for the past week or so i ve been what i can best describe a lonely maybe even despondent i ve been trying to find way to keep myself from having that hole in my chest form again but it keep happening it s so familiar and safe yet it seems to make me feel like i ll forever be alone and dead every memory of my childhood ha been flooding my brain i want it to stop i hate reliving those memory my body feel like it s caked in slime no matter how many time i shower and try to scrub away the feeling of hand on me i can t get them off me i just want them to stop touching me i don t know why i m feeling this way either i saw my friend i ve actually been trying to take care of myself but this feeling keep coming back and pulling down to a bottomless pit of hell i really want to feel better again not like this
for the past week or so i ve been what i can best describe a lonely maybe even despondent i ve been trying to find way to keep myself from having that hole in my chest form again but it keep happening it s so familiar and safe yet it seems to make me feel like i ll forever be alone and dead every memory of my childhood ha been flooding my brain i want it to stop i hate reliving those memory my body feel like it s caked in slime no matter how many time i shower and try to scrub away the feeling of hand on me i can t get them off mei just want them to stop touching mei don t know why i m feeling this way either i saw my friend i ve actually been trying to take care of myself but this feeling keep coming back and pulling down to a bottomless pit of hell i really want to feel better again not like this
Durante la semana pasada o así que he sido lo que mejor puedo describir un solitario tal vez incluso desanimado he estado tratando de encontrar la manera de mantenerme de tener ese agujero en mi forma de pecho de nuevo, pero sigue sucediendo es tan familiar y seguro sin embargo, parece que me hace sentir como siempre estaré sola y muerta cada recuerdo de mi infancia ha estado inundando mi cerebro quiero que deje de odiar revivir esos recuerdos mi cuerpo se siente como si estuviera empañada en lodo no importa cuántas veces me duche e intente limpiar la sensación de mano en mí no puedo sacarlos de mí sólo quiero que dejen de tocarme no sé por qué me siento de esta manera o vi a mi amigo que he estado tratando de cuidar de mí mismo pero este sentimiento sigue volviendo y tirando hacia abajo a un pozo sin fondo del infierno realmente quiero sentirme mejor de nuevo no como esto