i ve been waking up and going through the same day repeatedly for a long time i wanted to get better but i wanted this particular person to be by my side while i did it i ve made a plan and set a date i know in my heart it s the right choice i just hope he doesn t blame himself when it happens it wasn t him that make me want to follow through i m just done hurting everyone that come in to my i m done being ashamed of the person i ve become and i m done looking like i don t care i felt every emotion so keenly that it forced me to realize that those very same emotion made me react in a way that i wasn t proud of my reality is shifting and these shadow are the only thing that is my company nothing is ever going to change for me even if i go to therapy even if i get med sooner or later it always return i m done being a prisoner of my own mind idek why i m posting this maybe hoping the right person will see me and talk me out of it it s not that i lack love it s actually the opposite i have so many mental health issue that i m such a burden on my family now my addiction ha returned i m just so done with living like this it s a little ironic my selfishness is the cause of all this selfish to the end i m sorry s i hope you don t blame yourself and if by chance you see this i want you to know i think this is always how it would have ended
i ve been waking up and going through the same day repeatedly for a long time i wanted to get betterbut i wanted this particular person to be by my side while i did it i ve made a plan and set a date i know in my heart it s the right choice i just hope he doesn t blame himself when it happens it wasn t him that make me want to follow through i m just done hurting everyone that come in to myi m done being ashamed of the person i ve becomeand i m done looking like i don t carei felt every emotion so keenly that it forced me to realize that those very same emotion made me react in a way that i wasn t proud of my reality is shifting and these shadow are the only thing that is my company nothing is ever going to change for me even if i go to therapy even if i get med sooner or later it always return i m done being a prisoner of my own mind idek why i m posting this maybe hoping the right person will see me and talk me out of it it s not that i lack love it s actually the opposite i have so many mental health issue that i m such a burden on my family now my addiction ha returned i m just so done with living like this it s a little ironic my selfishness is the cause of all this selfish to the endi m sorrys i hope you don t blame yourself and if by chance you see this i want you to know i think this is always how it would have ended
He estado despertando y pasando por el mismo día repetidamente durante mucho tiempo he querido mejorar pero quería que esta persona en particular estuviera a mi lado mientras lo hacía he hecho un plan y establecer una fecha sé en mi corazón que es la elección correcta sólo espero que no se culpe a sí mismo cuando sucede que no fue él lo que me hizo querer seguir a través de I M acaba de hacer daño a todos que vienen a myi m hecho estar avergonzado de la persona me he convertido y me he hecho mirar como no me importa sentía cada emoción tan intensamente que me obligó a darme cuenta de que esa misma emoción me hizo reaccionar de una manera que no estaba orgulloso de mi realidad está cambiando y estas sombras son la única cosa que es mi empresa nada va a cambiar para mí incluso si voy a la terapia incluso si me me me me hacen más pronto o más tarde siempre me hacen ser prisionero de mi propia mente idek por qué estoy publicando esto tal vez la persona correcta me verá y hablar de ello no es que me falta amor