i m going 9 this year life ha always been a rollercoaster for me consistently an a student till h then dropped out of college due to severe disinterest and had to take care of mother that had stage cancer not formally diagnosed but i m sure that s when i developed some sort of depression after all that i went to work on and off in small bakery without formal training of any kind which is a pressure of it own cooking and baking ha always been my catharsis though which is why i never gave up pursuing this career even now picked it up really well but have gap of missing knowledge since i never went to culinary school wa doing well for a few year there but then the pandemic hit and at the same time my mother went into remission so i had to leave the west coast back to the east to take care of her i love my family don t get me wrong i am more than happy to take of them but we are not financially stable in any sense even before the pandemic so i guess this is where it lead to the present my current rock bottom always thought the low point of my life can t get any worse but here i am experiencing it all over again mom is now stable or a stable a can be so i m back in the west coast and currently have a job working in a hotel in pastry i m pretty good at what i do or at least the thing i know how to do in term of pastry but working at a hotel is a whole different scene and they expect a lot out of you i m pretty sure i m about to be fired because i may be a liability i have huge gap in my work history due to family issue and huge gap in my pastry knowledge because i am only well versed only in what i would consider 0 of the basic employer really don t care about all of this they just want qualified people not your sob story so yeah life ha always been hard for me personally and i feel it s about to get worse if and when i do get fired it ll hit me pretty hard mentally thanks everyone for reading through this entire rant i don t have anyone else to tell this to
i m going 9 this year life ha always been a rollercoaster for me consistently an a student till h then dropped out of college due to severe disinterest and had to take care of mother that had stage cancer not formally diagnosedbut i m sure that s when i developed some sort of depression after all that i went to work on and off in small bakery without formal training of any kind which is a pressure of it own cooking and baking ha always been my catharsis though which is why i never gave up pursuing this career even now picked it up really well but have gap of missing knowledge since i never went to culinary school wa doing well for a few year therebut then the pandemic hit and at the same time my mother went into remissionso i had to leave the west coast back to the east to take care of her i lovemy family don t get me wrongi am more than happy to take of them but we are not financially stable in any sense even before the pandemicso i guess this is where it lead to the present my current rock bottom always thought the low point of my life can t get any worse but here i am experiencing it all over again mom is now stable or a stable a can be so i m back in the west coast and currently have a job working in a hotel in pastryi m pretty good at what i do or at least the thingi know how to do in term of pastry but working at a hotel is a whole different sceneand they expect a lot out of you i m pretty sure i m about to be fired because i may be a liability i have huge gap in my work history due to family issue and huge gap in my pastry knowledge because i am only well versed only in what i would consider 0 of the basic employer really don t care about all of this they just want qualified people not your sob storysoyeah life ha always been hard for me personallyand i feel it s about to get worse if and when i do get fired it ll hit me pretty hard mentally thanks everyone for reading through this entire ranti don t have anyone else to tell this to
I m va 9 este año la vida siempre ha sido una montaña rusa para mí consistentemente un estudiante hasta que h luego dejó de la universidad debido a grave desinterés y tuvo que cuidar de la madre que tenía cáncer de etapa no formalmente diagnosticado pero estoy seguro de que s cuando desarrollé algún tipo de depresión después de todo que fui a trabajar en pequeña panadería sin formación formal de cualquier tipo que es una presión de su propia cocina y hornear ha siempre ha sido mi catarsis, aunque es por lo que nunca dejé de seguir esta carrera incluso ahora lo recogió muy bien pero tengo un vacío de conocimiento perdido ya que nunca fui a la escuela culinaria wa haciendo bien durante un año allí, pero entonces la pandemia golpeó y al mismo tiempo mi madre entró en remisiónso que tuve que dejar la costa oeste de vuelta al este para cuidar de su i lovemy family no me malinterprete soy más que feliz de tomar de ellos pero no estamos financieramente estables en ningún sentido incluso antes de la pandemia así que supongo que esto es donde conduce al presente mi fondo rock actual siempre pensó el punto bajo de mi vida puede conseguir peor