i graduated in 0 9 and since then i moved back home and have been living in my room aside from going place with my family when they would force me and emotionally manipulate me to go which worsened my mental health my mum keep putting pressure on me to go with her to a spa or something even though i tell her it s not good for my mental health for her to try and manipulate me or guilt trip me to do thing with her when she ha friend and sister she can ask to do that with last year of university during the last semester i became mute and forgot how to talk to people because i wa alone and isolated i m socially awkward shy and my self esteem and confidence are none existent i prefer being alone but don t necessarily enjoy my own company i just prefer it to being around others i wa happy when lockdown happened because it meant everyone wa stuck at home like me and we could all be miserable together summer is coming which is my least favourite season because everyone s out and about laughing and having a good time and i m always home alone i don t want to live this way being all depressed anxious and suicidal i want to live and enjoy my life and remaining 0 i turn in a few month what can i do like what step can i start to take to be more confident self loving and go out more also what sort of thing can i do on my own or to find friend and a boyfriend please don t suggest online dating because for some reason i can t download any of the apps on my phone anymore
i graduated in 0 9 and since then i moved back home and have been living in my room aside from going place with my family when they would force me and emotionally manipulate me to go which worsened my mental health my mum keep putting pressure on me to go with her to a spa or something even though i tell her it s not good for my mental health for her to try and manipulate me or guilt trip me to do thing with her when she ha friend and sister she can ask to do that with last year of university during the last semester i became mute and forgot how to talk to people because i wa alone and isolated i m socially awkward shy and my self esteem and confidence are none existent i prefer being alone but don t necessarily enjoy my own company i just prefer it to being around others i wa happy when lockdown happened because it meant everyone wa stuck at home like me and we could all be miserable together summer is coming which is my least favourite season because everyone s out and about laughing and having a good time and i m always home alone i don t want to live this way being all depressed anxious and suicidal i want to live and enjoy my life and remaining 0 i turn in a few month what can i do like what step can i start to take to be more confident self loving and go out more also what sort of thing can i do on my own or to find friend and a boyfriend please don t suggest online dating because for some reason i can t download any of the apps on my phone anymore
Me gradué en 0 9 y desde entonces me mudé de vuelta a casa y he estado viviendo en mi habitación aparte de ir al lugar con mi familia cuando me fuerzan y emocionalmente me manipulan para ir lo que empeoró mi salud mental mi madre me sigue presionando para ir con ella a un spa o algo aunque le digo que no es bueno para mi salud mental para ella para tratar de manipularme o la culpa viaje a mí para hacer cosas con ella cuando ella ha amigo y hermana ella puede pedir que con el último año de la universidad durante el último semestre me hice mudo y olvidé cómo hablar con la gente porque yo estaba solo y aislado me siento socialmente incómodo tímido y mi autoestima y confianza no existen ninguno prefiero estar solo pero no disfrutar necesariamente de mi propia compañía yo sólo prefiero estar alrededor de otros yo wa feliz cuando ocurrió lockdown porque significaba que todo el mundo se quedó en casa como yo y todos podríamos ser miserables juntos el verano viene que es mi temporada menos favorita porque todo el mundo está fuera y sobre reírse y pasar un buen rato y siempre en casa solo yo no quiero vivir esta manera de estar deprimido ansioso y suicida quiero vivir y disfrutar mi vida y seguir 0