i ve been very close yet i ve been postponing for a while on and off to cut thing short i believe i may end up leaving sometime next week there are a few reason why otherwise if i don t i am saving up for my mom to buy me a new ar it ll take about month to get sufficient fund but i am solely using it on myself i already have access to a firearm but i am choosing not to do it now unless i have to because the caliber might not be sufficient enough but yeah no one see the warning sign i may have potential but i can t live up to it i ll always fail i know many people that read this will skip over or not even care i am just putting my thought somewhere no one will probably read it oh well all i know is that i have tried my best my circumstance are holding me hostage from flourishing in this world i am only here to fulfill the need of specific people i am not loved i mean this with everything i m basically here surviving alone trying to keep myself sane under the condition i m under my own interest are impossible to achieve i am a batshit crazy piece of shit disguised a a well mannered average looking tall slim smart person according to them but yeah this is something i have extreme feeling for i truly believe i may end up going through with these plan sometime next week or sometime soon id love to talk to someone about this i ve tried to reach out to friend before about how i ve been feeling and everyone talk to me one time and never check on me again honestly im ready to fuckin get this shit overwith no one give me a fuckin chance literally i m getting fucking exhausted i m tired of this planet i just wish i could feel different at least i m tired help me
i ve been very close yet i ve been postponing for a while on and off to cut thing shorti believe i may end up leaving sometime next week there are a few reason why otherwise if i don ti am saving up for my mom to buy me a new ar it ll take about month to get sufficient fundbut i am solely using it on myself i already have access to a firearmbut i am choosing not to do it now unless i have to because the caliber might not be sufficient enoughbutyeahno one see the warning sign i may have potential but i can t live up to iti ll always fail i know many people that read this will skip over or not even care i am just putting my thought somewhereno one will probably read itoh well all i know is that i have tried my best my circumstance are holding me hostage from flourishing in this world i am only here to fulfill the need of specific people i am not lovedi mean this with everything i m basically here surviving alone trying to keep myself sane under the condition i m under my own interest are impossible to achieve i am a batshit crazy piece of shit disguised a a well mannered average looking tall slim smart person according to thembut yeah this is something i have extreme feeling for i truly believe i may end up going through with these plan sometime next week or sometime soon id love to talk to someone about this i ve tried to reach out to friend before about how i ve been feeling and everyone talk to me one time and never check on me again honestly im ready to fuckin get this shit overwith no one give me a fuckin chance literally i m getting fucking exhaustedi m tired of this planet i just wish i could feel different at least i m tiredhelp me
He estado muy cerca sin embargo he estado posponiendo por un tiempo para cortar shorti cosa creo que puedo terminar dejando en algún momento la próxima semana hay una razón por la que de lo contrario si no estoy ahorrando para mi mamá para comprarme un nuevo ar que va a tomar alrededor de mes para conseguir fondos suficientes pero sólo estoy utilizando en mí mismo ya tengo acceso a un arma de fuego pero estoy eligiendo no hacerlo ahora a menos que tenga que porque el calibre puede no ser suficiente pero sí que nadie ve la señal de advertencia que puede tener potencial pero no puedo vivir hasta iti ll siempre falla sé que mucha gente que leer esto saltará o ni siquiera me importa estoy poniendo mi pensamiento en algún lugar nadie probablemente lo leerá bien todo lo que sé es que he intentado mi mejor circunstancia me están manteniendo rehén de florecer en este mundo sólo estoy aquí para satisfacer la necesidad de personas específicas que no soy amante significa esto con todo lo que estoy básicamente aquí sobrevivir solo tratando de mantenerme sano bajo la condición de que mi propio interés son imposibles de alcanzar una pieza loca de mierda bien me gustar a una persona