tagged nsfw tw mention of suicidal ideation and suicide attempt the idea of suicide is comforting it is all that i ve known the idea of ending the constant misery i feel is weirdly enough the only thing stopping me from doing it besides a select number of friend a it truly is comfortable to me to be sitting in the cesspool of apathy and hatred for myself i feel every day usually when i m depressed i feel the apathy and it slowly just turn to numbness but something is different this time around do you ever feel almost the thrill of suicide or rather do you ever almost feel excitement when you re done grieving what your life could would have been lately i ve felt at peace over my self grieving and i do not like that a i have been desperately trying to stay afloat and the tiny push i would usually give myself to ground myself is gone i ve only ever felt this rush when i attempted and the aftermath destroys me every single time this feeling is almost like some time of euphoric high that i cant stop chasing i hate my life and i hate feeling like this but aren t some people meant to be dished the worst card to balance out nature
tagged nsfw tw mention of suicidal ideation and suicide attempt the idea of suicide is comforting it is all that i ve known the idea of ending the constant misery i feel is weirdly enough the only thing stopping me from doing it besides a select number of friend a it truly is comfortable to me to be sitting in the cesspool of apathy and hatred for myself i feel every day usually when i m depressed i feel the apathy and it slowly just turn to numbness but something is different this time around do you ever feel almost the thrill of suicide or rather do you ever almost feel excitement when you re done grieving what your life could would have been lately i ve felt at peace over my self grievingand i do not like that a i have been desperately trying to stay afloat and the tiny push i would usually give myself to ground myself is gonei ve only ever felt this rush when i attempted and the aftermath destroys me every single time this feeling is almost like some time of euphoric high that i cant stop chasing i hate my lifeand i hate feeling like this but aren t some people meant to be dished the worst card to balance out nature
taged nsfw tw mención de ideación suicida y intento de suicidio la idea de suicidio es reconfortante es todo lo que he conocido la idea de poner fin a la miseria constante que siento es bastante extrañamente la única cosa que me detiene de hacerlo además de un número selecto de amigo a es realmente cómodo para mí estar sentado en el pozo negro de la apatía y el odio por mí mismo siento cada día generalmente cuando estoy deprimida siento la apatía y lentamente se convierte en entumecimiento pero algo es diferente esta vez ¿alguna vez sientes casi la emoción del suicidio o más bien alguna vez casi sentir emoción cuando haces duelo lo que tu vida podría haber sido últimamente me he sentido en paz sobre mi auto duelo y no me gusta que un i ha estado tratando desesperadamente de mantenerse a flote y el pequeño empujón que por lo general me daría a mí mismo a tierra se ha ido sólo se siente este apuro cuando intenté y las consecuencias me destruyen cada vez que este sentimiento es casi como algún tiempo de eufórico alto que no puedo dejar de perseguir mi vida y odio sentir como esto pero son algunas personas destinadas a ser repartido el peor de la tarjeta