i am and think i m depressed idk what is but happiness just is not the same anymore it feel bland from what it used to be it all started when my mom separated from my verbally abusive dad when i wa 0 after that is spiraled down and down my aunt uncle grandma and grandpa dying left and right and my aunt turning out to be racist even tho i m her nefew i went to therapy for year but it did not help i dated my best friend who i have known since i wa a kid and it did not work out the relationship is ruined and now we barely talk i have plenty other friend but it doe not feel the same i hate school but my mom say i cant drop out and i have to have the best grade posible i know she is doing what she is supposed to and i wan na try but it so hard to even find the will to stay alive i m very self conscious and do not like the way i look i have a girlfriend but it doe not feel like what i thought it would be and doe not help me mentally at all overall i want to off my self because of the thing that s i ve done and thing i ve been through i don t know what is stopping me i don t think it selfish if i off myself and i don t really see any benefit if i stay alive i don t believe in true love and i m not happy at all really my mom want me to graduate so i can be happy but school make me even more unhappy but i think that s just cause i m a kid i don t even know if i ll make it past let alone go to college i just wan na know why can t i be happy
i am and think i m depressed idk what is but happiness just is not the same anymore it feel bland from what it used to be it all started when my mom separated from my verbally abusive dad when i wa 0 after that is spiraled down and down my aunt uncle grandma and grandpa dying left and right and my aunt turning out to be racist even tho i m her nefewi went to therapy for yearbut it did not help i dated my best friend who i have known since i wa a kid and it did not work out the relationship is ruined and now we barely talk i have plenty other friendbut it doe not feel the same i hate schoolbut my mom say i cant drop out and i have to have the best grade posible i know she is doing what she is supposed to and i wan na trybut it so hard to even find the will to stay alivei m very self conscious and do not like the way i look i have a girlfriendbut it doe not feel like what i thought it would be and doe not help me mentally at all overalli want to off my self because of the thing that s i ve done and thing i ve been through i dont know what is stopping me i dont think it selfish if i off myselfand i don t really see any benefit if i stay alive i don t believe in true love and i m not happy at all really my mom want me to graduate so i can be happy but school make me even more unhappybut i think that s just cause i m a kidi don t even know if i ll make it past let alone go to collegei just wan na know why can t i be happy
Yo soy y creo que estoy deprimido idk lo que es pero la felicidad simplemente no es el mismo ya se siente soso de lo que solía ser todo comenzó cuando mi mamá se separó de mi padre verbalmente abusivo cuando yo wa 0 después de que se en espiral hacia abajo y abajo mi tía tío abuela y abuelo muriendo izquierda y derecha y mi tía resulta ser racista incluso tho i m su nefewi fue a terapia durante el año pero no ayudó a salir con mi mejor amigo que he conocido desde que era un niño y no funcionó la relación se arruina y ahora apenas hablamos tengo un montón de otro amigo pero no se siente lo mismo que odio la escuela pero mi mamá dice que no puedo dejar de lado y tengo que tener la mejor calidad posible sé que está haciendo lo que se supone que ella y yo wan na tratar de pero es tan difícil de encontrar incluso la voluntad de mantenerse vivo muy auto consciente y no me gusta la forma en que me veo tengo una novia pero no se siente como lo que pensé que sería y no me ayudará mentalmente en general quiero fuera de mi yo porque el beneficio me he hecho y creo que yo realmente creo que lo que es real