i m terrible at articulating my thought so apology in advance let me just say up front that no plan ha been made and despite thinking about it so much i don t think i could go through with it this is just a vent piece i guess i feel like such a burden all the time i genuinely only have one real friend left and feel like my roommate co worker hate me i m anti social and awkward i don t make eye contact and i don t talk at all ever i take way too long to text back if i did km i honestly don t think anyone would know until a body wa found or over a month had passed i m just so sick of feeling like an obstacle all the time like i m always in the way or always wrong to think feel a certain way but all of this seems pretty normal i realise it s not a healthy mindset but literally everyone on earth ha trauma everyone ha their own shit they re going through and not only doe it seem like they re handling it a lot better than me but they have real problem i have friend who lost their job over the pandemic i have friend going through break ups grief or whatever and they still manage to practice their hobby and interact with their fellow man but then there s me doing literally fucking nothing all day every day after work and having the ball to feel like shit over it a if it s out of my control i feel weak willed lazy and most of all i feel like the world s biggist egomaniac for writing so much about myself a if it needed to be said thank you for reading my aimless rambling the thought were very intrusive tonight so i just needed to self depricate i guess good night everyone
i m terrible at articulating my thought so apology in advance let me just say up front that no plan ha been made and despite thinking about it so much i don t think i could go through with itthis is just a vent piece i guess i feel like such a burden all the time i genuinely only have one real friend left and feel like my roommate co worker hate mei m anti social and awkwardi don t make eye contact and i don ttalk at all ever i take way too long to text back if i didkmi honestly don t think anyone would know until a body wa found or over a month had passed i m just so sick of feeling like an obstacle all the time like i m always in the way or always wrong to think feel a certain way but all of this seems pretty normal i realise it s not a healthy mindset but literally everyone on earth ha trauma everyone ha their own shit they re going through and not only doe it seem like they re handling it a lot better than me but they have real problem i have friend who lost their job over the pandemic i have friend going through break ups grief or whateverand they still manage to practice their hobby and interact with their fellow man but then there s me doing literally fucking nothing all day every day after work and having the ball to feel like shit over it a if it s out of my control i feel weak willed lazy and most of all i feel like the world s biggist egomaniac for writing so much about myself a if it needed to be said thank you for reading my aimless rambling the thought were very intrusive tonightso i just needed to self depricatei guess good nighteveryone
Soy terrible al articular mi pensamiento así que me disculpan por adelantado permítanme decir por adelantado que no se ha hecho ningún plan y a pesar de pensar en ello tanto que no creo que podría pasar por esto es sólo una pieza de ventilación supongo que me siento como una carga todo el tiempo realmente sólo tengo un verdadero amigo y siento como mi compañero de cuarto de trabajo odian mei m anti social y torpe no hacer contacto visual y no hablar en absoluto siempre me tomo demasiado tiempo para enviar mensajes de texto de nuevo si me didkmi honestamente no creo que nadie sabría hasta que un cuerpo wa encontrado o más de un mes había pasado estoy tan enfermo de sentir como un obstáculo todo el tiempo como estoy siempre en el camino o siempre mal pensar sentir una cierta manera pero todo esto parece bastante normal me doy cuenta de que no es una mentalidad saludable pero literalmente todos en la tierra han trauma a todos tienen su propia mierda que repasan y no sólo parecen remanecer como si lo manejan mucho mejor que yo pero tienen un verdadero problema que tengo amigo que perdió su trabajo por la pandemia tengo amigos que van a través de rupturas o lo que aún manejan para practicar su hobby e interactuar con su compañero tengo amigos que tienen problemas con ellos que han perdido su trabajo por la pandemia tengo amigos que me duelen mucho o lo que me duelen