and sprint a far away from myself a possible i want to slam my body into the ground and dissimilate into the million of spec of dirt i am on fire from the inside out i can not escape my anxiety and depression medicine doesn t help therapy doesn t help my default is wanting desperately to do the thing i want in life go to class amp be the student i know i can be continue the job i wa just hired on for but being absolutely paralyzed by fear no source recognizable just a constant mind numbing fear completely debilitating my every waking second the idea of being in class or anywhere away from complete solitude elicits physical response my muscle flex involuntarily my inner dialogue struggle to complete sentence no one understands this isn t my choice
and sprint a far away from myself a possiblei want to slam my body into the ground and dissimilate into the million of spec of dirt i am on fire from the inside outi can not escape my anxiety and depression medicine doesn t help therapy doesn t help my default is wanting desperately to do the thing i want in life go to class amp be the student i know i can be continue the job i wa just hired on for but being absolutely paralyzed by fear no source recognizable just a constant mind numbing fear completely debilitating my every waking second the idea of being in class or anywhere away from complete solitude elicits physical response my muscle flex involuntarily my inner dialogue struggle to complete sentence no one understands this isn t my choice
y sprint un lejos de mí un posible deseo de golpear mi cuerpo en el suelo y se disimula en el millón de especificaciones de suciedad estoy en el fuego desde el interior outi no puede escapar de mi ansiedad y la depresión la medicina no ayuda a la terapia no ayuda a mi defecto es querer desesperadamente hacer lo que quiero en la vida ir a clase amp ser el estudiante sé que puedo continuar el trabajo que yo wa sólo contratado para, pero siendo absolutamente paralizado por el miedo ninguna fuente reconocible sólo una constante mente entumecimiento miedo completamente debilitando cada segundo la idea de estar en clase o en cualquier lugar lejos de la soledad completa provoca respuesta física mi flexibilidad muscular involuntariamente mi lucha de diálogo interno para completar la frase nadie entiende que esto es mi elección