this is pointless this is all pointless living loving everything there only one thing one person i want more than death and i can t have him nobody want me around so whats the point of wasting my time suffering for no reason when all i do is waste air and people time a i force them to hang out with me nobody actually seek to hang out with me it s always me being lonely and wanting to hang out and them not having any excuse to say no they are indifferent if i leave or not indifferent if i die or not maybe i d get a pity aww like if a friend family member died you don t know them you just say aww out of sympathy sometimes i want sympathy i want someone to pretend for just a moment that they want me and they want to hug me and truly mean it people think i m always just saying depressing thing to fish for sympathy and hell what if i am maybe i need it maybe i need someone to actually care even for just a second about how shitty my life is my mind constantly go in circle awful stupid terrible circle of hatred i hate myself i hate the people around me i hate life i cut the people around me out of my life for their sake and mine and all it doe it make me hate myself and them even more im so desperate i can hardly stop myself from crawling back to them even though it only hurt me more i don t know how to solve this suicide is so painful and i m a pussy so there aren t many option i don t think i can stand to make it more year to be to buy a gun there ha to be something i can do in the mean time anyone with idea lmk lt
this is pointless this is all pointless living loving everything there only one thing one person i want more than death and i can t have him nobody want me around so whats the point of wasting my time suffering for no reason when all i do is waste air and people time a i force them to hang out with me nobody actually seek to hang out with meit s always me being lonely and wanting to hang out and them not having any excuse to say no they are indifferent if i leave or not indifferent if i die or not maybei d get a pity aww like if a friend family member died you dont know them you just say aww out of sympathy sometimes i want sympathyi want someone to pretend for just a moment that they want me and they want to hug me and truly mean it people think i m always just saying depressing thing to fish for sympathy and hell what if i am maybe i need it maybe i need someone to actually care even for just a second about how shitty my life is my mind constantly go in circle awful stupid terrible circle of hatred i hate myself i hate the people around me i hate life i cut the people around me out of my life for their sake and mine and all it doe it make me hate myself and them even more im so desperate i can hardly stop myself from crawling back to them even though it only hurt me more i dont know how to solve this suicide is so painful and i m a pussy so there aren t many optioni don t think i can stand to make it more year to be to buy a gun there ha to be something i can do in the mean time anyone with idea lmk lt
Esto no tiene sentido todo esto es vida sin sentido amar todo allí sólo una cosa una persona que quiero más que la muerte y no puedo tenerlo nadie me quiere alrededor así que lo que es el punto de perder mi tiempo sufrimiento por ninguna razón cuando todo lo que hago es perder el aire y la gente tiempo a la fuerza a pasar el rato conmigo nadie realmente buscar salir con meit s siempre siendo solitario y querer pasar el rato y ellos no tienen ninguna excusa para decir no son indiferentes si me voy o no indiferente si muero o tal vez me da una pena aww como si un amigo miembro de la familia murió no los conoces sólo decir aww fuera de simpatía a veces quiero simpatía quiero que alguien finja por un momento que me quieren y quieren abrazar y realmente significa que la gente piensa que siempre estoy diciendo cosa deprimente para pescar por simpatía y y