tw suicide yea so my recent symptom of depression wa that i thought i wa really really old i m lol there were numerous occasion where i had to convince myself of my actual age because my brain wa certain i m or had to count year from my birthday and repeat to myself over and over that i m i thought most of it wa because i m seeing a lot of successful people on social medium younger than me and because i m not finished with my uni yet because i m repeating a year but during therapy today i realized that beyond those reason i also had this subconscious plan in my head that i will barely make it past 0 like top and then i will be dead i have no idea where it came from i m not suicidal i don t think i ever wa but my brain seems convinced that by the time i m 0 i will develop suicidal thought and then before i will kill myself no wonder i thought i wa so old i have a little more than 0 year before my deadline lol and that s being generous idk why i wrote this i will probably delete this later i just needed to dump this info somewhere i don t want to worry my friend and family
tw suicide yeaso my recent symptom of depression wa that i thought i wa really really old i m lolthere were numerous occasion where i had to convince myself of my actual age because my brain wa certain i m or had to count year from my birthday and repeat to myself over and over that i mi thought most of it wa because i m seeing a lot of successful people on social medium younger than me and because i m not finished with my uni yet because i m repeating a year but during therapy today i realized that beyond those reason i also had this subconscious plan in my head that i will barely make it past 0 like topand then i will be dead i have no idea where it came from i m not suicidali don t thinki everwabut my brain seems convinced that by the time i m 0i will develop suicidal thought and then before i will kill myself no wonder i thought i wa so oldi have a little more than 0 year before my deadline lol and that s being generous idk why i wrote this i will probably delete this later i just needed to dump this info somewherei don t want to worry my friend and family
Yeaso suicidio mi reciente síntoma de depresión wa que pensé que era realmente muy viejo i m lolthere fueron numerosas ocasiones en las que tuve que convencerme de mi edad real porque mi cerebro wa cierto i m o tenía que contar el año de mi cumpleaños y repetir a mí mismo una y otra vez que pensé que la mayoría de ella wa porque estoy viendo un montón de personas exitosas en medio social más joven que yo y porque no estoy terminado con mi uni todavía porque estoy repitiendo un año pero durante la terapia hoy me di cuenta de que más allá de esa razón yo también tenía este plan subconsciente en mi cabeza que apenas voy a hacer que pase 0 como topand entonces voy a estar muerto no tengo idea de dónde vino de i m no suicidado no creo siempre pero mi cerebro parece convencido de que para el momento en que i m 0i desarrollaré pensamiento suicida y luego antes de que me mate no me pregunto que pensé que wa tan oldi tener un poco más de 0 año antes de mi fecha límite lol y que es ser generoso idk por lo que escribí esto probablemente eliminaré más tarde sólo necesitaba tirar esta información ordi don t querer preocupar a mi amigo y familia