my dad life 000 mile away from me a well a the rest of my family he s an alcoholic kind of emotional abusive and kicked me out when i wa after my mom died he said some pretty horrible thing to me when he did that but i ve blocked them out so i don t remember really he doesn t really reach out very much due to being blackout drunk off and on a lot but when he doe i get so anxious to answer his call that i don t do it and i just text him instead or don t answer i m worried it make him sad and drink more my sister ha said in the past he resents that i left them back home and moved on with my life i already feel guilty about leaving them my younger sibling so that hurt to hear it s not just my dad though i don t keep up with my grandparent anymore i m worried they re going to die they re kind of old and i m going to regret not talking to them more often mostly my grandma i regret not spending more time with my mom i have multiple younger sibling one of which is underage and ha autism i feel guilty that i don t call them brother and sister and worry that they resent me for leaving and i don t understand why it s so hard for me to just pick up the phone once a week and call these people the only person i talk to often is my sister what is wrong with me why is it so hard scary anxious for me to talk to them yet i feel so guilty by not doing so it s very tiring i know i need to go to therapy but i don t have insurance and can t really afford it also i don t keep in touch with friend which make me sad since my only friend is my partner really i am very family oriented and i love spending time with my sibling when i visit
my dad life 000 mile away from me a well a the rest of my family he s an alcoholic kind of emotional abusive and kicked me out when i wa after my mom died he said some pretty horrible thing to me when he did thatbut i ve blocked them outso i don t remember really he doesn t really reach out very much due to being blackout drunk off and on a lotbut when he doe i get so anxious to answer his call that i don t do itand i just text him instead or don t answer i m worried it make him sad and drink more my sister ha said in the past he resents that i left them back home and moved on with my life i already feel guilty about leaving them my younger sibling so that hurt to hear it s not just my dad though i don t keep up with my grandparentanymore i m worried they re going to die they re kind of oldand i m going to regret not talking to them more often mostly my grandma i regret not spending more time with my mom i have multiple younger sibling one of which is underage and ha autism i feel guilty that i don t call them brother and sister and worry that they resent me for leaving and i don t understand why it s so hard for me to just pick up the phone once a week and call these people the only person i talk to often is my sister what is wrong with me why is it so hard scary anxious for me to talk to themyet i feel so guilty by not doing so it s very tiringi know i need to go to therapybut i don t have insurance and can t really afford it also i don t keep in touch with friend which make me sad since my only friend is my partnerreally i am very family oriented and i love spending time with my sibling when i visit
mi vida de papá mil millas lejos de mí un pozo un el resto de mi familia él es un tipo alcohólico de abuso emocional y me echó cuando yo wa después de mi madre murió me dijo algo bastante horrible cuando lo hizo pero he bloqueado a cabo así que no recuerdo realmente él realmente no se extiende mucho debido a ser apagó borracho y en un lotbut cuando él hace me pongo tan ansioso por responder a su llamada que no lo hago y sólo le envío un mensaje de texto en su lugar o no me preocupa que lo hace triste y beber más mi hermana ha dicho en el pasado que se resiente que los dejé de vuelta a casa y se fue con mi vida ya me siento culpable de dejarlos mi hermano más joven así que me duele escuchar no es sólo mi padre aunque no me mantengo al día con mi abuelo nunca más me preocupa que se van a morir re clase de viejo y me voy a arrepentir de no hablar con ellos más a menudo mi abuela