i did bad on an important test i thought i would do well in i thought wa my best subject i thought i studied well there s more important test on those subject soon if i think i m doing badly on those subject already then the test probably will go worse i feel bad for disappointing everyone i feel bad that i m complaining so much but i want to die so bad it doesn t feel like there s anything else for me if i do bad in school a family friend is doing an art related course they seem to be having fun i like doing art but i m nowhere a good a her or good enough to do a similar course a school friend is doing well in school we share many of the same subject we share the same high expectation but i can t reach them she complains about mark way higher than mine i m resentful but really i m just envious i don t even know what i want to do in the future why should i put in effort for a life i don t want do i want it i think i want it i don t think i have any actual appreciation for the academia just that i want to fulfill the thing i ve always been told to it s dumb and i should just accept my actual ability it s all my fault in the end that i should ve done this or that but i don t want to try anymore i m so tired of trying and failing and then giving up and then doing it all again for whatever reason the enjoyable moment in life don t feel worth it at all or maybe i m just too stuck up to appreciate them enough either way i want to give up i m sorry i m so childish so self centred i m sorry i m wasting everyone s time and money and effort i wonder how much longer i will continue to do so i m sorry that my problem aren t really big enough to be upset over it all feel too pointless
i did bad on an important test i thought i would do well in i thought wa my best subject i thought i studied well there s more important test on those subject soon if i think i m doing badly on those subject already then the test probably will go worse i feel bad for disappointing everyone i feel bad that i m complaining so muchbut i want to die so badit doesn t feel like there s anything else for me if i do bad in school a family friend is doing an art related course they seem to be having fun i like doing artbut i m nowhere a good a her or good enough to do a similar course a school friend is doing well in school we share many of the same subject we share the same high expectationbut i can t reach them she complains about mark way higher than mine i m resentfulbut really i m just enviousi don t even know what i want to do in the future why should i put in effort for a life i don t want do i want iti think i want iti don t think i have any actual appreciation for the academia just that i want to fulfill the thing i ve always been told to it s dumband i should just accept my actual ability it s all my fault in the end that i should ve done this or that but i don t want to try anymorei m so tired of trying and failing and then giving up and then doing it all again for whatever reason the enjoyable moment in life don t feel worth it at all or maybe i m just too stuck up to appreciate them enough either way i want to give up i msorryi m so childish so self centredi msorryi m wasting everyone s time and money and effort i wonder how much longer i will continue to doso i m sorry that my problem aren t really big enough to be upset over it all feel too pointless
Hice mal en una prueba importante pensé que lo haría bien en mi pensamiento wa mi mejor tema pensé que estudié bien s más importante prueba en ese tema pronto si creo que estoy haciendo mal en esos tema ya entonces la prueba probablemente va a ir peor me siento mal por decepcionar a todos me siento mal que me quejo tanto pero quiero morir tan malo no siento que hay nada más para mí si hago mal en la escuela un amigo de la familia está haciendo un curso relacionado con el arte parece estar haciendo diversión me gusta hacer arte pero no soy buena en ningún lugar una buena o lo suficientemente buena como para hacer un curso similar un amigo de la escuela está haciendo bien en la escuela compartimos muchos de los mismos tema compartimos la misma alta expectativa pero no puedo llegar a ellos ella se queja de marca mucho más alto que el mío me resentido pero realmente estoy envidio ni siquiera sé lo que quiero hacer en el futuro ¿por qué debo poner en esfuerzo para una vida que no quiero que lo haga yo creo que quiero que yo no tengo ninguna apreciación real para la academia que quiero cumplir la cosa que siempre he dicho que debe hacer todo el mundo en este sentido o en el sentido de la verdad que debo aceptar