so i would describe myself a someone who is pretty high functioning in term of living with moderate anxiety although in certain triggering situation it can become completely debilitating and a huge obstacle to making progress in my life on wednesday i have a job interview and i am just nauseated and so anxious even thinking about it it s only 0 minute long but i think it s 0 0 whether i ll straight up have a panic attack during the interview and i m absolutely dreading it the inability to speak to think in a straight line to remember anything to breathe properly feeling totally disoriented i m not trying to manifest it here but it s just the reality of how my body reacts to these situation and in year of my working life i have never come close to conquering it i have a wonderful partner i have been with for nearly a year now but she ha never really seen what anxiety can do to me when it get bad i guess i ve just been really good at avoiding situation that trigger it she s very sympathetic and encourages me to prepare but it s clear she fundamentally doesn t know what it s like to be debilitated by situation to the point of panic attack i tried to explain but she think if i prep then i ll just be able to speak without issue but it just doesn t work like that for me at all prep can only get me so far and half the time i ll just get a few sentence out then descend into panic i am so anxious just thinking about wednesday that i ve barely made progress with my prep anyway although i ll try my best to do some more over the next couple of day sorry this is just a rant and isn t a very meaningful post i guess i m just desperate for people to understand how horrible it is to feel so anxious and to know you re basically setting yourself up for a potential panic attack with an audience hope i can find my courage to get through it
so i would describe myself a someone who is pretty high functioning in term of living with moderate anxiety although in certain triggering situation it can become completely debilitating and a huge obstacle to making progress in my life on wednesday i have a job interview and i am just nauseated and so anxious even thinking about it it s only 0 minute longbut i think it s 0 0whether i ll straight up have a panic attack during the interview and i m absolutely dreading it the inability to speak to think in a straight line to remember anything to breathe properly feeling totally disoriented i m not trying to manifest it here but it s just the reality of how my body reacts to these situation and in year of my working life i have never come close to conquering iti have a wonderful partner i have been with for nearly a yearnowbut she ha never really seen what anxiety can do to me when it get badi guess i ve just been really good at avoiding situation that trigger itshe s very sympathetic and encourages me to preparebut it s clear she fundamentally doesn t know what it s like to be debilitated by situation to the point of panic attack i tried to explain but she think if i prep then i ll just be able to speak without issuebut it just doesn t work like that for me at all prep can only get me so far and half the time i ll just get a few sentence out then descend into panic i am so anxious just thinking about wednesday that i ve barely made progress with my prep anyway although i ll try my best to do some more over the next couple of day sorry this is just a rant and isn t a very meaningful post i guess i m just desperate for people to understand how horrible it is to feel so anxious and to know you re basically setting yourself up for a potential panic attack with an audience hope i can find my courage to get through it
Así que me describiría a mí mismo un alguien que es bastante alto funcionamiento en el término de vivir con ansiedad moderada aunque en cierta situación desencadenante puede llegar a ser completamente debilitante y un gran obstáculo para hacer progresos en mi vida en miércoles tengo una entrevista de trabajo y estoy nauseabundo y tan ansioso incluso pensando en ello es sólo 0 minuto de largo pero creo que es 0 0 si voy directamente a tener un ataque de pánico durante la entrevista y estoy absolutamente temiendo que la incapacidad de hablar para pensar en una línea recta para recordar cualquier cosa para respirar correctamente sintiéndose totalmente desorientado no estoy tratando de manifestarlo aquí, pero es sólo la realidad de cómo mi cuerpo reacciona a esta situación y en el año de mi vida laboral nunca he estado cerca de conquistarlo tengo un maravilloso socio con el que he estado durante casi un año pero ella nunca ha visto realmente lo que la ansiedad puede hacer conmigo cuando consigue badi supongo que he sido realmente bueno en evitar la situación que desencadena es muy simpático y me anima a prepararme pero es claro que ella fundamentalmente no sabe lo que es estar debilitado por el punto de ataque de pánico que he tratado de explicar