hello everyone i m male and don t really know how to ass my current situation i ll start from scratch my grandpa wa a bully and abused my mother when she wa a child he also did this with my sister when she wa about year old my brother wa also completely influenced by him and also abused my sister at the time he wa around 0 year old i saw that live once too at that age about year old i couldn t ass and classify the situation had suppressed that very well until my sister came to a clinic for depression around 0 and completely unpacked during the stay from that point on thing really went down hill for me all the picture from back then came up again my sister and my brother have spoken out and get along well again i smoked pot a lot back then because it always distracted me my mother had already attempted suicide twice i am always completely unmotivated and unhappy although unhappy is the wrong word i m just happy about almost nothing anymore i also think about suicide from time to time but i m probably just too tired and scared to go through with it i always like to be alone but with a girlfriend it s a bit difficult from time to time because we live together the few friend i have thank god understand me and don t push me into anything my girlfriend is also very unstable mentally but we both support each other very well gaming on the pc ha helped me a lot for year i have occasional nervous breakdown where i just start cry i ve always hated my job but that s probably just because i hate work in general i loathe people in general and i don t like big gathering either apart from my sibling and parent i have very little or no contact with other relative had adhd a a child and have been taking medikinet for month a i still have the diagnosis i wonder how others see it and whether i should seek external help i think i m doing just fine but i d be interested in an independent opinion pls be kind english is not my native language
hello everyone i m male and don t really know how to ass my current situation i ll start from scratch my grandpa wa a bully and abused my mother when she wa a child he also did this with my sister when she wa about year old my brother wa also completely influenced by him and also abused my sister at the time he wa around 0 year old i saw that live once too at that age about year old i couldn t ass and classify the situation had suppressed that very well until my sister came to a clinic for depression around 0 and completely unpacked during the stay from that point on thing really went down hill for me all the picture from back then came up again my sister and my brother have spoken out and get along well again i smoked pot a lot back then because it always distracted me my mother had already attempted suicide twice i am always completely unmotivated and unhappy although unhappy is the wrong word i m just happy about almost nothinganymore i also think about suicide from time to time but i m probably just too tired and scared to go through with it i always like to be alone but with a girlfriend it s a bit difficult from time to time because we live together the few friend i have thank god understand me and don t push me into anything my girlfriend is also very unstable mentallybut we both support each other very well gaming on the pc ha helped me a lot for year i have occasional nervous breakdown where i just start cryi ve always hated my job but that s probably just because i hate work in general i loathe people in generaland i don t like big gathering either apart from my sibling and parent i have very little or no contact with other relative had adhd a a child and have been taking medikinet for month a i still have the diagnosis i wonder how others see it and whether i should seek external help i think i m doingjust finebut i d be interested in an independent opinion pls be kind english is not my native language
Hola todo el mundo i m macho y no sé realmente cómo culo mi situación actual voy a empezar de rasguño mi abuelo wa un matón y abusado de mi madre cuando ella wa un niño él también hizo esto con mi hermana cuando ella wa alrededor de año de edad mi hermano wa también completamente influenciado por él y también abusado de mi hermana en el momento en que él wa alrededor 0 año de edad vi que vivir una vez también a esa edad alrededor de año de edad pude t culo y clasificar la situación había suprimido que muy bien hasta que mi hermana llegó a una clínica para la depresión alrededor 0 y completamente desempaquetado durante la estancia de ese punto en realmente fue cuesta abajo para mí toda la imagen de atrás entonces volvió a subir mi hermana y mi hermano han hablado y se llevan bien de nuevo fumé hierba mucho atrás entonces porque siempre me distrajo mi madre ya había intentado suicidarse dos veces soy siempre completamente inmotivado e infeliz aunque infeliz es la palabra equivocada i m feliz casi nada más yo también pienso en suicidarme de vez en cuando pero probablemente estoy demasiado cansado y asustado de ir con él