i m struggled with suicidal thought for the best part of year majority of my life i ve spent fighting myself thing that happened in my childhood have such a deep and agressive hold on my self esteem no matter what i do i don t feel confident in myself i can t even drink a coffee without getting into a fit of anxiety it s never been this lucid to the point i m planning exactly how i want to do it don t want to reach out to anyone because i ve pretended to be fine for so long couldn t imagine what it would to my mom but can t see myself ever getting better enough to enjoy my life absolutely lost
i m struggled with suicidal thought for the best part of year majority of my life i ve spent fighting myself thing that happened in my childhood have such a deep and agressive hold on my self esteem no matter what i do i don t feel confident in myselfi can t even drink a coffee without getting into a fit of anxiety it s never been this lucid to the point i m planning exactly how i want to do it don t want to reach out to anyone because i ve pretended to be fine for so long couldn t imagine what it would to my mom but can t see myself ever getting better enough to enjoy my life absolutely lost
Me he luchado con el pensamiento suicida para la mejor parte del año la mayoría de mi vida he pasado luchando contra mí mismo cosa que sucedió en mi infancia tienen un aferramiento tan profundo y agresivo en mi autoestima no importa lo que hago no me siento confiado en mí mismo no puedo ni siquiera beber un café sin entrar en un ataque de ansiedad nunca ha sido tan lúcido hasta el punto que estoy planeando exactamente cómo quiero hacerlo no quiero llegar a nadie porque he fingido estar bien durante tanto tiempo no podía imaginar lo que sería a mi mamá pero no puedo verme cada vez mejor lo suficiente para disfrutar de mi vida absolutamente perdido