hi friend i hope you all are well well i should explain myself i guess i don t feel like i exist i mean that i don t have many people in life and those who are i don t see them missing me friend are nonexistent i do have a few acquaintance i guess i ve tried to make new friend and reconnect with old but school work and the guard don t allow for much down time and it s like i m the only one trying so why bother the logic also go into my luck on dating though to be honest i haven t really been trying i think i would rather make friend first work school and the guard are just thing i do now i don t really do them because i want to but because they re thing i have to do and i don t remember why i just do them like i m on autopilot my family is currently ripping itself apart i ve known my parent haven t been happy for a while but i didn t realize how deeply they hated each other and in their crossfire is everyone else i ll keep it short but somehow a hundred mile away they still managed to hurt me a way i didn t expect and i ve decided to cut tie with my parent for the mean time at least my brother are quite literally the only thing keeping me tethered to the world i don t want to hurt them but i just don t feel any joy in any action i take or any agency i just feel numb to everything not angry not upset not frustrated just hallow i don t feel like the same person that played lego batman with his brother split a milkshake on his boyfriend played minecraft with his parent partied with his friend took pride in what i did could claim myself i m just not i look in the mirror and i don t feel like a person is looking back at me just this husk and i don t know how to undo that i don t know how i got here i don t know how to feel like a person again and not this ghost haunting the park i walked and the clothes i wore well thanks for listening to my rambling i wish the best for you have a good day
hi friend i hope you all are well well i should explain myselfi guess i don t feel like i exist i mean that i don t have many people in life and those who are i dont see them missing me friend are nonexistent i do have a few acquaintance i guess i ve tried to make new friend and reconnect with old but school work and the guard don t allow for much down timeand it s like i m the only one trying so why bother the logic also go into my luck on dating though to be honest i haven t really been trying i think i would rather make friend first work school and the guard are just thing i do nowi don t really do them because i want to but because they re thing i have to doand i don t remember why i just do them like i m on autopilot my family is currently ripping itself aparti ve known my parent haven t been happy for a whilebut i didn t realize how deeply they hated each other and in their crossfire is everyone else i ll keep it short but somehow a hundred mile away they still managed to hurt me a way i didn t expect and i ve decided to cut tie with my parent for the mean time at least my brother are quite literally the only thing keeping me tethered to the world i don t want to hurt them but i just don t feel any joy in any action i take or any agencyi just feel numb to everything not angry not upset not frustrated just hallowi don t feel like the same person that played lego batman with his brother split a milkshake on his boyfriend played minecraft with his parent partied with his friend took pride in what i did could claim myself i m just not i look in the mirrorand i don t feel like a person is looking back at me just this huskand i don t know how to undo that i don t know how i got herei don t know how to feel like a person again and not this ghost haunting the park i walked and the clothes i wore well thanks for listening to my rambling i wish the best for you have a good day
Hola amigo espero que todos ustedes están bien me debería explicar a mí mismo supongo que no siento que existo quiero decir que no tengo mucha gente en la vida y aquellos que son no los veo que me faltan amigo son inexistentes tengo un poco de conocimiento he intentado hacer nuevo amigo y reconectar con viejo pero trabajo escolar y el guardia no permite mucho tiempo y es como si yo fuera el único tratando de por qué molestar la lógica también entrar en mi suerte en salir aunque para ser honesto no he estado realmente tratando creo que preferiría hacer amigo primera escuela de trabajo y el guardia son sólo lo que hago ahora no realmente hacer porque quiero pero porque re cosa que tengo que hacer y no recuerdo por qué sólo les hago como en piloto automático mi familia está actualmente destrozándose a sí mismo apartándose he sabido que mi padre no ha sido feliz por un tiempo pero no me di cuenta de lo profundamente que odiaban a los demás y en su fuego cruzado es todo el mundo me lo voy a mantener corto pero de alguna manera a cientos de kilómetros de distancia todavía se las arreglan para lastimarme una manera que yo no esperaba y he decidido a cortar en el tiempo que mi padre por el que