they said if i got off my lazy as and got a job my depression would go away i d finally have a reason to live that i would be more confident and happy and now that i have a perfectly pleasant job with good pay i feel miserable i think about tomorrow with the utmost dread even tho i know tomorrow won t be so bad the worst thing that can happen is i ll embarrass myself or say something awkward but when i think about going to work tomorrow the next immediate thought is well honestly i d rather just not be alive everyone told me once i got a job and stopped being a disappointment i d be happy but now i might have some money and can pay some bill but that s it i don t feel more confident or fulfilled i feel lonelier than ever because if i tell anyone i d rather die than go to work i ll come off a spoiled and entitled instead of someone whose brain is always stuck in the flight response
they said if i got off my lazy as and got a job my depression would go away i d finally have a reason to live that i would be more confident and happy and now that i have a perfectly pleasant job with good pay i feel miserable i think about tomorrow with the utmost dread even tho i know tomorrow won t be so bad the worst thing that can happen is i ll embarrass myself or say something awkward but when i think about going to work tomorrow the next immediate thought is well honestlyi d rather just not be alive everyone told me once i got a job and stopped being a disappointment i d be happy but now i might have some money and can pay some bill but that s iti don t feel more confident or fulfilled i feel lonelier than ever because if i tell anyone i d rather die than go to work i ll come off a spoiled and entitled instead of someone whose brain is always stuck in the flight response
Me dijeron que si me bajaba de mi perezosa como y conseguí un trabajo mi depresión se iría finalmente tengo una razón para vivir que sería más seguro y feliz y ahora que tengo un trabajo perfectamente agradable con buena paga me siento miserable pienso en mañana con el mayor temor incluso yo sé que mañana no será tan malo lo peor que puede suceder es que me avergüence a mí mismo o decir algo incómodo pero cuando pienso en ir a trabajar mañana el próximo pensamiento inmediato es bien honestamente mejor no estar vivo todo el mundo me dijo una vez que conseguí un trabajo y dejó de ser una decepción yo soy feliz pero ahora podría tener un poco de dinero y puede pagar alguna factura pero que s iti no se siente más confiado o satisfecho me siento más solitario que nunca porque si le digo a alguien que ♪ mejor morir que ir a trabajar voy a salir de un mimado y derecho en lugar de alguien cuyo cerebro está siempre atascado en la respuesta del vuelo