk realizing that made me freak the fuck out the idea that i haven t lived my life for myself for year is making me have the urge again for some reason and it s scaring me the only thing that give me comfort is planning a day to end itso i don t end it now i really don t want to be hereanymore i feel like people only want me around when it s convenient for them or when i can help them i am a last resort for everyone because i have no need at all i fucking hate myself and the only people who care about me are the people who have to this is stupid but it wa cathartic to write lmao
Me di cuenta de que la única razón por la que no me he suicidado es que no quiero ser una carga para mi hermano y causarle daño Idk darse cuenta de que me hizo enloquecer la puta idea de que no he vivido mi vida por mí mismo durante el año me está haciendo tener el impulso de nuevo por alguna razón y me está asustando lo único que me da consuelo es planear un día para acabar con Iso Idno no terminar ahora realmente no quiero estar aquí ya que siento que la gente sólo me quiere alrededor cuando es conveniente para ellos o cuando puedo ayudarles soy un último recurso para todos porque no tengo ninguna necesidad en absoluto me odio a mí mismo y la única gente que se preocupa por mí son las personas que tienen que esto es estúpido, pero wa catártico escribir lmao