i m so tired of existing i have to believe the lie people tell me if i want to be happier in this world that it s not all falling apart that trying hard will get me anything will reward me that people love me it s so much nonsense the only people in my life can t fucking stand me everyone else is at best mildly interested in me from afar and once they get to know me they want nothing more to do with me i m fucking useless and worthless and anyone who s ever told me otherwise want me to suffer what do they see in me i have achieved nothing i am nothing nothing but a corpse too stubborn to start rotting but fully entirely dead
i m so tired of existing i have to believe the lie people tell me if i want to be happier in this world that it s not all falling apart that trying hard will get me anything will reward me that people love me it s so much nonsense the only people in my life can t fucking stand me everyone else is at best mildly interested in me from afar and once they get to know me they want nothing more to do with mei m fucking useless and worthless and anyone who s ever told me otherwise want me to suffer what do they see in me i have achieved nothing i am nothing nothing but a corpse too stubborn to start rotting but fully entirely dead
Estoy tan cansado de existir que tengo que creer la mentira que la gente me dice si quiero ser más feliz en este mundo que no todo se está desmoronando que intentar duro conseguirme cualquier cosa me recompensará que la gente me ame es tanta tontería que la única gente en mi vida no puede soportarme todos los demás están en el mejor de los casos levemente interesados en mí desde lejos y una vez que llegan a conocerme no quieren nada más que hacer con mei m jodidamente inútil y sin valor y cualquiera que me haya dicho de otra manera quiere que sufra lo que ven en mí no he logrado nada, no soy nada más que un cadáver demasiado obstinado para empezar a pudrirse pero completamente muerto