from an external point of view i have the perfect life i have worked really hard my whole life i studied hard in school got scolarship for university in my late 0 making figure have a beautiful house and a caring partner but i have rarely felt happy in my life i don t remember the last time i wa genuinely happy since about year ago my mood started going really downhill and right now i am at a point where even eating or taking a shower is a chore i drag myself everyday to work and do bare minimum and now i am scared that i might lose my job but then again i can no longer force myself to do any work i feel like i have used up my energy and passion most of the night when i go to bed i fantasize about not waking up and how nice it seems i am completely empty of any feeling and feel nothing toward my partner i am taking medicine and working out at least time a week but no good i also fantasize about breaking up with my partner but i m afraid i am gon na regret it cause i will be completely alone i am so done with everything i just wan na feel some taste and color in my life again but i feel like it might never happen
from an external point of view i have the perfect life i have worked really hard my whole life i studied hard in school got scolarship for university in my late 0 making figure have a beautiful house and a caring partner but i have rarely felt happy in my life i don t remember the last time i wa genuinely happy since about year ago my mood started going really downhilland right now i am at a point where even eating or taking a shower is a chore i drag myself everyday to work and do bare minimum and now i am scared that i might lose my jobbut then again i can no longer force myself to do any work i feel like i have used up my energy and passion most of the night when i go to bed i fantasize about not waking up and how nice it seems i am completely empty of any feeling and feel nothing toward my partner i am taking medicine and working out at least time a weekbut no good i also fantasize about breaking up with my partnerbut i m afraid i am gon na regret it cause i will be completely alonei am so done with everything i just wan na feel some taste and color in my life again but i feel like it might never happen
Desde un punto de vista externo tengo la vida perfecta he trabajado muy duro toda mi vida estudié duro en la escuela consiguió escolarship para la universidad en mi tarde 0 haciendo figura tienen una casa hermosa y un socio que cuida pero he sentido raramente feliz en mi vida no recuerdo la última vez que wa genuinamente feliz desde hace aproximadamente un año mi estado de ánimo comenzó a ir realmente cuesta abajo y ahora estoy en un punto donde incluso comer o tomar una ducha es una tarea que me arrastro todos los días para trabajar y hacer mínimo y ahora tengo miedo de que pueda perder mi trabajo pero entonces de nuevo ya no puedo obligarme a hacer cualquier trabajo me siento como he utilizado mi energía y pasión la mayor parte de la noche cuando me voy a la cama fantasear sobre no despertarme y lo agradable que parece que estoy completamente vacío de cualquier sentimiento y sentir nada hacia mi pareja estoy tomando medicina y trabajando al menos una semana pero no es bueno también fantasear con romper con mi pareja pero me temo que voy a arrepentirme porque voy a estar completamente solo con todo lo que estoy haciendo con sólo sentir un poco de gusto y color en la vida pero me siento que nunca podría volver a pasar