this past year ha been my get out of hand year i normally handle my depression well i know what trigger low point i know how to get myself out of my funk i know how to manage it but this year oh this year ha beat the ever loving shit out of my mental health i had a baby and got ppd really bad i have ptsd from being in a horrible accident with my best friend and having him literally die while i wa trying my hardest to stop the bleeding and the anniversary of his death is coming up on the st the only person i ever would talk about it with wa our friend sarah who wa dating his brother and she really took me in and helped me the week following his death i had started drinking heavily and just being wreck le and not caring if anything happened to me she wa the biggest ball of sunshine and positive person i had ever met and she killed herself last month i didn t even know she wa depressed so my mind is a wreck right now she wa my positive person my rock and she couldn t handle her sadness and took her own life and i feel even more horrible because how selfish wa it of me to not see that she wasn t okay i have cried every day for two week i am angry and hostile and don t want to be around anyone i don t even want to me around my own kid my mom temporarily moved in for the next couple of week because of how bad i wa getting my neighbor are even texting me asking if i m okay and i have hit the point where i don t even try faking it i just say no no i m not okay
this past year ha been my get out of hand yeari normally handle my depressionwell i know what trigger low pointi know how to get myself out of my funk i know how to manage itbut this year oh this year ha beat the ever loving shit out of my mental health i had a baby and got ppd really badi have ptsd from being in a horrible accident with my best friend and having him literally die while i wa trying my hardest to stop the bleeding and the anniversary of his death is coming up on the st the only person i ever would talk about it with wa our friend sarah who wa dating his brotherand she really took me in and helped me the week following his death i had started drinking heavily and just being wreck le and not caring if anything happened to me she wa the biggest ball of sunshine and positive person i had ever met and she killed herself last monthi didn t even know she wa depressed so my mind is a wreck right now she wa my positive person my rock and she couldn t handle her sadness and took her own life and i feel even more horrible because how selfish wa it of me to not see that she wasn tokay i have cried every day for two week i am angry and hostile and don t want to be around anyone i don t even want to me around my own kid my mom temporarily moved in for the next couple of week because of how bad i wa getting my neighbor are even texting me asking if i mokayand i have hit the point where i don t even try faking iti just sayno noi m not okay
Este año pasado ha sido mi salir de la mano yeari normalmente manejar mi depresión bueno sé lo que desencadena bajo punto sé cómo sacarme de mi funk sé cómo manejarlo pero este año oh este año ha golpeado la mierda siempre amorosa de mi salud mental tuve un bebé y me dieron ppad realmente badi han ptsed de estar en un horrible accidente con mi mejor amigo y lo han tenido literalmente morir mientras que yo wa tratando de mi más duro para detener la hemorragia y el aniversario de su muerte está llegando en el st la única persona que alguna vez hablaría de él con nuestro amigo Sarah que iba a salir con su hermano y ella realmente me llevó y me ayudó a la semana después de su muerte había comenzado a beber pesadamente y sólo siendo naufragó y no importando si algo me pasó ella era la mayor bola de sol y persona positiva que había conocido y ella se suicidó el mes pasado ni siquiera sabía que se deprimió así que mi mente es una ruina justo ahora ella wa mi persona positiva mi rock y ella no podía manejar su propia tristeza y me sentía aún más horrible porque cómo egoísta wa de mí para no ver que ella era akay