i f met my girlfriend on a game called genshin impact she is amazing really kind to me and is the first person who ha made me feel loved in a really long time the problem is that i still deal with suicidal thought worse now than any point before in my life and what hurt all the more is that i don t want to disappear from her i quite frequently find myself cry because of the thought of her losing me i ve felt incredibly lonely for most of my life that i can remember i used to feel like nobody would miss me if i died now i know there s someone who would really miss me and it hurt a lot i don t want to talk to her about this mainly because i feel like my bad mental health already affect her too much and i really don t like making her upset i wa on the verge of getting to therapy but then money trouble hit my family i feel hopeless and i wish i didn t meet her so i could just end it without feeling terrible
i f met my girlfriend on a game called genshin impact she is amazing really kind to me and is the first person who ha made me feel loved in a really long time the problem is that i still deal with suicidal thought worse now than any point before in my life and what hurt all the more is that i don t want to disappear from her i quite frequently find myself cry because of the thought of her losing me i ve felt incredibly lonely for most of my life that i can remember i used to feel like nobody would miss me if i died now i know there s someone who would really miss me and it hurt a loti don t want to talk to her about this mainly because i feel like my bad mental health already affect her too muchand i really don t like making her upset i wa on the verge of getting to therapybut then money trouble hit my family i feel hopelessand i wish ididn t meet herso i could just end it without feeling terrible
I f conocer a mi novia en un juego llamado impacto genshin ella es increíble realmente amable conmigo y es la primera persona que me ha hecho sentir amado en un tiempo muy largo el problema es que todavía lidia con pensamientos suicidas peor ahora que cualquier punto antes en mi vida y lo que duele más es que no quiero desaparecer de ella con bastante frecuencia me encuentro llorando debido a la idea de su perderme me he sentido increíblemente solo durante la mayor parte de mi vida que puedo recordar que solía sentir que nadie me extrañaría si me muero ahora sé que hay alguien que realmente me extrañaría y me duele un loti no quiero hablar con ella sobre esto principalmente porque siento que mi mala salud mental ya la afecta demasiado y realmente no me gusta hacerla enojar voy al borde de llegar a la terapia pero entonces el problema de dinero golpeó a mi familia me siento desesperada y me gustaría ididn t cumplir con ella así que podría terminar sin sentirse terrible